When I woke up this morning, I touched my belly without thinking. I felt my belly has gotten tighter than before.

So I went to the bathroom and looked my naked body in the mirror. I was surprised at the muscular lines in my belly got visible.

Since March 28th of this year, I have continued doing my muscular workout routine almost every day. Yes, I said “almost”. I confess it’s not perfectly everyday. Whenever I was away from my house, I couldn’t keep it up. During the trip, it was hard for me to do my muscular workout on the hotel room floor. Maybe from next trip, I should bring my yoga mat for that. Anyhow, I have done it almost every day for these past seven months.

One of my purposes of the muscular training is to lose weight. Unfortunately, I haven’t seen any great improvement in my weight. It fluctuates; going up and down. My current weight is slightly lighter than the first day, by only 2lb (1kg). Other than that, I look the same in appearance. At least I feel so. Nobody hasn’t told me I look slimmer than before.

That being said, I do have some other improvements. I do feel much more energized than the first day. I feel my body got tighter and harder, and stronger than the first day. I like being myself more than the first day.

So, I guess these are the benefits from daily basis muscular training in terms of my feelings.

***

Like that, I started my day thinking about my muscle.

After breakfast, I checked my favorite blogger’s post as usual. There I experienced an interesting synchronicity.

She mentioned about muscle in her today’s post. She says many Japanese people have talked about muscular training and its benefits. The phrase “Muscle doesn’t betray me” has become their trend in Japan.

I like this phrase. It is to the point.

If I were to add some more explanations to this phrase, I would add like this.

“My muscle doesn’t betray me as long as I keep feeding good things to it. My muscle and I are in a mutual relationship; giving and taking in a good balance”.

Same thing can be applied to my writing practice. I have written my short article in my homepage since August 2016, so it has been continued for more than two years.

***

Once in a while we get disappointed for not being praised of our daily efforts, right? But as long as we keep doing our good routine, that kind of muscle does not betray us.

So, let us keep having a faith on what we are doing. All is well, really.

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This morning all of my family overslept. We woke up one hour later than usual. We all were still tired from our recent trip.

I was fine, but my husband and daughter had a sore throat and coughs. They were at the beginning stage of a cold.

I quickly made a homemade miso soup. The miso itself was my homemade. For the ingredient in the miso soup, I added daikon and some other vegetable that are helpful for healing the beginning stage of a cold. I also made an Ume-Sho-Bancha. It is one of the major Yakuzen, traditional Chinese medicine.

My family took some of each and left for work and school.

During their absence in the daytime, I prayed for their safety and health.

***

Everything worked.

When they came back in the evening, their cold symptoms were much improved than this morning.

I am glad they could overcome from a cold with the help of natural medicines, instead of any over-the-counter medicines.

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I want to share about the writing practice. At the writer’s workshop, we, attendees, were asked to participate in a writing practice.

We were given a certain topic. We simply kept on writing on our notebook or laptop computer for 5 minutes about the topic.

It was our personal practice. We didn’t need to share it with anybody. We were free to write whatever we wanted to write.

One of the given topics was “the reason why I write”.

Without thinking I started writing.

The reason why I write is because writing heals me.

This is the first line I wrote.

It is true writing heals me.

Once in a while I start writing focusing on some event. When I am mad about the certain event, I start writing without thinking about the conclusion or the final message. But in the process of writing, I am always guided to a divine message.

This is how it works.

By the process of writing, I can see the event objectively. That enables me to analyze the background and the reason why I had a certain emotion and feeling toward the event. By the end of writing for 5 minutes or so, my mind gets clear.

***

I am sure for one thing. Writing a book is one of my life missions I planned before my birth. That is why I still have a strong desire for it. At this moment I honestly don’t know when and how I will publish my book. And that is okay. It will reveal by itself.

All I know is I am strongly protected and guided by my family spirits. They have their best timing and the method for my highest good.

***

This is my solid reason why I can be for sure about it.

In my younger days, I knew I would marry to a Navajo or an Apache, and I would move to America for the latter half of my life. I just knew it would happen. But it didn’t happen in the way I expected.

By the time when I turned to my 30s, I started frustrated about it. I tried and tried, but nothing went as I expected. Toward the end of my 30s, I reached to the point where I completely surrender to my destiny. Then, the things started happening very naturally.

Here I am. I have a Navajo husband and we have our beautiful daughter, living happily in America.

***

I know from my personally experience, things will happen, as we planned before our birth. The important thing is to completely surrender to our higher power.

