This morning, in my dream, I visited my Japanese old friend. I visited his new house and property in Kobe Japan. There are lots of soft snow all over the area. We run around laughing out loud. It was fun and relaxing dream. It reminded me to play and enjoy every moment.

He was my employer for Lakota tour in 2006 and 2007. We haven’t kept in touch since 2010.

When I worked for him and his customer as an interpreter, I was so nervous. I enjoyed the moment but at the same time I hated the moment. Because I was afraid that my boss might not like my job. I focused on how I made myself look efficient to him.

I am sure that my soul and his soul are spiritually connected and we are facing to the same direction. One of our life missions is to help Japanese people and Native people to connect, to help them for better communication and understandings. That is why we worked together. Our encounter was not coincidence.

He always visits me in spirit before he does so in the physical form.

The first one: One day, in my dream, I met one guy, and I instantly recognized his soul from many past lives.  Then later on, our encounter in physical form occurred. We met each other on the Navajo land. My dad-in-law and my employer were old friends.

The second one: His soul visited me in my dream and offered me for the interpreter job opportunity for Lakota tour, and 1-2 weeks later, it actually happened in the physical form.

The third one: One time when I lost confidence in myself (in my ability), his soul visited me in my dream and scolded me and encouraged me. And again, it happened in the physical form several days later. This type of experiences keep going on and on. I have this experience many times with other people too. But it only happens when my soul and the person’s soul have strong spiritual connection.

I don’t know what this is called exactly. Deja Vu? Rehearsal in dream world? Foresight dream?

Whatever it is called, when it happens, I like to surprise the person by saying “so, you want to tell me this??” I say what the person was about to say that before the person opens his/her mouth. I love to see their astonished face expression. Then I will tell the person “I know that, because your soul already told me this in my dream. Your soul went ahead of you in physical form.”

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Yesterday I was stuck with something. It was about my small job opportunity. Every time I went there, I came back exhausted. I thought about the reason. Perhaps, it was about the person’s sad energy. The person clung on me energetically asking for help, and that was why I felt drained every time I saw the person. Even when I am back home, the person’s sad face is around my energy field.

I didn’t want to hurt the person’s feeling. I thought very hard about the best excuse that I can use to decline the offer but I couldn’t figure it out the best excuse.

Before I went to bed last night, I saw my friend’s Facebook Page. She shares the Angel card reading almost every day. The message that she shared yesterday was “it is okay to say No whenever we need to do so.” She also mentioned that saying no will result in better outcome not only to the person him/herself but to others such as the person who is declined.

I thanked her for sharing the right timing message and confirmation.

This morning, I received a phone call and my small job opportunity was cancelled. So, interesting enough, I didn’t need to create any excuse to turn down to the person, but the person had another reason to cancel it.  

I got relieved. I thought it interesting and awed how things are going well. I don’t take this as coincident but I take it as blessing. Technically speaking, everything that happens in our daily life is blessing.

I believe I am not the only one who feels the surrounding vibration is uplifting. And I take this as the result from everybody. Everybody who currently lives on our lives as well as our angels and spirits is contributing to this vibrational uplifting.

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So, yesterday I was down because of not winning the contest. But before I went to bed, I received an email from my friend with lots of her warmhearted encouragements. While I was replying back to her, I started calming down. I ended up sending her my reply with long email.

While writing, it made me realize of my original resolution. Why do I write? It is because writing is what I love to do. My original resolution is to do what I love, what my soul loves to do.

I came to understand that I needed to remember my original resolution all the time. I write because I love to do so. My original intention is not to become famous nor to become rich from publishing my books. My original intention is to share messages and inspiration through my writing.

I will keep writing no matter what. If there is no audience, that is fine with me. As long as my soul is satisfied with my action, I am fine with it.

Of course to be honest, I still have desire to be a world well-known author so that I can share messages from spirits through my writing. But I decided to let spirits decide about the divine timing and method. I know it will come, as all my desires and dreams eventually came true in my life. I just need to stay being happy and doing what I love.

