I went to the local laboratory. At this laboratory, people can order a lab test on their own, even without a doctor’s order. Each test fee is clearly described in their official website, and their fees are affordable.

Beforehand I made an appointment and ordered the tests online. I ordered two tests. One is called “Expanded Health Profile”. It contains checking on Heart (lipid panel) and Liver and Kidney. The other one is hemoglobin A1C.

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The great thing about this lab is its quick process. By the night I received the result.

My numbers in the category of Liver/Kidney (CMP – Comprehensive Metabolic Panel) were all within the good range.

My A1C (The hemoglobin A1c) was 6.9%. My last one of this April was 7.3%, so it was improved by 0.4%. It is not a wonderful number but I am happy for its improvement. It is within the green light, which is 6.0% to 6.9%.

As for my numbers in the category of Heart (Lipid Panel – Cholesterol, Triglycerides, HDL, LDL, VLDL), I also had a bit improved. The numbers of Cholesterol, HDL, and LDL were within the normal range. However, I still need to work on lowering Triglycerides and VLDL. They were still very high. The triglycerides was 313, which was supposed to lower than 149.

In order to work on the triglycerides, I will intake one large spoon of apple cider vinegar before the breakfast every day. I will start this habit from tomorrow morning.

I am planning to take a next lab test at the beginning of January next year. I hope my daily effort of taking apple cider vinegar every day will show some improvement in the number.

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I had my 10th acupuncture treatment with my first acupuncturist. I had an acupuncture treatment 7 times with my second acupuncturist.

Before I left my house, I made a firm mind on not to talk anything about my personal life negatively. It will affect my health. I don’t want to talk anything about my health and my family, and I don’t want to hear my acupuncturist’s speaking ill of my family or commenting her negative opinions. I know from my previous experiences, that none of them was helpful.

***

At the treatment room, I was successful on not talking about anything negatively. As usual, my acupuncturist asked me a series of routine questions including about my parents and family. I stayed calm and didn’t say anything. I just calmly replied back to her that everything is good and stays the same.

Before the treatment, my acupuncturist performed her usual diagnosis of my pulse and tongue. She said everything got stronger than my previous visit, which was three weeks ago.

Now I finally learned. I should stay calm to any kinds of questions. I don’t necessarily need to answer to all of her questions. I am in charge of talking care of my body. I should eliminate whatever my body reacts negatively.

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I watched a Japanese animation movie Tokyo Godfathers (2003).

At the beginning when I started watching it, I was overwhelmed by the drawings. They were a bit grotesque to me. I continued watching it anyway, because I liked the voice actors and actresses. They were acting well.

The storyline was amazing. Watching this movie is like a riding a roller coaster. The three main characters escort the audience to a whole bunch of different emotions; laughter, joy, depression, sadness, and anger.  

I am not going to write down the detailed story here, because I don’t want to spoil people’s fun part in finding out the ending. What I can emphasize here is that it was a great movie. I loved it. I really would like to recommend many people to watch this movie.

It contains lots of spiritual aspects.

The baby is described as the one who attracts all the holy coincidences and good lucks.

I interpret the baby as a symbol of spirituality or God within us.

Once we fully believe in us; the God within us, we start feeling the life is nothing but fun. We should cherish everybody and every event we run into in our lives. Because indeed, everything and everybody is in fact connected each other.

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I woke up at 5 am. I noticed myself crying out loud. My both eyes and cheeks were wet with lots of tears.

I was with my mom in my dream. I completely understood how my mom is feeling.

What I felt was real.

When I saw my mom last time in this March, I was shocked to see how skinny she got. She was aware of my being shocked. She told me she has lost some more pounds after the surgery. She now looks very sick with the bonny-skinny body.

She doesn’t want me to see her like that. She wants me to remember her as the way she was happy and healthy in her younger age.

She brought back my memories about my grandfather and my aunt. Both were my maternal side of family who already passed away. When they got really sick and stayed in the hospital at the last moment of their lives, my mom never allowed me to see them in the hospital. She always told me she wanted me to remember them as in a healthy looking, not in a very sick condition. It was my mom’s way of expressing her love to everybody, including her father and older sister and me.

