In the morning I noticed an email from the accountant. He told me a shocking news regarding the Japanese post office’s new policy amid Covid-19.

When he went to the post office with the document yesterday, he was informed the Japanese post office does not accept any letters and packages sending from Japan to America. He was planning to send the document via EMS, but it is not available. I mentioned him about SAL; a small packet to international mails and packages. He said it was also not available. Only one option available for him was to send it via ship that will take 2-3 months to be delivered.

Thus, my inheritance accountant needed to send the documents through UPS. He needed to go to the UPS store that is located 1 hour away from his office. The UPS fee costs about 70 dollars that is a double price of the EMS envelop of Japan post office. The UPS people told the accountant that the document packet would be delivered to me in America in 1 day. I doubt it. Maybe it would take at least 3-4 days.

At night 9 p.m., I had a Zoom meeting with the inheritance accountant. It was our second meeting. Our first meeting was done through LINE phone conversation. This time on our second meeting, the accountant wanted to have a Zoom meeting so that we can see our faces.

It was beneficial on talking through Zoom by watching our faces, rather than talking on phone calls or exchanging emails. Our conversation went well and smooth. I explained my good reasons why I don’t feel comfortable in sighing the Agreement. He explained my dad’s good reasons why he wants to keep all to himself.

While I was listening to the account about my dad, I realized my anger toward my dad started melting away. My dad feels lonely and is overwhelmed by anxiety. He believes only money can protect him. Even though he has a huge amount of money, and that is enough to share it with my brother and me, he worries about money. Now I finally realized his perspective toward money and mine are totally different. How much I try to talk into my dad to understand my perspective, he will never understand. Even though I don’t understand his perspective and I don’t agree with his opinion, my compassion toward my dad overcame my anger toward him.

I told the accountant I would sign the agreement. He said he would arrange to send it within today.

Right before our conversation, the accountant mentioned about what my dad said. He felt sad for my not sending any offering to my mom’s alter during the Obon. I gasped. I almost forgot about Japanese traditional customs. Japanese people put a heavy value on the first Obon when soemboyd passed away. Aright after my mom passed away, I asked my dad if I am supposed to pay any cash to support the funeral or to send any offering to her alter. My dad at that time said I am her immediate family so I don’t need to worry about any of those. So, I got rid of all my concerns about sending offerings to my mom’s alter.  

I thanked my accountant and ended the conversation. It was already close to 10 p.m., but I started searching about the offering gifts for the first Obon. I learned the incents and some sweets like cookies are the best options. I arranged to send three gifts to my dad. By the time when everything was done, it was already past midnight.

I was feeling good that I have chosen the peaceful option, which was to sign the agreement and walk away.

Today’s dream: I was at the upstream of Ganges River. The water level was shallow, maybe just 10 cm (4 inch) high from the riverbed. I saw a black cow. The cow looked healthy from the shining color of skin and well-fleshed body. The cow was dead and lay down on the riverbed, though. Then I woke up.

I concerned about the message from this dream. I looked the meaning up through the online dream interpretation dictionaries. The messages should be something like these.

A dead cow in a dream warns the dreamer to pay attention to their wordings and actions. Since a cow represents a big fortune and the cow was dead, the dreamer might lose the opportunity to acquire a big fortune. Also this dream might simply reflects the dreamer’s state of mind that the dreamer already might have experienced some tragedies feeling devastated.

I felt this dream came to warn me for not fight against my dad. Also, this dream came to show me the ending. I will walk away without a fortune.

By this time, I was already exhausted and worn out from huge amount of stresses on dealing with my dad. I just eager to regain my peaceful days. I don’t like arguing or hating somebody. I love peace.

Today August 15 is the anniversary of the end of World War II in Japan. This year 2020 marks 75^th anniversary. 

I pray for our ancestors who went through the tough life during the war that their souls are now completely healed. I appreciate them to have shown us the importance of world peace. I pray from my heart that we will maintain the world peace and we will make a better world by doing our life missions.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of HemiSync Five questions. This meditation was soothing. I felt my family spirits’ support and love. I appreciate them for their unconditional and continuous love. They always make me happy and keep me going. The messages were like this.

