This morning was cold. The temperature dropped down to 0C (32F). In Navajoland, it got much colder than our area. They had snowstorm and the lowest temperature dropped to -11C (12.2F).

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Today I watched the TV show of India. They put the explanation of the city names and their culture name Sanskrit words at the bottom of the screen. Those Sanskrit words used to be just mysterious symbols, but today, surprisingly I could read them. I was happy for my progress. This is thanks to my instructor of Mantra class who taught us Sanskrit alphabet thoroughly.

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Now that I started having confident of my linguistics learning ability, I thought I should refresh my memory of Navajo language. When I was early 30s, I used to study Navajo language through some textbooks. I found some online Navajo language classes. I started studying Navajo language from yesterday.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of James Van Praagh. His meditation guided me to my happy moment in my childhood. I visualized the local park where I used to go and play in my childhood. I saw myself being 5 years old. I loved playing baseball and dodgeball with my neighbor male friends. I could run around forever. I loved my new fresh body. I felt comfortable in my new body that I could move all of my body parts as I wished. I was light enough to move around easily.

When I was small, I always thought myself as a boy, even though I was born as a girl. My older brother was born as a boy but I always thought him as my younger sister. I always thought it was my responsibility to protect my older brother. I knew I was strong mentally and physically.

I loved my family; my dad, mom, and older brother, dearly with my pure heart.

Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of Japanese Mediumship School.

My guide spirit showed up in an Aztec warrior figure. He looked like very strong with built-up body. He gave me the same outfit of Aztec warrior. He told me I am going to enter to one of my biggest life events. It is like a battle field for me. It is not an actual battle field, but I will need to have lots of courage and strong will to go through this challenge. In the new life event, I will stand up in a stage before a huge audience. I will speak up the spiritual truth to them. This will be a huge step for me. But I don’t need to worry about it at all, as my family spirits will support me to the fullest. All I need to do is just take courage and step forward, and stand up in front of a huge audience.

(Question) What should I do in order to become a good trance medium?

I received the messages like this.

– Be brave and have courage

– Fully trust my family spirits and leave everything to them

– Have a thick skin for feeling embarrassed

– Keep attending Trance class at Japanese mediumship school. This school offers lots of great opportunities for me to spiritually grow. All the experiences that I had gone through this Trance class were precious. Such rare experiences were feeling stressed out, embarrassed, depressed after compared with other students. I would not have experienced such feelings in a normal daily life. My family spirits are happy for me to learn a lot in this class. They told me at the last moment to keep having an appreciation to this instructor at Japanese mediumship school.   

Today’s dream: I was at the horse racing track with a huge audience. After we watched the heated horse race, I noticed I won my betting. I shouted in glee with holding the betting ticket in my palm. Then I woke up comfortably.

The dream interpretation dictionary says the dreamer will have an unexpected happy surprise news. I am looking forward to it.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of HemiSync Exploring Other Lives. Before the meditation I asked my family spirits to take me to my past life where I had established and used my spiritual gift.

(First scene) I was wearing a boots’ looking pair of shoes. They were sturdy and well-built boots. I thought they were made for a battling. I was outside, somewhere wilderness in China, sometime in 1200. I was a young male around 25 years old. I was a powerful warrior. My body had good muscles and strong bones. I had a charismatic energy. Even though I was young, I was a leader of a battle group. Whenever I made a battle plan, I would go away from my team. I sat down on the ground alone and meditated. My family spirits always gave me a clear battle plan in order to protect my team and myself.

I was spiritual. I could listen to the messages from winds and weather. Before we entered in to a new area, I would always communicate with the spirit of the new area. They taught me their uniqueness and strength, along with their weakness. With those information, I could wisely choose our camping area to keep us safe.

Even though I was a worrier, I was not interested in eating food very much. I always kept myself a slight hungry, because the slight hunger always made me to be able to talk to spirits. I learned the technique from my experiences on this past lifetime.

