Integration of outer and inner self 4/6/2025

In the evening, I chatted with my friend via zoom. I was planning to chat with her only within an hour, but our conversation ended to have more than 2.5 hours. My friend patiently listened to my story and I could shed lots of tears in front of her. I appreciate her to share her precious time with me.

My biofeedback software gave me a message that I have been having a issue of bipolar. I have been suffering from showing my calm side and keeping my anger toward my brother inside, which I cannot express the anger to anybody else.

Adjusting is tough 4/3/2025

We still have cold temperature so that we wear a winter heavy jacket to go walk. I run into my neighbor friend while walking. He was taking a walk of the dog that used to belong to our common friend who recently passed away. The late friend was very nice and patient to her dog. Her dog is getting old and cannot walk fast. Now that the nice owner passed away, her friend took over her dog and is having a tough time to take care of the old dog. I heard the friend scolding and yelling at the old dog for his not walking fast. It will be tough for both of the friend and the dog to adjust a new life without the kind friend. Hopefully both of then get used to the new life and adjust to each other to find a peaceful adjustment.

My favorite librarian’s resignation 4/2/2025

I was informed my favorite librarian is going to resign the job position. She has been very nice to me and my family all the time. Since she loves teaching kids, she volunteers teaching a science class, an electric class, and a coding class to younger kids at the library. My daughter had attended her classes for years. I will miss her being at the library. I wish her for spending a wonderful retirement life at her house.

Bromeliad plant came to our house 3/31/2025

I purchased a bromeliad plant. I saw this plant in the store and passed by it first. Then I kept on thinking about this plant during shopping. Right after I finished paying, I went back to the plant. This time I could not resist buying it. 

Our tax return refund money came in to our bank account. Previous years it took 18 days. This year they only took 10 days from the submit day to the refund arrival day.

My late dad’s desire 3/30/2025

My guess regarding the computer server down was right. They were somewhat due to the partial eclipse that the internet servers had issues. Once it was done, the server issues were solved and back to normal this morning.

I woke up at 3:18 am this morning and got up in order to attend the seminar presented by my palmistry teacher. Some information was new and helpful. The teacher insisted the attendees to take some actions to offer people their services. He introduced the song creation app SUNO. He also suggested publishing books through Kindle. Even if you publish your books for free of charge to the Kindle members, as long as the audience take a look of the first couple of pages, you will get some money for it, which I didn’t know.

Since my late dad’s departure, I never had a dream of him. This morning, we came to see me in my dream. My late dad didn’t say a word to me, but he seems to be shocked. I understood his feeling. He was shocked and surprised to see the current situation where my brother claims all our late dad’s inheritance should belong to my brother. My dad came to me to express his true desire that he wants both of us, my brother and myself, to share his inheritance equally as he loves us both equally. Thank you, Dad, for visiting me. I will do my best with the support of my attorney and my family spirits to end this case peacefully by receiving equally in a fair matter.

Partial eclipse 3/29/2025

The website server has been down in my Japanese homeopathy school since this past Thursday. They sent me a notice email twice that the issue was fixed, but still, I cannot log in the student webpage. My daughter’s school had the similar issue. Their server was down for unknown reason. I feel these are somewhat due to the partial eclipse. If so, these issues should be solved by tomorrow morning.

Missing my friend 3/28/2025

One day has passed since my friend’s departure. Since she was my neighbor, I still see her car parked at the parking lot. I run into her cousin and best friend in front of her house. Her best friend took over her dog, which made me feel relieved. They mentioned about her service that will take place on April 12that her church.