I asked about my guide spirits. My son in spirit, Daigo, is still with me supporting me. My maternal late aunt, Toshiko obachan, used to be one of my guide spirits, but she is not with me anymore. She was reincarnated somewhere. In return, my maternal grandma, Fude Obaachan, and grandpa, Shintaro Ojiichan, came close to me and they are strongly supporting me. My mom, Hiroko Kaachan, is not my guide spirit, so she is not with me all the time. However, she comes and checks on me from time to time. My paternal grandma, Shizu Obaachan, has come close to me in order to support my spiritual awareness. Two of my grandmas, maternal side and paternal side, are both spiritual and supporting me to brush up my clairvoyant ability.

I asked my mom if she still loves me and supports me. I felt strong YES from her. I also asked her if my dad was wrong in saying my mom was mad at me in February this year right after my visit to my mom. She sent me a block of thoughts that I should not worry about it, because my dad mixed up his memory of their visit us in Las Vegas in 2010. My dad has a hard time to organize his memories in the linear timeline due to dementia and old age.

As for the inheritance sharing, my family spirits don’t me to walk away; rather, they want me to pursue my lawful right. I asked my mom the same question. I felt her energy encouraging me to pursue my right. She doesn’t want me to give up or walk away.

I asked about my dad. I asked if my dad and I had any bad relationship in our past lives and that is the reason why he is reacting badly to me at this moment. I felt strong NO from my family spirits. I felt my dad and I didn’t have any close relationship in our past lives. The reason why my dad treats me in a mean way is just because he is lonely and sad about living alone suffering from his bad health. The only one reason why he snaps out his frustration and anger to me is because I am the only one whom he can open up his true face. He is just acting like a small child asking for unconditional care from a mother. That being said, I need to protect my energy in order to maintain my inner peace. My family spirits told me not to get affected by my dad constantly. Keep the sacred boundary from him.

I felt he would live for three more years until 2023. I felt sorry for him that he will have to live alone with this condition. I felt this is his life plan so that he can repay his karma.

My last question was about my brother. I felt after my dad’s departure in 2023, my brother and I will be reconnected. We will get back to our good relationship just like we shared in our childhood days. My family spirits told me not to worry about the current relationship with him. They assured me it would get better for sure. My dad and my brother brought back some promises to repay karma from their past lives. They are so occupied with the tough tribulations. All I can do is to send love to them. Once they clear all the to-do list items, everything will start going smoothly and peacefully.    

I really enjoyed today’s meditation. For two days straight yesterday and the day before yesterday, I didn’t receive any messages. But today I got lots of messages.

Today’s dream: Two huge brown snakes came to me and bit me in the back. I woke up uncomfortably.

The dream interpretation dictionary says getting bitten by a huge snake indicates the dreamer is in the trouble in a human relation. I think my dream reflects my stress dealing with my dad regarding the inheritance division. All I need right now is to discuss peacefully with my dad. I hate arguing and hurting each other.

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Today was the last day of the lunch delivery. From this coming Monday, the school will start, so that the meal will be available only for the public school students who has the school ID.

I appreciate their support for delivering the meal for these past five months from the middle of March to the middle of August.

Last night at 9 p.m., I talked to the inheritance accountant. I told him I don’t feel comfortable to sign the agreement document. We made another meeting to discuss about the other options tonight at the same time.

Two hours before our second meeting, my phone rang. It was from my dad.

I hesitated to answer the phone. It will make the situation worse if the interested parties who are dealing with disagreement speak directly. I could have ignored the phone call from my dad. But I could not ignore. He is my dad anyway. Before I picked up the phone, I said a quick prayer to my family spirits.

I answered the phone. My dad was already irritated from the beginning. He yelled at me about my turned down to sign the document. I told him my reasons why I don’t feel comfortable to sign the agreement.

Then, he lost his temper. He started saying this and that. What he hurt me the most was about my mom.

He said my mom was so mad at me after I went back to America this January. I doubted my ears about what I just heard from my dad. I asked him back was it this trip. He said he was sure it was this trip, right before she passed away.

I could not hold my tears. I thought I spent a great time with my late mom in this January. I never did anything bad to make my mom mad at me. But my dad could be right, because my mom yelled at me even while I was just helping her in January. Once in a while, she lost her temper to me. Maybe because of the side effect of her strong pain killer medicine.

My dad added nasty words to me from his anger. He yelled at me to return all the money that my mom had given me long time ago. Some of them were the birthday gift to me and my daughter. My mom would not say such stingy things to me. Since my dad was furious about my refused to sign, he said all kinds of nasty things to me.

I needed to tell him politely that I don’t want to keep hearing his complains anymore. Then I hang up the phone.