Thanks to my mom’s effort, I still remember my grandfather and aunt in their good shape. Because I didn’t see them in a very sick situation, they always look young and happy in my memory. I appreciate my mom for that.

Now I totally understand what my mom wants me to do. She wants me to stay strong for not visiting her at this moment. She wants me to stand firmly about my decision.

***

There is no rights or wrongs in this type of decision.

Some people will blame me for not visiting my parents while they are very sick. They will go see their parents even their parents ask them not to come. That is their right decision.

As for me, I decided to respect my mom’s will. As long as she doesn’t want me to visit her in her sick condition, even I cannot see her at the death bed, it is our right decision.

People will say whatever they want about my decision. I made my mind firmly, that I am determined to my decision and my rightfulness.

Now I am back to strong. I have repaired my tear in my energy field.

Nothing can bother me. Nobody can hurt me anymore.

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My day went by so fast.

First, I discussed with my family about the date of my upcoming trip to Japan. My husband and daughter were supportive all the time.

We decided my trip date during my daughter’s school session. In that way, she will be fed for breakfast and lunch at the school cafeteria. My husband will talk with his supervisor about his work shift. If he can go to work little bit later and come back earlier than normal work shift, my daughter won’t need to spend all by herself at home. I decided to cook their foods for one week during the trip in advance and keep them as frozen, so that they still will be able to eat homemade foods every day while I am gone.

Second, I talked with the travel agency and reserved an airplane ticket.

Third, I made an online reservation for the hotel that is closest to my parents’ house.

By the time when these tasks were done, I already felt exhausted.

In the evening I talked with my parents on the phone.

There, I heard lots of information that I didn’t know.

My mom never told me how bad her health condition was. All I knew was she had a laparoscopic surgery for the colon cancer. I knew the surgery is an old-people friendly surgery. The smaller incisions enable the patients to have smaller scars and heal faster than that with open surgery. I thought the surgery went well for her. I was still wondering why she has to go through a series of chemotherapy treatments.

What my dad told me cleared up my questions. The doctor could not get rid of the cancer cell from the laparoscopic surgery because the cancer cells were scattered everywhere in her body. The doctor told my parents that if my mom does not take chemotherapy, her remainder life would be less than six months.  

I was shocked to hear that. That was why my mom didn’t tell me any detailed information about the surgery.

My mom was reluctant with the chemotherapy. My brother and I wanted to respect my mom’s will about the chemotherapy. We both concern about the side effects from the chemotherapy. However, my dad strongly suggested my mom to take it. My mom always listens to my dad, so she had no option to reject the chemotherapy.

My mom already had the chemotherapy treatments twice. The first one was on July 23rd and the second one was on August 7th. Since the chemotherapy treatments, she started expressing her deep depression.

I mentioned about my personal opinion. My mom should follow her heart about the chemotherapy. She feels that the chemotherapy is affecting her in both physically and mentally. She wants to stop it. The only one reason why she cannot stop is my dad. He constantly suggests my mom to have it. He always threatens my mom by saying “or else“ that she will die soon, by the end of this year.

About my coming to visit them, my mom kept on asking me to postpone the trip until next year. From her voice tone, I could tell she meant it. My dad also asked me to respect my mom’s will about my visiting them. I decided to respect her will.

After I hang up the phone with my parents, I canceled my airplane ticket and the hotel reservation.

***

During the evening walk, I mentioned everything to my husband. He strongly suggested me to visit them. He would go visit them if he was in my situation. With hearing his advice, my heart was completely lost.

***

After came back from the walk, I called my mom again and told her I changed my mind. I told her I wanted to see them. My mom’s mind was set. She begged me not to come at this moment. She begged me to wait until next year, and come see them with my daughter. With hearing her determined voice, I again told her I would wait for next year. Then I hang up the phone.

***

Before going to sleep, I asked my family spirits to show me the right way for me to do about visiting my parents.

