At 20:30 p.m., I attended spiritual retreat workshop. It was a 2-hour workshop. There were nine students attended.

First off, we did the instructor’s guided mediation. It was the spiritual journey to go back to your past. At the first stop, we saw ourselves in our early years like a young elementary school child. I saw myself as the first grader, 6 years old. I had a short bobbed hair. I was wearing a red skirt with suspenders with a T-shirt. I looked like a main character of cartoon Chibi-Maruko-chan. I asked young version-of-me what her dream career was when she grows up. She told me number one of her dream career was a Mother, the second was a teacher for an elementary school, the third was a teacher for camping, and the last was a Manzaishi (a Japanese duo comedian)

We went back to the time when we were in our mom’s tummy. I felt my mom’s feeling. She desperately hoped to have a baby girl. Her first child was born as a boy and my dad’s family took him for one year. They put more values on boys than on girls. My mom thought if I was born as a girl, she could keep me.

Then, we were guided to one of our memorable past lives. I went to the time when I was born as a Lakota girl. In this lifetime, the situation was the same as my current Japanese family. It was their traditional way that they value boys than girls. Since I was born as a girl, nobody seriously listened to my opinions, even though I conveyed lots of valuable messages from holy spirits.

This girl of my past life started talking to me. She went through the uncomfortable experience being born as a girl, but she assured me that this lifetime is different. Also since she has been supporting me, I should feel free to speak up whenever I need to. In her lifetime, she had built a human phobia, but she also assured I should not take over her leftover feeling of human phobia.

Also, she told me in this lifetime, I was provided the super powerful supporters; my husband and daughter. They are the most trustworthy people in this lifetime for me. With their love, she said, I should be fine no matter what. I agree with her. When she mentioned about my husband and daughter, I felt great happiness and love and shed tears on my cheeks.  

After the mediation, we proceeded to the actual practice. The instructor paired up the students. I read my first partner’s past life. I saw her as a Christian nun in Europe in one time. Other time, I saw her as an elderly woman in Europe. I started focusing this lifetime of hers. I felt she was a wife of a rich man in either England or France. They were living in a spacious and luxurious mansion. They hired many house servants. She was not skinny at all; rather, fluffy round body shape. She was generous and open-minded. Those days the owner of servants were not supposed to casually talk to her servants, but she was different. She was friendly to everybody including to the house servants. She would let them sit with her at the table and offer tea and cookie to them. Another life of hers I saw was a young Aboriginal girl. She was around 10-year-old running around with bare foot. She was very skinny, but looked very healthy in her dark skin. I thought it interesting her soul allowed me to see her two lives that were totally opposite. One life was a rich elderly white woman with ample-figured, while the other life was a young skinny dark skinned girl without a house. One life she probably never touched earth, while other life she lived with the earth.  

My first partner read my past life as a nun in Europe. This didn’t resonate with me, but I do feel it might be my mom to send this memory through her. I was told once that my mom and I shared the life together as friends when we served our lives as a nun in Europe. I still have offensive feeling whenever anybody tells me that I had a past life of being a nun in Europe.

Our second reading partner was chosen to a different person. She was a young pretty woman. We were told to see the partner’s past life that they had lived with high spiritual awareness. I read her energy two days ago in the other workshop, so it was easy for me to retreat the memory. One of her past life was a Ten-nyo or a Japanese Miko. She looked like floating in the air, just like an Indian monk. She devoted her life to God and she was not allowed to marry nor have kids. She helped many people by conveying messages from God.

One student read my past life as a Miko. Same as the previous young woman I read, I devoted my life to God to convey spiritual messages. She felt I admire water falls. I told her she read my energy right. I do admire water falls.

Last practice was to read everybody’s energy and notice if any of them shared the life in the same area and time. I felt the instructor to be close to me. I felt she worked as a Miko with me close to ocean. I felt the same nostalgic feeling to the young woman. I felt pretty sure that we had known each other working as a Miko.  I remember one woman as my sister while we were born as an ancient Black tribe. We both served as a shaman. We also shared the life as a Native American. In both lives, we were sisters.

Most people felt the same way as I felt.

The young woman felt the life with me differently. She saw me as an elderly monk and she was a young monk. I was her master monk teaching her about spirituality. We were living in a high elevation mountain area. We saw the village at the foot of the mountain. While she was talking about it, my soul resonated with her very well. It was great to hear that.

