Today the inheritance division agreement was delivered. It took them 3 days to deliver it to me from Japan. I think it was pretty fast.

At night, I talked with the accountant via Zoom to get the detailed instruction. It was our 4^th meeting. It was helpful to talk with the video chat. My previous understanding of the location of Seal was wrong. It was good that I could talk to him in advance.   

Now I need to figure it out exactly how I can sign the documents, and how I should instruct Notarize office representative to put their Notary Seal.

In Japan, they use the system called 割り印 for an official document. The signers are required to put the Seal overlapping two pages. I have 3 copies of Agreements. I will need to 3 割り印 overlapping between my signature certificate and the Agreement itself. I hope I will have a helpful and flexible representative at the notary office tomorrow.

Today was another busy day.

My daughter and I went to the store to get some clothes and underwear for her. We also stopped by at pizza restaurant and the Vietnamese restaurant. I wanted to celebrate her special day with her favorite restaurant foods.

Also I needed to go to the grocery to pick up the medication that the doctor ordered yesterday. I needed to wait in the long waiting line. When it finally turned to be my turn, I was told my insurance company rejected my medication. The pharmacist was nice though. He tried to help me out. He said he would fax the detailed information to my doctor, so that the doctor could talk to the insurance company on behalf of me. Then the insurance company might approve.

It was hard to communicate with anybody with a facial mask. Our voice was muffled and we have to yell at each other to communicate. Besides, wearing a facial mask makes me irritated, hard to breath, getting even hotter in this extreme hot days.

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At night 9 p.m., I had a zoom meeting with the inheritance accountant. It was our third time to talk. With his help and support, I have started understanding my dad and my brother. I made my mind to comfortably sign the agreement document. So, today’s conversation with him was fun. I am so happy that he was chosen as our inheritance accountant. Maybe he was sent by my mom and my family spirits.

I sent three gifts to my dad. Two gifts are offering to my mom’s alter; a set of incenses and a box of cookies. The other one gift is for my dad; an already cooked mix of Matsutake gohan. My dad’s house maid informed me the two gifts are already delivered to my dad. My dad looked happy to know they were from me.

Maybe, it was just simple. My dad simply wanted to keep his money handy because he feels money will protect him. With the support of our inheritance accountant along with my late mom and family spirits, I could regain my unconditional love to my dad. I feel peace.   

It was a really busy day.

In the early morning I had a doctor’s visit through their webchat app. The new doctor assigned to me last year left the clinic already. This year a new doctor was assigned to me. The new doctor was aｎ Asian woman. She looks very young; maybe in her late 20s or early 30s. She was very nice and kind and supportive. I am so glad the clinic assigned me this doctor.

Since I am 50 years old, the doctor explained three options I can consider. The first option was Cologuard. It is a colon cancer screening that I can do at home. The company will send me a box of the test kit. I take the sample and send it back by UPS. The second option was Shingle Vaccine. The third option was Pneumonia vaccine. She was not pushy. She recommended me to do some research about them first. If I want to take it, I can call the clinic and order it. As the doctor’s advice, I will look up more information before I make my mind. I refused to take mammography and cervix cancer screening.

The doctor ordered a lab test for me this afternoon at 2 p.m., so I went to the clinic and had my blood drawn. It was my first time to visit the local clinic. At the entrance door they put a huge poster with a red mark with the big capitalized words saying STOP. It says stop entering to this building if you have high fever or cough, or any Covid-19 symptoms. When I entered the building, the same poster was attached in every single door to each room. It was good for them to perform such a strict protocol in order to prevent spreading the virus in the community.

I am glad I could finally have a lab test. I really hope I will have good results in my lab test in each test items.

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At the early afternoon, my daughter had a benchmark test. The test was performed online at their live lesson room, and the homeroom teacher proctored the students through webcam. Unfortunately for my daughter, the server kept on frozen the question screen. Every time she answered the question and tried to submit the answer, it frozen. The teacher was dealing with 50 students in the small screens so it was slow for her to fix the issue for my daughter.

