Same as last night, I could sleep deeply. Having a high-quality sleep was the most needed to heal my body. I appreciate for this improvement in sleep habit.

Last October, I started taking Gabapentin, which is the nerve pain reliever. The doctor prescribed this medication to take 3 times a day every day. Since this month, I started gradually reduced the intake frequency. I currently take this medication only 1 pill a day. I need to take it in evening when the nerve pain gets unbearable. I want to stop taking it before my body gets really addicted to it. I asked the male doctor at the last physical therapy. I mentioned I have only 4 pills left in hand. I was wondering if I should request to refill it or not. He recommended to refill it because I still need it. He doesn’t want me to suffer from intense pain. He said my body needs to have high quality sleep to heal, and the medication helps me to sleep well. So, I requested the clinic to refill it on last Friday. Today around 11 a.m., they informed me my request was approved and my medication is now ready to pick up.

My daughter and I went to pick up the medication. After that, my daughter wanted to go to the mall. We gave her some cash for her birthday, but she said she wanted to have some actual items as gift as a memorable item. She is right. She is still a child, and she deserves to have something nice to keep as a good memory.

She told me one new store has recently opened that sells a bunch of handmade gifts. It was fun to walk around the new store that they were filled with nice handmade items. Unfortunately, I couldn’t keep waking. My right foot started having unbearable sharp pain that I needed to sit down on the bench in the mall. My daughter felt sorry for me and suggested to go back home. I promised her that we would go to the community market at the beginning of next year.

I slept very well last night. I could sleep for 6.5 hours for the very first time since the injury day. I am for sure that this improvement is thanked to the male doctor on his correct approach dealing with my right foot nerve pain.

It was winter solstice. I did a winter solstice fortune telling. The result really matches my current situation. It says I was once at the bottom of the water (water represents trouble or challenge), but I am currently at the edge of the water (meaning I am almost successfully getting out from the trouble or challenge). I have learned from the lessons, and now I have become much stronger and smarter than before. I am now at the calm and safe place.

Before noon, I received a phone call from my mom-in-law. My brother-in-law came back to life. He was discharged from hospital and back home right now. He is aware how bad his cirrhosis and liver are. He made a commitment on no more drinking any alcohol beverage. He is in the waiting list to transplant liver from a donor. If everything goes well, then he might be able to receive a donor’s liver. I was shocked to know how bad his liver was. I am glad that my brother-in-law didn’t depart on December 17^th without communicating with his family.  

I spent time with my family as usual. We had breakfast and went for a walk. After I got out from the hot bath, the pain in the right foot was intense. I needed to take a one-hour nap. I woke up from nap with the pain. I screamed about the pain, shed tears, and suffered from pain. I spent my days like this for almost three months.

Around 5 p.m., I went to the veteran’s park in the next city. They had a vehicle’s light up parade. Just some walk in the park was really tough for me. I saw people were enjoying ice skating in the middle of the park. It was too painful for me to keep standing and watching the parade. I asked my husband and daughter to keep watching the parade. I went back to the car and laid down on the backseat. It was nice though, to get out from house and see the Christmas decoration in the park and happy people there.

I went to my 14^th physical therapy. Today was the second therapy session instructed by the skilled male doctor. The therapy stared with the doctor’s correcting my spine position by gently pressing a spine one by one by his finger. Then we went to the gym room. I did the ski motion exercise at the intense speed and frequency. The therapy ended by the dry needling with electric stimulation on my right foot. I really liked the male doctor’s therapy approach. I asked him to switch my doctor from the young female doctor to him. He, as the supervisor and the owner of the clinic, asked me to make an appointment with the female young doctor and him alternately. I understand his position. He probably doesn’t want to completely drop her from my case.  

My husband went to his friend’s house to repair my laptop. His friend recently started his private business dealing with repairing a computer. After spent some hours at his house, he came back home. They concluded that my laptop needs to replace a motherboard.

In the evening, we decided to send my laptop to the dealer who is also the owner of the biofeedback device dealer and the technician to repair their devices and laptops.

We went to the library and printed out the order form. Then we went to the post office to send  my laptop to the dealer.

We haven’t heard any news from my mom-in-law about my brother-in-law. Maybe he came back to life and is stable right now.  

I slept well last night. I could sleep for 4 hours straight. I believe it was thanks to the male doctor’s physical therapy session. His approach was painful but beneficial for my body. In the morning, I received a phone call from the pain clinic. I called and left a voice message to their clinic on December 15^th and they returned a phone call today. It took them 3 days to return a call from a patient. At this moment, I lost interests in going to this clinic. The clinic worker had a strong accent in English, and it was tough for me to understand what she was talking about. I asked my husband to be there with me. He also struggled with understanding what she was saying. All we understood was the earliest appointment available was at the end of next month. We could not believe it. As the clinic name clearly shows that the clinic deals with the patients with intense pain. In this clinic, the new patients have to wait 6 weeks from the day when they call to make an appointment. It is insane for me. I considered this as a clear sign from my family spirits, that I don’t need to go to this pain clinic.