I talked to my husband about what just happened. First, he told me to contact the inheritance accountant to reschedule tonight’s meeting. I was already devastated that I would not be able to talk. Then, he told me not to take it seriously about whatever my dad yelled at me on tonight’s phone call. He might lost his mind from his anger. My husband didn’t believe what my dad said about my mom. My husband assured that my mom appreciated my visit in January. She loved me while she was alive, and still loves me in spirit. My husband’s kind words really soothed me.

I just wished I could talk to my mom directly. I miss her so much.

***

Before I fell asleep, I meditated. In my inner peace, I understood clearly. My dad lost his memory and talked about the big argument between my mom and me at Las Vegas in 2010. Due to the old age, his memory mixed up. He probably thought it just happened in this year, but in reality, it happened in 2010. My mom and I had a good time in January. In my meditated status, I felt love from my family spirits, including my mom. They told me not to easily get affected by other people’s saying. People may lose memory or say something mean. As long as I stand firmly in my inner peace, I can let the people’s bad intentions go.

Today my daughter had her first live lesson at homeschooling website. When I took a peak, there were about 50 students in the live lesson room.

It lasted about 1.5 hour. The teacher asked questions and the students raised hands through the icon.

After the live lesson, my daughter told me it was fun to see other classmates, but the same time, it was draining a little bit. I know how she feels.

Their server had issues from time to time. It froze during the session many times. As the school faculty mentioned, they are having a huge number of students this year. Their server still needs to fix here and there to accept such a huge number of students.

I wonder how the public school is doing. I heard about one third students have chosen the in-school options. The other two thirds students have chosen the other options of the hybrid (in-school and remote) or the totally remote.

Today’s dream: I was an owner of a cafeteria. I was with some customers in the cafeteria and making coffee and meals for them. Then I woke up feeling refreshed.  

***

At night at 9 p.m., I had a LINE phone meeting with the inheritance accountant.

He sounded as nice and kind. And he is from the same hometown as mine. He has the same dialect than mine. I felt comfortable talking with him. Through him, I got a whole bunch of new information. He sent me two files; one was the scan data of the agreement document and the other was the detailed items of my mom’s inheritance.

I told the accountant that I am not feeling comfortable to sign the document as of now. I told my honest feeling. He said he would talk to my dad and my brother. His goal is to make everybody to agree and willingly sign the document. He doesn’t want anybody to feel being forced to sign the agreement document.

I have a good feeling to have him as our accountant. I hope he will do well on his job as a peacemaker between us; my dad, brother, and me. It was nice to have him in our case as a third person.

Today’s dream: I don’t remember the detailed situation, but I do remember that I encountered a bear many times. The bear told me that the judgement day would come soon. I asked the bear what kind of judgement. The bear told me it was related to my dad. Then I woke up.

***

After I came back from the morning walk, I noticed that I received an unexpected email. The sender introduced himself as a certified inheritance account that my dad hired him. I was so happy to read his email. My dad finally hired an accountant to take care of my late mom’s inheritance procedure.

Since the accountant added his company information, I visited his company homepage. There, he posted his face photo and a brief introduction of his life. He is 4 years younger than me. I am glad he is in younger generation. I can expect him flexible and friendly.

I replied back to him and asked him if we can talk on LINE phone so that I don’t need to worry about the phone bill increase. Over the phone I wanted to ask him many questions.

He added me as his friend in LINE. We scheduled to our first meeting tomorrow night through LINE phone. I am so grateful for this opportunity. Finally the inheritance process is about to go forward.

Arizona governor issued the guideline regarding the schools in Arizona. All the schools are required to give education remotely. The Arizona state does not support in-school education.

Arizona people reacted to this guideline. This guideline is very tough especially for the families whose both parents need to work and they don’t have anybody who stay with their children during the weekday daytime. Also some families claim they don’t have a desk and chair for their children to study at home and other families claim they don’t have a home wifi.

(P.S.)

Some days after this guideline issued, Arizona governor revised the guideline to be flexible for those families. Now it is official that Arizona State supports schools for in-school education. The students who need to go somewhere during the school hours can study at school.   

I discussed about this with our neighbors. Some of parents decided to send their children to school, but they also feel scared of the infection at school.

The bright side though, this year many students have decided to study remotely, so that the number of in-school students should have been dramatically reduced. I hope things will stay good for everybody and we will stay safe.