I attended my fifth Mantra class at 9 p.m. This class has originally two students but the other student didn’t show up for tonight’s class. Thus, luckily I had a one-on-one class with my instructor.

I remember of my first Mantra class. The instructor introduced us Sanskrit alphabet. Everything was new and I got dizzy for the difficulty of totally new language. However, since I appreciate for this opportunity to study Sanskrit language and their mantras, I had studied every day for the past two months.

Here at the last class after two months, I have mastered the basic Sanskrit alphabet and two mantras we learned in this class. I was so happy for my achievement.

I am willing to continue taking this class. But, he told me this class is not popular among the students, so the school might not have this class in the next semester. In any case, he encouraged me to keep studying by myself. I know I will.

I attended my ninth basic awareness class at 5 p.m. We had seven students attended.

At the guided meditation, I was guided to the place where I could meet one of my group souls. I was somewhere in Myanmar. I saw a young boy there. He was probably 5 years old. His big, pure, and sparkling eyes attracted me. Instantly I noticed that I knew this soul for long. I could not recognize his in this lifetime, so maybe he was somebody whom I was related to in one of my past lives.

Then, we were guided to the park. I found a swing. This swing was not a normal one, but a magical one. With several strokes, I could jump onto a piece of clouds. I enjoyed riding on the cloud for a while and jump off to the ground.

There, my guide spirit was waiting for me. He gave me a toy cloud. It was small as a Lego part size and I could hold it inside my palm. My guide spirit told me it was a metaphor. In the physical realm, I scare of height. However, in this meditation realm, I could enjoy floating in the high air looking down on the ground. I didn’t get bothered by scaring height. This miniature cloud toy came to me as a reminder that it is now for me to challenge anything that I used to scare off. Now I am strong enough to overcome any kinds of phobias. I would enjoy anything just like I did on the cloud. My guide spirit told me to enjoy every moment in this physical realm.

(Question) how can we help in order to reduce ego?

I received the message like this.

Ego is a habit that we have accumulated in the physical realm. Based on the experiences and influences from others such as our parents and teachers, we have accumulated our own judgment. When we see things, we use our own judgment without knowing. We tend to believe our judgements are right and others’ judgements are wrong. However, whenever we face to disagreements from others, try to put in their shoes and use our imagination to look through their history on how they end up to reach to the judgement. From there, we can step ahead each other and discuss peacefully. That way we can reduce unnecessary arguments and disagreements based on our egos.

I hugged him and thanked him, then my conscious came back to my physical body. I really enjoyed this guided meditation.

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As for the first practice, we studied about the aura of our palm. We compared to look into the aura of our palm with our physical eyes and without. I could see better without using my physical eyes. I saw the steaming energy coming out from my palm. In my case, the most powerful spot was the middle of my palm.

The second practice was to read the energy of one tarot card. I saw a silhouette of a skinny woman in the middle, and I thought it was the fourth card; The Empress. The answer was Princess of Wands. I was close. The energy of these two cards are similar.

I attended my fifth Trance class at 9 p.m.

Before the meditation, the instructor introduced us the video of Lord’s Prayer in Aramaic. Some students seemed to be impressed with the sounds of the prayer. It was beautiful but didn’t resonate with my soul.

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At the meditation, my guide spirit gave me a ball of memories. He told me all the memories of my life, especially for the previous 22 years that I spent with Navajo and Lakota people, are important. Even though I forget in my conscious level, all the memories are still vivid and alive in my unconscious level. This memory ball is helpful to grab all the memories in my unconscious level. The spirits casted all the great information and knowledge through people to me. They did so because they wanted me to become a storyteller to pass them down to the right people. The spirits will provide me the right ways at the right timing for me to convey these information and knowledge through publishing books, giving a speech in front of a huge audience, and through many other possible ways.

(Question) Are there any messages or advices regarding school system?

I received the message like this.

The school system tries to make the exactly same products, just like a factory. The school wants students to reach at the specified education standards, obedient to orders, responsible to rules. All of these will be helpful to create “yes-people” who work in convenient way for communities, societies, and governments. The school system utilizes the competition system to make students to compare and feel jealous to one another. This competition system makes students feel stressed out and lose their confidents in themselves.

