I attended my first Trance class at 9 p.m. there were 8 people in the class; 7 students and the instructor.

We heard the instructor’s mantra to the sacred mother. While listening his mantra, I saw a vision. It started from the darkness, then red flame came in. the red flame changed into blue and finally white.

We proceeded to the instructor’s guided meditation. When I met my guide spirit, I received a young okura baby plant. I asked my guide spirit the message for me to be able to do the inspirational talk. He told me like this.

Same as this okura plant, first I need to grow my root. Let the root grow and spread deep in the ground. This strong root will help me to stand firmly no matter what happens outside. Once the root has fastened firmly in the ground, then, grow my leaves and stem high up in the sky. I will receive enough blessings through the leaves. I thanked my guide spirit. It was a nice gift.

Then we proceeded to the instructor’s lecture. He said mediation and inspirational speech are similar but the biggest difference is meditation is to get a message for ourselves, while inspirational speech is to convey a message for many others through spirits. In order for spirits to speak through us, first we need to improve our physical body. We need to have strong and healthy veins and nerve systems, especially in the brain area. We should pay attention to the triglyceride value for our safety. When the instructor started practicing inspirational speech, he had suffered from headache for five years or so. He strongly recommended the people who want to be an inspirational speaker to stay away from alcohol and cigarettes. We should constantly check about our ego for not growing too big. We need to maintain good health physically and mentally.

While the instructor was in the mediumship school in England, his teacher used to check the students energy while doing an inspirational speech. When spirits come in strongly, the speaker will feel heat in the back of the neck. Or just looking at the speaker’s energy, his teacher would know if the speaker was actually becoming a pure conduit for spirits or not.

During spirits come in, some people lose the control of muscle while others keep their mouth open and start drooling. Often speakers speak with their hands moving. He personally knows one mediums who rolled his eyes back. Some people reported their heartbeat got faster and felt like something is pressing their hearts. Some people can speak foreign language even though they don’t know in the real life.

We proceeded to two actual practice. The first topic was about “possibility and impossibility.”  

My family spirits conveyed the message as follows.

Everything is possible when we strongly desire to accomplish something. However, in this Earth, everything is done as a team. When we decide to start doing something, in order to make it possible, all the team members have to be ready. In other words, if even one person is not ready, we have to wait for the person to get ready. Spirits can interfere by working on the person who is not ready. Once the person gets ready, it finally comes to the right time to make it possible. So, it is all taking about the right timing and everybody’s getting ready.  

The second topic was about “the world after the Covid-19 is settled down.” One female student was chosen to speak and started conveying the message. Her way of speaking was obviously changed into somebody else. It sounded like a woman who was living in Heian Era, 1200 years ago. She was crying and looked like feeling sad while conveying the message. At the end of the class, the instructor told her she was not ready for this class yet. Since she let the lower vibrational spirits and conveyed negative messages, it can be dangerous for her if she keeps allowing the spirits using her physical body. She agreed with the instructor.

My family spirits and I were ready to speak, but unfortunately the instructor forgot about us. I was little disappointed about it. At the ending of the class, the instructor asked each one of us the feedback of the class. So I mentioned him about it. He apologized for forgetting about us. I still don’t know why we were forgotten. Am I still not ready for him to attend this class? If so at this moment, I guess I should accept the current situation. Maybe I am still invisible for him. I will take this as a lesson for myself. As I practice more and meditate more, I will be shining in aura brighter than now. Eventually he won’t be able to forget us as my energy will be too strong to be forgotten.  

Today’s dream: I was with my family; my husband and our daughter. In front of us, there was a tall building. All of a sudden, a big earthquake or something happened and the tall building was collapsed. We saw many people fell down from the higher floors and dead on the ground. We were safe. We didn’t get injured or anything. Now we wondered what we could do to help those people who were still alive. Then I woke up.

I looked up the meaning of my dream. Watching the tall building collapsed brings some messages.

The first message was that the dreamer’s desire or goal might be too high to make it happen at this moment. So this dream came to advice the dreamer to rethink and replan of the goal in the realistic level.

The second message is that the dreamer will go through a drastic change in the environment or situation, and thus the current way of living will be changed into something new. In my dream, my family and I were safe, so that it suggests we will be fine when going through the drastic change.

These messages from this morning’s dream made sense to me regarding our moving to Navajoland.

