Nowadays I have been clearly remembering my dream. It is good for me and I have been enjoying it.

My brother visited me in dream this morning. He was much friendlier and happier than in the real life. We talked about our inheritance share. I offered him to take all the three real estates to himself as a thank-you for his hard work taking care of our parents’ grave, but I still want to receive my share of 50% of the remainder part. He happily accepted my offer and agreed with me. The procedure of dividing inheritance went smoothly and comfortably. With my brother’s support, it was not an issue at all.

Then my conscious came back to my physical body.

I believe my brother being cheerful and helpful that I saw in my dream is his true self. My brother in the real life who is not friendly nor happy is just not true. I hope my brother will regain his true self in the physical realm soon so that the gap between in my dream and in the physical realm will be gone.

This morning’s dream: I was at my parents’ house cerebrating something together with our relatives. Among the relatives, there were even some people already passed away such as my aunts and their husbands, and my mom. Everybody looked happy. We shared foods and great time chatting.

After I woke up, I thought it was my mom who sent me the memory. She misses those days when we gathered together while we all were still young and alive.

***

In the night right before we fell asleep, my daughter helped me understand this dream. My daughter saw my mom close to the ceiling and waived at us. It has been almost three months since her departure. According to my daughter, day by day, her image figure has been fading. Tonight she came to us to say good-bye. She has to go up and get ready for her new life.

We wished her good luck and sent her lots of our love.

All of the good memories of my mom flooded back to me. I could not stop my tears falling down on my cheeks. One thing that still bothers me is about our visit my parents in March 2019. I was too scared to stay nights at my parents’ house, so I reserved a hotel that is one hour away from their house. They asked me many times why I didn’t stay nights at their house. I could not tell them the true reasons because I didn’t want to hurt their feelings. One reason is about my mom. My mom and I didn’t get along with each other, and we always ended up with arguing. I didn’t have confidence in myself to stay calm if I stay at my parents’ house for many nights. Another reason is about my dad’s smoking a cigarette inside the house. My parents seemed very sad for my staying at a hotel rather than at their house.

I still think it was my best option that I could do at that time. I just feel sad that my mom and I had spent many years, in fact the majority of years, for not getting along with. I really wish we had been getting along with so that we could spend our years much nicer. My tears are for the grievances that we could not spend many years as good friends.

All in all, at the last moment with my mom, I wanted to tell her how much I loved her. I had missed her for many years. I wish her good luck and successful life in her spiritual homeland. Thank you so much mom, for your support and love to me.

My daughter woke up crying. She was actually shedding lots of tears on her cheeks.

Her dream was about the school. In her dream it was already in August, and she went back to school. There at the classroom, her classmates were not nice to her. She didn’t enjoy her school life in the same school.

She has gone to the local public school for 5 years so far. In this area, due to the military post, many soldiers and their families often move in and out from this area. Thus, she already went through sad farewells from her best friends in the previous years. In the recent two years, she didn’t have any steady friends in her class. She had survived with hanging out with different classmates.

Interestingly, in last night’s reading session from a 13-year-old-girl, the message for my daughter was to switch her school from public school to homeschooling. The girl insisted on me to take this message very seriously.

I guess this is the right timing to switch school for my daughter.

This evening I had a 30-minute reading session about our guide spirits. The reader was a daughter of the Japanese healer that I had an aura cleaning session twice. Her daughter is 13 years old. She offers a brief reading session. She had a reading for my family individually within this brief 30 minutes.    

The reading content did not go deep at all. It was like a touching on the surface only.

However, I liked this young girl. She was brave enough to give a reading to strangers like us. She does not care how her client would feel about what she says. She just said whatever she saw in her third eye.

As for the message to me, she pointed out that I have low self-esteem. It was kind of funny that she said that to me straightforward without hesitation. She encouraged me to do the same as she does; to give it a try. She said I should give a reading session to many strangers to practice. She got to the point.

As a thank-you to her, I sent her a small gift. I sent her an angle card deck for children. I hope she will love it.

After the session of guide spirits, I have been thinking about publishing my book. It won’t hurt to publish through Amazon kindle as a starter. I have decided to make it happen within this year.