However my family spirits says there should be no competitions in school systems. It is pretty normal that each child is unique and different. They should not be the same. Some kids who are good at taking leadership, while other kids are good at quietly. Some kids are good at physical activities, while other kids are good at using their brains. Some kids are good at arts, while others are good at mechanical and computer knowledge. Instead of competing one another and trying to create exactly same type of humans, why don’t we acknowledge the differences and respect one another. That way we can help each other, and that will lead to create a better world.

(Inspirational speech) Regarding birth and death

When it comes to thinking of birth and death, most humans think of the birth and death of their physical body. However, it is just one of many. During our life, we experience lots of births and deaths not only in physical body but also in other things. One example is an idea. Spirits are constantly sending ideas to their related humans. When we humans receive the idea, it is a birth of the idea. It is up to the person whether he/she feeds the baby idea to let it grow. Sometimes the person just ignore the idea and let it die. Other times the person might cherish the baby idea and keep feeding it to let it grow. Then the idea will grow. It will shift from the baby stage to preschooler, elementary child, young adult, older adult, then eventually die. The cycle of birth to death can be seen in the human relationship. When we meet a new person, it is a birth. It is up to the person whether he/she keeps feeding the birth or nor. Thus, some relationship does not last long, while other relationship last very long. Only humans with physical bodies can enjoy this free will to decide whether he/she ignores the birth or keeps feeding it to last long. While you are here in the physical ram, please enjoy every moment and make the right decision on whether you let the birth grow or let it die soon.  

(Trance talk) Regarding bliss

Before we came down to this lifetime, we make a rough life plan with our family spirits. Even though we are supposed to forget about the premade life plan, we remember them in our soul level. In the course of life, we meet the right person who is involved into our life plan. In such moment, our souls resonate with the person’s soul, and we will feel bliss. Whenever we experience bliss, it is the soul’s cry for joy. We cannot feel bliss when we buy something expensive or eat something good. It is just the single moment joy in physical level. On the other hand, soul’s cry for joy, aka bliss, is much more sacred and continuous joy because the cry for joy come from our family spirits as a group.

In the late afternoon, my daughter had an eye doctor’s appointment. Her last appointment with the eye doctor was in 2017. Since the eye doctor was not friendly; he was rather mean and arrogant, my daughter kept refusing to have an appointment with the eye doctor. However, her eye vision got worse due to daily routine study through computer screen, she forced herself to make an appointment with the eye doctor.

Once we got to the eye doctor’s office, we found out our concern was unnecessary. We were told the mean eye doctor was not working there anymore. They have a new eye doctor who was young and much nicer than the previous one.

I am glad my daughter could comfortably get the eye exam and eye glasses’ prescription. Now we are waiting for her new glasses to be arrived in 1-2 weeks.

Yesterday was Halloween day. My friend delivered one gift to our house last night. It looked like a rugby ball made by plastic wrap. She told us it is called a saran wrap ball game. She said she made it by herself.

We never heard of the game, so we looked it up in Youtube. Many families uploaded the game. It seems to be one of the common games for family get together during the holiday season in America.

So today, we played the game. At the end of the game, we gathered up lots of candies. I was the winner of the last wrap. It included three big candy boxes and a 5-dollar cash. I appreciate the friend who thought of us and provided a fun moment. It became one of our great Halloween memories.

My daughter’s dream: A green snake visited her in her dream. The snake approached my daughter at her upper ankle and started drawing something. My daughter often sees me drawing Reiki healing mantra in the air, so she instantly noticed the green snake was drawing Reiki healing mantra on her ankle. Then she woke up. She felt comfortable with this dream.

When I heard about this dream from her, I thought the green snake came as healing energy. Also as she thought, I felt the green snake was teaching my daughter Reiki healing mantra.

I think my daughter had this dream because she concerns about her grandma in the hospital.

My daughter and I took time to send distance Reiki healing energy to my mom-in-law in the hospital. We hope she will get well soon and discharged from the hospital soon.

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My husband came back in the evening. He had visited his hometown alone for 10 nights 11 days since October 21^st. His main purpose for this trip was to finish up our shed’ floor on our Homesite. During his trip, they got a snow storm with low temperature, so that he ended up fixing here and there in grandparents’ trailer house. I am happy for his safe return.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of HemiSync Mediumship Training.

