At 9 p.m., I attended my fourth mediumship class. There were nine students attended.

At the guided meditation, my guide spirit appeared in a Chinese man figure. I felt this figure was one of my past lives. I was working as a diplomat to connect with other foreign countries. My guide spirit gave me a statue of a golden phoenix. It means “it is not too late.” My original strong point is to connect people. I am good at communicating and connecting people.

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For the first practice, we did an inspirational writing. The instructor introduced one Japanese website where anybody can post their concern, and anybody can give some advice to the person. We used one of the concerns somebody posted. We were told to connect with our guide spirits and receive any messages to the person.

It was the concern from one mother who does not have any close friends and worries about the situation. I received the messages like this.

Human connection is similar to the tide flow. Everybody experiences the period when many people come to you and the period when hardly nobody is around you.

There are some people who don’t want to be alone so that they don’t express true themselves just to adjust with others. In this case however, they don’t match up with true themselves and their actions, and the energetic discrepancy creates uncomfortable energy flow. The people are attracted to the unmatched and uncomfortable energy, so that they cannot build a true human relationship.

The true friends will be attracted to you when you match true yourself and actions. When you match your energy inside and outside, you can create comfortable energy, and the comfortable energy attracts the similar comfortable energy.

Also, your true friends can be in your family members or siblings. It can be your spouse or children. True friends can be found in every human relationship. After you have built a great relationship within you, it will be revealed by itself.

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For the second practice, the instructor showed us a blank envelope. She put one card which shows one historical celebrity’s name. She told us to read the energy of the person and describe the personality and its energy.

I felt it was Hideyoshi Toyotomi and felt the male energy, but I was wrong. The answer was Himiko.

This morning while I was taking a walk in the neighborhood area, I notice two big stains on the asphalted road. My husband confirmed they were blood stains. At that time we didn’t know what happened. Since the blood stains looked still fresh, something happened yesterday.

In the afternoon one of our friends came over to us. She wanted to make sure we were safe. Then she told me what happened in our neighborhood yesterday.

Yesterday late evening, one of her friend walked his Boxer dog. They were followed by two unleashed pit bull dogs. The owner of the pit bull dogs was trying to catch his dogs but he could not catch up with them.

The two pit bull dogs were teasing the boxer dog and his owner by lightly biting them by their but area and lower arm. By the time they reached at the edge of the street, the boxer dog’s owner was successful to calm the two pit pill dogs, so that the two pit bull dogs were happily wagging their tails. Then, the owner of the two pit bull dogs finally caught up with his dogs. He was so furious to his two pit bull dogs that he yelled at the dogs and kicked their butts harshly.

That turned on the two pit bull dogs. They bit their owner by his butt and he bled heavily. The owner of the boxer dog tried to get rid the pit bull dogs from their injured owner but the two pit bull dogs were furious that they attached the owner of the boxer dog. That turned the boxer dog on and the boxer dog started fighting with the two pit bull dogs in order to protect his owner. The other three male adults happened to witness and they all tried to stop the fight and they all ended up getting bitten by the three angry dogs.

By the time the several authorities arrived, the three dogs and five male adults were severely injured.

The police put down the two pit bulls. The boxer dog had a surgery and is still suffering from the severe injuries. One of the five people broke his right finger bone and others are still in pain.

Personally I feel sorry for the two pit bull dogs. I had witnessed their owner could not handle his dogs. Every time when they walked, the two dogs were out of his control. If the owner trained the pit bull dogs properly with love, the dogs would’ve never gone that far.  

Today’s dream: I was in Japan with my Japanese family. I was signing the documents regarding my dad’s company resignation.

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In the morning I made my homemade Makgeolli. I mixed 6-Gou of steamed sweet rice, 453 gram of Mugi kouji (nuruk), and 3 little of filtered water. I mixed it every morning and evening for five days. On the sixth day, on February 1^st, I separated the liquid and Sake-kasu by squeezing it with a cheese cloth. I am not sure it was successful or not. I realized I never drank the real Makgeolli before. I don’t know if my homemade one is done well or not. It tastes okay and smells good with fermented fragrance, but I don’t taste alcohol at all.  

