I watched the documentary film “Awake, A Dream from Standing Rock (2017)”. The streaming is available on Netflix, and the DVD is available through their website. It describes The Standing Rock Sioux Tribe’s NODAPL Movement against the U.S. government’s plan to construct an oil pipeline through their land. 

I could not watch it without shedding lots of tears. Every time when I see Lakota people’s peaceful warriors in Youtube video, news, or films, my past life memory kicks into me. The vision is so vivid accompanied with strong feeling.

I went through lots of tough experiences in this lifetime, and luckily enough, most of my traumatic events on this lifetime are already healed. How do I know if I am already healed from a certain tough event? I judge it if I can laugh about it or not. If I can treat the certain event as a past event and laugh about it as if I were an observer, I know I am healed from it. I am done leaning from it.

However, the traumatic event that I went through the life born as a Lakota woman, even though it was one of my many past lives, it never disappears from my soul. It was so tough and so big to let it go.

Perhaps, my tears are the signs to motivate me to do something. My current desire is to go to Lakota land and reunite with my family souls. I feel my soul tribes are living there. Once I reunite with them and start living my true life mission, I might stop shedding tears.

In order to make that happen, all I need to do is patiently wait. I know the best timing and best method will naturally come to me in the future, when everything gets ready. I fully trust it will happen eventually, in a natural way.

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As far as I know, Japanese society values in working as a group. It is understandable when you think about our ancestor’s life style. Japanese ancestors made their living from farming, so that they needed to cooperate one another to produce crops.

In Japanese culture, whenever you spend time alone, people will think of you as a lonely person or a sad person without friends. Or they even label you as a weird person. At least, I had been treated like that.

I belonged to a play troop since I was three years old to ten years old. When I became an adult, I had an opportunity to see my teacher at the play troop again. The teacher told me that I was a very weird and peculiar child. I asked her the reason why. She simply answered to me “because you were always happy even when you were alone.”

In that sense, I am in the midst of luxurious life right now, simply because I have my own alone time daily and regularly.

Once in a while I heard old people saying that they feel lost after they retire from work and raising children. I honestly cannot understand. Because for me, I have a long wish list to do in my free time. I never get bored in my free time. I am actually lacking the time for that.

The truth is though, I appear being alone physically, but I am always surrounded by my family spirits. That way, I am never alone. 

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During I was preparing for my trip to Japan, my daughter found my Japanese driver’s license in my Japanese wallet. She was surprised at the picture because I was younger and skinnier than now. The picture was taken right before I moved to America, so I was about 38 years old.

She wanted to check out my other pictures in my younger days, so I showed her some more. I only had some pictures in my online storage, which were taken after 2006.

While I was showing my old pictures to my daughter, I noticed one thing, which I never noticed before. In every picture, my right eye was always bigger than the left eye.

According to physiognomy, a person whose right eye is bigger than the left is a left brain dominant person. The person uses the left brain often so that he/she tends to be intelligent and successful in their business or career field.

I think it was true. Those days I was single and needed to make money to support my daily life to pay bills. I was not a super successful in my career, but at least, many people had told me that I was a fast and quick learner. So, in a way, I forced myself to look smart to live my life. I used my left brain more than my right brain in order to be logical.

Interesting thing is though, my recent pictures show that my right eye is not bigger than those days. My recent pictures taken after I moved to America (aka, after my marriage) show that my both eyes are balanced out. My right eye is still slightly bigger than the left, but not much. That means nowadays I live my life peacefully. Since I am not in the business field any more, I don’t need to show myself to be smart. I can be myself, which means, I can follow my intuition though my right brain.

I look forward to checking my pictures will be taken 10 years from now on. In the near future, I might have a bigger left eye than the right eye, becoming to be a right brain dominant person.

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Today was the school start day. There were some students who took the same school bus stop. I haven’t seen them during the summer vacation.

When I saw them again at the school bus stop this morning, I was amazed on how they grew up in these two and half months. Some kids got taller than before. Other kids did not grew in their heights that much, but their demeanor became much more calm and mature than before the summer vacation. Perhaps from other people’s eyes, my daughter has amazingly grown physically and mentally too.

