I slept for 11 hours last night and went back to sleep at 8 p.m. My day went by quickly, as I slept for many hours. My body needs to rest and I listen to my body’s voice.

It was on the next day when we saw my brother-in-law off to the spirit world. I told my husband to sleep in this morning, because his brother might visit him in the dream.

On next Saturday, my brother-in-law’s girlfriend decided to have a memorial service for her boyfriend at my mom-in-law’s house. My husband decided not to go. I followed his decision. Besides, I don’t think I can drive all the way to the Navajoland yet. I still have the nerve pain and don’t have confidence to drive that far at this moment.

In the evening at 6 p.m., I attended the online gathering of the professional homeopath course. They used to start this gathering at 10 p.m., from this time they changed the time. It was beneficial for me so that I could attend the gathering not sacrificing my heath by attending at the middle of the night.

At night after my gathering ended, my family and I did a sage smudging ceremony at our house. It is for my brother-in-law for his safe trip back to the spirit world, as well as for our safety to get rid of any negative energies that we might caught from the hospital.

We left our house around 8 a.m. headed to the hospital where my brother-in-law was. It took us 3 hours to get there.

The hospital was located in the state capital city. The parking lot is a tall tower building and everybody has to pay for the parking. There are many buildings in the property. We needed to ask the worker the location of ICU patients is. At the first floor, there is a check-in counter and all the visitors have to register and receive a wrist band. We were told to go to the fourth floor. Once we got out from the elevator, there was one open spot as a visitor’s waiting room. The ICU room door was locked. We needed to call at the receptionist’s desk where no receptionists were. We were told only one visitor at once. Thus, only my husband entered in, and I waited at the waiting room with my daughter. I waited there for more than one hour.

When my husband came out, he asked us if we wanted to go in to the ICU room or not. Since I was not that close to my brother-in-law, and I didn’t want to remember him as in a hospital gown in the ICU room, I told my husband I don’t want to go there. My daughter wanted to see her uncle at the last moment, so she went into the ICU room with my husband.

According to my husband, the nurse shared my brother-in-law’s health condition. He was pretty bad condition when he came into the ICU room. He was at the last stage of alcoholism and his liver was in an extremely bad condition.

After the visit, we drove back to our house.

After we got back home safely, around 8:40 p.m., we received a text message from my brother-in-law’s girlfriend to inform us that the doctor stopped the life support.

We talked with my mom-in-law over the phone. She was crying but stayed being calm. In a way, it was good for everybody that my brother-in-law had lived an extra one month after his sudden critical health condition. For this one month, he and his girlfriend could talk about what he wanted to do his belongings and how he wanted to take care of himself after death.

In the late morning at 11 a.m., my mom-in-law informed us that my brother-in-law was connected to the life support in the hospital. The doctor asked his girl friend to let the immediate family and close friends know to say good-bye to him. We decided to visit him in the hospital tomorrow.

My husband wanted to have an alone time, so he went to the gym. Meanwhile, around 3 p.m., while I chanted a Japanese mantra to my brother-in-law, I shed lots of tears. I felt he already made his mind to depart from physical realm to the spirit world.

I slept well and woke up energized. I noticed the nerve pain in the right foot was much reduced. Instead, I noticed the stiffness in both of the back of knee after I woke up in the morning and tried to stand up. I had keep standing while doing the computer work and study, but from today, I started adding more time on sitting down on a chair to reduce burdens on the legs.

In the evening at 7 p.m., we were planning to join the star gazing party at the local community college, but it was cancelled due to the snow clouds covered the entire sky.

The other day, I ordered a set of Purple cushions. Their products such as cushions and pillows are well known for medically beneficial for the people who has a severe back pain. Their products are pretty expensive, but I thought it worth if they really help reducing my back pain. I tried them out this evening. I liked them.

I could sleep through for 7.5 hours.

For the past couple of years, purchasing a new vacuum cleaner was in my purchase wish list. The other day, I finally decided purchase it. There were 2 vacuum clears on sale. One is a robot type and the other one is a normal designed one. We currently have 4 different types and different sized vacuum cleaners but all the four were pretty old; more than 10 years old and don’t suck up a dust or trash powerfully.

I tried out the both 2 vacuum cleaners. I am pretty satisfied. Especially a robot typed vacuum cleaner works great to clean the entire house. These two will help me a lot by saving my time and energy on cleaning the house.

I went to the clinic to receive a refill of gabapentin. I am thankful the doctor approved my refill request. Even though I am in the process of reducing the frequency to take the pill, I still want to keep it for my upcoming trip to Japan for just in case support.

I could sleep 9 hours straight. For the past two mornings, I clearly felt the nerve pain in the right foot has gotten reduced. It was not drastically reduced, but I could feel the subtle reduction in nerve pain.

I could sleep 9 hours straight. With the recent high-quality sleep, I can feel the nerve pain in the right foot has gotten reduced day by day.

I watched the recoding of my homeopathy teacher’s lecture. I needed to take a break frequently so that I wouldn’t get tired. It resulting in spending all day just to watch through the 3 hours lecture.

Four days have passed since I graduated from the online game. I feel so light without doing the online game. I cannot believe I had wasted my precious time on the online game for 11 years. But now I am free from any obligations from the online game.

I could sleep 9 hours.

I had an interesting dream. I was in the school classroom and eating my homemade bento by myself. I didn’t feel lonely or sad or anything, rather, I was fully enjoying being alone and as a matter of fact, I was happy for being able to taste my own cooked food without chatting and eating. In the real world too, I prefer eat by myself. I don’t want to eat and chat simultaneously. I want to focus on eating food with appreciation to the food.

This dream is linked with my awareness of yesterday. I realized my desire to be approved and praised by others is gone. In the dream, I was happy for eating lunch by myself. There were some other people like me, enjoying being alone and eating their homemade lunch. I felt comfortable to see this dream as a confirmation that I don’t need any praises from others.

I had a home sauna in the afternoon. The home sauna was also my first since the injury day. I from time to time felt the nerve pain in the right foot, but other than that, I enjoyed the detoxing process by sweating out.

In the evening at 4 p.m., I talked with my Japanese friend. I invited her to our hot spring tour and she was excited about it.