At 9 p.m., I attended my seventh Mantra class. There were eight students attended.

An interesting synchronicity occurred. One of the mantra teaches us to pay attention to what we see, hear, and think. It teaches to make efforts to see, hear, and think only precious and positive things. This teaching resonates with me. I just experienced my energy drained when I read one of my friends’ text message. She sent me a very, very long text messages that was full of negative energies. It was nothing to do with me but it was her complains about her coworkers.

She is five years older than I. I wonder why she doesn’t know the basic manner. Nobody wants to spend their precious time on reading somebody’s complains. She often does this to me. I thought I should ask her to stop doing this to me. I meditated on how I can gently ask her to stop this. With my heart got fully peaceful state, I asked her to stop sending me the negative complains through the cell phone text.

Sadly I don’t think she completely understand. She did apologize but she also added a whole bunch of excuses. She doesn’t mind to listen or read her friends’ complains. I wanted to reply back to her, but I stopped. It will make the situation worse. Instead, I just simply replied back to her by writing something nice.

Everybody has their own timing to fully realize how awful to use your friend or family member to dump their negative energies.   

In the evening we were informed my dad-in-law was finally discharged from the hospital. Although we don’t know in details how he was doing, we are all happy for him to be finally able to be back home. He must have been missing his home after 12 days hospitalization.

It was a very cold day. We don’t have a cold day often; it was one of the rare days in our area. The rain switched into snow since late evening. We enjoyed the rare snow for us.

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Today’s dream: I was at Navajoland with my family; my husband, daughter, and my in-laws. We already set up our retreat center in our homesite. We were hosting seven tour customers from Japan. Our customers were all smiling and enjoying the healing energy from Navajoland. My husband picked up one of my in-laws’ dogs whose name is Happy, and he noticed he got lots of her poop in his both hands. Then I woke up. I know it is a good dream including the ending part.

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My dad-in-law was scheduled to be discharged from the hospital today, but it didn’t happen. The hospital decided to keep him a little longer.

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My family and I have a group of neighbor friends. One of them; an old man, was diagnosed as dementia several years ago. Even after the diagnosis, he has been living alone in an apartment. In recent years, his dementia conditions got worse and worse. He has started wandering around all by himself without knowing where he was going. Our friends needed to go search him here and there. They found him walking in the side of freeway which the speed limit is 65 mph. He didn’t have anything with him to identify him. Finally he was accepted by the facility for dementia people where the staff members are available for 24/7. Today was his moving day. It was sad to see him off. It was also hard for me to stay cool. I was thinking of my parents. It is sad to see the aging process. We all go through the process in turn. When my turn comes, I want to live my life to the most until my very last day without any regrets.

I have heard goat milk tastes like human’s breast milk. I have always wanted to try, but didn’t have an opportunity during the conversation of last night with my mom-in-law, she mentioned about goat cheese. She recently tried it and liked it very much.

This morning when I was in the grocery store, I purchased them.

At home I tried them with my husband and daughter. It was very first time for us to try them. Three of us liked the goat cheese, but not goat milk. I could smell animal in the milk.

Even though we didn’t like them very much, we did enjoy eating them for our first time. Now we know we are not going to purchase them again.  

Today’s dream was very interesting. I shaved my hair and became bold like a monk. I truly enjoyed the process of shaving my hair. I cannot explain in words on how excited I was. Then I woke up. The first thing I did was to touch my hair. I felt my hair and experienced both opposite feeling of relieved and disappointed. I was relieved that I still have my hair left, and I was disappointed that I was not bold.

I thought it interesting. What if I take an action and do it? Are my family upset with me? Maybe. Maybe not. They might be fine with my decision. One of these days, I will make it happen while I am still young and healthy on this lifetime.