Thus, I commit myself. I completely surrender about publishing my books to Universe. I know the necessary processes will come to me naturally.

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While I was attending the workshop in Las Vegas on last weekend, my in-laws spent time with my husband and daughter. They left the hotel room around 9 am and came back after 6 pm.

From what I heard from them, they visited many different places for sightseeing.

During these two days, they seemed to walk a lot. My husband has a pedometer installed in his cell phone. It showed they walked 8 miles (12.9 km) on each day.

I was amazed my daughter could make it through all the long walk every day.

While walking on the main street, Las Vegas Strip, my husband saw many other children throwing a tantrum because they were tired from walking. He felt proud of our daughter, walking together at the same pace with adults. She never complained being tired.

When I heard that, I was proud of her too. At the same time, I felt happy that my becoming sick has contributed to building my family’s good health.

Since the discovery of my diabetes in 2014, my family has had an evening walking as our daily routine. We usually walk for 40 minutes, sometimes for one hour every evening.

Along with the daily walking, I walk to the school bus stop with my daughter every morning and evening. Probably we are the only one or two walking to the bus stop. The majority of other students come to the bus stop by their parents’ car. My daughter often complains about that. She would nudge me why I cannot give her a ride to the bus stop. I like walking with her. I probably keep walking to the bus stop regardless of my daughter’s complain.

She will eventually appreciate me for our walking habit. Or, she already has notices the benefit from our daily walking habit.  

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Late last night we made it back home safely. We were exhausted from the long drive. Every time when I come back from a trip, I appreciate my home. It’s always wonderful to take a nice long bath in my bath tub and sleep in my bed. My home is the best place to relax and stay being myself.

This morning I woke up with the memory of my dream.

My late friend visited me in my dream. She showed up and embraced me. Her loving energy made me cry. My tears were not for sadness, but for happiness from her huge love.

Part of me knew it was in the dream, but I felt her existence so real. I was shedding tears in real. I was even crying out loud that I could hear my crying voice in real.  

My friend held my hand and took me to a beautiful garden. There, many different and beautiful vegetables and fruits were growing. She pointed one produce. When I focused on it, it was already in my friend’s both hands. It was a big broccoli. It was a size of a volleyball. Very beautiful green. It was shining.

She put the broccoli into my both hands. She gave me the broccoli. She said with her beautiful smile, that it was now mine. She gave me a huge hug again and told me not to forget about this dream. Then she left.

I woke up almost at the same timing as she left. When I woke up, I was filled with her love. I could still feel the big broccoli in my hands.

I checked the time on my cell phone. It was 5 minutes before my alarm would go off.   

***

After I saw off my husband to work and my daughter to school, I went back to my routine.

I spent almost all daytime for the after-trip-chores, such as laundry, cleaning the house, and unpacking. I am a clean freak so that I could stop myself to wipe off all the baggage inside and out, and all the wheels. I vacuumed and wiped off the interior of my car. By the time when I finished cooking healthy homemade food for my family, it was already time for me to pick my daughter up from school.

I enjoyed the trip, but I also love my normal daily routine.

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Today was the departure day of Las Vegas, heading back to my house.

Luckily there was no arguments from the people in our next room last night. They sounded they made peace. All I could hear from them was their happily singing and laughing together. So, I could sleep well.

I had some dreams but I didn’t remember the details. All I remembered was I was laughing and feeling happy in my dreams. I guess that means all is well.

***

I want to share a little bit of the workshop. We had Matt Kahn as one of the guest speakers.

One of my friends is a huge fan of Matt, so she often forwards me Matt’s mediation video links. That is how I knew his name and work. I have listened to his guided meditation videos, but to be honest, his guidance didn’t resonate with me that much.

That being said, watching somebody in the video and actually seeing the person in real are totally different.

When Matt stood up in the stage and greeted to everyone, I liked his calm energy. He was a small guy in his physical body. He asked the staff member to raise the microphone volume because he spoke very softly. I like these aspects about him. I like people who speak softly. I like people who are humble and respectful.

In his speech, there was one part that resonated with me so much.

He said, because he was born as a Caucasian male in this lifetime, he is automatically responsible for what Caucasian males did in the past. He said “I am responsible for whatever mistakes we have done to many other people.” He also mentioned he would like to apologize for all of them.

He continued that was why he devotes his life to serve humans, in order to achieve the total peace among humans.