This month is my birthday month. I am ready to receive all the unexpected opportunities thrown from my family souls. They love to surprise me.

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Today was one of my biggest days in life. I felt nervous, because today was the winner’s announcement day of Hay House Writer’s Contest.

In the afternoon, I checked their Facebook page and saw the three winner’s names. But my book proposal didn’t win.

I cried. I felt sad. For not being needed.

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After cried for a while, letting go of my sad feeling, I started feeling calm down.

I guess it is fine with me.

At this moment, I am surrounded by great environment. I have my dear family. My life is peaceful with my family.

Maybe I just dreamed too much about winning the contest.

Maybe I should stop dreaming big, but instead, I should appreciate what I have and what I am provided, and continue living my life in a humble way.

Thank you to my dear friends, for your kind support and encouragements. And sorry, that my book proposal didn’t win.

But I am not going to give up on publishing my books. Someday. At a divine timing. They will be everywhere in the world…, I think.

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I am invisible. Nobody knows about me. And I think that part of me likes it as is. Part of me likes to have a quiet and peaceful life.

From today, 9th annual Tapping World Summit started. In this interview, they talked about being busy. They mentioned most people force themselves to be busy because if not, they would feel guilty for not doing much. I know what they mean. I was like that when I was single, living alone and supporting my bills by myself. I would feel freaked out for only even one day without any job. I thought to myself I should have kept myself busy to show the world as a worthiness person.

This is one of the illusions that our modern society has created. The truth is there is no such rule in the Universe. If we have days or time to spend relaxed without any duty, it is a blessing.

In this sense, I am greatly blessed. I currently don’t have any duties or jobs. My days are peaceful. I don’t have concerns or worries.

However, there is another part of me who likes to keep being busy. Part of me desires to be famous and well known. Part of me wants to go out to the society and share what I have received from spirits.

I notice there is a huge gap between the current situation and what part of me desires. I don’t know this is common for many people, or I am the weird one.   

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Today our neighbor is having a huge yard sale. I thought it interesting. This house must have certain energy to get rid of things. Three years ago, the residence in this house had a huge yard sale. They took out everything from the house to sell. They wanted to get rid of everything, so that they can move calmly with only one car. After a huge yard sale, the family moved out.

Then, new family moved in to this house, and now they are doing the same thing.

These two families shared lots of common things. They never got rid of staff up until now. Although they are old couple with grown up children, they still have baby items and baby clothes. You will be amazed that you would find everything. Yes, I mean everything. Starting from baby staff, girl’s items, boy’s items, woman’s items, and man’s items. Books, video tapes, toys, make-ups, gorgeous dresses, man’s formal shirts and suits. You name it, and you will find it.

While observing the yard sale of my neighbor’s house, I noticed one small progress in me. I used to love going to yard sale and buy staff that I didn’t need. But today, I don’t have desire to go to the yard sale. I noticed that I already graduate from the habit of buying unnecessary things).

Now I know what I want and what I need. I am satisfied with what I currently have. I don’t need to go to a yard sale or a thrift store to compensate any missing points in my mind.

From my own experience, I am happier with the minimum items than being surrounded by lots of unnecessary items. If my story resonates with you, why don’t you get rid of unnecessary items from your room and house? You will feel more energized and lighter than before.

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When I was taking the Angel card reading class of Doreen Virtue, I posted my request in their dedicated Facebook Page to exchange a card reading with my fellow students for practice. It was in August 2016. I received a reply from only four fellow students.

Then, today February 25th 2017 (6 months later since I posted my request), I received 8 unread messages through Facebook. The messages were sent on August 2016, and they were all fellow students from Angel card reading class.

It should have some reasons that I received messages from four students and didn’t receive messages from these eight students. I still don’t know the exact reasons why these 8 people’s messages were delayed for 6 months.

I believe everything happens for reasons. And I believe my family souls did this for the highest good for me.

