I woke up feeling good from my dream. This morning’s dream was similar to my recent dream of April 25th.

In my dream I had a strong nature call and went to a bathroom. There I released a whole bunch. I had enough toilet paper in my hand. After released, I felt so good.

Then I woke up.

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I know this was a message from my family spirits. Last night I was irritated from the conversation with my dad. So, this dream is the answer.

I felt their message as follows.

“Not to worry. Everything will go smoothly and well for me and my Japanese family.”

I decided to keep following my intuition. I keep believing everything will go well for everybody. I just experience through my mom’s departure, didn’t I? Before, I worried about my mom so much, but she made all her wishes come true naturally and departed to her spiritual hometown peacefully. I know it will happen to my dad too. They are originally great souls that they deserve the peaceful departure.

I have been thinking about my dad every day. Last time when I called him was March 31^st. Since then I hadn’t called him for more than one month. I know he is feeling lonely. I know he appreciates my phone call.

However, talking with my dad is not fun, to say it at the least. On my last visit of my parents in this past January, my dad made me feel irritated a lot.

I admit I had glorified my dad in my younger years. I had respected him. Even though my mom and my aunt (my dad’s older sister) had told me the true faces of my dad many time, I could not believe them. Now I know from my experiences, I know they were right. My dad has many aspects that I cannot respect or agree with.

I had decided to follow my intuition regarding calling my dad. I wanted to wait until when I feel comfortable talking with him. It was hard for me to follow my intuition by not calling my dad, but I had stayed strong to protect myself, until this evening.

This morning I received a text message from my friend. She suggested me to call my dad. She thought my dad has been waiting for my call every day.

Her message dived into my heart deeply. It made me think I should call my dad right away.

So, I did. Without thinking twice. I regretted that I called my dad, after I hang up the phone with him.

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I called my dad. My dad was happy to hear my voice. So far so good. Then, he started gradually saying stuff that obviously sounded like he was blaming me for not have called him more than one month. I should have hang the phone at the moment. My dad went on and on asking me many questions and I naturally answered to his questions. Then at the certain point, I noticed my dad’s questions were investigating my mom’s secret bank account. It really made me feel uncomfortable. My dad went on saying the same thing over and over again, that I already asked him to stop saying that anymore. All the things I heard from my dad made me feel uncomfortable and mad.

I reached to the point where I could not put up with listening to him anymore. I told him I’ve got to go and hang up the phone.

After hanged up the phone, I madly regretted that I called him. Why I could not keep standing firmly on my decision. Haven’t I decided not to call him until I will feel strong enough to talk with my dad? My dad at this moment is not normal. I really should keep the sacred distance from him. I am not going to call him for a while again. He successfully ruined my evening and night.

From now on, at least one month or so, I will focus on talking to my dad in soul level. In my mind’s eye, my dad’s soul always stays in noble. He is calm and intelligent. I pray for him for a smooth transition process from the physical dimension to spiritual realm whenever he gets ready, and the process will accompany nothing but a peaceful and happy feeling. I know my dad’s soul’s departure will leave us only appreciation and love to him. I fully trust my dad’s soul can sense my feeling and prayer for the highest good.

This morning I woke up refreshed. Thanks to the swamp cooler’s properly working, my day went well nicely.

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In the evening my cousin gave me a phone call.

Last time when I talked with my cousin was before my mom’s 49^th ceremony. My dad invited him for the Buddhism ceremony to pray for my mom’s safe departure to her spiritual hometown. A banquet dinner would be followed after the ceremony. My cousin was planning to attend the ceremony, but he was reluctant for attending at the banquet dinner. He does not get along with other cousin and feels awkward to have dinner with him. When I heard his concern, I suggested my cousin to turn down the invitation. It would not hurt using some excuses such as a sudden business trip. With my suggestion, my cousin got relieved. He said he would do so.