Should I visit them as soon as possible, without listening to mom’s will? Or, should I listen to my mom’s will and visit them with my daughter in next year?    

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In my dream of this morning I was with my ancestors. They told me to purify all the foods and drinks. They showed me I can do so with using some Kusuri-e or even with my palm to send Reiki energy through. I thanked them and came back to my physical body.

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I created my altar, followed the advice from my friend.

I prepared a desk specifically for the altar. I put my quilt blanket on the desk as a base of the altar. I sewed this quilt in 2014. It contains four different fabrics. The colors are all blue, but each fabric has its own unique shade of blue and design. It forms a bunch of stars. The color reminds me of the Universe.

On top of the quilt, I put two different size of Tibetan bells. The bigger one gives off a deeper sound and the smaller one gives off a high-toned sound. When I ring them at the same time, they make the beautiful harmonious sound. I am sure my ancestors love this bell sound.

I also put a small ceramic container, which is specially made for essential oils. My ancestors will love the nice and gentle fragrance. It works as offering an incense stick.

I also put a notebook, a piece of crystal stone, and a pendulum. They will be helpful for me to communicate with them.   

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Today is the birthday of my small business; Three Wisdom. Happy birthday to my small business.

I started writing this small article on August 22nd 2016. I made through writing it every day for three years.

I enjoy writing every day.

Through writing, I can connect with my family spirits.

That is why writing is my way of healing.

I hope there will be somebody in the world who enjoy reading my articles.

I hope my articles will be some help for them.

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I had an appointment with my friend. I hadn’t seen her for a while. The last time I saw her was in 2016.

She is gifted to convey messages from spirits. Recently for these past three weeks, I have been feeling confused and depressed. I wanted to reconnect with my family spirits. So, I asked her for help.

***

Right after we sat down on a chair, she started passing down the messages to me.

The messages were like this.

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<About an altar>

My ancestors want me to create an altar to connect with them. They are eager to connect with me. They also want me to prepare a notebook specifically for them. They will talk to me through the altar and the notebook, and they want me to write them down.

I can offer whatever I think it right for them through the altar. It can be a beautiful sound from a bell or a nice fragrance from an essential oil. I can even offer a fruit or some foods to show my love to them.

<About visiting my parents>

My Japanese parents are missing me so much. It is important for me to visit them. I should go there by myself for one week or so. There will be something very important they want me to carry on or they want to give me. It should be something like a family history or something that is important for me to carry on. It is my ancestor’s desire as well.

My alone trip to Japan will become an eye-opening and unforgettable one for me. It will be good for everybody, not only for me but also for my Japanese parents and my family in America.

<About my daughter>

While I am gone to Japan alone, she will be fine. It will be beneficial for her to grow mentally and spiritually.

My daughter is originally a strong and independent soul. Since she has a thick layer of energy protection shield, she does not get easily affected by other people’s negative energy. She will eventually work as a healing career as I do. However, her approach to heal others is not same as mine. Since she is gifted at analyzing and quickly-understanding scientific knowledge, she might become a doctor.

<About my spiritual service to others>

She confirmed my spiritual gift is still in me. I can hear from spirits clearly. I always have it and use it all the time in my daily life.

Pretty soon, actually three months after I come back from the trip to Japan, I will start helping other people as a life coach.

My method is a mathematical way using numbers. It can be astrology, numerology, or Feng Shui. In her vision, I was using a card, just like a bingo card; its size was around 5 x 7 inches. My client will pick the numbers they are attracted, and I will read the energy of the numbers.

In her vision I was also using a piece of wood. She feels it is from Japan. It contains spiritual power, and works as a portal to the higher dimension. It is twisted with veins and knots in it. I don’t have it right now. It will be gifted to me or I will find it by myself. I will receive it during my visit in Japan this time.

<About my energy sensitiveness>

I am also good at energy healing, but I should not do it by touching other people’s body. That is why I should not become a professional massage therapist.

