I had an appointment with the technician of the biofeedback software dealer. Today’s appointment took her 3 hours due to the upgrade to premium version.

From today, my husband’s employer has changed to a new one.

As for me, I had another progress. I went for a walk with my daughter. Since I still have pain in my right foot, I was planning to walk just a short distance, which is only 1/3 out of the full circle. But my daughter today suggested to walk to a full circle. She said walking to a full circle will give me confidence and it will be beneficial for me. So, we walked to a full circle. Walking, chatting and laughing with my daughter at the same time, I could fish walking to a full circle. It was much easier than I thought.

Since yesterday, I have seen the news about big earthquake in the southern area of Hokkaido and Northen area of main island in Japan.

In the evening, the nerve pain got intense again and I cried.

After I cried and calmed down, I gave my daughter a full biofeedback session. I loved the premium version. After done with her session, I wanted to do a session to myself. but my laptop stopped starting up.  

Right after I woke up, I suffered from the intense pain. I shed lots of tears. Once I was satisfied on shedding lots of tears, I got out from the bed and hang blankets and sheets on the hanging rack. While doing so, I was filled with appreciation. The pain is still here, but I have recovered to the point where I can freely walk around and do house chores.

I gave myself a biofeedback session. The session went smoothly and the success rate was 80%.

My mom-in-law called me. She said she had been sick for the past week. She didn’t have any appetite but today she is feeling much better than before. She got hungry and warmed up the curry and rice that I saved for her on our last visit. She appreciated me for the delicious curry and rice and asked me to cook some more on our next visit. I was happy to hear that she really loves my food. I will definitely cook more and save more for her on our next visit.

I could sleep for 4 hours, which is very rare for me.

My daughter has way behind in her school work, because she has been supporting me a lot with house chores in these past two months. Now that I can do most of the house chore, she can focus on her school work.

I woke up feeling energized. I felt I had a better sleep than the previous night.

Since my daughter is curious about the biofeedback session, I gave her a session today, and took screenshots on all the panels. I explained each panel and the comments from the software.

My husband is in the process of transferring his hiring company. He works as a movement contractor. His employer company was shifted to a new company, so that he needed to input his personal information the new company’s data file.

In the morning, I made a homemade corn soup from a scratch. It turned out to be a delicious soup.

My attorney shared lots of documents that my brother’s attorney submitted to the court. My attorney told me not to worry and focus on the healing process of my body. I appreciate his kindness. He is right. I cannot do anything about this. I trust my attorney and let him work on it as professional. As for me, I need to concentrate on healing my body.

Again, I could not sleep only for 3 hours. I was planning to drive by myself to the physical therapy clinic, but due to the lack of sleep, I asked my husband to take me there. Last night was very cold and the outside temperature dropped, so that the street surface frozen.

Today’s session was with the usual young female doctor. She asked me the feedback of the male doctor. I mentioned I liked his new approach and dry needling in the back of knee area. Only one aspect I didn’t like about his session was he was pretty busy showing up and left.

The female doctor told me what I didn’t know about the clinic. In this clinic, she is the only one doctor who attend to one client for the entire session. All the other doctors deal with 3 patients simultaneously. And that is why nobody stays with one patient for more than 5 minutes. I understand the efficiency of the clinic, but I personally don’t like the idea to deal with 3 patients simultaneously.

After came back the physical therapy, as usual, I was drained and felt sad. My daughter rubbed my back gently and listened quietly whatever I said while I was shedding tears. The pain was intense as usual. It huts no matter what. I cannot escape from pain even while sleeping. I was devastating.

I started thinking about graduating from physical therapy. For the past several therapies, after came back from physical therapy, I would feel drained and sad. Recently I stated feeling like I might be sucking in the negative energy and anger from the young female doctor. I don’t feel comfortable to have any session from her anymore.

My daughter had a pain in her jar, so I gave her a biofeedback session and focused on TMJ.    

For the past one week, I started noticing the dull pain in my lower back area. Today I can clearly feel the pain.

Last night I woke up around 2 a.m. as usual.

In my dream, somebody told me that the pain is supposed to go up, meaning the pain is supposed to come back to the lower back area. With the process, gradually the pain in the right foot will disappear and that I should enjoy the healing process. Then I woke up. I felt happy and excited about the ongoing healing process.

