I watched the movie Maudie (2016). It is based on the true story of a Canadian painter, Maud Lewis.

I like this movie very much. The main character loves painting. Even though she has grown up to an adult, she still can draw something very pure, just like a young age child can draw. When she was hired as a housemaid, she started painting a bunch of drawings everywhere of her employer’s house. Her drawings were on the windows, walls, and furniture. When she found some scraped wooden boards, she used them as her canvas.  

I know how a natural born painter does. To them, anything and anywhere can be their canvas. And they can stay happy as long as they can express their creativity through drawing. I know that because my daughter is one of them. She loves drawing. Our house is filled with her art works.

Once we buy our won house, I want her to decorate our house with her awesome drawings on the windows, walls, and furniture. She cannot do so that much freely, because our current house is for rent. I look forward to living in such the fun house, in the near future.

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My day starts with reading a message on the calendar Ask and It Is Given Perpetual Flip Calendar created by Esther and Jerry Hicks (Author).

I really liked today’s message (May 6th). It resonated with me, so that I would like to share with you.

It says

“When you stay aligned with your Energy Stream, you always win –and somebody else does not have to lose for you to win” — cited from their calendar.

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This morning my daughter woke up crying. She had a nightmare of being involved in the war.

I told her not to worry. It was probably one of her past life events.

The positive aspect however is that everything has been evolving. We all have been learning and getting smarter in every moment. The same tragedy cannot be happened again.

As long as we all remember the Universal logic “we all can win,” we don’t need to compete or make somebody to be a loser in order to make us a winner. We all can win. Let’s make our efforts to have a win-win situation on every aspect.

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In our backyard, we have many visitors every day. The most present ones are birds. Their singing songs are always beautiful and uplifting. We have a family of lizard, which I don’t’ mind. I saw a family of mouse, which I do mind, to be honest.

Among them, there is one same cat visiting our backyard very often, almost every day. I do mind her visiting to our backyard. She likes digging around my vegetable garden. As a matter of fact, I had been searching around some good ways to prevents cats from come to our backyard. All I learned from my research was there was no such way to prevents cats from coming to our area. They can jump to a high fence. They can squeeze their body into small gap to enter. They are free anyway.

Today I watched the movie Peter Rabbit. I enjoyed the movie as an entertainment, but I also learned something from the movie.

At the beginning, the main character hates the wild life, especially rabbits. He tries to get rid of them from his garden. The more he hates them, the more the rabbits senses the hate feeling and attacks back to him. During the war, it is nothing but chaos. Once he decides to make peace with them, everything starts turning much more fun.   

After I watched this movie, I finally realized one thing. Animals are energy sensitive. They stay at their comfortable place.

In our case of the cat, the cat comes and stays in our backyard because she likes our place. I can appreciate for that, because that means our housing area is filled with comfortable and pleasant energy.  

So, from now on, I am not going to think about the war toward the car. Instead, I will honor the cat’s free will. She wants to come and stay at our backyard as long as she wants.

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Today is my friend’s birthday. I always feel awe when I think about how we met.

We met at the camping program during the summer vacation. Our houses were not close at all, but we lived in the prefecture. Our prefecture offered the camping program for kids at the mountain area, where was pretty isolated from main cities.

I saw the poster at the door of the teachers’ room. When I saw the poster, I instantly thought I had to attend this camp. It had the participation fee that I could not afford to pay from my monthly allowance. I was surprised when my parents not only approved me to participate at the camp but also paid for the participation fee right away.

To think back those days, I really was meant to participate at this camp. I met my friend there. We have been close friends since then.

I heard her daughter envy us to have met such a good and lifelong friend at our young age. It is true we are lucky to have each other.

In every day’s life, there might be a precious meeting with somebody who will become your life-long friend.   

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Today I woke up sick. I had spent almost all day in bed sleeping. I needed to have that much resting.  

Yesterday after I came back from the acupuncture treatment, I had spent the rest of my day sobbing. My both eyes were swollen and I had suffered from dull headache.

Last night I had a good talk with my husband and daughter. They are willing to support me on my healing.

One of the findings during the acupuncture treatment of yesterday was my husband’s Japanese language. When my mom and my husband met for the first time in Japan, my mom asked him to study Japanese. My mom said she wanted to communicate with my husband in Japanese. My husband promised he would.

However, it never happened.

In these past 10 years, I reminded him from time to time. He didn’t like hearing that and he would get mad at me. I have met many international marriage couple. They have made efforts to master their spouses’ language so that both of husband and wife can speak both languages to communicate. I always feel envious of them. Between my husband and me, the only language we can communicate is English. I feel it unfair. I have made efforts in mastering English, while he hasn’t. In order for a good communication, we need mutual efforts. I mentioned that to my husband last night.

I experienced a small effort this morning.

This morning, my husband said to me “Ohayo” (good morning in Japanese). Then, right before he left for work, he said “Itte-kimasu” (“off I go” in Japanese).

Just only two words, but they were enough to make me feel happy.

I never thought I have gotten hurt by my husband’s not speaking Japanese. We always hide our true feeling deep inside of our mind. Once in a while, we need to clean up such clutter, before it gets piled up to become a cause to bother your body.  

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I went to my first appointment of acupuncture treatment.

I had filled with the long list of questionnaire regarding my medical history beforehand. Based on the list, the acupuncturist asked me many questions about my life. Chinese medicine takes consideration of the balance holistically between body, mind, and spirit. That is why they need to know about a patient from every angle. Their approach to a patient is similar to that of homeopathy treatment.