In the afternoon, while I was dealing with laundry, I received a phone call from my mom-in-law. As soon as I picked up the phone, I heard my mom-in-law called my name with crying out loud. She sounded like having a panic attack. My daughter and I listened quietly to her crying sound. Once she calmed down, she told me what happened.

She just got done talking with my brother-in-law’s girlfriend. My brother-in-law missed stepping on at the last stage of the stairs and fell down on the ground. He is alcoholic and cirrhosis with abnormally swollen liver. To made the situation worse was his body weight. He is obese with lots of weigh, and his own heavy weight couldn’t support his organs. He broke one of his leg bones. He was transferred to a big hospital by an ambulance. There, the doctor checked him and asked his girlfriend to notice his critical health condition to his family, relatives, and friends. It means that the doctor diagnosed my brother-n\in-law’s departure would happen real soon.

When I was listening to my mom-in-law, I was at a loss for words. I know losing a child before them is the toughest challenge for a parent. She just lost her husband 4 years ago. It is beyond my imagination on how sad she has been going through right now. I wish I could go visit her and hug her. But I am still in the healing process and still suffering from intense pain every day and night. I don’t think I can visit her with my current health condition.   

I woke up around 5 a.m. and could not go back to sleep. I left for the physical therapy session at 7:45 a.m. For the 2 sessions of this week, the male doctor / owner of the clinic will instruct me. He is around my age, but much more experienced and skilled than my usual female doctor, so I have been looking forward to his 2 sessions.

The session started from the conversation with the doctor. He sat down right next to me on the massage table and asked a bunch of questions regarding my pain. While I talked, he never disturbed me, just listening carefully with looking into my eyes. Then he decided to apply a dry needling session with electric stimulation. The big difference from the usual female doctor was that the male doctor applied the needles focusing on my right foot area. Whenever he put the needles, he pressed the needle to deepened, and it hurt very much to the point where I almost screamed, but I somewhat survived without screaming. He put the electricity for 20 minutes. During that time, it hurt also.

After the dry needling session, the doctor left the room, and the young female assistant took over for the exercise part. She was short and huge in size. The most positive part about her was that she was cheerful and friendly. She put an elastic band onto my belly and had me walk forward. While I was walking forward, she held the other end on her both hands to resist my walking. It looked like as if I were her horse. We laughed out loud a lot and had a great fun during this exercise.

After the session, my daughter and I went to the grocery store. After that, we went to the restaurant and had lunch together. During that time, I almost forgot about

After came back home, the nerve pain in the right foot came back. Also, the pain in the right butt area and pubic bone area became so intense to the point where I couldn’t even sit down. The doctor told me that having pain in the butt area, buck area, and pubic area, is okay because it is the right direction of healing sciatica. He also told me that regardless of the pain, the daily homework exercise is critical.  

In the afternoon, a package was delivered. It was from my Japanese friend. The content was the personal homeopathy remedies along with my requested Japanese snacks.
On last physical therapy session, the doctor recommended me to make an appointment with the pain clinic because my nerve pain has not improved yet. So, I followed her advice and called the pain clinic office. It was weird. This clinic’s main phone number directly goes to the answering machine to instruct everybody to leave a message, then the representative will call them back. I left a voice message to the machine.   

As usual, I woke up before 5：45 a.m. and did the morning routine, which is going to the backyard, sitting down on a chair in front of a big tree, earthing my bare foot to the ground and touching my both palms on the tree bark, and chanting the Japanese mantra.

Since my husband’s employer was changed, we needed to apply for the benefits of next year. We were shocked to see the health insurance cost will be 5 times as high as that of the current employer. I search around the other options and found one good option for us through our bank’s official website. The deadline of application was today. We finished sending the application within today. We made it. I appreciate my family spirits for guiding me to the right website for our health insurance of next year.

I woke up before 6 a.m. The first thing I noticed right after I woke up is the intense pain in the right foot. As always. As every morning.

Then I started my day from going to the backyard and earthed myself in front of a big tree, and chanted the Japanese mantra. The pain is still intense. I cried and shed lots of tears as usual.

Last night my daughter stayed up late to see the Gemini Meter Shower. I let her sleep in until 10 a.m. I noticed she started sleep in recently. I want her to wake up 6 or 7 a.m. every morning, but on my second thought, she went through the tough time with me and needs much more rest and sleep.    

In the afternoon, I gave myself an ion foot bath. The hot water didn’t turn to thick and dark color. It just turned to be light brown.

In the night, my attorney emailed me and informed me that he already submitted the official letter to the court claiming the original lawsuit should not be discarded because all the three lawsuits are related. I hope the people related to this matter will logically think and decide according to the law and common sense.