Today’s dream: I forgot my name. I tried to remember my name, but no matter how hard I tried, I could not remember. Then, I woke up.

It was obvious that last night’s class influenced my mind negatively. The dream interpretation says the forgetting your own name means the dreamer is mentally fatigued. I feel drained by denied by the instructor.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of HemiSync Mediumship Training.

I asked my guide spirits about my own unique method of meditation. I feel my unique way of meditation is right for me. During mediation, I can move my body as I want. I can hold a pen and jot down memo while my conscious is still connecting with the higher dimension. The instructor said I cannot be connected with the higher dimension because I moved around my physical body.

My guide spirits told me I was born with some unique spiritual gifts that ordinal people cannot understand. I can easily connect with the higher dimension without the typical meditation methods or process. One of my life missions is to convey messages from the spirit world. In order to convey the accurate messages, my conscious can stay in my physical body, jotting down memos, without being disturbed.

They told me to keep having the faith in my spiritual gifts. Don’t allow anybody to control me. Don’t allow anybody to let me down. Don’t allow anybody to doubt my spiritual gifts. Always follow your intuition. If I feel uncomfortable in this mediumship school, I should leave there.

After this mediation, I regained my confidence back. Now I know what I should do.

At 9 p.m., I attended my first mediumship class. There were five students including me. There was no classmates whom I have known from the basic class. Today was my very first time to attend this class, but the instructor must be confused his memory. He told us there was no new students.

We started off from the instructor’s guided meditation as usual. My guide spirit appeared as a figure of Shugendo practitioner (修験道の行者.) He also looked like a Tengu in Kurama Mountain (鞍馬山の天狗.) He gave me a memory ball (記憶の玉.) He reminded me the teaching that I strongly remembered in my childhood. Somebody repeatedly told me that a strong mind resides in a strong body. My parents were not athlete typed people, so the “somebody” must be my guide spirits. Since I was small, I had been nudged to train my physical body to have good muscle. When I was small I strongly remembered one of my past lives as a Ninja and a Shugendo Gyoja.

This message came strongly today because my guide spirits concerned about me being mentally weak nowadays. I knew what they meant. I got hurt by the instructor’s rejection of my trance class enrollment. My guide spirits encouraged me to stay strong. I don’t need anybody’s praises or high evaluations.

(Question) What should I do to enhance my spiritual awareness this year?

I received the messages like this.

As I already should know, do not expect praises and high evaluation from anybody else. Don’t focus on others, but focus on myself. Once I strengthen my physical body, I will regain the strength in my mind. In order to do so, I will need to discipline my physical body every day, regain good muscles, and built up my confidence. Stand firmly on the mother earth and ground myself. Connect with mother earth firmly. Then my conscious came back to my physical body.

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After the mediation the instructor commented about our meditation. He named each student one by one and praised them that they didn’t move their body at all during the mediation. When it came to my turn, he changed his voice tone and face expression into a mean one. He said I was moving around during the meditation. He said the best meditation is can be done when our conscious leaves our physical body. According to him, a person like me who moves around physical body cannot visit the higher dimension. He said I could not connect with my guide spirits in a higher dimension.

I didn’t talk back to him because I didn’t want to argue with him nor make him feel bad. However, I don’t agree with him. I am able to connect with my guide spirits in a higher dimension while my conscious is still somewhat attaches to my physical body. I am very good at getting messages from a higher dimension. He learns the meditation method and logic in the mediumship school in England, but it does not always apply to everybody. I am one of the exception. I can jog down notes while in a deep meditating state. I can quickly come back to awaken state while in a deep sleep state. This is one of my precious and unique spiritual gifts that I have accumulated in my previous lives. I felt sad the instructor could not understand my unique ability.

Then the instructor asked each student about the message that we received through the meditation. He listened carefully and gave some positive advice and comments to each student, except for me. When it came to my turn, the instructor kind of skipped asking me, because he believed I could not perform a good meditation. I didn’t feel comfortable for his way in treating me like that.

In the latter half of the class, we did several auric reading practices.

First practice was to read a stone’s energy on the place where it used to be. I felt a river, the water energy, the place where the stone got some drops of water from time to time, and the energy of Sun. The answer was that the instructor got the stone from Takachiho in Miyazaki prefecture, Japan, where Amanoiwato. He described the area. I was happy that I got the right energy.