Because I am very sensitive to energy, it is too risky for me to offer a healing energy by touching people’s body. When I touch other people’s body, I easily get influenced by their negative energy. They will get healed instantly, because I will absorb other people’s negative energy in my body.

In order to put a strong energy shield around my body, I should constantly check my energy field and cleanse it as needed. Scrubbing skin with a mixture of almond oil and sea salt will be helpful. Washing off my feet by running water every time when I come back from somewhere will also be beneficial.

There are many “hungry ghosts” around me. Because I am energy-sensitive, it is easy for them to spot me. They are wanting to be recognized and fed. In order to fulfill their hunger, on full moon night, I should put a bag of seven different grains of rice in the back yard. Leave it there all night. In the next morning, I should put it on the ground to the west for them.

The hungry ghosts are not necessarily bad spirits. They are attracted to me because they like my energy being kind and gentle. Once the hungry ghosts are fed and got my attention, they are willing to help me on helping others. They will happily stay with me and join in my family spirits.

Whenever I feel depressed, which is caused by the hungry ghosts, I should offer a pinch of the grains of rice and them to the ground for a hungry ghost. It should be no more than three grains; not a handful. Less than three is a just right size of amount for them.

Once I fully learn to shield myself from any negative energy of outside, I will be able to offer healing energy to others.

***

It was very nice seeing her. I appreciate her for conveying these messages to me. I was able to shed lots of healing tears. On my way back home after meeting with her, I felt being energy-cleansed.

***

After today’s session, I noticed one thing.

Recently while I was talking with my friend, just a tiny one phrase my friend told me pierced into my heart. After I finished talking with her, I didn’t feel comfortable.

I didn’t know why I got hurt by her phase at that time. Now I know the reason why.

I got hurt because I sensed my friend’s bullying energy. I could not feel her love through her saying this to me. She intended to hurt me by saying that. Please don’t get me wrong. She is still my friend. I like her. She is not originally a bad person. She was not nice at that moment though, because she spotted my weak energy, and so, she took a role of “a bully” toward “a weak one.”

While I am writing this, I am not weak any more. Thus, if she says the same phrase to me right now, I won’t get hurt at all. If I sense her wrong intention to hurt me right now, I will automatically enhance my energy shield so that I will be able to block her mean intention.

What I learned today is this.

When we are surrounded by a weak energy field, or when our energy field is broken or has a tear, anybody can easily hurt us by even a tiny wording.

Thus, that is why we always have to pay attention to our energy field. If we have any tear, fix it as soon as possible.  

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I had an interesting experience this morning.

While I was driving a car, a car going before me suddenly exhausted white smoke. The smoke quickly formed a huge circle of blind spot that made the car totally invisible.

I always maintain an enough safe following distance from the former car, so I didn’t get involved in an accident. On the next second when the smoke cleared up, the car was disappeared.

It was my very first time to see such a scenery.

My husband and friend said they have seen the similar view. They said the car probably had a trouble in the coolant.

I interpreted it in a different way.

I thought it might be a time machine. It was similar to the last scene of the movie “Back to the Future (1985)” when the main character went back to the future. With the huge electric shock or something powerful energy shifted, the car suddenly disappeared. It was like that.

Or, it might be a prank from my family spirits to make me laugh. I had been depressed for a while. I needed to laugh outloud in order to release my serious energy.  

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I purchased the audio data of the Kusuri-e author; Mr. Nobuhiro Maruyama.

It was a 138-minutes voice recording of one of his seminars talking about his Kusuri-e.

His lecture was inspiring. I liked him talked casually about the spirituality. I wish I could be there in person so that I could witness the participants got healed with his Kusuri-e.

What I liked the most was his explanations of the spiritual logic with using his personal experiences. He emphasized that we are all God and that we all can create the future as we like.

I knew the logic. As a matter of fact, I often mention it to my family and friends whenever I want to encourage/inspire them. But today, I was deeply touched by his words.

Maybe it is because I almost forgot about it.

Maybe I needed to hear it again from somebody else.

I appreciate him to remind me the important logic. I tend to forget this logic, so I need to hear it over and over again and keep being aware of it.

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