When I was 11 years old, I had the biggest grow spurt in my life. I had grown close to 5 inches (12.5cm) in that year. I was so excited to get taller than my older brother, but unfortunately, my growth in height had stopped right there.

It is fun to observe the growth in children, isn’t it? Their growth is obvious every month and every year.

Once we become adult, our physical growth stops. However, we still keep growing mentally by leaning and experiencing new things until our last day on this lifetime. Our mental growth is not obvious for ourselves, but from other’s eyes, it might be obvious.

There is no need to compete with anybody else. As long as we keep growing matured mentally day by day, I think it is good.   

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Today, two people informed me of the upcoming local small business fair. I participated this business fair as a vendor last year, but I don’t feel like to participate it this year.

As for my small business, right after its establishment of August 2016, I was fully motivated by my business mentors. I created my homepage and my Facebook business Page. I exposed myself in the small business fair as well as at some opportunities to offer free trial sessions. My interview was featured in the local magazine. And I paid for the business license. I was ready to launch my business.  

However, in this year 2017, I have rarely done anything progressive. I don’t feel any tailwind toward my business. I don’t have any backwind neither.

I have been thinking about giving up my business by discontinuing my business license. When I mentioned it to my family, they encouraged me to hang in there and wait patiently for the tailwind and some new opportunities coming up to me. They told me that it might seem to be no movement at all right now, but still, there should be some progress in my daily life.

By listening to them, I thought I should observe my business for little more duration. Everything, including the environment and situation, and myself and other people, is constantly changing. We should not say “never”, right? The current situation of no tailwind or headwind can be said it is peaceful and stable. I should enjoy this peaceful moment without any pressure or stress. 

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I went to the state park with my family. We like this state park. It takes only one hour drive, and we always enjoy the beautiful scenery along the way. Especially in this monsoon season, it is filled with healthy green in the mountain and meadow. They were so beautiful. The air smelled fresh and clean.

We arrived around 8 am in the morning. Luckily, there were not so many people yet. Our main purpose was to swim in the lake. We quickly changed into the swim suit and jumped in the lake. The water temperature was not cold at all. I enjoyed the soft touch feeling from natural the water.

After enjoying swimming in the lake, we went for hiking in the surrounding area. We encountered many vivid blue dragonflies and yellow butterflies.

This summer, we needed to cancel a couple of vacation trips due to the extreme heat. So, today’s short trip was the only vacation trip during the summer vacation. I am sure my daughter fully enjoyed this short trip. Not to mention, I also enjoyed the healing energy from the nature.  

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I watched the movie The Circle (2017). This movie describes about the social media and people’s privacy.

After watching this movie, I felt uncomfortable and unpleasant. Please don’t get me wrong. It does not mean this movie is not great. In my theory, a great movie makes each individual audience think hard about the movie’s main theme. In that meaning, this movie is definitely great because it has made me think about the benefits and risks from our high technology such as social media and Internet.

The main character volunteers to become a transparent by wearing a body cam and letting people to watch her daily life. If that happens to me, I would lose my hair right away from excessive stress. I need my alone time and privacy. From this reason, I respect other people’s privacy too. I never even tempted to peek my family’s private cell phones or emails. I have never felt comfortable to post my private life in any of social media. I don’t feel comfortable when people post my picture or my family’s picture without asking our permission by tagging with me.

To my surprise, when I express my feeling about social media and invading private life, many people get offended by my opinion. So, I have stopped saying any of my opinion to anybody else. Majority people don’t mind invading others’ privacy by posing pictures without their permissions. 

I feel scared to watch this movie on how mob psychology can even take somebody’s life. Each individual have a high moral, but when it comes to do it with other people, the individual’s moral can easily be corrupted. We see this type of mob psychology in our daily life too.

Everything happens for reasons, and I know I cannot change the current flow in high technology. I just hope people will think about the benefits and risks from high technology and use it in smart ways. For that purpose, this movie definitely takes an important role to make us think about it seriously.