The acupuncturist checked my blood pressure, pulse, and tongue.

According to her diagnosis, I am lacking in Yin energy. That is why my body keeps warm and I keep feeling thirsty. That makes sense to me. I had lived for about 40 years close to ocean and we had lots of rain. My body had used to be surrounded in the high humidity environment. My current environment however, is very dry with low humidity. As a matter of fact, my regular body temperature has been slightly higher than before.

Another diagnosis was my sadness. My tongue showed the line of sadness. And it also showed the weakness of my lung. She said it is common for a person who devastates from deep sadness to have weakness in lung. Lung represents emotion.  

I like this acupuncturist. I could sense her willingness and passion to heal her patients. I felt relaxed and comfortable. I felt like I was embraced with something huge loving entity surrounding her energy field.

During the counseling, I talked about my life history up until now. I noticed I had gone through a lot in my life. Before the counseling, I thought myself as a very happy person. I thought of myself as stress-free. I was surprised I started crying so hard when it came to talking about the current life. They were related to my loneliness living on this land.

I have social anxiety disorder. I don’t scare of people in my county Japan, but I do here in America.

During the acupuncture treatment, I felt that my diabetes comes from the disorder of mind. My body is supposed to function properly. In my case, diabetes had come to me as a sign of “no sweetness in life.”

I am confident that I will be able to heal with the help of acupuncture treatment. I look forward to my upcoming treatment with her.

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In the television show, they introduced one actress who recently lost 12 kg (26 lbs.) for only three month. She looked much younger than her age. She also looked happy and healthy.

She got the help with the private gym program. There is a popular private gym program in Japan. Based on their official website, the fee for their basic program for 3 months is 530,000 JPY (approximately 5,000 USD). It is definitely not a casual amount that people can take it spontaneously. However, considering of the result, it might be worth to pay it.

After all, money is energy. When somebody really needs the proper help, the expensive fee that they have paid is the equal amount of their willingness.

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I really want to reverse my diabetes. After I prayed my family spirits for support, the vision of acupuncture popped into my mind.

I think it was back in summer 2016 when I attended the presentation about acupuncture.

The acupuncturist was originally from Germany. She was probably in her early 60s. She seemed to be well-experienced with acupuncture treatment by offering it to many patients for many years. What impressed me the most was she could tell the patient’s health condition by inspecting their tongue. In her presentation, she said “the tongue shows the person’s the general health of the organs and meridians”. 

She offered all the attendance a demonstration of acupuncture. She poked two needles each of our ear (four needles on both ears) to enhance our energy flow. I was amazed at the fact even these tiny needles triggered the energy flow. My body temperature was raised and I immediately started sweating.

I was fascinated with her acupuncture treatment. I wanted to make an appointment with her right away, but I didn’t. The reason for pulling me back was the fee. Since acupuncture was not covered by my health insurance, I would need to pay the fee of 100% out-of-pocket. It was not that reasonable amount, at least for me.

Now the situation was changed. I desperately need any support and help to heal my diabetes. I am willing to pay for any support and help I need.

So, I called her and made an appointment for the acupuncture treatment. I also went to their office to pick up the paper work that I need to fill up before my appointment.

My appointment is set at Wednesday morning, two days from today. I really, really hope the acupuncture treatment will trigger my healing process.

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As many of you know, Hay House is going to offer World Summit 2018 staring from May 5 2018 for free of charge. It is open to everybody.

I watched the introductive short video of Deepak Chopra interviewed by Reid Tracy. It was very informative. I especially liked Deepak’s voice. His voice was calm and soothing. He sounded like a very old (ancient) grandpa who has deep wisdom.

He talked about Akashic records. In India, there are some people who had trained to read the data. Deepak mentioned we also can access the data on our own. All we need to do is to let our spontaneous intuition guide us. He said it is possible when we have no resistance, no anticipation, and no regrets.

Right after I finished watching their video, I asked myself the four questions Deepak suggested to ask myself.

When I asked the first question; “who am I?”, immediately, I was surrounded by warm and loving energy. I was embraced with huge love. I felt it by my skin. I got goosebumps and tears rolling down on my cheek. These were the evidence the energy was real.

I didn’t necessarily receive the exact answer to my question, but at least I got this answer.

I am love.

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Since my recent doctor’s appointment, I had been very careful of my diet. I kept on good track of my blood sugar level.

At last night’s birthday party, I ate three slices of pizza and drank one can of coke. I hadn’t taken these store bought pizza and pops for more than two years or so. By the time when we got to their house and started getting fed, I was so hungry. And that was why I granted me to have pizza and coke.

We left our house at 1:30 pm. It was one hour later of my lunch. My glucose level was 106, which was pretty good for me.

I had pizza and coke around 6 pm. Since I had pizza and coke, I had felt dizzy and sick. I came back home around 10:30 pm. I quickly checked my glucose level. It was close to 400.

This level is beyond the normal. My blood sugar level had stayed at the dangerous level for 4 hours or so.

To be honest, I was devastated at the fact my insulin does not function properly. Pizza and coke are the pretty typical American dinner. The majority people are fine with eating it, but why I cannot?

At least this event told me the important lesson. My body needs to be reset in order to start working properly again. It needs a revolutionary change.

I had a nice synchronicity last night.

I had three emails from different friends at almost the same time. They all mentioned something like “one person can change, but with together, they can change more”.

I think it is time for me to really start asking for help and support for my revolutionary change in my body.  

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