The great thing about taking this class is that I have reconnected with one girl. I feel like that I have known her for a long time, even from our past lives. I am so happy to have reconnected with her. I am sure she is one of my soul tribe. We encourage and support each other.

She lives in Australia and I live in America. We never met in person, nor talked on the phone. But I know physical distance does not matter. Her soul one time visited me in my dream. After meeting each other in my dream, she sent me her photo. It was great way to meet her in spiritual form before I saw her photo. It was solid confirmation that we were connected. Since our encounter, I feel her soul close to me regardless of physical distance.

Maybe the biggest reason for me to take this class was to reconnect with her. Maybe I didn’t have strong spiritual connections with these 8 people and I didn’t need to connect with them. It is just my guess.

I just trust my family souls always work for me for my highest good.

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This morning, my daughter and my husband had a dream that I died. As for my daughter, she had this dream (I died in her dream) many times (as far as I remember, more than 10 times for sure). She said she didn’t like this dream because she wants me to live longer with her on this lifetime.

I told my family “thank you” and told them it is a good dream. They were the messenger for me to convey the good news for me.

In our dream, if somebody dies, especially if the person is your dear family member, it is a message for the person that a great news is coming up to the person.

In dream, a death represents a re-birth. Old-self is dead and new-self is born.

I really hope this is a trigger or sign for me that my old-self (my old habit or life style) is dead and my new-self (a new life style or a new perspective about me from the environment) is born.

I am ready to accept a new door for me to open. I accept new opportunities open for me.

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When I was 32 years old, I was lucky to be able to visit Europe (England and Germany) for my business trip. Before my departure for England, my Japanese friends teased me by saying “have fun in a rendezvous with ghosts”. They told me that there are places that tourists can enjoy a rendezvous with ghosts in England. I just laughed with my friends. I didn’t take it seriously.

When I arrived at the Heathrow Airport in London, my coworker was waiting for me at the airport and gave me a ride to the hotel. Weird enough, before my coworker left from the hotel front desk, she told me the same thing as what my Japanese friend teased me; “have fun in a rendezvous with ghosts”

It was February. Very cold day. As soon as I entered the room, it was icy cold. I felt even colder in the room than outside. I turned on the heater. While unpacking my stuff, the heater didn’t work properly. It didn’t emit any warm air at all. I thought it might take a while for the heater to start warming up itself, so I decided to take a hot shower to warm myself. I turned on the hot water faucet, waited minutes, but nothing but icy cold water came out.

I went down to the front desk, told about the malfunction in the heater and the hot water. The front lady changed my room to another room.

When I went in another room, the heater and the hot water didn’t work. I went down to the front desk again and explained nothing worked to warm me up. The front lady arranged the maintenance man to my room. Weird enough, when he turned on the hot water faucet, hot water instantly came out. Then he turned on the heater, and the heater worked; emitting hot air right away.

The maintenance man looked at me mischievously and asked me “they are working now”. I got embarrassed. I apologized him for the trouble coming to my room. At the same time, I got relieved that I would be able to warm myself up finally.

….However…..

When I took off my clothes and stood under the shower, the hot water suddenly changed into icy water.

I know I sound like lying. But I am not lying. The hot water didn’t come out anymore. All I got was nothing but icy cold water. I even could not get rid of soupy water around my hair and body. I quickly got out from the shower, wiped myself off. I went to the heater, shivering, to get heat from it. Then, I noticed the heater was not working properly anymore. It was emitting nothing but cold air.

I was so exhausted and embarrassed that I didn’t feel like going down to the front desk anymore. I put on sweater, jacket, whatever warm clothing, layered. Then I went to bed and covered myself with a blanket.

It was still so cold. I felt as if I was outside. Sure enough, I could not sleep at all.

Then I finally noticed one thing. “I get it. Ghosts are playing with me.”  

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I started talking out loud to the ghosts.

I am not having fun. I am not enjoying this. Seriously, stop. You need to stop teasing me. I need a heater and a hot shower to warm my body up. I am freezing.