(Second scene: the important event) At that time it was common for a man to have plural wives. I married to two women. One wife had our two sons, while the other wife could not have any. Since these two wives were good friends, they both helped one another. They both were a great mom for our sons. The two wives were spiritually matured souls so that they knew they were spiritually closely connected. They never felt jealous to one another. Whenever I needed to go to the battle field and leave my family behind, I did not need to worry about them. I knew they would help and protect one another.

(Third scene; death) I was in the battle field with my team. There were many people around me. There was a one young soldier who felt jealous of me that I had a peaceful family. He admired me but at the same time he hated me. He approached me and quickly stubbed me with his sword, pretending to be an accident. I instantly knew his intention to kill me. It happened so quickly that I could not avoid him.

(Lessons learned from this past life)

(1) We didn’t necessarily need to be biologically connected in order to become a strongly connected family. We could established a peaceful family with two wives.

(2) Building a strong body helps to develop a strong mind. I always took good care of my body and kept good muscles in my body.

(3) I should have put more efforts to people who envied me and felt jealous of me. These people were not fully satisfied in their life. –

That being said, in this current life, I still have a tendency to avoid negative thinking people.

My family spirits stepped forward and send me the messages like this.

It is critical for me to protect myself from negative people as they easily lower my vibration. However, it is also possible for me to stay being at the high vibration while dealing with such negative thinking people. As long as I stay at the high vibration, my family spirits can support me for my supporting negative thinking people.

Now that I remember my daughter’s dream of several days ago. In her dream she was running away from a scary looking crown. She felt scared, but at one point, she decided to stop running away from him. She stopped running and turned to the scary looking crown. She told him she loved him and hugged him. Then the scary looking crown turned to be a cute and friendly looking crown. Then my daughter found out the true reason why the crown was running after my daughter. He simply wanted to give my daughter a nice present and become a friend with her.

I thought this was a nice message dream. Once we stop running away from something we have an aversion, and when we face to it, we might find the nice aspect that we’ve never thought of.   

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At the ending of the meditation, I asked the name of the man. I heard “Shan Yao.” I looked up in the internet dictionary. It means “Wild Yam.” I like this name. In this lifetime, I had spent my whole life in the wilderness anyway and a wild yam has strong roots deep inside of the earth. Among all, a wild yam is a strong plant. Now I acknowledge my life and lessons learned from this past life. I respect Shan Yao for his great wisdom.

Recently I noticed I have gray hair more than before. Judging objectively, it is still not bad at all, but I still wanted to do something.

My body is very sensitive that I cannot use any chemical products such as makeup or hair dye. I purchased a plant based henna hair dye powered that is chemical free.

I mixed the henna powder, olive oil, apple cider vinegar with coffee into a plastic bawl. With my daughter’s help, I applied the cement-looking mixture onto my hair. I wrapped with a plastic wrap like a mummy, and covered my entire head with a plastic bag and tied it. I waited for two hours and rinsed it off.

My first hair dye with henna powder was successful. My hair got slightly darker than before. I am happy for the result. My hair was dyed to natural and healthy looking dark brown color.

After the disaster of food poison of last night, I somewhat could have a good sleep. I woke up okay. I still felt an abdominal cramping all through day, but it was much better than last night, thankfully.

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This morning I did my forth colon hydrotherapy at home. For the previous three therapies, I used simple warm water, but this time I used coffee for cleansing. I found out I like using simple warm water better than coffee. I could smell coffee from my body all day long.

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Today’s dream: I was with my husband, daughter, and my in-laws. We were in the fifth floored room of a high-rise condominium building. We all experienced a big earthquake. I actually felt the shake. But we as well as the building were all safe. I woke up feeling refreshed and comfortable.

According to the dream interpretation dictionary, this dream was good. We will experience some changes but we will be okay. Considering our current situation of under unemployment and building constructions on our property to move, this earth.