I enjoyed her class very much. I am pretty sure all of the student felt the same way as I did.

At 2 a.m., I attended Shakti workshop. It was a 3-hour workshop. There were only four students attended.

The class started with the instructor’s giving each student an initiation. He said he would enter each student’s aura field and greet to their guide spirits. I didn’t receive any messages, but I did feel heat in back of my right ear. Also I felt somebody gently stroking my left head. And I felt hugged by a group of spirits. After the initiation, the instructor asked each student what they experienced. Everybody, except for me, received a short reading session about their guide spirits and messages. I thought to myself, “not again.” The same thing happened again. I felt hurt by being forgotten by the instructor. The sad thing is that I cannot mention the instructor casually about his skipping me. I don’t think anybody else can do.

Then we proceeded to the instructor’s guided meditation. I saw an image of an old woman changing into a shining goddess. She conveyed me the message like this.

We don’t need to stay being Switch-ON mode all the time. Once in a while, we will need some time to rest, being Switch-OFF mode. As a light gift, she gave me a read round ON-OFF button. This switch button came as a reminder of the message, that we do need OFF mode from time to time. That can be applied to an experience of meditation. It is wonderful to receive great messages through the meditation, but we don’t receive such great ones all the times. Once in a while, we don’t receive any messages. It is okay, rather, we sometimes need to experience such a blank state.  

 (Question during the meditation) During the mediation, we experienced the female energy being a support our journey to a spiritual awareness increase. Ask her name if she has.

I received the answer like this.

There are no specific names, but I can call her at my any preferable name. A name does not matter to her at all. Rather, she wants me to feel her energy and recognize her by her energy.

After the meditation, the instructor proceeded to the lecture of Shakti. Shakti is a Sanskrit term that means “power”. It is the divine power that underlies the godhead’s ability to create the world and to display itself. It is believed that all the living creatures are originally female. A revised version of female is male. Most of fish are female. In reproduction season, some fish turn to be male. Male fishes die after spawning.

The instructor introduced us Sri Yantra. We can use this as a mediation tool. Another mediation tool is to star at Sanskrit letter of “a” or “om.” We learned some other mantras too.

We did one practice to read guide spirit. We didn’t have enough time left, so we read only one student’s guide spirit. The instructor and other three students read the male energy, but I read differently. I felt a female energy. I saw an image of Ten’nyo (a heavenly maiden).

At the last practice, the instructor told us to communicate with the guide spirits of the other student and ask what they want to give the student a Christmas gift.

I was assigned as one student whom I share the same class often nowadays. I felt her guide spirit wants to give her a stone ball. It was not a crystal ball, rather, it looked like a ball made by earth. I thought it might represent the planet Earth. She can use this earth ball when giving a healing energy to her clients. It helps her to earth the unnecessary energy ground to the center of Earth; the magnetic field.

The other student read my guide spirit’s energy. She said my guide spirits want to give me a pair of running shoes. She got it right. As I walk a lot every day, I need many pairs of running shoes. She also got the energy of a cooking tool. It looked like a mixing tool. She got it right too. My mixing tool is old so I will need to get a new one.

I enjoyed the class. I have one wish for the instructor though. I get hurt when he skipped me for conveying messages from my guide spirits. I wanted to hear what they looked like to him, and receive the message to me through him. I wish the instructor will treat all the students equally.

Today was my husband’s first work day. Before he left the house, he was nervous.

He came back with a big smile. He met his supervisor and coworkers at his new workplace. He told me they are very, very nice people. He is thankful for being guided to the right people and right job. I am happy for my husband.  

My daughter has been super busy in finishing all the assignments and final tests for her school. The first semester will be end on December 18^th and all the grades will be closed on that day. The school says they don’t accept late submission.

I have been busy checking on her due dates. We worked a lot today.

Today’s dream: I receive cash from a woman whom I never met before. In reality, this kind of situation would never happen, but in dream, I received it as if it was pretty normal. I felt happy for the surprise income and appreciated her. Then I woke up comfortably.

The internet dream interpretation says the dreamer will receive good luck in meeting the right people. The human relationship will be prosperous for the dreamer. I thought of the new friends whom I have been meeting through the Japanese mediumship school.