My daughter needed to sit in front of the computer screen for more than two hours to complete the benchmark test.

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After the benchmark test, we went to the local library. We had an appointment with the library director. My daughter won the first prize for the summer reading program. The director wanted my daughter to come there to celebrate her first prize. There, my daughter received a packet of awards. There were small toys, a small notebook, and the award certificate. The biggest gift was a Walmart gift card. They didn’t know the amount. At home we checked the available amount of the gift card. It was a $75 gift card. We were surprised on how high the amount was. We appreciate their award.

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At night from 9 p.m. to 11 p.m., I was planning to attend at the Mantra class. But the school office informed me that I was the only one student and they needed to cancel the class. I was looking forward to the class, but at the same time, I was happy for the class cancellation. Because these past some days, I was dealing with the inheritance discussion with my accountant and I was exhausted. I needed a good rest and sleep. I can go to bed earlier than usual tonight.

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Right before we went to bed, my daughter found she just had her first period. It was an Aha-moment. Maybe it was my family spirits’ support to have canceled my tonight’s class, so that I could stay with my daughter.

She got shocked and cried. I understand how she feels. We both understand that having a first period is a blessing, but at the same time, it is shocking to know she has already crossed the line from childhood to adulthood in physical body. I stayed with her and calmed her down. I was glad to be able to spend time together with her at this special moment in her life. Congratulations to my daughter. Dear my daughter’s family spirits, thank you for supporting her and watching over her all the time. Please keep supporting her and protecting her. She is nice and kind. She is very sacred and holy to me. I wish all the best for her, from the bottom of my heart.  

In the morning I noticed an email from the accountant. He told me a shocking news regarding the Japanese post office’s new policy amid Covid-19.

When he went to the post office with the document yesterday, he was informed the Japanese post office does not accept any letters and packages sending from Japan to America. He was planning to send the document via EMS, but it is not available. I mentioned him about SAL; a small packet to international mails and packages. He said it was also not available. Only one option available for him was to send it via ship that will take 2-3 months to be delivered.

Thus, my inheritance accountant needed to send the documents through UPS. He needed to go to the UPS store that is located 1 hour away from his office. The UPS fee costs about 70 dollars that is a double price of the EMS envelop of Japan post office. The UPS people told the accountant that the document packet would be delivered to me in America in 1 day. I doubt it. Maybe it would take at least 3-4 days.

At night 9 p.m., I had a Zoom meeting with the inheritance accountant. It was our second meeting. Our first meeting was done through LINE phone conversation. This time on our second meeting, the accountant wanted to have a Zoom meeting so that we can see our faces.

It was beneficial on talking through Zoom by watching our faces, rather than talking on phone calls or exchanging emails. Our conversation went well and smooth. I explained my good reasons why I don’t feel comfortable in sighing the Agreement. He explained my dad’s good reasons why he wants to keep all to himself.

While I was listening to the account about my dad, I realized my anger toward my dad started melting away. My dad feels lonely and is overwhelmed by anxiety. He believes only money can protect him. Even though he has a huge amount of money, and that is enough to share it with my brother and me, he worries about money. Now I finally realized his perspective toward money and mine are totally different. How much I try to talk into my dad to understand my perspective, he will never understand. Even though I don’t understand his perspective and I don’t agree with his opinion, my compassion toward my dad overcame my anger toward him.

I told the accountant I would sign the agreement. He said he would arrange to send it within today.

Right before our conversation, the accountant mentioned about what my dad said. He felt sad for my not sending any offering to my mom’s alter during the Obon. I gasped. I almost forgot about Japanese traditional customs. Japanese people put a heavy value on the first Obon when soemboyd passed away. Aright after my mom passed away, I asked my dad if I am supposed to pay any cash to support the funeral or to send any offering to her alter. My dad at that time said I am her immediate family so I don’t need to worry about any of those. So, I got rid of all my concerns about sending offerings to my mom’s alter.  

