I woke up with a beautiful and calm dream. My husband I stayed at a hotel one night and we were having a breakfast sandwich sitting on a bench in a garden of the hotel.

Yesterday we had a cold day with the sky covered by dark snow clouds, but today we had a clear blue sky with higher temperature. I actually stayed with T-shirt and short pants during the daytime.

Today is Arizona’s 114^th birthday. Happy birthday to Arizona. I appreciate Arizona state for accepting me here. I love Arizonan and the weather and atmosphere.

I slept well. I woke up naturally at 6:49 a.m. which is 1 minute before my alarm. It is definitely good to wake up naturally rather than waking up by making the body startled by an alarm sound. I appreciate my family spirits to wake me up before the alarm sound.

I received a text message from my husband’s cousin that her mom, my dad-in-law’s sister, departed. She was latter half of 80s. Last time when I saw her and had a small conversation was at my dad-in-law’s memorial service. She was totally healthy for her high age. I think she had a good life. I wish her for a safe trip back to her spiritual hometown.

I slept well. I still have dull pain in the entire body, but my body obviously heals while sleeping and I can feel improvements every morning.

I tried hard to get rid of worries and concerns about the lawsuit. Rather, I believe in the judge will understand the situation clearly based on the timeline and all the evidences that we have submitted.

Last night when I had an online meeting with my attorney, what he mentioned made me worried. And that made me keep thinking about the lawsuit, resulted in waking up until 1:30 a.m. I have improved mentally, but again, I almost got caught into the negative thinking loop. Now I am fine. I need to stay strong and keep believing in the true strength of myself and my family spirits.

In the day time, my daughter and I went to the grocery store.

In the night after my husband came back from work, we went to several stores for some more shopping needed for the trip to Japan.

It is the Day-3 that I could sleep well without gabapentin. I feel the nerve pain in the right foot has gotten healed day by day.

I received a phone call from the technician of the biofeedback dealer. He finished repairing my laptop and he would send it out tomorrow.

He asked me if there were any visible symptom right before my laptop stopped working. I mentioned about the black orbs appeared on my aura on all 4 directions and I know who sent the negative curse to me. I believe the curse was the main cause to break my laptop. He completely understood what I meant as he had experienced the same thing from somebody who wishes bad luck to him. He said in those days his belongings start corrupting such as his truck and computer. He suggested me to treat the family karmic bond once my laptop comes back to me.

In the night at 8 p.m., I talked with my attorney on zoom regarding the further actions.

It is the Day-2 for me that I could sleep well without gabapentin.

I had a strong feeling that I should create a timeline file of the lawsuit. It took me almost all day. I thought got caught the bad habit, but at the same time, creating the file helped me understand the case clearly. I sent the file to my attorney. I mentioned I am not requesting him to submit this file to the court, rather, I want him to use this file as for his reference. I believe this file is helpful for him to review the case from the begging to the current.

My friend asked me to select the homeopathic remedies for her. She got the news of one of her coworker’s deaths. She got shocked and her left ear stopped function. I selected some remedies for her. I hope these homeopathic remedies will support her mentally and physically.

Our last day on Navajoland. Last night I didn’t take gabapentin and could sleep though the night without waking up in the middle of night.  This trip made me my nerve pain drastically improved.

After we safely came back home and were unloading our items from the car, my husband put the hummock bag on the middle of the hall way. It was in the way, so I carried the bag and moved it to the side. Then I realized how strong I got. On the departure day, which was just 4 days ago, I could not lift the hammock bag by myself. It was too heavy for me. But now I can lift it without thinking its weight. I mentioned it to my husband and daughter. They were happy for my improvement.

We woke up at 7 a.m. When my mom-in-law brought sandwiches for our breakfast, she told us she had been suffering from migraine. We were planning to go to the flea market. My husband thought my mom-in-law would stay behind to rest, but she said she really wanted to go with us. Yesterday was sunny with clear sky, but this morning the sky was covered by snow clouds with low temperature. This kind of weather make people to have migraine and feel sick.

By 9 a.m., my mom-in-law looked much better. She said the pain reliever medication has been kicking in. She said she would spend most of days all by herself and so, she really wanted to go with us.

Our first stop was the local church that my mom-in-law’s sister goes. They had a valentine event and there were many vendors selling their handmade crafts. I wanted to purchase one Navajo’s traditional three-tiered skirt. It was $80. I should have bought it but hesitated. I still have the bad habit that I don’t buy an item when it comes to an expensive price. My daughter, on the other hand, doesn’t have any bad habit like I do. Whenever she meets an item, she does not check the price but buys it.

Our next stop was the flea market. My daughter found lots of items that caught her eyes and purchased all of them. I really respect her habit that she doesn’t hesitate to purchase based on price. I left my parents’ house at the age of 22, and since then, I had supported myself for the living cost. I needed to constantly think about all the living cost, so that I cannot freely purchase any items without taking a look of a price. I want to switch my bad habit to my daughter’s one, to purchase anything without checking a price.  

At flea market, my husband saw his old friend. They went to the same boarding school during the middle school days.   

We slept in until 9 a.m. After breakfast, we all went to the house up on the hill. My mom-in-law is seriously planning to move in to this house by this coming winter. She said the main reason is the current house gets too cold in the winter time. But my husband and I think the true reason is that she wants to live in a new environment. The current house has my dad-in-law’s energy everywhere and that makes her feel sad and lonely.

There is one house build with bricks next to the house. My dad-in-law had been building this house for years. My mom-in-law wants to give this house to my daughter. When this house is completed building, it will be a nice and spacious house for my daughter and her future family.

After that, we all went to the zoo and museum in Window Rock to take a walk. After that, we cooked out beef steak and enjoyed the peaceful night.

During dinner, my mom-in-law seriously expressed her strong desire, which she wants us to move back to Navajoland as soon as possible. My husband told her it is really up to the job opportunity. We cannot move back without job. I believe when the right timing has come, my husband will be guided to the right job opportunity, which I hope it will be remote job so that he can work from home.

Last night I only took 1/3 of 1 pill of gabapentin, but I could sleep very well without waking up in the middle of the night.

In my dream, I communicated with my Higer self. She told me as I calmed myself down and spend time peacefully, the outer environments including people and events get calmer. Everything is a mirror of my mind. If I keep worrying about the lawsuit, it will stay like that. But, when I believe in that I am doing the right thing, the results of the lawsuit will also become preferable one for me by reflecting my mind. When I spend my days peacefully without worrying about the lawsuit or my sibling, the distance between my sibling and I will be separated and he won’t be able to bother me anymore. It was a really nice message and I needed the reminder. It helped greatly.

I woke up at 6 a.m. and cooked our lunch. I made some rice balls for me and baked homemade pizzas for my husband and daughter.

My family and I left home in the early morning headed to Navajoland. It has been 6 months since our last visit. I’ve been doing well to deal with the pain recently.

In the evening around 6 p.m., we safely arrived at my mom-in-law’s house. She looked so happy to see us again. We enjoyed the dinner together.