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I received an email from the inheritance accountant. The Agreement package that I sent out on August 22^nd was finally delivered to his office. It took for the post office more than two weeks to deliver it. But that is okay as long as it was delivered safely. He made an appointment with my dad on September 10^th. He will deliver this Agreement and explain my situation on why I was reluctant to sign the Agreement and why I changed my mind on signing the Agreement. I hope he will do the great job on his side and my dad will listen carefully and understand what he conveys. From here, it is my family spirits’ hands. I just trust them and keep visualize everything will go very well between my dad and me for our better understanding for the future. I want to visit him once Covid-19 is settle down. Possibly the earliest opportunity will be next spring or after. By then, I really want to make peace with him and enjoy our visit in Japan.

We slept comfortably on our own bed. We slept in longer than usual until 8 a.m. We were tired physically from the long hour drive, but our mind and spirit were excited on our new project of building our new house on our own.

In the morning I spend most of time for cleaning, cooking, and washing clothes. My husband and daughter went to the car wash.

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At night at 9 p.m., I had a guide spirit reading session with the medium of the Japanese mediumship school. This is my second reading session from her. I like her sincere and polite energy. I trust her spiritual gift being accurate. I enjoyed her reading session.

Today was our departure day back home. Since we had taken up at 5 a.m. for the previous three days straight and went to bed later than our usual routine, we all were lacking of sleeping hours. We had some extra sleep hours until 7 a.m.

While we were having breakfast, my mom-in-law came by. She wanted to show us her new shed at her garden. She is eager us to move back to Navajoland, so she is willing to help us for our moving. She said we can start bringing our items that we don’t use and keep them in her shed every time we visit them.

Her shed was way more spacious than we thought. To our surprise, she said my parents-in-law built the shed on their own. Once in a while they hired one man as a helper of the roof area, but the majority was done by just two of them. We were surprised and amazed as we thought they bought the shed. My mom-in-law continued explaining how they built it. They built their own house too. In the recent two years they worked on fixing her late parent’s trailer house. They even added a spacious porch in front of the trailer.

We were so excited about her idea on building our house on our own little by little. I never thought of it, but it sounded like a feasible plan.

We went back to the trailer house. My dad-in-law joined us, and the five of us started sharing our ideas and knowledge. As we were so exited on talking about our house project, that we almost forgot that we had to leave.

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Around 11 a.m., we finally departed back to our house. Same as the way to Navajoland, the traffic was not busy at all on our way back home. Even though we left Navajoland later than our planned departure time, we made it back home safely earlier than we expected.

After we unloaded our baggage, we went for a tricycle ride with our friend and her dog. She was so happy for our safely being back home. We had misses each other for these past four days.   

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At night at 8:30 p.m., I attended Sunday Service. I had really missed this gathering, as their last one was one month ago. My husband attend with me. Before the demonstration of spiritual communication, my husband prayed his ancestors would show up and convey message to him. They had three mediums who offered the spiritual communication demonstration tonight. The first two female mediums chose somebody else, but the third medium, the owner of the school, chose us. He described four female figures showed up for us. The three of them were for my husband. They were watching us cooking a whole bunch of potatoes on Navajoland. He described the three grandma’s figures as chubby. They are watching my husband sitting and staring at the computer for very long time every day. The medium was right. My husband studies for the computer certificate and using the computer all day. Then, my mom showed up. She was playing a drum. It made sense to me. I said Hannya Singyo mantra every day along with the Youtube video that was created by her favorite temple’s monk. He said the mantra with playing a huge drum in the temple. My mom said she is happy for my husband and me and she is supporting us. I think my mom is enjoying our new challenge in settling down to Navajoland. It was very nice that the teacher/medium chose us and conveyed the messages for us. I appreciate my mom and my husband’s grandmas to come to this gathering. Thank you to all.

We woke up again 5 a.m. in the morning. My dad-in-law was already up. He said he had still shoulder and sore muscle on all over his body, but other than that, he felt fine. We were happy to know that he was okay.

After we had breakfast, we continued the corn cake ceremony that was a part of Kinaaldá ceremony. The cake didn’t turn out very well. The majority part was too dry to eat. At least we learned from this mistake, so that we will be able to do much better on our next time. Maybe for my daughter’s daughter in the future.

My dad-in-law had another two patients for prayer. My family and I went to the local museum and the zoo. Unfortunately the workers were there, but they were not open for public.

I cooked curry and rice for everybody. After lunch, my dad-in-law asked us to come with him to the mountain. His patient needed a medicine plant for her cancer.  The mountain area was located two hours away from their house. Since he hit his head last night, he didn’t want to drive there by himself. We offered him help to go there with him.