Maybe my food poisoning was one of cleansing in order to face the changes that we are ongoing. Maybe the food poisoning and the earthquake dream were to shake off my anxieties for the upcoming changes.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of Japanese Mediumship School.

My guide spirit gave me two gifts. The first gift was a light sword. I can use this sword to cut off any unnecessary human relationships, events, and bad memories. The second gift was a tatami mat. Since I cannot go back to Japan frequently, I can use a tatami mat. This tatami mat is a metaphor of Japanese culture. I can be creative on how I can incorporate Japanese culture in my daily life. My guide spirit wants me to use the tatami mat to create my environment comfortable by incorporating Japanese cultures that I respect and feel comfortable.

(Question) How should I live during this second wave of Covid-19.

I received the message like this.

Covid-19 does not have only scary aspect but also accompanied with lots of positive changes in human life. Find lots of the positive aspects and share them with many people. Stay positive and stay being appreciative for everything. Believe that everything is heading to a better world with this rare worldwide pandemic experience.

At night after my family went to bed, I stayed in my study room and started a meditation. After several minutes passed of the meditation, I noticed the heavy stomach pain. It got worse and worse to the point where I could not sit still. I felt a strong urge to have a bowel movement with a strong stomach pain and went to bathroom. I released nothing but liquid. I had a diarrhea. When I went back to my room, this time I felt a strong urge to vomit. By this time, I could not sit still nor walk normally. I felt severe an abdominal cramping too. I noticed this was a food poisoning.

It was so painful. I suffered from unbearable pain for an hour or so. My family gave me reiki energy and prayed for me that I would be able to sleep. With their help, regardless of the severe pain, I somehow could fall asleep.

I don’t know what the cause of the food poisoning was. I ate the leftover of the sushi from yesterday. Other than that, I cooked every food for my family and me. So, the sushi might be the cause of food poisoning. Or I was just low in immune system. It was a disaster.

For some reasons, in the morning I craved to eat sushi from the restaurant. In the afternoon my daughter and I went to the restaurant and bought a family pack of sushi combo.

It was good. I enjoyed eating it. But I got extremely thirsty at night. My body required lots of water.

Maybe my body could not handle the amount of salt that was contained in the variety sauces of the topping of the sushi. I should be more careful of what I eat.

I attended my fourth mantra class.

We leaned three short mantras.

(1) So Ham

(2) Aham Brahmasmi

(3) Tat Tvam Asi

I have been making lots of efforts to study Sanskrit alphabet and their mantras. I study and listen to the mantra sounds every day.

So, in tonight’s class, I could show my progress to the instructor. The instructor and other student acknowledged my efforts and praised me.

I felt so good. I am enjoying this class a lot.

I attended my seventh awareness basic class.

In yesterday’s Trance class, the instructor asked me to use a headset during the class in order to improve my sound quality. This morning my husband supported me a lot. He dissembled the computer and cleaned the pc fan, which was helpful to get rid of the loud fan noise. Also we purchased the sound recording app, so that even though I wear a headset, the app can record the pc sound as well as my own microphone voice. I could attend the class without any concerns of sound quality issues.

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Today’s guided meditation was called a chakra color therapy. We were guided to the place where there were seven rainbow colors for healing. We were guided to one specific color that we were attracted the most. I was drawn to purple. When I was surrounded by the purple energy, I felt being healed. It was so comfortable energy.   

We were guided to visit a place of one of our past lives. I found myself somewhere in Middle East. I was surprised as I am not interested in this area. Also in my past life meditation, I never was in Middle East. I was a little girl of 6 years old. Since my dad was a successful business man, we were considered as a rich family. I was not interested in any of luxurious materials. My interest was in nature. I was good at finding medicine plants. I always stayed in nature with plants. My guide spirit showed up in a young male figure. He was wearing a white robe, but inside was just naked. He had tanned skin and built-up strong body. He was very handsome. He gave me a soup shaped stone. He told me this stone is a grandpa as he had lived thousands of years and observed human history. In the long human’s history, humans have made lots of mistakes, but they also acquired and accumulated lots of wisdom from the mistakes. The stone stores all the wisdom. When I gently squeeze this stone, I can take a peek of the solemn wisdom from the stone.