***

His statement was huge for me. My soul trembled. I almost cried out loud. I calmed myself down, and thanked him in my mind quietly.

***

If I have to choose only one part that I loved the most during the two workshop, I would definitely choose Matt’s statement. Hearing his statement was my main purpose for attending at this workshop.

It was great to know at least one person sincerely wants to apologize for the past mistakes and to make it up by building the total peace among humans.

I will support his work from now on. Thank you for your sincere statement.

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My last day of the workshop started from attending in a group mediation. When I got to the room, there were already many people. Most seats were taken, so I sat down on the floor with other people.

Matt Kahn guided us to a meditation. He likes to have the audience to repeat mantra or prayer after him. When he said the mantra “I am the light, the light I am”, the woman sitting next to me started crying so hard. This mantra didn’t hit me at all, but it struck right on her. I kind of envy her that she could feel spirits.

***

During today’s workshop, I chatted with one woman sitting next to me. She was also probably slightly older than me. She came alone, same as I. I liked her soft demeanor. We chatted from time to time. I wanted to talk to her more, but I was feeling a little sick with a slight headache. She seemed to be tired too. She left the event room early, so I didn’t have opportunity to ask her contact information before she left. I regretted for not asking her contact information before she left.

***

As for the couple whom I met at the pool last night, I found them sitting on the last row. On every break, when I was about to go up to them, they were talking with somebody else. I didn’t want to disturb their conversation and I refrained talking to them. At least I have their contact information, I could contact them after the event.

***

There was some booths outside of our convention room. They were some book stores from Hay House, along with some other stores such as a gem store and a sauna store.

While I was browsing around the booths, one Asian woman at the sauna store greeted me with her smile. Since I liked her natural smile and friendliness, I started conversation with her. She asked me if I wanted to try a 10-minutes sauna for free of charge, I said yes. There were three demo machines but all was taken. The Asian woman told me I would be the next, when one of these three people were done. I said okay to her, and we exchanged our smile.

All of a sudden, I felt some unpleasant energy. I got chills in my arms. When I turned back, there was a Caucasian woman standing right behind me. She had some cold and crucial energy around her. She was probably a supervisor of the Asian woman, working together at the sauna booth.

The Caucasian woman came to me and stared me in the face. Now I got chills all over my body. I smiled to her but she didn’t smile back to me. Her both eyes were bloodshot and her face was pale. She said something to me, which I don’t clearly remember. Her low voice tone with her mad face expression made me feel uncomfortable. I felt as if I was scolded by her. I instantly replied back to her, “Oh, no, I am fine.” And I quickly left from her and went back into the event room.

After dealing with the Caucasian woman, for some reasons, I felt like I was about to cry. I felt depressed and sad. I realized the Caucasian woman was an energy vampire.

I went to the corner of the room. I drew reiki symbol in the air and covered myself with the healing energy. I also took several deep breathes, imaging I am breathing in white light energy to my body and berating out any unnecessary negative energy that I received from the energy vampire woman. A couple of minutes later, I finally succeeded to calm me down. I was back to normal. I didn’t have negative feeling nor crying temptation left in me anymore.

***

I noticed another thing. Every time when I walked through the casino area, which I had to go through from the event room to my hotel room, I felt uncomfortable. I felt negative feelings such as anger and sadness.

I had to pay attention to my energy and clean up unnecessary negative energy that does not belong to me.

***

When I mentioned it to my husband, he totally agreed with me. I am glad he could feel the same way as I did.

***

By the end of our third day in Las Vegas, we already miss our home. We look forward to leaving Las Vegas and going back home tomorrow.

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Last night we slept in the hotel at Las Vegas. I could not sleep well. Despite of the expensive price we are paying, our hotel was far from staying comfortably.

The first reason was the odor. The room was stinky. Even though we ordered a non-smoking room, I could smell cigarette everywhere in the room. Because this hotel is old, they probably used to allow their customers to smoke inside the room. Maybe all the walls and furniture have sucked in the bad smell for many years.

The second reason was the thin wall. I could hear everything from the people in our next room, as if they were staying in the same room of ours. I went bed with my family around 9 pm last night. After tossing and turning in bed for a while, I could somewhat fall asleep. But my peaceful sleep was disturbed by the people of our next room.

They sounded like a married couple. They started arguing. Both of them were extremely mad and their voices were pretty loud. I checked the time on my cell phone. It was 00:43.

