Today my husband was off from work. We watched two movies of Lone Ranger (2013) Smoke Signals (1998). My husband and I have watched these movies before. The reason why we started re-watching old Native American movies is because we want our daughter to know a lot about Natives.

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Today I had one uncomfortable experience. I receive an email from the realtor. I hope she is originally a nice person, but when it comes to the communication via emails, texts, and letters, she sounds very coldhearted. One biggest example is about the rent increase notice. At the end of 2019, she sent us a letter. The letter did not contain any greetings or nice wording, but it went directly to the business. It was the rent increase notice letter of $100 increase per month. It was very coldhearted notice because it had only 30 days in advance notice and a huge amount. The letter ordered us to choose one option out of the two. Option one: accept the increase and start paying from the next month. Option two: leave within one month.

The letter arrived to our house at the beginning of December. Who can pack up and leave that soon?  We are the family; my daughter goes to school and my husband goes to work. We could not find a new place to move out. Of course we had no option but to accept the rent increase. Since that time, I totally lost trust to this realtor.

Today she sent out the similar type of notice email. It says we as a tenant are responsible to change an air filter. The email, same as usual, does not contain any greetings or respected words. Just went straight to the business in a cold hearted way. I believe changing an air filter is on the owner’s responsibility, not tenant’s responsibility. We have been living on the renting situation for 12 years now. All the owners prepared a new air filter and exchanged it every time when they switched from heater to cooler. In order to switch an air filter, we have to climb up to the top of the roof. We called the realtor and wanted to ask her to arrange somebody on her side, but she didn’t pick up the phone nor returned the call all day.

I meditated and went to the high vibration realm and talked to my family spirits.

I wishes are like this.

My family and I want to keep peace with the realtor.

We don’t know how many years will take for us to get ready to move to Navajoland, but we will for sure. Until then, I want to keep living in this house.

I visualize something unexpected and great news will come to us, such as the current realtor will quit her position for some reasons and somebody really nice and thoughtful will take over her position.

I think all I can do at this moment is to keep thinking positive and believe in we will be fine no matter what. We want to live peacefully. We want to deal with only nice and thoughtful people. We thank spirits for their constant support. I strongly believe this will be solved peacefully.

My favorite YouTuber posted his newest video clip today. He started positing his videos in 2011 and posted almost every day in 2012, but gradually the frequency got smaller and smaller by now. So I was happy to see his new video clip today. I never commented to any of YouTubers before, but I wanted to say hi to him. I took courage and commented to a YouTube video for the first time. I commented I watched all his videos and I love his Navajo-English slang video clip the best. He replied back to my comment and said he would make a newer version of the video clip. I was so happy that I could unexpectedly communicated with my favorite YouTuber. Nice.

Today’s dream: My Japanese friend and her husband and daughter were visiting me in my dream. I was with my husband and daughter. The six of us went to an amusement park together and sat down in the audience seats to see some entertainment show. We all shared our foods for lunch. We had a good time together. Then I woke up. I haven’t talked with them for a while. I miss them. I hope they are doing fine and we will see each other again once Covid-19 situation calms down.

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I finished reading the book Lump Lump and the Blanket of Dreams inspired by Navajo Culture and Folklore written by Gwen Jackson and illustrated by Lissa Calvert. It was a cute story.

Today’s dream: My mom and my grandma visited me in my dream. My mom gave me a whole bunch of her homemade onigiri (rice balls) and my grandma gave me a whole bunch of her homemade hamburgers with lots of cabbage. They all looked very yummy. They told me to share them with my family and friends. I woke up feeling refreshed and happy.

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I finished reading the book Navajo History edited by Ethelou Yazzie. I have read my different books about Navajo myth in my late 20s and I know the storyline, but it was good for me to review them again as I forgot some of them.

My daughter read it before me. It took her only some minutes to finish reading it while it took me three days. At first I doubted the she actually read it through. But she told me what she has learned from this book, it was all accurate and in details. Up until now all her school teachers have told me she is an amazingly strong reader, and today it was fully confirmed.

In this summer I am planning to have many books about Navajo and read them with my daughter.

In the morning my family and I went to the canyon hiking. The weather was perfect; not too hot nor too cold. We enjoyed having nice gentle breezes. Unlike usual, there were not many visitors on the trail, which we enjoyed too.

The local swimming pool was open from today. We didn’t go but it would be nice to jump into a cold water pool in such a hot summer day.

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At 8:30 p.m. I attended the Sunday Service. At the spirit communication demonstration, I was chosen unexpectedly. On top of that I was the very first one who was chosen. I was surprised because recently I had not been selected at all.

The medium stared saying that my paternal grandparents appeared for me. My grandma came forward. She showed a vision of writing a postcard the illustration of some purple flowers as iris and hydrangea. The medium didn’t know exactly what the vision meant. She recommended me to start drawing some flowers or something artistic works.