(The question) Why cleansing is important?

I received the message like this.

In daily life, no matter how we are careful for not to get negative energy in our aura field, it is inevitable to accidently catch other people’s negative energy. Cleaning our aura field before we go to bed is critical just like brushing our teeth. If we brush our teeth every day, we can prevent to build hardcore teeth scales. The same logic can be applied to cleaning our aura field. If we take good care of our energy field and cleanse it every night, we can prevent from building the hardcore damage in our energy field.

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Then we proceeded to a simulation practice of a spiritual counseling.

In the practice, the instructor asked me this question.

“I don’t have any confidence at all. I feel like I don’t have any spiritual gift.”

When I heard this practice question, I busted into laughter, because this was exactly what I felt last night after Trance class. I thought this was definitely the support from my family spirits.

I intuitively answered like this.

“It is pretty normal to fall into a slump. It happens to everybody. In any situation, your family spirits are heartwarmingly supporting you. However, if you feel yourself as useless or bad, it drains your energy and lowers your vibration. On the other hand, if you constantly feel yourself as good, it raises your vibration. Keeping your vibration high makes you to feel confident with your spiritual gifts. Also, it makes your family spirits easy to support you.”

I considered this message from my family spirits to me. Their message made my heart warm.

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After the class, the instructor, one of the fellow students, and I stayed in the zoom room and had a little chat. There, I noticed I was not the only one who felt a slump and scared of the main male instructor of the school. This “girls’ chat” made me feel relieved.

Today’s dream: I was in the office at my brother’s company in Japan. My brother was wearing a clear blue jacket. It looked good on him. After we had a good discussion at the office, we left the office together. We stopped by at an indoor swimming pool and swam together, then we went back home together. Then I woke up feeling refreshed and happy. I appreciate my brother for his visiting me in my dream world.

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I attended my fourth trance class. There were six students attended.

I experienced many depressed moments. Everything didn’t turn out well for me.

I have noticed the serious sound issues every time when this instructor hosted zoom meetings. It is weird, but I never had same issues with other zoom meetings. On the recent Sunday service that this instructor hosted, as soon as I unmuted, it caused other participants voices muffled. However, on the next day, I attended another Sunday service that was hosted by American man, even when I unmuted, it didn’t cause any issues to my voice nor other participant’s voice.

To be honest, this sound issue has made me stressed out.

Since yesterday, my husband and worked on the zoom sound setting. We know a headset will solve the sound issue, but then, I cannot record the class. I normally record the class with my cell phone putting in front of the computer. In order to keep the recording method by my cell phone, we decided to buy a PC microphone.

In the evening we went a couple of stores to look for a PC microphone. All the microphones were out of stock, as many people started working online and needed a good webcam and a microphone. We finally found one microphone. After we arrived at house, my husband set up the microphone along with the recording app.

Everything was set. Everything should have gone well.

However, it didn’t turn out well for me.

20 minutes before the class, I restarted my computer. After restarted, my computer acted weird and kept freezing. I needed to restart it again. This time, the internet connection was out, even though the router was working normally. I got panicky. I somewhat could enter to the zoom room 1 minute before the class started.

The meditation went well. I got a good message.

My guide spirits showed up with four light figures. They looked like mirages. They gave me a blue star shaped toy. They told me to use this toy with a child’s pure heart. Normal people will think as this toy as is. However, with a child’s pure heart, with creative ability, I can use this toy in many different ways. They wanted me to do the same for everything I see and experience. They want me not to see things and events same as other people. Be creative and see things from many different ways. When I do so, everything in daily life should appear differently. I won’t be able to see things same as before. Everything and every event happens for reasons. The reasons are not just one, but plurals.

