I want to share one of my recent uncomfortable experiences. It was uncomfortable, but I gained some lessons through this experience. If you are curious in the lessons, please bear with me in reading this story.

It is about a neighbor mom. The mom accompanies to her children to the school bus stop every morning and evening. She and I exchanged our phone numbers. We would chat on the way back home from the bus stop.

One day we ended up chatting in the middle of the street. You wouldn’t believe the length of our chatting. We stood there and chatted for two hours.

During the two hours of our chatting, she was the main person who kept on talking. Everything I heard from her was complains. She complained about everybody she knows. She complained about the school teachers, faculties, and her children’s classmates. She even complained about her friends and relatives.

Nothing was beneficial for me to hear.

I was exhausted and drained when I was back home.

It was as if she dumped her emotional garbage to me. She sucked up the good energy from me.

Some of you might have experienced the similar situation. Maybe you know exactly how I felt.

I blamed myself for my not being able to end the chatting and go back home earlier. I could have said some excuses to end her chatting, instead of wasting my time for two hours.

Right after I arrived at home, I received a text message from her. She said, she had fun chatting with me and she wants to have a get together with me.

I know my answer clearly. I don’t want to get any closer to this person. I didn’t want to hurt her feeling, though. So, I simply replied back to her, “maybe, one of these days.”

This was one month ago.

Since then, I tried to keep a “sacred distance” from her, gradually and naturally. She still sent me a text message several times, but I always replied back to her in a simpler sentence, so that it wouldn’t bring to a long conversation.

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Fast-forwarding to last Thursday.

The school sent out an emergency message to parents via phone. The message included two cancellations of the club activity in the afternoon of that day and the school of the following day, due to the upcoming winter storm.

I didn’t receive the call, due to the school’s system error. I got a relayed message from my husband, instead. I thought of the neighbor mom. Since the message was critical, I relayed the message to her by text message. I wanted to make sure she got this message, simply from my kindness.

I didn’t receive any reply from her. I didn’t feel comfortable for her not replying back to me, but I decided to take it positive way. She might have been busy at that time, and forgot to reply back to me later.

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To be honest, this morning I was reluctant to see her at the bus stop, but I decided to act normal.

When I saw her in the street, I smiled at her and greeted her. She didn’t do the same as I did. She seemed to be mad for something and ignored me. She said something in a strong voice tone to her children and passed by me.

I felt so uncomfortable. I was surrounded by negative feelings.

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I took a nice long breathing a couple of times and talked to my family spirits in my mind. Then, I got some messages from my family spirits as a block of thoughts. It was like this.

It was a great experience to remind me the important tip to live. Stay positive and stay in a high vibration no matter what. Don’t get affected by others and the environment.

Interestingly, it connects from the message I got yesterday in my backyard. I just received a message from weeds’ thick roots to root securely and firmly.

It followed by an “aha-moment.”

Didn’t I go through the similar uncomfortable situations while I was working for the organization in Japan? It was a real torture, wasn’t it? I needed to deal with the emotional roller-coaster coworkers for eight hours every day. I used to take it to personal. I used to get hurt by them.

Rest assured. They were all in the past. Look at how lucky I am now. She is not my coworker. I don’t need to deal with her in the same workplace every day.

Then, another “aha-moment” came into my mind.

At the recent parent conference, my daughter’s teacher praised my daughter’s stable emotion. My daughter stays happy and calm all the time. She doesn’t get affected by others or the environment. The teacher said it was thanks to us, parents, who stay emotionally stable and happy all the time. The teacher told us “You guys are doing very well on raising your daughter that way.”

According to the teacher, many students have an emotional roller-coaster issue. She believes it is due to their parents. Most likely their parents have terrible mood-swing issues. Children easily absorb their parents’ mood-swing habit.

Maybe, today’s incident happened to me to remind me the important tip. My staying happy and calm all the time is one of the greatest gifts that I can give it to my daughter.      

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After a couple of cold snowy days, we finally had a nice sunny day. I had a ton of laundry to take care of. While I was hanging clothes in my backyard, I felt nice warm sun light on my back. After I finished hanging all of them, I felt so good. My body received enough vitamin D from the sun light.

In my back yard there were so many tall green weeds growing. A good idea popped into my mind. We just had snow, and the snow melted into the ground. In this soft ground condition, it would be easy for me to pull them out.

I pulled one of them as a trial. It came out much easier than I thought. It was fun to pull it out. I started pulling them one by one. My daughter joined me in. We enjoyed moving around and dealing with the dirt for a while. I didn’t notice we had spent almost two hours in our yardwork.

Every time I pulled weeds in my backyard, I feel like I am pulling a huge Daikon out from the ground. The roots of the weeds in this area are huge and thick. The Daikon-like roots root firmly and securely in the ground.

We found many dandelion’s flowers here and there in our backyard.

While dealing with our backyard, these two plants gave me strong impacts. Maybe these two plants, Daikon and dandelion, will be my best medicines to heal my body at this moment.

After cleaned up the backyard, we felt refreshed and energized.

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My daughter had one baby tooth that needed to come out. It was the right front tooth.

The adult tooth was growing back of the baby one. We noticed this symptom at her last dental cleaning. The dentist told me if the tooth didn’t come out in another couple of weeks, I should make an appointment to pull it out.

The tooth didn’t come out after couple of weeks, but I wanted to wait her tooth naturally come out. So, I didn’t make an appointment.

It was at the end of June last year. Since then, her tooth was still there for eight months. I started worrying about it.

I looked up my homeopathic remedy guidebook. “Calc.” seemed to be a good remedy for this symptom. I also read some people’s reviews saying their children’s tooth naturally came out after several days of taking this homeopathic remedy.