So, I asked him if he could excuse himself from the banquet dinner. He said he could not excuse himself. He attended the banquet because he thought my dad might feel offended if he didn’t attend. I noticed my cousin is the type of person who cannot say no to others. I used to be like him, so I know exactly how difficult for him to say no. I feel sorry for him.

My cousin is my mom’s nephew. Since they had lived in a same house in their younger years, they were close as if they were real siblings. Thus, it was natural for him to visit my mom often. After my mom’s passed away, I thought my cousin would stop visiting my parents’ house.

In our conversation, I found out that my cousin visited my dad often last month. While my mom was still alive, my cousin and my mom often contacted each other by phone calls. My dad never called my cousin directly before. My cousin told me recently my dad started calling him on the phone. I was surprised to know about that.

My dad started feeling comfortable to ask my cousin some personal favors and chores. My dad already asked my cousin to do this and that. I know my cousin’s personality. He is too gentle to say no. And I know my dad’s personality. He is never shy to ask people to do something for him. I suggested my cousin to say no when it comes to the point where my dad asks him too much and too frequently. My cousin said he will try. I concern about my cousin for not being able to say no to my dad.

This morning I woke up with dull headache. I know the cause. It was because of the heat inside the house. Our swamp cooler has been broken.

After lunch, my headache got worse than morning. I didn’t want to get sick today, because I had an appointment for my second aura cleansing session with the Japanese healer this evening. I went to bed and took a 3-hour nap. After the nap, I still felt dizzy.

Whenever I am sick in bed, I feel sorry for my family. I forced myself get up from the bed. I cooked their dinner. But I could not eat anything. I decided to take some more rest and went to the bedroom.

There, my headache reached at the pain peak. I rushed to the bathroom and threw up. Nothing came out except for water. This type of throwing up is the toughest one for me, from my experience.

I contacted the Japanese healer and asked her to reschedule my appointment. I waited until she replied back to me. She kindly accepted my apology for a sudden cancellation and my request to reschedule. I was sad because I was looking forward to her session. Her session is always helpful for me.

My husband and daughter took good care of me as usual. They made a bed for me and brought an ice pillow and an ice eye mask. Both of them gave me Reiki healing energy. With their kind support, I fell asleep.

***

While I was asleep, the maintenance man came by to our house. He finally found out the root cause of the swamp cooler. The outlet area of the pump was messed up from water residue such as calcium. He replaced the complete set of the outlet and cables. He needed to use another brand new pump, as the recent new pump was damaged from the water residue. We finally had a nice cool air inside the house for the high quality all night sleep. We had missed it for one week. I am so glad that the maintenance man finally fixed the root cause.

My brother visited me in my dream. He was living alone in a small apartment. I visited his room. It was a studio room, but the one room was spacious enough for him to feel comfortable. It was nicely organized and clean. We went to his company. His company was still there, but it seemed he already resigned the company. He was self-employed for some type of business. All in all, he looked much happier than him in the real life. I had a good time visiting him.

Then I woke up.

I thought this dream showed me my brother’s one of the parallel worlds. I am glad my brother was happy in one of his parallel world. I fully believe this experience is influencing him in a good way. It is one of the healing ways for him.

***

Our swamp cooler was out of order all day. I could not do anything progressive today because of the hot temperature inside the house.

Since two days ago, our swamp cooker had stopped working. It always has this issues every summer. This morning the maintenance guy came by and checked it. He said the pump was not working. Luckily he had a brand new pump in his working truck. He replaced the pump to a new one and the swamp cooler started working again.

The new pump had worked only for two hours. Then the pump stopped working again.

We have hot days recently. This week the highest temperature had been around 35 Celsius (95 Fahrenheit).

We turned on all the ceiling fans in every room but it was not enough to deal with Arizona heat. i had been feeling sick from the heat all day and night.

My daughter’s last day of school was March 6^th. Since then, school has closed as the preventive measure of the spread of Covid-19.

One of the advantages for school closure is that I can show her how to cook every meal.