(Question) Currently on this earth, the second wave of Covid-19 has arrived. Many people are still suffering. What should I live in this environment?

I received the answer like this.

Same as the blue toy, be creative and open my eyes wide, and see things and events differently. Don’t get fooled only one aspect. For example, mass media reports one aspect, which is normally only negative aspects. However, things are happening for reasons. They always have positive aspects too. There are many positive aspects in Covid-19 environment. They want me to find many positive aspects and share them as many people as possible. Open up my mind to the Universe. Focus on lots of positive aspects and share them with many people. That is how we can raise our vibration together and proceed the right direction.

(Inspirational speech practice) About eternal and change.

I received the messages like this.

The eternal thing is our existence. We exist as a spirit. That is eternal.

The changing things are events and environments. We came down to this earth with life plans, but things don’t go exactly same as we planned. Because not everybody remembers their life plan, or not everybody acts as they planned, in this co-creating environment on Earth, we need lots of flexibility to create with others. Sometimes things go quickly, other times things don’t happen at all, and other times we have to proceed the way we didn’t plan before. Everything is okay because no matter what roads we take, we are destined to the right direction eventually. It might take longer than we planned, as we detour, but it is still okay.

(Trans talk practice) About other stars and planets other than planet Earth

 I received the message like this.

The planet earth is not the only place where souls can reincarnate. There are many other stars and planets where souls can reincarnate. In other stars and planets, souls reincarnate as in spirit bodies and they are in a higher dimensions, so that humans cannot detect their existences. Some souls prefer to reincarnate in other stars and planets, while we chose to reincarnate to the planet Earth. Earth is a very unique place where souls can have a heavy human body and keep themselves as in a lower dimension. The learning process is much harder than that in other stars and planets. The souls reincarnated in many other stars and planets are connected with the souls reincarnated in the planet earth. We constantly communicate to one another and inspire to one another.

However, I decided not to share this message because of these reasons.

I didn’t concentrate to the high vibration at all. My mind was occupied by lots of physical leveled concerns. I compared me with other students. Their voice tone and vibration are changed when talking in trance. They said they don’t remember what they said. On the other hand, my voice tone and vibration stay the same, and I always remember what I say in trance. I feared about the instructor might kick me out from this class. That was why I chose the option of not to speak up. Because I scared of the instructor’s negative comment.

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I don’t know what to do. I feel I am lost. Maybe I should not take this instructor’s classes anymore. At his school, there are many other instructors whom I might feel relaxed and comfortable. Luckily he is not the only one instructor. I still like this school. I still want to learn a lot from this school. I don’t want to give up on my spiritual study.

Maybe, the issue is on me. The instructor actually didn’t do anything wrong. He never hurt me yet. It might be my ego. My ego wants my instructor to acknowledge my spiritual gift and praise me, just like he often does to other students.

I have noticed this instructor is very nice to other specific students. It seems to me they are his favorites. I probably feel jealous to them.

While I am writing this, my family spirits gave me a block of thoughts. Some of his favorites have studied under him for more than ten years. Some of them worked together with him for the school for many years. I don’t need to get jealous to them. I just entered to this school this June. I am still quite new to this instructor. He does not know me at all, so it is normal that I am not his favorite yet. I might become his favorite or I might not. It is all about the strength of spiritual connection. So, I don’t need to worry about it. Just stay being myself. As for my spiritual ability, do not ever doubt it. It is there for sure. I am gifted for sure. I don’t need to compare with anybody. Everybody is unique. I have my own way. I am well-protected and well-supported all the times. I should be aware of that.

Now I am feeling calm. Thanks to my family spirits, I think I can sleep now, without any concerns.

Everything will be all right. The zoom sound issue will be solved. I will get better on trance talk. I don’t need to be exactly same as other students. I might change my voice tone. I might still remember what I say in trance. That is all fine. Just relax and rest.