Since last night, I started taking a half of 1 pill of gabapentin. It is a vegetable capsule and easy to open it. I put half amount into water and took it. Even though it was a half amount, I could sleep without any issues.
In the afternoon, I received a phone call from the technician and owner of the biofeedback system. He first thought my laptop only needed to exchange a fan. But after he exchanged a fan, my laptop still doesn’t work. So, he informed me that he would need to exchange a motherboard and it would cost $600. It was not a good news, but I can feel his honest and sincere attitude toward me. So, I approved the repair fee and told him he can go ahead to proceed the exchange.

My family and I were planning to go toa mine tour in Apache junction for the school in-person event. We reserved a hotel close to the event venue, but it was located 4 hours away from our house. Both of my husband and daughter kindly suggested me to give up the school event this time so that I can rest up my body. I appreciate their kind proposal and decided to cancel the trip. I will save up my body energy for the upcoming trip to Navajoland.

My husband told me that recently I started walking much better than before. I still limp with nerve pain in the right foot, but the nerve pain has gotten reduced day by day. I know I still have a weird way to walk and need to correct it back to normal. The physical therapy doctor told me it would take another couple of months to completely get back to for me to walk normally. At least, I am thankful that I am in the right healing process.

In the evening, I noticed one of my light bulbs in my bedroom was out. This light bulb has a unique shape and we didn’t have a replacement at home. After my husband came back home, we went to the store to purchase a replacement bulb. I could walk for a longer distance in the store without the sharp pain. So, we decided to visit my mom-in-law in Navajoland next weekend.

I had a zoom meeting with the counselor of my daughter’s high school. I had noticed that her math teacher was very strict to the point where I thought it beyond the acceptance. The school counselor agreed with me, but unfortunately there was only one teacher to teach the specific subject and she could not replace to a new teacher. The school counselor promised me to follow up this matter.

My husband’s weekend had ended and resumed to his work routine. This weekend was tough for him. We went to see him at his last moment of this physical realm, and saw him off to the spirit world.

My daughter and I cleaned the house as well as any reduced negative emotion that we might have caught from the hospital.  

I slept for 11 hours last night and went back to sleep at 8 p.m. My day went by quickly, as I slept for many hours. My body needs to rest and I listen to my body’s voice.

It was on the next day when we saw my brother-in-law off to the spirit world. I told my husband to sleep in this morning, because his brother might visit him in the dream.

On next Saturday, my brother-in-law’s girlfriend decided to have a memorial service for her boyfriend at my mom-in-law’s house. My husband decided not to go. I followed his decision. Besides, I don’t think I can drive all the way to the Navajoland yet. I still have the nerve pain and don’t have confidence to drive that far at this moment.

In the evening at 6 p.m., I attended the online gathering of the professional homeopath course. They used to start this gathering at 10 p.m., from this time they changed the time. It was beneficial for me so that I could attend the gathering not sacrificing my heath by attending at the middle of the night.

At night after my gathering ended, my family and I did a sage smudging ceremony at our house. It is for my brother-in-law for his safe trip back to the spirit world, as well as for our safety to get rid of any negative energies that we might caught from the hospital.

We left our house around 8 a.m. headed to the hospital where my brother-in-law was. It took us 3 hours to get there.

The hospital was located in the state capital city. The parking lot is a tall tower building and everybody has to pay for the parking. There are many buildings in the property. We needed to ask the worker the location of ICU patients is. At the first floor, there is a check-in counter and all the visitors have to register and receive a wrist band. We were told to go to the fourth floor. Once we got out from the elevator, there was one open spot as a visitor’s waiting room. The ICU room door was locked. We needed to call at the receptionist’s desk where no receptionists were. We were told only one visitor at once. Thus, only my husband entered in, and I waited at the waiting room with my daughter. I waited there for more than one hour.

When my husband came out, he asked us if we wanted to go in to the ICU room or not. Since I was not that close to my brother-in-law, and I didn’t want to remember him as in a hospital gown in the ICU room, I told my husband I don’t want to go there. My daughter wanted to see her uncle at the last moment, so she went into the ICU room with my husband.

According to my husband, the nurse shared my brother-in-law’s health condition. He was pretty bad condition when he came into the ICU room. He was at the last stage of alcoholism and his liver was in an extremely bad condition.

After the visit, we drove back to our house.

After we got back home safely, around 8:40 p.m., we received a text message from my brother-in-law’s girlfriend to inform us that the doctor stopped the life support.

We talked with my mom-in-law over the phone. She was crying but stayed being calm. In a way, it was good for everybody that my brother-in-law had lived an extra one month after his sudden critical health condition. For this one month, he and his girlfriend could talk about what he wanted to do his belongings and how he wanted to take care of himself after death.

In the late morning at 11 a.m., my mom-in-law informed us that my brother-in-law was connected to the life support in the hospital. The doctor asked his girl friend to let the immediate family and close friends know to say good-bye to him. We decided to visit him in the hospital tomorrow.

My husband wanted to have an alone time, so he went to the gym. Meanwhile, around 3 p.m., while I chanted a Japanese mantra to my brother-in-law, I shed lots of tears. I felt he already made his mind to depart from physical realm to the spirit world.