Dear my family spirits, thank you for your supports always. I need to have the necessary supporters for publishing my books, including a skillful editor. I also need to have the necessary supporters for a Navajo retreat tour, including trustworthy business partners and customers.

This morning I had two dreams.

In my first dream, I was swimming at the bottom of the ocean. The bottom of the ocean was much brighter and calmer than I thought. There were many beautiful fish around me swimming with me. I could swim much smoothly than I thought. I didn’t feel any heavy weight on my body even though it was the deepest in the ocean. I felt excited and happy. I was swimming with my family; my husband and daughter. We all were smiling.

***

In my second dream, my conscious traveled to another and place. I was with my dad at his house in Japan. He asked me to come to his house at 11 a.m. I forgot setting an alarm so I could not wake up as I planned. I somewhat made it by 11 a.m. Even though I didn’t arrive beforehand, I arrived on time anyway. My dad was not mad at me. He was calmly smiling at me.

***

Then I woke up. I thought these are good dreams. In my conscious level, I constantly feel guilty for not calling or visiting my dad. But this dream confirms that I will make it on time. When the right timing has come, I will make everything well for my dad and me.

Several months ago in last autumn, my friend gave me a brand new gardening bed. I kept it in our garage until spring. I had been waiting for the good timing to start our home gardening. Now it is a good time for us to start our garden.

My family and I went to the DIY store. As a starter, we bought as follows.

– Seven bag of “1-cu ft Garden Soil,

– One roll of a garden fence,

– Five plants; jalapeno, lettuce, tomato, okra, and parsley.

– Seven seeds: cucumber, eggplant, corn, tomato, bell pepper, peas, and radish  

After we came back from shopping, we assembled the garden bed and filed the garden soil. In order to prevent cats’ visits, we assembled a garden fence around the garden.

My husband and daughter have green thumbs. Whenever they were around, our garden grew nicely in previous years. We had a successful garden experiences in 2009 and 2014. We didn’t make our garden every year, because we were simply too busy to do so. This year, we will put our time to grow our vegetables.

I hope they will grow healthy and we will enjoy the harvest.

This evening I reconnected with my other old friend from the Lakota tour. I became friends with her and kept in touch with her after came back from the tour. She lived far from my house, but she even visited me in my condominium and stayed one night. We lost contact for these 12 years, but tonight we had a wonderful conversation through Zoom.

The conversation with my old friends helped me to retreat my confidence back.

It was really great talking with her and reconnecting with her. We promised to visit each other. My daughter and I might visit her in Kyushu, then she will show us around her local area. Or, she will visit us in Arizona so that we can show her around in our local area. I am already looking forward to seeing her in person again. I can clearly visualize it, so it will definitely make it happen.

In my dream of this morning, I was with my Japanese family. My mom was driving a gigantic huge bus. My brother was a passenger inside the bus. I was not a passenger. I was running in front of the bus, guiding my mom on the direction. I got rid of any obstacles on the road so that the bus would not get damaged or troubled. I was a great supporter for the bus, but unfortunately nobody noticed my hard work.

When the bus reached at the final destination, my brother got out from the bus and gave me a handful of pencils. I was not happy for the gift. I expected more from him for my hard work. I expected him to say “thank-you” to me, but he didn’t show his appreciation to me.

My dad was not in the bus. He was standing at the destination. He found me and came up to me. Then, he shot me in my right thigh with his gun. I didn’t die. I didn’t feel any pain. My dad was smiling. I asked him why he did so. He said he did to support me. I didn’t understand what he meant.

***

It was unusual dream. My mom, in the real life, never drove any vehicles. She never had a driver’s license. She never even rode a bicycle. But in the dream, she was very good at driving such a huge bus. According to the dream interpretation, the ability of being able to driving a huge bus represents a great leadership. It makes sense to me. One of my mom’s strong points were being a great leadership. She was good at leading people and bundling them in one group. I was supporting my mom, by secretly supporting her mentally.   

As for being shot by a gun by Father, the dream interpretation dictionary says the dream warns the dreamer of lacking communication with their family members. This dream also indicates the dreamer has been suffering from some traumas from Father in their childhood. The traumas could be the father’s ordering this and that in their childhood.