On the first scene, I was in green world. I was surrounded by white clouds.

On the second scene, I moved to yellow/golden world. Yellow and gold came in and out alternatively. It was like getting sun light from time to time. It changed its color depending on the light amount. It sometimes looked like rainbow.

Then on the last scene, I moved to light blue world. The message was like this.

In the physical realm, I worry and concern about lots of things and events. However, in the expanded realm, I knew that everything is under control in natural. Each person and event has its own best timing and best way to go forward. All we need to do is just simply keep open-minded. I felt like I was in a dragon figure, elegantly flying around in the sky. It was a comfortable and relaxing meditation.

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At night at 8:30 p.m., I attended Sunday Service. Tonight’s trance talk was performed by one of the upper level class students. She conveyed the message regarding jealousy. Her message was like this.

When we jealous somebody, we send our energy to the person. By doing so, we waste our precious energy, that prevents us from utilizing our energy fully to ourselves. We all are different and unique. We don’t need to do exactly same things as others. We individually have our own best timing to broom and shine.

Her message resonated with me very well. I like the way she conveyed the message. And I hope I will be able to study with her in the future class.

Today October 30^th was the birthday of their founder of Hemi-sink; Mr. Robert A. Monroe. They celebrated his birthday by providing customers 20% off site wide. I purchased some meditation from Hemi-Sync official page.

Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of HemiSync Journey Through the T-Cells.

My conscious traveled though my body and met my cells. I selected one particular T-cell and greeted to it. I felt it was a shape of star. It was golden sparkling. I felt its soft touch. I felt its positive and optimistic personality. It has stayed with me and worked for my body since I was a baby.

(Question) What the T-cell wants me to do in order to recover my total health?

It wants me to stay positive and optimistic no matter what. Even when I am in the process of some challenges, it wants me not to feel depressed or think too much. It said not to worry about the mistakes in the past because they can be taken care of and healed anytime. As for the future, I will be able to create my preferable future on my own. Therefore, I don’t need to worry about my past or future. All I need to focus is just now.

When I embraced the T-Cell with my love, it looked like so happy. It appreciated me for acknowledging and sending love to it. Even though they work for me with their unconditional love to me, they appreciate my acknowledgement and love.

(When I merged into the T-Cell) I felt so powerful. I actually felt that I can heal all my cells with just my positive thoughts.

(Key word for me) Believe in my strength. I am strong naturally and originally. Nobody can mess with me.

On Tuesday night; October 27th, my mom-in-law got very sick. She had high fever of higher than 104F and other symptoms of Covid-19. My dad-in-law took her to ER at 10 p.m. Judged by her symptoms, the doctor doubted Covid-19 and performed the Covid-19 test for her. The doctor decided to keep her in the hospital for the night and provided some antibiotic treatments for calming the infection reactions down.

On the next day; October 28^th, the Covid-19 test result came back as negative. However, even after several sessions of the antibiotic treatments, her symptoms did not get improved. The doctor took the Covid-19 test again. This time they sent the test sample to the bigger hospital in Albuquerque where they can perform higher accuracy test for Covid-19.

Late this afternoon; October 29^th, the higher accuracy Covid-19 test result came back. It was negative. Now the doctor confirmed her infection symptoms came from the kidney infection, which are very similar to that of Covid-19. She will stay one more night at hospital tonight. The doctor will focus on the right treatments for kidney infection. We hope the treatments will work well for her so that he will get discharged tomorrow.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of visiting Temple of Life created byTeri Uktena

At the entrance, I was greeted by my animal guide. It appeared as a female white wolf. She shared her solemn energy with me.

I explored in the Temple of Life. I was attracted to a water fountain. I sat down in front of the water fountain and enjoyed watching and hearing the sound of gentle water flow. I received enough healing energy.

When my conscious came back to my physical body, I was refreshed.

Today’s dream: I was a backpacker traveler. I traveled with a hitchhiking. A young and nice man gave me a ride. He also gave me a big ziplock bag. He told me it was not an ordinal ziplock bag but a magical bag. He asked me if I had some clothes needed to be washed. I had some. I put the clothes in the magical ziplock bag as he instructed. Amazingly, the ziplock bag automatically started washing my clothes. The warm water and liquid soap were already added. The washing process was done within a couple of minutes. Now it turned to be a drier. The magical ziplock bag was a compact washing machine/drier. I was in awe. The nice man he said he liked my surprised face reaction and smiled. Then, I woke up.