My husband received the job offer at local military base on November 30^th. The started getting ready to have him at their workplace. My husband has been dealing with inputting information and sign their documents. Tomorrow will be his first work day for the new workplace.

This morning he received a phone call from other job offer. They interviewed him three times and finally they made a final decision to hire him. The office director offered higher salary than the job he just accepted one week ago. It was very hard for him to decline right away.

My husband got confused. Such thing never happened to him before.

I meditated and asked my family spirits for advice. They told me this will be his job and he is the one who will work every day. Also he is the one who work with the other coworkers. And so, I should not involve in this decision. Have my husband decide. His gut feeling will tell him the right one for him.

I conveyed the message. His gut feeling at this moment tells him to go for the local job, even though their offered pay is lower than the other one. I told him I will support him for his decision.

So, he officially declined the new job offer.

My daughter received a belated birthday card from her grandparents. The grandma confused the date of my daughter’s birthday as December 11^th, which is her own birthday.

Regardless of arrived belated, my daughter was happy for her grandparents’ birthday wish.

Two days ago, I texted the realtor to ask the house owner if he is willing to sell this house to us or not. She texted back to me right away, saying she would love to be our realtor in the process of house purchasing, and she sent an inquiry email to the house owner. She said she should receive the reply soon. 

This morning I was eager to know the update regarding the house purchase situation, but I was reluctant to call the realtor. I feel scared talking with her over the phone because of her low tone voice so that I always communicate with her through an email or cell phone text.

When I was about to send a text message to her, I felt a strong feeling that I should call her and talk to her over the phone. So, I took courage and called her.

It was good to have called her. When speaking in person over the phone, she sounded like much nicer and friendlier than communicating through an email or a text.

Through the conversation, I gained lots of information. According to the realtor, the house owner is hard to get hold of. Every time whenever the realtor needs to contact him, earliest would be several days later. Sometimes it takes two weeks or more. Last time he was somewhere in foreign country. I mentioned about our situation. We are granted a piece of land in Navajoland and will eventually build a house there. We had not planned to buy a house in this area until the end of last year. The realtor sent us a rent increase notice letter. They increased the rent by $100. I told her the situation around this neighborhood with the actual rent amount of the house across us and of our next door. I thought the sudden rent increase was a hint for them to kick us out. The realtor told me last year the house owner contacted her. He informed her of the real estate tax and the house insurance increased, and so, he wanted to increase the rent so as to avoid him to pay out of pocket. I thought if the realtor had informed me the reason, I would not have had a bad feeling toward both of them.

So, all is good. I appreciate my family spirits to inspire me to call the realtor instead of texting.   

Even though communicating through emails and texts is easy and convenient, talking directly over the phone or face to face in person will be better in understanding each other. Today’s experience was a good lesson for me.

At 9 p.m., I attended my second meditation class. The instructor was an elder woman. I like her a lot. She is kind and gentle, and very funny. There were four students. I like this kind of small class. We introduced ourselves on where we live and how many years have been studying mediumship in this school. The two students have studies for many years, and the one student have studies for one year. I was the newest student in this school. The teacher have studied in the Japanese mediumship school for more than 20 years.

The teacher started off our class with teaching the short meditation of chakra cleansing. We image a golden light ball in the base chakra. Then, move the ball through the second, the third, all the way up to the crown chakra. We move this golden light ball up and down through the seven chakras.

Then we proceeded to the main mediation. My guide spirit appeared in a male figure. He was putting on a white wolf far on top of his naked upper body. I could see his buildup muscle.  His upper body was naked with. I asked him about our house. In which area should we buy; in Navajoland or in this current area? He asked me why not both? He told me instead of choosing only one, we can have two houses in two different areas. Anything is possible. It is up to me and I am the one who create my life.

Before ending the class, the instructor read one of her favorite books; Love Without Conditions: Reflections of the Christ Mind written by Paul Ferrini.

I had an appointment with the car dealer. They wanted to re-try some tests on my car. They will keep my car for about one week.

My family and I left our house in the early morning of 7:30 a.m. After we dropped off my car and got a loaner car, we did our routines. We visited the puppy store and played with puppies, then we had lunch at our favorite hamburger restaurant. We came back home in the evening.

This car dealer located a 1.5 hour drive away from my house. Just one round trip to the car dealer drains me.