It seems that the dream simply reflects my inner-traumas.

All in all I think I am still in the recovering and grieving process of losing my mom.

It was a hot day. We experienced the electricity outage for three hours in the middle of the day. It was terrible, and we were so glad once it was fixed and got back to normal. I am thankful for electricity.

***

When I woke up, I thought of my old friend. We attended at the same tour. I attended as a hired interpreter and she was a customer. Since last year, I had seen her account as my Facebook friend recommendation list. But her family name was different from what I remembered. So I hesitated to contact her until today. But this morning, with the strong urge feeling, I thought I should take courage and send her a friend request. So I did.

Just some seconds after I sent her a friend request, I saw a notice that she already accepted my friend’s request.

I sent her a message and she replied back. After we exchanged some messages, we decided to talk on Skype.

It was great to be able to reconnect with her. During the tour in 2007, I became friends with her. I liked her very much. After the tour, I even visited her house and stayed one night at her house. Since then, I was too busy on my personal life journey and we lost contact.

She was the same way. She was busy with her personal life journey. She came to Arizona alone and traveled around Hopi-land, Navajo-land, and Sedona. She said it was in November 2010. In the same time, my family and I went back to Japan for two weeks. We would not be able to see each other anyway.

She got divorced from her husband and now she lives in Okinawa with her teacher job.

It was very nice reconnecting with her and catching up with her.  

In my dream of this morning, I was surrounded by white snow. It was quiet and solemn. I enjoyed healing from these pure snow energy.

On the next scenery, I was inside the mountain cabin. I was surrounded by a whole bunch of gift boxes. There were close to 100 boxes. Each box was nicely decorated with a gift wrapping paper and a colorful ribbon. Each box also had a small message card attached onto the surface of the box. It was fun to open each gift box. The contents were a variety of items. They were fluffy towels, high quality beef steaks, and other variety of my favorite foods such as candies, snacks, ice cream corns with whipped cream toppings, toys, and stuffed animals.

When my conscious came back from my dream world to my physical body, I considered the gifts were from my family spirits. They represented their pure love to me to show how much they love me.

I always appreciate them to be with me.  

*** 

This morning at 10 a.m., I had a reading session appointment with one female clairvoyant.

Before I mention about the reading session, here is the background story.

There is a small town where is one drive away from my house. The place is called a new age people’s town. They have a non-profit organization called alternative clinic, where healers offer their spiritual healing work and session for free-of –charge every three months. They don’t take any appointment. Instead, they take their policy of First-come, first-served (FCFS). I went there maybe three times or so. Every time I needed to wait in front of the receptionist desk for my turn. I didn’t like the waiting with many other people, so I had stopped going there. I think the last time I went there was sometime in 2016.

Last week, I saw their Facebook announcement. Due to this social distancing, they decided to offer their services remotely, either online or phone calls. They will take an appointment this time. This is their first trial of offering a remote service. I was delightful about their announcement. With this remote service, I won’t need to drive down there and wait for my turn with a whole bunch of strangers for a long time. So, I requested an appointment for an intuitive reading session. The reception person set up the appointment time for me as 10 a.m. She said the healing practitioner will call me on my phone at 10 a.m. So far so good. I was excited about the reading session. At the ending of the conversation with the receptionist, I casually asked the practitioner’s name. She told me the name. My smile disappeared from my face right after I heard the name.

I remember this person. I had a reading session with her in 2016. I remember her reading left me some negative feelings. It was a mixture of denial and sadness.

At that time my husband had been suffering the tough challenges. Whatever he did, it turned out to be a bad result. My husband was frustrated and irritated for everything. We were not happy living together. We had often talked about a divorce. I wanted to have any messages from my family spirits about the issue. On that day, the practitioner told me it was all my fault. According to her, since my soul too freely traveled around in the universe and upper dimensions without grounding, other unhappy spirits got jealous of me. They wanted to attack me, but they couldn’t because I was well protected. They then aimed their target to my husband. My husband was an easy target for them because at that time he was weak and his aura field had tears here and there, so that they could easily get in and harm my husband.