I also talked to my family souls that I am not enjoying this at all and asked them to stop this.

I waited for around one hour. Then, I told everybody (ghosts and my family souls) out loud, “okay, I am going to try the hot water and the heater again. You better fix them by now!”

I turned on the heater. Thank god, it started working normally and my room started warming up. Then I went to the shower and turned on the hot water faucet. Several minutes later, finally hot water started coming up. Can you believe it? It was already after 3 am in the morning. I could finally warm myself up and slept for some hours.

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Next morning while I was having a breakfast at hotel restaurant, my coworker came to pick me up. She sat down in front of me and asked me “So, did you experience any ghosts?” Her face was full of curiosity like a little child exploring an unknown world.

I made my face as serious as I could, looked into her blue eyes directly, and said to her “I certainly did, and I don’t want any more ghost experience. Could you please change my hotel to the one without ghost?”

I mentioned my ghost experience of the previous night. While listening, her face was so brightened. I could tell she was so much enjoying listening to my ghost experience.

She did change my hotel, but on the day, every time she introduced me to her coworkers, she added my ghost experience story and everybody enjoyed listening it. Some of them told me I was lucky to run into the mischievous ghosts, but I don’t think so.  

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Today February 22nd is my memorial day as well as my anniversary day. In either way, today is a special day for me. I had an appointment for today, but several days ago, the person asked me to move this appointment to some other day. I believe my family souls did this because they wanted me to spend and enjoy my alone time for today. So, right now, I am enjoying my alone time thinking back of my special day.

Why is today so special for me? Because I miscarried my baby 3 years ago on this day; on February 22nd 2014. When I mention about my miscarriage to people, they tell me they are sorry for my loss. Some people even cry for me because they have the same experience as I did. Yes, it was a very tough experience for me, but still, this experience gave me lots of love and hope. I would like to share this story with you.

Let me talk this story along with the time line.

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When I was small, I knew I would have two children on this lifetime; a boy and a girl. I remembered this life plan, because it was important for me. I often said my life plan to my friends in my younger days (at my high school days and even in my 20s). They still remember that.

When I got married to my husband, I had a solid belief that a boy and a girl souls would come to us as our children. Four months after I moved to America, I naturally got pregnant with my daughter.

I was happy with the truth I could bring a baby soul to this lifetime, but I didn’t have fun time during pregnancy and especially about the labor. I didn’t like how my OB-GYN and nurses treated me. I didn’t like most of them.

So, after my first labor, I was reluctant to go through the same process, pregnancy and labor, with these doctors and medical staff again.

Deep inside, I knew and felt the second baby soul wanted to be born as soon as possible. But I just couldn’t help avoiding it because of the very bad memories about doctors and nurses on my pregnancy and labor.

During that time, I was not the only one who felt the existence of the second baby soul. My husband and my daughter also felt the same way as I felt. We frequently shared what we felt from the second baby’s soul. The baby soul already lived with us in spirit. We all knew it would be born as a boy when the baby was to be born.

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About three weeks after my daughter turned to five years old, specifically it was evening of December 25th 2013, my daughter conveyed us a message from the baby’s soul. She said to my husband and me that the baby soul wanted to come tonight and that we should welcome his soul. So we followed her advice and welcomed the soul. At that moment, my fear about pregnancy and labor was disappeared.

I got pregnant for that night. The OB-GYN doctor told me my pregnancy was miracle. Because I got pregnant naturally without any doctorial or medical treatment at this high age (I was 43 years old, 3 months shy away from 44 years old). However, for the people who are familiar with spirituality, they know it is not miracle. Anything and everything is possible. And it is a baby soul’s willingness to decide when and where to come (to be born). 

I searched around and asked around another good doctor. I could not find anybody in my area, but I finally found the good one in another town. The new doctor was cheerful, helpful, and thoughtful. And I was happy to select her as my doctor. She was always cheerful and funny, but one day, she called me on my cell phone with a very serious voice tone. I instantly knew something was not right. She asked me to come see her as soon as possible, on the same day or next day. So I went to see her next morning.