I remember the area. My dad-in-law took me to this place long time ago before I married to my husband. It was 15 years ago, but the area looked still the same.

My dad-in-law and the patient went to the certain medicine plant and had a ceremony. They offered corn pollen and asked for their permission to use the plant as medicine. The medicine can heal cancer and also, it cleans blood.

The dirt of this area is alkaline and the dirt itself has healing energy. In order to use the medicine plant, we use the root. We soak the root in one gallon of water for 4 days. Then we drink one cup of the tea every morning and night until the one gallon.

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In the evening we had an appointment with my dad-in-law’s friend. She is a doctor and also incorporates the Navajo traditional healing method. She is 65 years old. She is knowledgeable and also flexible and open to new idea and healing modalities. Once we move to Navajoland, I want to have get together with her in person. She mentioned she is interested into listening to the Coast to Coast AM radio. Also she is interested in an earthship house. She said there is one earthship house close to our area. I would like to visit their house on our next visit.

We woke up at 5 a.m. after we had breakfast, we gathered up at the Hogan.

We had a Kinaaldá ceremony for my daughter. It is Navajo’s traditional ceremony for celebrating female pubertal coming-of-age. My daughter dressed up in Navajo traditional outfit. My dad-in-law was the medicine man.

We made a natural soap with yucca and washed her hair. Then we tied her hair in a Navajo’s traditional way of bundle.

The ceremony started at 8 a.m. and ended after noon. After we had lunch, we continued the ceremony. We cooked the corn cake. The cake preparation was done after 2 p.m. For the remainder of the afternoon, we visited my husband’s cousin and went to town for grocery shopping. During that time, my dad-in-law had two patients visited him. He had prayers for them.

In the night around 7 p.m., we built a fire again and gathered up. We were all tired.

Around 9 p.m., we called it a night. My family and I went back to the trailer house, and my parents-in-law went back to their house after us. Then, all of a sudden we heard a violent knocking sound of the window. It was my mother-in-law. She shouted us my dad-in-law fell down and hit his head on the ground in front of the entrance door.

We quickly went to him. My husband and my mom-in-law carried him into the house and laid him on the couch. My dad-in-law still had conscious and remembered who he was and about us.

It was shocking to me. I have known him for 22 years. When I met him for the first time, he was 46 years old; still young and strong. Now he turned to be 68 years old getting old and weak. Watching him fell down on the floor reminded me of my late mom. I could not hold my tears back. My mom-in-law started crying too. She said she recently feels anxious of them living alone. They both feel uneasy of their getting old and weak. I felt strongly my parents-in-laws desire. They want us to move in to Navajoland and live close to them.

Everything happens for reasons. Maybe this incident happened to have us seriously think about moving back to Navajoland soon; sooner than we think.

Today’s dream: I grabbed a huge stool in my hand. Even in my dream, I knew this dream meant something great.

Then I woke up. I looked up the meaning of grabbing a huge stool in hand. The dream interpretation dictionary says the dreamer will grab a great luck and fortune on their own. This means the dreamer’s continuous efforts having been built for previous years will be rewarded.

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My family and I woke up at 5 a.m. I cooked breakfast and lunch-to-go. My daughter studied for two hours to finish up her this week’s to-do-lists for her school. We needed to wait for the trash truck to come collect the garbage. After all the morning chore was done, we finally took off to our vacation trip to Navajoland.

On the way we passed the area where they recently had a sever mountain fire. The entire area had become barren. The burned trees and grasses were changed to dark black. Even some guardrails burned and melted down. If we planned this strip one month before, we would have to detour to the different route.

The entire route was not busy at all. We could drive safely on our comfortable pace. We arrived at Navajoland before 6 p.m. of their time, which was 5 p.m. in our time.

After we unloaded our luggage, we built a fire outside and enjoyed talking around the fire.

My Navajo parents told us their house dog passed away two days ago. They think the dog had a cancer and suffered from pain. The doctor scheduled a surgery on the day. The dog passed away while in sleep. The dog was very smart. Maybe she didn’t want to cause my Navajo parents to pay for the huge amount of surgery money. She was a really smart and thoughtful dog. I hope she will come back to them soon in a different body.  