I thanked my accountant and ended the conversation. It was already close to 10 p.m., but I started searching about the offering gifts for the first Obon. I learned the incents and some sweets like cookies are the best options. I arranged to send three gifts to my dad. By the time when everything was done, it was already past midnight.

I was feeling good that I have chosen the peaceful option, which was to sign the agreement and walk away.

Today’s dream: I was at the upstream of Ganges River. The water level was shallow, maybe just 10 cm (4 inch) high from the riverbed. I saw a black cow. The cow looked healthy from the shining color of skin and well-fleshed body. The cow was dead and lay down on the riverbed, though. Then I woke up.

I concerned about the message from this dream. I looked the meaning up through the online dream interpretation dictionaries. The messages should be something like these.

A dead cow in a dream warns the dreamer to pay attention to their wordings and actions. Since a cow represents a big fortune and the cow was dead, the dreamer might lose the opportunity to acquire a big fortune. Also this dream might simply reflects the dreamer’s state of mind that the dreamer already might have experienced some tragedies feeling devastated.

I felt this dream came to warn me for not fight against my dad. Also, this dream came to show me the ending. I will walk away without a fortune.

By this time, I was already exhausted and worn out from huge amount of stresses on dealing with my dad. I just eager to regain my peaceful days. I don’t like arguing or hating somebody. I love peace.

Today August 15 is the anniversary of the end of World War II in Japan. This year 2020 marks 75^th anniversary. 

I pray for our ancestors who went through the tough life during the war that their souls are now completely healed. I appreciate them to have shown us the importance of world peace. I pray from my heart that we will maintain the world peace and we will make a better world by doing our life missions.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of HemiSync Five questions. This meditation was soothing. I felt my family spirits’ support and love. I appreciate them for their unconditional and continuous love. They always make me happy and keep me going. The messages were like this.

I asked about my guide spirits. My son in spirit, Daigo, is still with me supporting me. My maternal late aunt, Toshiko obachan, used to be one of my guide spirits, but she is not with me anymore. She was reincarnated somewhere. In return, my maternal grandma, Fude Obaachan, and grandpa, Shintaro Ojiichan, came close to me and they are strongly supporting me. My mom, Hiroko Kaachan, is not my guide spirit, so she is not with me all the time. However, she comes and checks on me from time to time. My paternal grandma, Shizu Obaachan, has come close to me in order to support my spiritual awareness. Two of my grandmas, maternal side and paternal side, are both spiritual and supporting me to brush up my clairvoyant ability.

I asked my mom if she still loves me and supports me. I felt strong YES from her. I also asked her if my dad was wrong in saying my mom was mad at me in February this year right after my visit to my mom. She sent me a block of thoughts that I should not worry about it, because my dad mixed up his memory of their visit us in Las Vegas in 2010. My dad has a hard time to organize his memories in the linear timeline due to dementia and old age.

As for the inheritance sharing, my family spirits don’t me to walk away; rather, they want me to pursue my lawful right. I asked my mom the same question. I felt her energy encouraging me to pursue my right. She doesn’t want me to give up or walk away.

I asked about my dad. I asked if my dad and I had any bad relationship in our past lives and that is the reason why he is reacting badly to me at this moment. I felt strong NO from my family spirits. I felt my dad and I didn’t have any close relationship in our past lives. The reason why my dad treats me in a mean way is just because he is lonely and sad about living alone suffering from his bad health. The only one reason why he snaps out his frustration and anger to me is because I am the only one whom he can open up his true face. He is just acting like a small child asking for unconditional care from a mother. That being said, I need to protect my energy in order to maintain my inner peace. My family spirits told me not to get affected by my dad constantly. Keep the sacred boundary from him.

I felt he would live for three more years until 2023. I felt sorry for him that he will have to live alone with this condition. I felt this is his life plan so that he can repay his karma.

My last question was about my brother. I felt after my dad’s departure in 2023, my brother and I will be reconnected. We will get back to our good relationship just like we shared in our childhood days. My family spirits told me not to worry about the current relationship with him. They assured me it would get better for sure. My dad and my brother brought back some promises to repay karma from their past lives. They are so occupied with the tough tribulations. All I can do is to send love to them. Once they clear all the to-do list items, everything will start going smoothly and peacefully.    