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In the evening I helped my daughter and my mom-in-law to set up their zoom meeting. They were happy to see each other in the computer screen. They happily had a fun conversation for two hours.

After my mom passed away, I have been frequently humming one song. The lilac of the song is “I am waiting for you.” This is an old song so as the singer was. This morning all of a sudden I realized this song is coming from my late mom. I got that right. When I looked this song up in the internet, it shows the song was released and became popular in 1973. It cannot be from my memory because I was three years old when this song got popular. My mom keeps sending me this song to let me know my mom has been watching over my dad and waiting for him to her place.

In the late afternoon, an interesting synchronicity occurred. My daughter naturally brought me one picture book and asked me to read. I busted into laughter. It was a story of one girl and one boy at the kindergarten. The boy’s name is the same as that of my dad. The little girl and the little boy were good friends and often played together. On the Tanabata Day; July 7^th, the students at the kindergarten learned how to make a decoration ribbon out of Origami papers. The little girl made a whole bunch of the pretty ribbons. The little boy played with the ribbons and broke them. The little girl got sad. The little boy was sad too, because he never thought he would broke her ribbons and make her sad. The teacher advised the little boy to write down his wish on a strip of paper. So he wrote down he wished to be able to play with the little girl again. The little girl was watching the little boy. By that time, she already forgave the little boy and she also wished to play with him again. So, she wrote her wish of playing with him again on a strip of paper and tied it to the next to the little boy’s wish strip paper.

After I read this story, I realized how my mom thinks of my dad. Even though my dad did a lot of bad things to my mom, my mom already forgave my dad. Rather my mom always loves my dad and waits for him to stay together.

I appreciate my mom to make these synchronies happen to inform her feeling. It is always good to know that your parents love each other.   

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My dad-in-law was schedule to get discharged from the hospital today, but it didn’t happen. The doctor noticed his leg got swollen back and they operated a surgery again. There they found another infected area was created in his leg. The doctor decided to keep my dad-in-law for another week to keep checking on the inside condition of his leg. I hope he will get discharged with his completely healed leg soon.  

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My husband and daughter went to eat out at the steak house restaurant. I am not a big fan of eating at a restaurant, so I let them go alone. On their way back, they purchased me a family size of sushi pack from my friends’ store. I appreciate their kind thought.

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I purchased an online lecture of Chinese medicine.

Based on the test, my result was like this.

A. 気虚 – 0

B．血虚 – 1

C. 陰虚 – 2

D. 陽虚 – 2

E. 気滞 – 4

F. 瘀血（おけつ） – 3

G. 痰湿 – 5

H. 湿熱 – 2

Based on my intuition, regardless of the test result, I think I am the type F and should work on fixing these traits in order to resolve my good health.

Today’s dream: I was busy packing in my two huge suitcases. Then I woke up. The dream interpretation dictionary says packing in a suitcase means an encounter with new people, a moving to a new area, or starting a new career.

Later in the afternoon my daughter told me she got an inspiration of our moving in six months. I hate moving but deep inside of me, I am looking forward to our moving to a new area. Possibility it will be in Navajoland.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of Japanese Mediumship School.

My guide spirit appeared in a Native American male warrior figure as always.

For the year of 2021, he gave me a kinugoshi tofu. It contained many messages. The first message is that I will need to intake more vegetable protein rather than animal meats. Recently I have been losing interests in eating animal meats, so it resonated with me. The second message is to become like a kinugoshi tofu. Kinugoshi Tofu provides us vegetable protein which is one of the essential nutrition in our body. It can be the main food or the great supporter for the other ingredients. It can play any roles depending on a situation. The third message is to become somebody whom everybody knows and appreciates.

As for the question for humans to do in this year, I received a message like this.

It is time for all the humans to be unique. Many humans had been influenced by a small number of leaders and just simply copy what they have told them to do. Rather, in this year, spirits want humans to be aware of their individual and unique gifs and share them with others.