Today’s dream: I was at my aunt’s house in Japan. In the house, my late aunt, her late husband, my late grandpa, and my husband, my daughter, and I were living together. My daughter was 5 years old. She had a long curly hair. Her hair looked like that of the Japanese cartoon character; Candy-Candy. It was different from the physical realm; her hair is long and straight though. I needed to take her to the kindergarten. I was wondering if we should take the bus or a taxi. Then I woke up.

I didn’t get any specific message from this dream. At least I was happy to see my relatives. They were all fine in the spirit world.

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In the afternoon, I was busy getting ready for our upcoming trip. We were so excited of visiting Navajoland. It has been more than one year since our last visit.

I woke up earlier than usual. Today is Monday, so I set today to take sample of Cologuard and send it out to their lab.

This was prescribed by my doctor. When she mentioned about colon cancer screen, I automatically turned it down as I don’t want to deal with the uncomfortable physical checkup. But when the doctor explained me about Cologuard, I agreed to take the test.

Cologuard is a colon cancer screening test that people can take the sample at home. After the doctor orders the kit, the manufacture will ship to the test kit to the patient home. the patient take the sample and put it back to the prescribed box, and ship it back to their lab by UPS. The test sample should be tested at the lab within 72 hours after the sample was taken.

When I called UPS office for pickup, the operator told me not to keep the package outside. She told me somebody might steal my package without knowing it was the test sample. We just laughed. It would be awkward if somebody steals my package hoping it was something very nice or luxurious. I decided to keep the package inside the house until the UPS driver picked it up.

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This was my first time to use their kit and take the colon cancer screening. I hate dealing with anything sickness, hospitals, and doctors. While I was taking sample, even though it was much better than doing it at the hospital, I felt uncomfortable. I thought of my late mom. She often told me exactly the same thing as I think. While she was battling with cancer, she needed to take many tests. I can easily imagine how uncomfortable she felt. I acknowledge her efforts.

I will pay attention to prevent any sickness so that I can avoid hospitals as much as I can.

At 11 a.m., I attended the holographic breathing class.  It was 1.5 hour webinar. There were 27 attendees including the host/instructor. The host was the man who lives in London. This was my very first time to attend his webinar. The first time attendees were only a couple of people including me.

In today’s webinar he taught his relaxing/meditating method; holographic breathing. We relax our lips and lightly close. The tip of our tongue touches the roof of mouth. As we breathe in, we relax our jaw and lightly open. As we breathe out, we close our jaw. We send our smile and good energy to mother Earth. We receive her acknowledgement. We send our smile and good energy to our guide spirits, and receive their acknowledgement. We keep breathing until we fully relax.  

With using his technique, we worked with our ancestry and our DNA. He said when we work on our ancestry and DNA, it eventually contributes to heal the Earth. First we focused on the energy of our one side; left side and right side. He said normally people feel their left hand side was maternal family lineage and their right hand side is their paternal family lineage, but it does not apply to everybody. So first, we need to explore our energy and find out our feeling.

To me, I felt my left side is my maternal family lineage and my right side is my paternal family lineage.

Then we proceeded to meditation.

When I focused on my left side, I felt my mom’s energy. I saw a vision of us when I was at the elementary school years. I saw my elementary school day’s PE uniforms. At that time I needed my mom the most to care for me, but she was always busy with taking care of others such as my dad’s mom and my mom’s dad, and even my classmate who lived with her grandparents. I felt from my left side regarding the passed down karma on my mom’s family lineage. Their karma had been living their lives as invisible or hidden. They always served somebody as a mom, a wife, and a housemaid. They never got a spotlight for supporting somebody.

On the other hand, when I focused on my right side, I felt my dad’s family lineage. Unlike my mom’s family lineage, my dad’s family lineage had been the top of the mountain. They had been getting a spotlight by being a boss, a lord (Tonosama) of the area, and a head person of the area. They had contributed to the area and the company. In order to keep being the top person, they studied a lot and made efforts to maintain their fame, authority, money, and influence. The mother’s family lineage was like a ninja while the father’s family lineage was like a tonosama.

The message for me was like this.

These two family lineages had equally taken a quite important role in the society. Karma can turn into healing, wisdom, and light if it is used properly.     

Now as their descendant, my role is to acknowledge both family lineage’s precious heritage. My ancestors want me to be flexible enough on utilizing their heritages properly. They want me to listen to them and receive their supports and advises.

Then my conscious came back to my body. It was a great guided mediation. I appreciate the instructor to host this webinar. I also appreciate the other members to join this meditation together. It was a great group. I enjoyed his webinar. He is going to have another webinar on September 20^th. I look forward to his next webinar.