I gave my daughter this remedy three days ago. I was supposed to give it to her every day, but I forgot about it.

It worked with such a small amount.

This evening my daughter felt somewhat unusual in the tooth. Once she touched it gently, it naturally came out. It was amazing.

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I woke up at 6 am. I run to the window and took a look of backyard. Although the winter storm warning was set from last night 11 pm, I saw nothing but wet ground in my backyard.

After the breakfast, when I was about to leave for a morning walk, my daughter stopped me. She said it started snowing hard. She wanted me to cancel my walking because it could be dangerous.

She was right. It started snowing very hard. It would be dangerous to walk, as a vehicle drivers would not see me walking.

It kept on snowing until late afternoon. We had a good amount of snow everywhere.

It was good that the school was closed, so that I could stay with my daughter. We enjoyed cuddling up together to stay warm.

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This afternoon I received a phone call from my husband. He relayed the emergency notice from my daughter’s school. The school will be closed tomorrow due to upcoming winter storm warning in Southern Arizona.

The public alerts says

“WINTER STORM WARNING.

* Heavy snow in the mountains. Expect total snow accumulations in the mountains of 10 to 20 inches between 5000 feet and 7000 feet and 20 to 40 inches with localized higher amounts above 7000 feet. The snow level will lower throughout the day with snow developing as low as 3500 feet. Total snow accumulations of 1 to 4 inches between 3500 and 4500 feet with higher amounts above 5000 feet can be anticipated. —- Quoted from Public Alerts Page

This is our first time of school shutting down due to snow. The alerts will be effected from 11 pm tonight to 8 pm tomorrow.

According to my daughter, some classmates started crying because they got so scared. I hope everything will calm down soon.

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I had my eleventh acupuncture treatment accompanied with tuina massage.

The tuina massage was so relaxing and calming. I loved it.

Today my acupuncturist recommended me the followings.

– Red Yeast Rice: to lower cholesterol

– Niacin / flush free: to treat high cholesterol and triglyceride levels

– Fish oil: to raise HDL (good cholesterol)

For the first two, I saw some side effect warnings from the internet research. I decide to keep doing more research before I purchase and take them.

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Since last night we had snow. This morning when I opened the curtain, I saw a nice quiet snow covered back yard.

I always love to have a quiet snowy day.

Only sad thing was though, today was the normal school day. I was not able to have a snow play with my daughter.

According to the weather news, we had the largest and brightest “supermoon” of the year. The peak of the “Snow Moon” was this morning February 19th 2019, at 8:54 a.m. in my area.

Unfortunately since the sky was totally covered by gray snowy clouds, I could not see it. Hopefully I will be able to enjoy the leftover full moon energy tonight.

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Today was a federal holiday observed President Day.

Last night when I checked the weather report, it said we would have a cold winter morning this morning. They foretasted the lowest temperature as -1C.

I woke up with the bright sun shine through the windows. I noticed it was already 9:30 am.  

I was shocked at the late hour I woke up.

But at the same time, I thought it was okay. Today was a holiday anyway. My daughter didn’t miss the school.

Maybe the morning got very, very cold, so that my body needed some more extra sleep.

My daughter on the other hand, was awake while I was having an extra sleep. She said she was up since 6 am. Interestingly, whenever she doesn’t have school, she tends to wake up earlier than usual.

I recall my younger days. I was like her. My body intuitively recognized the differences between school/work days and off days.

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I watched the movie Smoke Signals (1998) on DVD. It was my second time to watch it.

My first time was back in 1999. I watched it at the theater in Japan. Since this movie was not a big title, I needed to go to the theater in the bigger city.

I went to the theater alone. Simply because I wanted to weep whenever I wanted, without feeling embarrassed to my company.

I shed tears at the scenery where the main character, Victor, run through 20 miles to get some help after he had a car accident. While he was running, he had flash backs of the memories with his late dad. When his physical body almost reached its limitation, he saw a hallucinated image of his late father, holding his son’s body with his both arms. In the reality, it was a road worker man who happened to be there.

I was touched at this scenery. I know spirits can send earth angels whenever they want to support their loved ones. I believe it was his late father who sent the earth angel to help his son.

At that time I experienced many miracles to save my life. Now I know it was my family spirits who sent me many earth angels, so that I could fully believe in them. With their support, I had come to be able to believe in me.

 

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Fast-forwarding to current year, in 2019, while watching the same movie, I shed tears at the different scenery.

It was the scenery where the police officer accused Victor for the car accident. The police officer believed the other party of the car accident. The other party lied that Victor was drunk and driving. It was a stereotyped image toward Native Americans. Both of the police officer and other party were White.

It was just one scenery, but it touched my soul. I could not control my tears falling down. It was not physical me, but my soul, who was shedding tears.

My soul remembered these kinds of discrimination over and over again in my past lives. These uncomfortable experiences were imprinted in my soul.

In this lifetime, I am a foreigner in this country. I experience racial discrimination in the daily basis, which I never experienced while living in Japan.

Let’s face to the reality.

Even though we are living in the new era; we are not in 1800s nor 1900s anymore, racial discrimination is still going on in this country.

I believe there are things each one of us can do to fix it.

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Each one of us should think about our desires.

Each one of us should pray for our desires.

Each one of us should discuss about our desires with others.

Each one of us should take a small action every day.

Because I want to change the bad habit.

Because I want peace between all the races.

Because I want to live in the world where everybody is nice and kind to each other.

As my baby step, I keep myself being trustworthy.

As my baby step, I keep myself being nice and kind to others.

As my baby step, I keep speaking up about my desires.

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