On the morning, we didn’t exchange some jokes and laughter as always. The doctor told me straightforward about the bad news. It was about my A1C level that they checked on my last visit. It was 8.4. She said this was very high level for pregnant women. The target A1C in general is set to less than 7.0, but during pregnancy, the A1C level should stay being constant and less than 6.0. She told me the baby already had gone through in danger because of my high glucose. She said pregnancy starts even before pregnancy. She also said that a mother–to-be really has to pay attention to her glucose level if she wants to get pregnant.

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In my case, however, until that day, I never thought of myself being diabetes. I thought myself to be healthy. Although I noticed I was gaining weight and could not lose it easily, I considered it as part of aging process.

I felt so bad for my baby. I am so sorry that I didn’t pay attention to my health.

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My doctor prescribed insulin from that day. It was January 20th 2014. The nurse instructed me step by step on how to ingest it on my body. It was shocking to poke a needle to my own body by myself. It was my very first experience to give myself a shot. The nurse told me the best and easy part to poke a needle was my tummy area, but I could not do so, because it made me feel to hurt my baby. So I chose the back of my thigh. Whenever my husband was around, he did it for me. But when he was at work, I needed to do it by myself. I poked a needle, with crying. It was not easy for me.

These days, I poked my body with a needle 7 times a day. I poked a small needle (a lance for glucose check equipment) to my finger tip four times a day to check my glucose level and recorded the results. I poked a long needle for a syringe to ingest insulin 3 times a day. Getting insulin in my body was not pleasant. I would get shaky with sweat due to low blood sugar. I would wake up due to low blood sugar at 2 or 3 am in the morning. Even though I felt starving, every time I ate something, I would feel guilty. Because it might raise my blood sugar level and my baby might suffer from it.

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The procedure on controlling my glucose level was tough, but I could stay being happy with pregnancy. I had a supportive doctor and nurses, not to mention of my supportive family. The great benefit of being pregnancy was that I could directly talk to my baby soul. I felt his excitement to be born as my son. I was excited to have him in a physical body and live with him as a family in this lifetime. I couldn’t wait for the due date, September 17th, 2014. I kept telling myself that insulin was just temporary during pregnancy. I thought I could handle the insulin and checking glucose level for another 8 months for my son-to-be. So my pregnancy days went by quickly, with happiness to see him and toughness from diabetes.

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Since I could communicate with my baby’s soul very clearly, we decided to name him as Daigo (大悟). It means Satori (enlightenment). I know this soul as a very high aged soul. His spiritual age is very high.

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During that time, it was the beginning of February, I heard a clear voice from my son-to-be. He told me to go for a walk on the next street. When I followed the guidance to take a different route, I found one sign “For Rent” jumped into my eyes. I instantly thought I should call this number and ask for the house tour. So I did. Two days later from my phone call, we met with the realtor for the house tour. I fall in love with the house instantly.

At those days we were renting a 2-bedrooms and 2-bathrooms house. The new house had 3-bedrooms and 2-bathrooms with a private and big back yard. And the rent amount was the same. Everything went smoothly, and we decided to move to the house on Feb 29th 2014. I still consider this as a gift from my son. And the house is the one where we are currently living. We all love this house.

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After about five weeks since I started an insulin treatment, on February 22nd 2014, I started having a vaginal bleeding. I had the same symptom for my daughter in the early stage of pregnancy, so at first, I thought it was fine. But the bleeding did not stop. It kept on going.

I got panicky. I called and talked to my doctor on the phone. She told me to relax. She said that baby comes to this world in a divine way. It is under God’s area. If God decides so (meaning miscarriage), then we humans cannot do anything to stop.

I stayed in bed at my house. I was crying so hard. I was asking so hard to the baby’s soul not to go. I think I was cringing his soul so hard.

I noticed I was cringing so hard on him that he was suffering from that too. I thought I had to let him go. I started talking to him. You can now go, Daigo. Thank you for coming to me. You came to me to inform me of my diabetes, right?

