My family and I visited a bowling supply store in a big city. We wanted to try and find our right size for the bowling shoes, but unfortunately the store didn’t have a variety of the shoes. Even though we drove far away to the store, our effort was in vain.

My daughter wanted to stop by at the puppy store. The store allows the customers to play with a puppy in a small room for a while. We played with 3 puppies; two golden retriever puppies and one wolf looking puppy (I forgot the breed). They were super cute but their eyes did not look normal. Something weird. I felt sorry that the entire store smells cleaning detergent and hand sanitizer alcohol. I wonder how they are feeling in staying in the unnatural and artificial room all day long. I thought of the dogs in Navajoland. They are very lucky to live their lives on the vast nature without being leashed.

Today the second lecture of Inner child therapy course came in. I worked on the second homework.

The first homework was to write about my parents. I wrote down about what I hated about them and what they did to me in a negative way. The second homework was the continued work from the first one. I needed to write if I have the bad habit inherited from my parents or not.

Recently my inner child of 14-years old strongly came in. I belonged to the swimming club at school. At first, I hang around with my 4 friends. The five of us were the popular students because we were one of the fastest swimmers. We acted like we owned the club. We started picking the other club members on, one by one, in a bad way. I never enjoyed doing anything cruel to anybody and started suffering from being a part of the bullying behaviors. One day I took my courage and told my friends to stop bullying. Then from the next day, they made me as their next bullying target. I could have left the club but I didn’t. I didn’t want to be a loser. So, even though it was very hard for me, I kept attending the club activity until the graduation.

Now I talked to my inner child. The little michan wanted my mom to listen to me, stand by me, and tell me to leave the club. I could never talk to my mom anything because my mom was occupied with my other classmate who was bullied at the club. The classmate’s parents were divorced and she was sent to her grandparents. My mom felt sorry for her and would visit her house every day.

I hugged the little michan and told her that it is okay to leave the club anytime. I told her that she does not need to suffer from anything. I told her that it is okay to lose. The Japanese old saying says 負けるが勝ち. Sometimes losing is really a gift in disguise. Instead of cringing on to something, instead of being attached to something, just letting it go and moving on is easy and smart.

I thanked the little michan, because thanks to her, I finally could make a wise decision recently. Instead of being attached to a certain group of people, I decided to leave. And I am released and feeling light right now.

I watched the homeopathy lecture and the instructor had a great reminder. She shared “時間は命、雑用などない”. It means “Time is life itself. Thus, there is no unnecessary tasks.” I agree with her. It is true especially for the people who are around my age or older. We don’t have any time to waste. There is an English term saying “to kill time.” I used to use this term when I was young, but I cannot use it anymore.  

It was a great reminder for me because this term and the concept of this term are the answer to my concern from my family spirits. It was also a confirmation from my family spirits that I made the right decision. I decided to wisely choose the people whom I want to spend time with. I decided to prioritize my gut feeling and emotion rather than what other people would think of me.

In the early morning at 6:30 a.m., a male paramedic came to our house and offered a medical checkup for my husband. He checked thoroughly and the checkup included a lab test, a medical history interview, a urine test, and scaling the weight, height, and taping the chest and waist. Even though it was only one hour visit and it was not a medical checkup for me, it was kind of overwhelming to me. After the checkup, my husband went for work.

This year in our garden, the cucumber is the winner that keeps producing. This morning I walked around the outside of our garden fence and found a huge cucumber well-hidden under the leaves on the ground. The length was 44 cm and the weight was 1943 gram.

I stayed up until late at night to attend the reiki gathering started from midnight. There were 41 attendees. most of them are Europeans.

Today our Reiki teacher shared the Japanese term 仕方がない Shikata-ga-nai. This term contains Japanese philosophy to accept things as they are.

仕方がない means “No way means. It is translated as “It cannot be helped.” It may sound as negative and giving up, but the direct translation does not include the real meaning. For Japanese people we don’t take this as negative. It is more like positive. The similar concept is “que sera sera” and “Go with the flow.”

Sometimes things don’t turn out as we expected or as we wished. When we keep cringing on to a certain thing, it makes us to be narrow minded, stressed out, and our vibration gets heavy. So, instead of cringing on to it, sometimes it is a good idea to let it go and let the great spirt take care of it. Once we let it go, we will release ourselves from the heavy stress and that will make us to see things in a wider vision.

仕方がない is to fully understand that there is something invisible exist, which we can call great spirit or something great or god. Once we fully understand that we are well taken care of, we can let our obsession go and let them take care of it. It is really comfortable to live every day without any obsession or stress. We don’t need to tie up ourselves with the thinking like it should be this and that, or I must be this and that.    

I think it comes from Japanese ancestor’s way of life. Traditionally we have fully depended on farming. Even though farmers take care of farming, the crops grow with the help of nature such as sun light and rain.

It may appear as a bad thing or a disaster, but eventually it might turn out to be beneficial for us. Because things are constantly changing and as a matter of fact, everything is evolving, changing into a better way, we can just let things go as they are and accept    

It is up to an individual to consider this as negative and pessimistic or positive and optimistic.

In the situation where there is nothing you can do about it, we should let it go and let the invisible beings take care of it and believe it is in the good hand of Universe.

Draw a line at a certain point, and from there let it go and move on, and let go and no attachment. Even though this term is nothing special to me, it was a great reminder to remind the deep concept.

In the evening I attended the credit card and its points seminar. There were two seminar hosts and they both were Japanese men. The main host is probably around my age. They both are from the same areas of my hometown in Japan. I feel I have met the main host somewhere while I was in Japan.

They shared lots of helpful tip and information about the credit card and its points to save. It helps especially for the people like us who want to visit our family and friends in Japan in an economy way. I am still not planning to go back to Japan at this moment, but maybe I should start creating one or two credit card accounts and save points for an international airplane ticket.

It was a busy day. I attended 2 one-hour online seminar. One was about the applying to the American university. I learned about the application process and timeline and the founding such as scholarship and grant. The other seminar was the technical information about the life insurance sales.

We had some cool days in the beginning of this month, but for the past couple of days it has been back to very hot. Regardless of the up and down in the temperature, I have been enjoying the nice autumn weather. One thing I miss about Japan is enjoying the changing color in leaves in this season. In my current area, most of the leaves are still green.

In the evening I chatted with my new friend. She is my fellow student of the palm reading course. She mentioned about their boot camp that she attended before. The teacher and the students had one night gathering at the hotel somewhere in Tokyo and enjoyed the get-together. I really want to join if they have the boot camp somewhere in Japan next time.  

It was a busy day. in the early evening I took my daughter to coding club (3). Right after we came back home, I attended the online Reiki gathering at 5 p.m. There were 36 attendees.

Today my Reiki teacher shared the brief history of Reiki. The Reiki originator Usui sensei created 21 Shihans (teachers) while he was alive. Some of the new Reiki teachers are the military personnel of Navy and they were one of the top and elite people. I think it amazing that we had many male teachers who had devoted their efforts to spread Reiki because they can prove that Reiki energy is real.