I really enjoyed today’s meditation. For two days straight yesterday and the day before yesterday, I didn’t receive any messages. But today I got lots of messages.

Today’s dream: Two huge brown snakes came to me and bit me in the back. I woke up uncomfortably.

The dream interpretation dictionary says getting bitten by a huge snake indicates the dreamer is in the trouble in a human relation. I think my dream reflects my stress dealing with my dad regarding the inheritance division. All I need right now is to discuss peacefully with my dad. I hate arguing and hurting each other.

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Today was the last day of the lunch delivery. From this coming Monday, the school will start, so that the meal will be available only for the public school students who has the school ID.

I appreciate their support for delivering the meal for these past five months from the middle of March to the middle of August.

Last night at 9 p.m., I talked to the inheritance accountant. I told him I don’t feel comfortable to sign the agreement document. We made another meeting to discuss about the other options tonight at the same time.

Two hours before our second meeting, my phone rang. It was from my dad.

I hesitated to answer the phone. It will make the situation worse if the interested parties who are dealing with disagreement speak directly. I could have ignored the phone call from my dad. But I could not ignore. He is my dad anyway. Before I picked up the phone, I said a quick prayer to my family spirits.

I answered the phone. My dad was already irritated from the beginning. He yelled at me about my turned down to sign the document. I told him my reasons why I don’t feel comfortable to sign the agreement.

Then, he lost his temper. He started saying this and that. What he hurt me the most was about my mom.

He said my mom was so mad at me after I went back to America this January. I doubted my ears about what I just heard from my dad. I asked him back was it this trip. He said he was sure it was this trip, right before she passed away.

I could not hold my tears. I thought I spent a great time with my late mom in this January. I never did anything bad to make my mom mad at me. But my dad could be right, because my mom yelled at me even while I was just helping her in January. Once in a while, she lost her temper to me. Maybe because of the side effect of her strong pain killer medicine.

My dad added nasty words to me from his anger. He yelled at me to return all the money that my mom had given me long time ago. Some of them were the birthday gift to me and my daughter. My mom would not say such stingy things to me. Since my dad was furious about my refused to sign, he said all kinds of nasty things to me.

I needed to tell him politely that I don’t want to keep hearing his complains anymore. Then I hang up the phone.

I talked to my husband about what just happened. First, he told me to contact the inheritance accountant to reschedule tonight’s meeting. I was already devastated that I would not be able to talk. Then, he told me not to take it seriously about whatever my dad yelled at me on tonight’s phone call. He might lost his mind from his anger. My husband didn’t believe what my dad said about my mom. My husband assured that my mom appreciated my visit in January. She loved me while she was alive, and still loves me in spirit. My husband’s kind words really soothed me.

I just wished I could talk to my mom directly. I miss her so much.

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Before I fell asleep, I meditated. In my inner peace, I understood clearly. My dad lost his memory and talked about the big argument between my mom and me at Las Vegas in 2010. Due to the old age, his memory mixed up. He probably thought it just happened in this year, but in reality, it happened in 2010. My mom and I had a good time in January. In my meditated status, I felt love from my family spirits, including my mom. They told me not to easily get affected by other people’s saying. People may lose memory or say something mean. As long as I stand firmly in my inner peace, I can let the people’s bad intentions go.

Today my daughter had her first live lesson at homeschooling website. When I took a peak, there were about 50 students in the live lesson room.

It lasted about 1.5 hour. The teacher asked questions and the students raised hands through the icon.

After the live lesson, my daughter told me it was fun to see other classmates, but the same time, it was draining a little bit. I know how she feels.

Their server had issues from time to time. It froze during the session many times. As the school faculty mentioned, they are having a huge number of students this year. Their server still needs to fix here and there to accept such a huge number of students.

I wonder how the public school is doing. I heard about one third students have chosen the in-school options. The other two thirds students have chosen the other options of the hybrid (in-school and remote) or the totally remote.