And I felt clearly that his soul came out from my physical body. He hugged me. It was so real. I could feel his love and hugging.

He told me that “I am so, sorry that I cannot stay here. I have to go now. Thank you for letting me go.”

Before Daigo went back to his spiritual homeland, he stayed with me for a while and shared his memory with me. It was like watching movie. Very fast-forward version, but I could understand every details. Even the feelings. Not only about my feelings but also about other people’s feelings. Then I realized that Daigo and I were originally from the same star. We came to the planet Earth before. We spent our life together as many different relationships. The most recent life that we spent together was around 1800 in America. I didn’t recognize which state, but I was born as Native American. Daigo was born as my son. The invader came to our village and massacred all of us. They even killed my husband and my son who was only 9 months old. The baby was Daigo.

With the communication with Daigo, lots of my memories got clearer than before. I was born this lifetime with lots of memories of past lives. The memories were like pieces of puzzle. Each piece was clear, but I could not connect all the pieces to one bigger picture. Now I can see a bigger picture. Now I can understand all the reasons why I was born as a Japanese, why I married to my husband, why I was guided this and that up until now. I came back to this lifetime for reasons.

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After Daigo left for his spiritual homeland, which is the same as mine, I spent my days crying all the time. I shed tears. Everything triggered me to cry. When somebody greeted me “how are you?”, I cried. During I was eating, I cried. When I was sleeping, I cried. When I was taking a bath, I cried. I could not stop crying. My daughter was the same way. On every moment when I was shedding tears, when I turned to my daughter, she was shedding tears too, very quietly. After three weeks spending my days like that, I came to realize that I needed to graduate from this crying. I commited to myself that I decided to graduate from this sadness. I will let it go. I meant it from my heart.

On that night, in my dream, my family souls congratulated me for my graduation. They actually threw a party for me. I clearly remember the scene of them ringing party poppers with happy decorations.

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After this graduation ceremony, I started communicating with Daigo again. He is now in our spiritual homeland and we can communicate directly through our thoughts. He told me it is up to me if I want to have him as my son on this lifetime. If I decide, our family souls will do their best to support for my next pregnancy. I thought about it and made my mind not to have him in a physical form on this lifetime. I am very reluctant of going through pregnancy and labor. I don’t have fear at this moment, but I don’t want to go through. I know I don’t like hospitals and doctors. I want to stay away from hospitals.

Daigo understood what I felt and what I meant. We agreed to come back to other life together on our next life. It might not be in the planet Earth. We might choose other star or planet.

I am grateful when Daigo told me he would respect my free will. My other family souls were the same way. They never step in my free will. They always respect my free will and wait for my decision. I really appreciate them so that I can fully take responsibility on every single of my decision.

I believe this miscarriage was supposed to happen. Thanks to this pregnancy, I noticed of my health condition that needed my attention. Thanks to this pregnancy, I could remember about my life mission; why I am here. Thanks to this pregnancy, I could go through lots of peoples’ love; starting from my husband and my daughter, my Japanese parents and my Navajo parents, my friends. Thanks to this pregnancy, I could reconnect with Daigo so that I can freely communicate with him directly right now. He is now just a thought away.

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Later on, I looked up the meaning of the number 222 (February 22nd) on Doreen Virtue’s website. Angel Therapy.

It was written like this.

“Trust that everything is working out exactly as it’s supposed to, with Divine blessings for everyone involved. Let go and have faith”.

I do believe my miscarriage was part of God’s plan. I knew Daigo was supposed to be born as my son in my original life plan, but it changed. It happens. Not all the blueprint of life plans will go as we planned. Because of our free will and influence of surrounding environment, we sometimes have to flexibly adjust ourselves to plan-B. And, it is okay.

I appreciate for everything to strengthen my soul. I appreciate for everybody who supported my spiritual journey. From my heart, Thank you-to everybody and every events, and all the spirits around me.

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