Second practice was to read a picture in an envelope. I felt Bali, Indonesia, the colorful and busy energy, the festivals to entertain a various Gods. The answer was Izumo Taisha, the shrine in Shimane prefecture, Japan. I think I read the energy correctly somewhat. Maybe I read the energy of the various visitors.

Third practice was to read each student’s aura. For the first female student, I felt an umbrella. She told me she lives in a cold area with much snow. She constantly carries an umbrella in her purse. For the second male student, I felt the energy of ocean and the scent of ocean tide. Also I felt some Buddhism statues. He said he lives in Setouchi area where is surrounded by ocean. Also he is surrounded by many temples and shrines in his neighbor area. For the third male student, I saw a bunch of numbers. He told me he has been studying. For the fourth female student, I felt a female figure whose energy is calm and gentle, gracefully dancing like Japanese traditional dance or Hawaii’s Hula dance. She said she believes her guide spirit has such the appearance.

My classmates read my aura as “positive and optimistic personality” and “a light coming out from my crown chakra, studying spirituality.” One student saw a vision of a bag of flour. She saw me baking bread in the daily basis. The other student saw me surrounded by yellow sun light. He saw me playing and running around under the strong Arizona sun.

Even though I felt uncomfortable from the instructor’s reaction to my meditation method in the first half, I could have a great learning moment with my classmates in the second half of the class. I just hope the instructor will treat all the students fairly and respectfully.

My daughter has a beautiful long hair. One thing bothers her is that she needs to take care of many tangled hair balls every morning. I purchased different hair conditioner and applied to her hair, but none of them worked.

Today the idea of making a nightcap came up to me. I recycled her old clothes to make a nightcap.

It was a hot day. The temperature went up to 23C (70F). I spent the daytime with a set of summer clothes of a T-shirt and a short pants in the middle of winter. This is the typical weather in Arizona and I am loving it.

My daughter and I went to the park and played with a ball. We had a good exercise under the strong sun. We enjoyed it very much.

At night I set up the zoom meeting with my new friend. We originally planned to chat for one hour or so, but we ended up chatting for more than five hours. I started chatting at 8 p.m., and noticed we were still in the middle of conversation after 1 a.m. It was so fun that we forgot about time completely.

It was very informative for me. I appreciate my friend to offer me her precious time and knowledge.

My daughter and I went to the dog local park. There we had an appointment with my friend to meet her dog. My friend has raised several dogs for many years and knows about dogs very well. My daughter has many questions about dogs that she wants to ask my friend. So my friend offered us time to get to know about dogs.

It was our first time to spend time at the dog park. We witnessed a lot. Some dog owners didn’t bring a bag to pick up after their dogs. But other people were brave enough to run to the dog owners and handed a bag with smile.

There were more than 10 dogs came and went. Some owners were friendly enough to greet us, and others were not. There was one dog who really liked my friend’s dog and harassed my friend’s dog. The owner saw the scenes many times but she never apologized about her dog nor scolded her dog.

Today’s experience at the dog park reminded me of the days when my daughter was still in the preschool. Very similar experiences. Some parents had good morals, while other parents had very bad morals. In any situation, it is critical to protect ourselves from these monster parents and monster dog owners.  

I woke up with dull headache. It was probably allergic reaction from pollen or weeds, or something. I had runny nose and was feeling sleepy and tired. My body temperature was normal of 36.5 C. I didn’t have any coughs.

I could get up from bed and prepared breakfast for my family. I didn’t eat breakfast as usual. By noon, I still didn’t have any appetite. I cooked curry and rice. In the evening I forced myself to eat some curry and rice. Within 30 minutes after ate, I had nausea and threw up everything I ate.

I went to bed around 4 p.m. I fell asleep right away. After the long hour sleep, I got well. I woke up feeling much better on next morning.

I guess I needed to have enough sleep hours so that I could have a deep discussion with my family spirits in the sleeping state.

Today I went to the local MVD to renew my driver’s license. Due to Covid-19, the MVD office takes appointment only and don’t allow any walk-in. It worked well for me as I didn’t need to wait in the lobby. Previous years the waiting time in the lobby was unbearable for everybody.