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It was still cold in the morning that we needed to turn on heaters at home. In the daytime after sun was out, the temperature got back to high. I really appreciated the Arizona’s strong sun light and heat. I felt energized.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of visiting Akashic library created byTeri Uktena. I took her online classes four years ago. Today I felt like doing her guided mediation.

At the entrance of the Akashic library, I was greeted by my power animal; a male rabbit. He looked like happy and excited to see me again after these four years’ absence.

At the foyer of the library, I asked my guide spirit to let me have my soul book. I wanted to know my past life where I lost confidence in my spiritual gift.

Soon after I conveyed my request, I saw a vision of myself in one of my past lives. I was a young Lakota girl helping my people through my medicine work. There was one girl who was jealous of me and spread lies about me. I was shocked and started doubting my spiritual gift. When doing so, my vibration was lowered and disturbed that I could not focus on healing the voices of my family spirits. This experience was tough for me, but at least I learned a lot from it. One of the most important lessons that I should not forget was not to doubt the steady relationship with my family spirits.

I saw many similarities between this past life and the current life. I doubted my spiritual gift many times but my family spirits never gave up on me. They kept on showing evidences and proofs about our communication throughout the life. I already have reached to the point where I cannot doubt their existences and supports anymore. I was embraced with their great love. Then, my conscious came back to my physical body.

I truly enjoyed her guided meditation. I should put her mediations into my routine tasks.

Same as yesterday, it was a cold morning. We took out two electric heaters out from the closet and put the fan in the closet. In Navajoland they had a snowstorm since last night. In the morning all their property was covered by snow. My mom-in-law got really sick. Her body temperature was raised higher than 104F. my dad-in-law took her to the hospital, where the doctor decided to keep my mom-in-law in the hospital for one night to make sure if she has not infected to Covid-19. I hope she would get well and be able to come back home soon.

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In the evening I attended my eighth Awareness class. Last time I attended with a new microphone, but the instructor rejected it within 5 minutes. This time I attended with a new webcam. I didn’t receive any feedback about my sound from the instructor, so it might have worked well, I hope.

Today the eight students attended.

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We started the class from the instructor’s original guided meditation. It was a beautiful guided meditation. I liked her meditation very much. The script was the spiritual journey to visit the spiritual healing clinic, receive the healing session, and meet our guide spirit and receive a gift.

At the healing center, I saw a vision of my dad. My anger to my dad was swaying slowly. It was as if a mirage. At a certain point, the vision looked like the picture of The Scream by Edvard Munch. Then the image of my dad, aka my anger to my dad, slowly went down and disappeared. I thought it was the image of healing process.

Then we proceeded to the place where we meet our guide spirits. I could not see my guide spirit clearly. It appeared like a mirage or like a silhouette. My guide spirit gave me a white tambourine. I can use it in two ways. One way is to purify the space, and the other way is to raise my vibration. My instructor commented it might also means to improve my clairaudience ability.

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We did two psychometry practices.

The first practice was to read the energy of a picture in an envelope. The instructor told us it was a picture of one prefecture of Japan.

When I focus on the picture, I saw a diamond shape, sea foods, potatoes, spacious land, snow, and positive thinking people. I thought Hokkaido. Right before the instructor ended the practice, the idea of Okinawa strongly came to me, but I spoke up about Hokkaido.

The right answer was Okinawa. She told me I was right about sea foods and positive thinking people.

The second practice was the same as the first one, but this time the picture was something vehicle. The first image was a bicycle, then it changed to a unicycle. And then, it changed to a bus. From my precious practice experiences I knew I should not count on my first impression. So I decided to discard the bicycle and the unicycle. I focused on the type of bus. I felt it was the red tour second storied bus in England.  The right answer was a ship. I was right about the shape of the ship. It looked like a second storied structure.

As usual at the end of the class, the instructor was nice enough to praise all of us students and told us not to get disappointed with the result. She encouraged us to find something right about our reading all the time, instead of just focusing of right or wrong. I always appreciate this instructor for her sincere encouragements.