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Last night before I went to bed, I asked my family spirits for advice on how to lose my weight. I have been making efforts on moving around my body, and I think I have enough daily exercise. However, I keep on gaining weight, which seems to be unstoppable to me.

My family spirits answered my question right away in my dream of this morning. I feel blessed that I can communicate with them easier than before. In the past, it was not that easy for me. When I asked some questions or requests to them, it used to take several days, weeks, or months. Not anymore. I feel the distance between my family spirits and myself has gotten so much closer than ever.

Anyway, let me get back to the story of my dream. In my dream, one male spirit told me like this.

In order for you to lose weight, you will have to limit your daily intake calorie less than 1,800 kcal. However, you have taken more calorie than that. As a matter of fact, in these couple of days, your daily intake calorie was more than 5,400 kcal.

Then, I woke up. Well, I admit I am not at the professional level to catch the proper information regarding numbers. I think I was pretty close, though. My goal of daily intake calorie part is most likely correct. I don’t agree that I have taken more than 5,400 kcal part. It was probably 2,400 kcal, not 5,400 kcal.

On my second thought, my family spirits might have given me the exaggerated number of 5,400 kcal, just to make me startled. They might have wanted to warn me that I have overeaten recently. And, yes, I admit. I have overeaten.

I have another dream experience dealing with numbers. Some years ago, one of my friends had a psychic reading. She was impressed at the accuracy of the reading. I was very curious about the reading and thinking about taking the reading session for myself.

Some days later, in my dream, one male spirit told me that the reading session fee was $4,400. He also mentioned that this reading would not work well for me, and that I should forget about taking the session from this person.

When I woke up, I thanked my family spirits for their advice. I knew the amount was not accurate, but I got the point of the message. The point was that the session fee was expensive, and that the reading would not for me.

Several weeks later, I had an opportunity to ask the session fee to my friend. She said it was $400. In this case, I was close. I at least got the right number of 4, although I misinterpreted as one digits extra.

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Nowadays, I have been enjoying listening to TED talks. Many people have shared their inspiring stories. It is one of my dreams that to talk at TED talks making audience laugh, cry, inspired, motivated.

I want to share the winner of the 2015 TED Prize, Mr. Dave Isay. Dave Isay’s TED talk

He is a founder of StoryCorps where people can record their own interview. The cool thing is anybody can participate. You don’t need to be a celebrity or a rich to participate. You can stay being as you are, and simply answer the interview from your friend or family. The interview recording is stored in the library so that your future descendants can hear your real voice talking about your thinking or life even after you leave this lifetime.

He mentioned all the facilitator who witnessed the interviews would say “people are basically good.” This is my most favorite part in his speech. I really love to think and believe so. Because my passion and dream is to have everyone in the world to participate and contribute to the world peace.

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This morning’s dream was a relaxing one. My dream started at the entrance of a high tower. I felt I was expected to climb the stairs to the top floor, although I didn’t know the specific purpose for it. All I knew was that somebody was waiting for me at the top floor and I needed to see the person.

When I looked up the top floor, I noticed the goal was at the very high place. It was close to the sky, or maybe it was located in the sky. There were some more people with me at the tower entrance. Some people gave up climbing after they saw how high the top floor was. Other people tried to enter but they were stopped by the guards at the entrance because it was not for them.

I had a very little company to climb the stars together. We didn’t chat, but we exchanged our encouragements to one another telepathically. We kept on walking on the stairs. Finally, we arrived at the top floor.

There, it was the world of light. It was so bright and shining. In the room, I saw an image of goddess. She approached to me and gently hugged me, congratulating me of my efforts.

I haven’t done anything particular recently, but when I think about my spiritual progress, I have grown and improved. Then I noticed that I don’t need to compare with anybody, but I can compare the current myself with the past myself. I can congratulate how far I have come so far. The goddess might be myself; meaning my higher self. Once in a while, we all need to praise and congratulate ourselves of our daily progress.

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