With the I-551 stamp in my passport, I had my driver’s license renewed for one year. Once my green card arrives, I will have to pay for another fee to renew.

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On the way back home, I stopped by at the grocery store. The store was lacking of plastic grocery bags. Instead, customers needed to pack the purchased items in a large paper bags. I wonder if this grocery store has been trying to completely switch from plastic bags to paper bags, as a part of saving the planet Earth project. If yes, I am willing to support their efforts.

Last night right before I fell asleep, I noticed one new email. Without thinking, I opened the email and read it. I regretted reading the email right before sleep, because the email made me stay up for a while. The email was from the Trance class instructor of Japanese mediumship school. It was a reply regarding my application request to enroll his Trance class for the upcoming spring semester. He rejected my enrollment. He said I am not ready for the class. I was shocked and felt uncomfortable. I didn’t get the reason.

I attended this class seven times so far. I did well most of the classes. Only once or twice, I could not fully focus, because of the computer’s technical error of echoing on Zoom and the unstable Internet connection. Other than that, I was never a nuisance for any other classmates. I kept my vibration high. I know I had been doing great. I don’t know the real reason why he rejected me to enroll the class this time. I thought I should leave this school. I already paid for the advanced mediumship class for spring semester. I know I cannot cancel nor I cannot ask for refund for cancellation of the class. There will be 10 classes in this semester. This class will be held by two instructors. The other female teacher is one of my favorite instructors. I still want to learn from this female teacher. I will take the advanced class that I already paid, but from next semester, I decided to leave this mediumship school from next semester. After I made up my mind, I felt relaxed. Then I fell asleep.

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A group of spirits visited me in my dream. I never saw this group of spirits. The mediumship school instructor was with the group of spirits. So, I guess these spirits work with the mediumship school instructor. They asked me not to leave the school. They said keep studying mediumship. The instructor stepped forward and apologized me for rejecting my class enrollment request. He said it was to protect me from psychic attack from someone who gets jealous of me. Somebody complained about me enrolling the class even though I am still a new student at the school. He encouraged me to keep studying mediumship at his school. He asked me to understand the real reason for his refusing. I told him I understood. I promised him to stay at his school and keep studying mediumship.

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I woke up this morning feeling comfortably. After coming back from walk, I noticed I had received a new email from the instructor. It was an invitation to his Mantra class. He added he would omit teaching Sanskrit alphabet in this semester. At the last class of the last semester, I told him I would not enroll the class because I don’t want to repeat learning from the beginning including the Sanskrit alphabet. So I decided to enroll this class.

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I still don’t know the real reason why the instructor rejected me for enrolling Trance class. I still feel uncomfortable about his decision, but I decided to let it go. I want to enjoy his future classes without any grudges. The true reason will be revealed by itself naturally as always.

Today’s dream: Somebody handed me a pair of keys. One was a gold key and the other was a silver key.

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I did the Hemi-Sync guided meditation. I asked my guide spirits about the purposes of my diabetes. I received the messages like this.

There are many reasons for my diabetes.

First reason is to pay off to my bad habits that I created in my earlier years. Such bad habits include hurting people verbally with my thoughtless statements. I used to have too much self confidence in my good health and didn’t take good care of my body. I used to intake lots of bad stuff in my body without thinking about my future years. I took it for granted all the love and kindness that I received from my family and friends.

Second reason is to discipline my mind. My soul is originally strong and loves facing challenges and overcoming them.

Third reason is to cleanse my physical body. I am supposed to perform great life missions in my later life. As the preparation for that, I needed my body to be purified and cleansed.

Fourth reason is to enjoy the reversing process. I will be able to fully reverse my diabetes in 10 years. With my own personal experiences, I can share my original methods on how to reverse diabetes.

Fifth reason is to lead my family. Thanks to my sickness, I have completely changed my life style, eating habits, and cooking and eating pattern. I have built good exercising habit. With my changing these, my family have been receiving benefits from me.

All in all my getting diabetes are nothing but blessings. I should enjoy the reversing process and later on, I should enjoy sharing my experiences with many people.