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After the demonstration, I focused on my grandma. I felt that purple energy means spiritual ability. I include her name in my prayer, but I was not sure if she was with me or not. I felt my grandma appeared and showed a vision of writing a postcard as her response. She has been listening to me and I can talk to her often.

Thank you to my grandma and grandpa for coming to see me tonight. And thank you to the medium for conveying the precious message to me.

My daughter decided to attend the summer camp presented by our local school and community volunteers. She previously attended this summer camp for three years. There were some not-nice girls in the camp and she had some bad experiences from them. So, for the last two years, she didn’t attend it.

This past school year one of her former classmates and my daughter have been chatting through the online game and that made them closer than before. They decided to attend the summer camp together.

We registered her to the camp and paid the fee. The summer camp stars at the beginning of next month. She is excited to interact with other people. I am happy that she will get back to the society. Since last March when the school closed due to Covid-19, she has been staying at home with me all the time more than one year. I guess it is time for us to have our own private time. It will be only 4 hours a day, but I will cherish my alone time of the 4 hours for one month.　

I hope from my heart that she will have only good experiences during the summer camp.

We planted some okra seeds on May 14^th. It took them about 10 days to sprout. Now the cute babies have been growing well in a paper coffee cup. Maybe we will replant them to the backyard garden.

We reinforced our vegetable garden. We added 2 bags of garden soil. We also installed 4 extra wooden boards to secure the fence. Now our garden looks much better and is ready for growing summer vegetables.

I attended the Higher-self workshop at 3:30 a.m. There were19 students attended.

We did two guided meditations.

The first one was a short one of 10-minute long. Beforehand the meditation, the instructor told us to write down any negative feelings or events we want to let go. In the meditation we were guided to fire ceremony at Japanese temple and burn all the items in the list that we just wrote.

My lists were as follows.

Fear to humans — I don’t want to be watched or heard. I don’t want to get involved with people.

Fear to be criticized or judged — I have been writing a memoir and completed a picture book, but I am not planning to publish yet because of the fear.

Fear to be famous — If I become famous, my family might be involved in a danger.

Not confident in my appearance – I don’t have confidence in my face and appearance in public.

During the mediation, an owl came. I didn’t feel any specific message from the owl. The owl just presented there for me and watched me quietly.

The second meditation was a 25-minute long. My guide spirit appeared in golden light. I could not see the figure. I felt female energy.

She said I am very unique and born with many unique spiritual gifts. She said I should be proud of it. She encouraged me to have courage and show my unique spiritual gifts to many people. When I have confidence in myself, beauty comes from inside to out. People will notice the beauty coming inside of me. She said there are people who are waiting to find me. Unless I go out and show myself, they cannot find me. They will be saved and inspired by my books and words, and my existence. She emphasized me the importance of my publishing books. I noticed the owl from the first meditation was still there with my guide spirit.

At the class, I could not ask the instructor the meaning of an owl’s visit in my mediation. So, after the class I looked it up in the Internet and found the information like this.

An owl’s visit in mediation can mean a great change will come into your life. An owls represents transition and will guide you during difficult times in your life.

These messages make sense to me. I enjoyed this instructor’s class as always. I like her guided meditation.

A weird event happened to all of my family during the past two days. Two days ago my daughter and I encountered a crazy driver who made a sharp and sudden turn in a high speed in our peaceful neighborhood. We were very close to get involved in an accident. Yesterday my husband encountered a similar event. When he was making a right turn to our neighborhood area from the freeway, one car in the faster abruptly cut him in and made a right turn in front of him. He needed to jam on the brakes. He was very close to get involved in an accident.

Now I know the reasons. We were about to have Super Full moon at 4:13 a.m. of May 26^th in our area. From my personal experiences, right before Full Moon people tend to have aberrant behaviors. I am glad that we were well protected by our family spirits. We will keep being alert on the days before full moon.

Since May 6^th, I have been studying Navajo language with the help of Navajo YouTuber. He started posting the video clips since 2011 and his videos have been accumulated to 358 video clips. I watched them little by little every day, taking a note and practicing the pronunciations. Today I finally finished watching all of his video clips.

In 2013 he posted a Vlog and announced he just had an audition of Navajo language voiceover for Star Wars. After this Vlog, he never mentioned about the audition, but he actually won a role of Luke Skywalker. I was very happy for him even though I don’t know him in person.  

Back in 2013 my dad-in-law gifted us a DVD of the Star Wars dubbed in Navajo. I never watched the DVD at that time. Today I finally watched it. I was in awe that all the Navajo actors and actresses did a great job. I was happy that I could understand many Navajo words and sentences this time.