The wife was pretty mad. From her statement, the husband, Dave, just lost a pretty good amount of money in casino. The wife started complaining about the husband’s wasting money in gambling, and then, continued complaining about their daily life, in details.

The husband didn’t apologize nor admit to his wife. Instead, he started complaining about his wife about this and that.

I thought to myself, “why are they arguing about all the topics that are nothing to do with now? Why can’t they just enjoy their vacation, instead of arguing in the middle of night in the vacation hotel?”

I knew though, it is due to the energy of Las Vegas. This city holds so much negative energy and feelings such as sad, regrets, and mad. These negative energy made people easily lose their temper and start arguing.

The last time I checked the time was after 2 am. I guess I finally could fall asleep after that.

***

It was the first day of the workshop. My in-laws visited us in our hotel room in the morning. I asked them to stay with my daughter, and my husband escorted me to the event room. After I saw him off back to the hotel room, I had an overwhelmed feeling being alone in the big event room.

I took an aisle seat. A woman sat down behind of my seat. She was slightly older than me. After I greeted her, we had a short chat. She came alone just like me, and she seemed to be shy just like me. I was hoping to get to know her more, but I was too shy to ask her a bunch of questions. Although we had a casual chat from time to time during the event, I could not even ask her name.

***

When the event started, I quickly scanned about the audience. At the very first sight, my eyes caught something unexpected. There were two people whom I have known from Gaia TV and Youtube channel. They are a married couple who are a spiritual teacher, healer and clairvoyant. I bought his book a couple of years ago. He wrote down his near death experiences in the book. I had some similar experiences with his, and I wanted to talk with him so badly.

My heart started pounding so fast. I really wanted to go up to them and introduce myself. I wanted to talk with them. I could have done so. I had many opportunities to do so. One time the wife was standing right before me in the bathroom waiting line. I could have introduced me to her. I really should have taken out my courage to do so, but I didn’t take any actions. What a coward I was!

***

My main purpose to attend this live event was to reconnect with my soul tribe. My first day ended with no progress.

***

When I got back to the hotel room at the end of the day, I was disappointed that I didn’t make any new friends. My husband and daughter were still out with my in-laws, spending their great time together. My husband texted me that they would be back in one hour or so. I decided to go to the Jacuzzi while waiting for their return.

Before I left the room, I had a little conversation with my family spirits. I asked their support. I am too shy to talk to somebody. If there are my soul tribe, please have them find me and talk to me.

***

While I was walking on the pool floor, I had a hard time to find the pool entrance. From my behind, there was a couple walking. They asked me if I was looking for the pool entrance. I turned back and looked at them. I saw a beautiful smile on their faces. I instantly felt comfortable with their warm energy.

Since our encounter was just right after my prayer to my family spirits, I was brave enough to talk to them naturally. I could even ask them to exchange our names and email addresses. We found out we attended at the same workshop.

They sure made my day. I was so glad to have met them. I look forward to getting to know them more tomorrow during the workshop.

I appreciate my family spirits to listen to my prayer always. They are amazing, always.

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Early morning we departed for our long road trip. I am going to attend at Hay House’s Writer’s Workshop in Las Vegas on this weekend.

It takes us an eight-hour drive from our house to Las Vegas.

I am so grateful for my husband and daughter to support me for this trip. Without their kind support, I would not have courage to attend this event all by myself.

Also I appreciate my in-laws. They are heading to Las Vegas, so that my husband and daughter can spend time together with them during the weekend. Without their kind offer, I would worry and concern my family while I am away from them. I am sure they will have a great time together.

Just thinking about these supports I am receiving, I am sure everything is in a good timing. I feel confident it is my right time to attend this event. I look forward to attending to this event.

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Today I spent most of my daytime in getting ready and meditating for my upcoming weekend workshop.

I ask my family spirits for our safety and happiness during our trip.

I appreciate for my family and in-laws to join me for this trip.

I have a huge favor to my family spirits during this workshop. It’s to reunite with my spiritual tribe. I followed my strong intuition to attend this workshop. I feel my spiritual tribe will be there. I am sure they are feeling strong energy from me at this moment, just like I am feeling theirs at this moment.

I am sure once I meet the right ones, I will instantly know that.

I have missed them so much. I am excited to reunite with them.

I trust my intuition.

I trust my family spirits’ guidance.

I trust my spiritual tribe’s strong desire to reunite with me.

I believe in miracles.

I believe in myself to attract and create miracles as needed.

Everything is possible.

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