The first thing in the morning was the smooth process of bowel movement. Last two months, I had missed my healthy routine of every morning’s bowel movement without any efforts. Now it is back naturally. I am filled with appreciation to my body for functioning normally.

It was my daughter’s birthday. I let her sleep until late morning so that she can enjoy the deep asleep. We had a Asian food for lunch at the restaurant.

It was a nice and sunny day. We enjoyed the warm sun light shining through the window in my daughter’s room.

In the evening my daughter had a group chat with her several friends. I am glad she had a good time with her friends.

To our surprise, after 8 p.m., the new mattress that I ordered online for my daughter was delivered.

In my dream, somebody encouraged me to keep doing the homework exercises that the physical therapy doctor taught me.

This morning, I woke up feeling refreshed, even though I woke up in the middle of the night frequently.

I went to my ninth physical therapy session. I could drive there by myself, and I was proud of myself for the progress. Usually, I was seen by a young female doctor, but she called in this morning, so that a male doctor who is the owner of the clinic saw me. It was an interesting synchronicity. Just last night, I pulled an angel card asking exactly what I should do to drastically improve my nerve pain in the right foot. The cards told me that I need to drastically change all the e routines such as in a physical therapy doctor, a new approach to deal with the nerve pain, and new exercises. I actually start wishing about changing a physical therapy doctor from the young male doctor to the experienced and skilled male doctor/owner of the clinic. The young female doctor told me she was still new with only a 1.5-year actual job experience. She always focused on my spine, but never dealt with my nerve pain. I started accumulated complaints about her approach.

The male doctor did all the new approach to tackle with my nerve pain. He applied the dry needling with electric stimulation on the back of my right knee, which the young female doctor never did. The exercises that the male doctor instructed to me was much more intense that I had lots of sweat. After I left the clinic, I got lightheaded and dizzy.   

In the evening, my husband told me what he heard from the bone doctor. The day when I had a diagnosis from the back doctor was October 27^th. I was still in extreme intense pain and didn’t understand all the details of what the doctor told me. All I understood clearly was the back doctor really saw me as his practice material. He was eager to do a surgery on me as one of his actual practices. He told me there was no option left for me except a surgery. He pushed me to agree with having a surgery from him. He wanted me to make an appointment of a spine surgery as soon as possible. My husband, on the other hand, listened more carefully to the doctor. The back doctor showed the X-ray picture and pointed one part of my lower spine. There was one dark spot next to the spine. The doctor explained the spot as the calcium. As long as the calcium attaches to the spine, it is fine. However, with a certain trigger, such as a rough treatment or push from a chiropractor, the calcium part separates from spine and attaches to the big nerve. The back doctor believed the main cause of my intense pain was the calcium part separated from spine due to the chiropractic treatment. That is why the back doctor strongly believe that the only option to solve this issue was a surgery. He said he can get rid of the calcium part.    

My husband has gone back to work. I feel comfortable with the routine days when my husband goes to work and my daughter works on school work. I still cannot keep sitting down on a chair, so I cannot do much for my professional homeopath course study.

My physical therapy doctor recommended me to sleep laying on belly. I have slept on belly since the injury day, but it is hard for me to sleep because I had slept on my back all my life.

Last night, a young girl visited me in my dream. She understood it was hard for me to sleep on belly, but she strongly recommended me to sleep on belly. It is beneficial for me to heal quickly.

In the afternoon, I drove to the grocery store by myself. It was my first to drive to the grocery store, which is located in the next city. I felt comfortable to have my daughter in the passenger’s seat. While driving and walking around the grocery store, the nerve pain in the right foot was unbearable. From time to time, I almost scream about the intense pain. All in all, I am so happy that I safely drove to the grocery store and came back home.

I woke up at 5 a.m., and could not go back to sleep. My husband and daughter slept in until 9:30 a.m. I still cannot sleep throughout the night. I wake up at the middle of the night and take a nap in the daytime for 1-2 hours.

The pain is like somebody constantly pokes my right foot with a bunch of sharp needles. The pain makes me irritated, angry, and sad. I still don’t see the end of this pain duration. I also start feeling the dull pain around the pubic bones. It was not a sharp pain, but a dull pain. Even though it is a dull pain, it irritates me enough to the point where I have to stop whatever I was doing.

Since this morning, I started having a black blood in phlegm, that I often need to go to the bathroom to spit out.