The practitioner might be right on what she saw, but she didn’t give me any practical advice to protect us. I believe only one advice she gave was to stop meditate for a while. According to her, whenever I meditate, my soul easily fly around, so that the evil spirits can spot me and they can easily go to my husband through my energy.

Something like that. I didn’t agree with her on her session. I regretted to have had her session.

***

Fast forwarded to the other day. When I heard this practitioner’s name, I asked my family spirits if I can have her session or not. I thought they said “yes, go ahead and take the session with her.” So, I just keep my appointment as it was. I thought to myself, that it was four years ago anyway. She might be able to be helpful for me this time.

***

Today, at 10 a.m., I waited for her call. My phone didn’t ring. I waited until 10:15 a.m. Still no phone call. I contacted the receptionist. She confessed that she gave the practitioner my phone number wrongly. She wrote down my number one digit wrong. That was why the practitioner could not call me. When the practitioner called me, it was past 10:20 a.m.

The practitioner told me that I had 30 minutes and I could ask many questions within the allowance time.

The reading was like this.

She didn’t see any Japanese ancestors with me. She said it is rare for a person with pure blood race like me. She didn’t see me having any strong connections with my Japanese ancestors.

— It makes sense to me. While I was with my family in Japan, I always felt isolated from them.

She saw two of my spiritual guides beside me. One is male figure with in a black outfit, and the other is female figure in a while outfit. They didn’t look alike of humans, so that she could not recognize as any human race. To her, they seemed to be star people.  

Then I asked if I would be able to receive my share of the inheritance from my parents. I just mentioned my brother wanted to take it all to himself. I don’t know why he is mad at me. As far as I know, I didn’t do anything bad to my brother. I didn’t give her any other information about my brother,

She saw the vision of my brother carrying all the fortune and turned back to me. The vision showed that he determined strongly to take all the inheritance only to himself. It also showed that he is not happy for everything of his current life, including his current job and his wife. His wife is not happy all for her marriage and her current life. My brother and his wife unite by focusing on receiving all the inheritance from my parents.

I mentioned I have kept sending happy thoughts, healing, and prayers to my brother. The practitioner said nothing would change my brother, as he has been struggling so hard on his unhappiness. She said my brother would stay as same by shutting his mental door to me or to anybody else.

— I was sad to hear that.

The practitioner saw the vision that my male guide showed a balance scale. My guides didn’t suggest which side I should take. It was my free will to take either option.

One option is to pursue to receive my lawful share. She said my brother would do everything to take it all to himself. Thus, I would have to fight against my brother in a court. I would need to hire an attorney. It would take many months, possibly more than one year. In such a long duration, every day, I would suffer from the pain for fighting with my own brother. It would be painful and energy draining. During the fighting duration, I would live away from peaceful days. I would not be able to brush up my spiritual ability as I wish more than anything else.

The other option is to let it go. If I decided to walk away from this trouble, I would keep living my life as happy as I wish. I would be able to focus my precious every moment on brushing up my spiritual gifts. I would be able to support and help many other people through my services.

Then, my time of 30 minutes was up. I thanked to the practitioner and ended our reading session.

After I hang up the phone, I was drained. I felt sad and devastated. I wish I didn’t have this reading session.

Then all of a sudden, I realized the reason why this reading session was disturbed. It was my family spirits’ love to me. They know me much more than anybody else. They already knew I would regret having this session with this practitioner. That was why my family spirits did some trick to prevent this session. I should have known sooner, so that I would give up on the session.

At least I learned one important lesson from this reading session. I felt depressed and sad after this practitioner’s session because she just shared with me the vision she saw, but she never gave me any blight sides or hope. We all need hope. This is a big difference between a good practitioner and a bad practitioner, as far as I am concerned. This practitioner is accurate, but she lacks of giving a client some hopes. So, whenever I give somebody a reading session or a healing session, I will do my best to pull their vibration up through my session. I want to see their bright smile before they leave my place after my session.   

***

In the night before I fell asleep, one of my old memories popped up in my head. When I had a psychic reading session in 20s, she mentioned my guide spirits were a male being and a female being, and little bit back of them, she certainly saw my Japanese ancestors and Native American ancestors. I think they reminded me that they never abandoned me; they are always with me. I appreciate for their reminder.