Among all, she showed the interest in my Nukaduke procedure. She thought it fun to mix nuka and hide vegetables into nuka. It seems to her nuka as Kinetic sand and putting vegetables into nuka as a hide-and-seek.

So she started helping me the Nukaduke procedure.

After she takes out pickled vegetable, she soaks into water to wash the vegetables. Then she cuts the vegetables and eat them.

With this procedure, Nukaduke has become one of her favorite foods.   

My macrobiotic class instructor announced her upcoming one-hour Instagram live. I never used Instagram before. Today was my debut day of Instagram. I created a new account.

I didn’t know anything about Instagram.

Her live talk was scheduled one hour from 4:30 p.m. in Japanese time. It is 00:30 a.m. in my area that I am definitely in the middle of sleep. I was not sure Instagram live can be replayed later. I asked their private FB page for support. Somebody told me Instagram live is available only 24 hours after the live show. I tried to watch it with my PC, but I could not see the play icon. Later on I found out Instagram live is not available on PC unless installing the add-on program. After installed the add-on, I could watch it, but the screen was 90-degree tilted. I tried to watch it from my iPad, but since my iPad is the old version, it does not allow to install the app. My last option to watch was through my daughter’s newest iPad. After struggling this and that, I finally could watch her live talk.

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I enjoyed her live talk. For the first half, she shared some techniques and advice to stay healthy during this pandemic. For the latter half, she answered questions from her students.

One of the students asked about 正義脳. She suffered from being judgmental to others. For example, at grocery store, one customer touched one produce with their bare hand and put it back to the shelf.

I think this term正義脳is a newly created term by somebody with the similar meaning of vigilante or Dirty Harry syndrome. A person with正義脳 constantly is irritated by others who act do not match with the person’s judgments of moral or justice.

I have my personal experiences of正義脳. For the first couple of years when I started living in this country, I was constantly mad at people for their attitudes and actions were not matched with that of Japanese. For example, I used to get irritated to dog owners who clean after their dogs. In japan it was hard to find a person who doesn’t clean after their dogs. On the other hand, here in America, it is hard to find a person who clean after their dogs. As I get used to the people and land energy of this area, I started feeling more calm and relaxed. Now I don’t get irritated by the dog owners who don’t clean after their dogs. I started realizing that my moral does not apply to everybody and that I need to adjust myself to the place where I live.

As for 正義脳, I also think it might be the influence from the environment. People are influenced by Yang energy where people get stricter and more intense in Japan, while people are influenced by Yin energy where people get loose and flexible in America. Both sides equally have advantages and disadvantages, and I cannot say which side is better than the other. The important thing is, I think, to keep ourselves as the state of 中庸 (well-balanced) so that we won’t easily get influenced by the environment or other people.     

My husband and I received a letter from White House. It was a notice regarding the stimulus check. It announced us they already have direct-deposited it to our bank account. It also stated the amount. Toward the end of the letter, it contained some encouragements being Americans. At the end of the letter, the name of our President and his signature.

I appreciate this letter and their support.

Some people commented about this letter. When they saw the envelope, they concerned about a mishap of auditing of their tax return document. Once they opened the envelope, they got relieved. I was one of them.

According to the latest news, American grocery store will experience the shortage of meat products as meat packing and food processing plants had closed due to Covid-19.

I never thought of meat shortage. My husband offered me to go to the grocery store. My husband wanted to buy some meat products for himself and I asked him to buy more tofu for me. Since I am not a big fan of meat, I eat tofu and beans for protein intake.

When my husband arrived at the grocery store, he could buy some meat products. Our local store was still okay in their meat stocking. However, my protein alternative foods of tofu and dry beans were all out of stock.

We went through the shortage of alcohol sanitizer, toilet paper, and facial tissue in the store. Now we will have another shortage item of meat products. I hope all of us will stay strong and healthy so that we all will be able to welcome our upcoming new stage together.