Today’s dream: I was with my female friend. Since I didn’t recognize her, maybe she is one of my family spirits or my future friend whom I haven’t met yet. We were at the bakery store to buy a birthday cake for our common friend. At the payment, I took put my red wallet and paid for the cake. Then I woke up.

According to the dream interpretation dictionary, a red wallet means the dreamer has been blessed with good luck in monetary fortune. It also means the dreamer will have been blessed with good luck in human relationship. It also can mean good luck in health.

Today’s dream: I was studying Sanskrit language and their mantra. Then I woke up.

These days I study Sanskrit and their mantra every day, so my dream simply reflects my daily routine of the physical realm.

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For the past four days, I have attended the events presented by Hay House. A Four-Day Challenge to Discover Your Unique Spiritual Gifts with James Van Praagh.

I like James because he is always cheerful with full of happy energy around him.

One of his meditations guided me to communicate with one of my past away loved ones. Followed by his guidance, I felt one female figure close to me. I instantly knew it was my late mom. Her energy was calm. She was happy for me that I have accomplished my daily routine to meditate. She wished she had had such a quiet time regularly in her daily life while she was in the physical realm. She sent me a feeling that she is proud of me and supporting me on this spiritual journey.

The other meditation, James guided us to a party venue in a luxurious hotel room. There are many round party tables in the room. I intuitively knew which table was for me. When I arrived at my table, I was welcomed by my family spirits who were already seated. They told me to practice as many as I can. They are happy that I have made my mind to proceed my way to walk on the spiritual journey. Every time on the practices in the classes and I got their messages rightly, they were happy and clapping hands for me to cheer me up.  

Since my green card will be expired in less than 3 months, I did the renewal process online. It was an easy process and I paid $540 for the renewal fee.

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Today’s dream: I was a young Native American man. One little girl came up to me and told me that lots of star people love me and are supporting me. I was wearing a white pow wow dancer’s costume. I was well-built and looked very strong. I was stepping into a stage where a huge audience was welcoming me with welcomed with great enthusiasm.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided meditation created by James Van Praagh. He named the mediation as “Self Love Remembering Who You Are.” It was a 23-minute meditation. I like this short length. He guides us to our childhood days; around 5-6 years old. And the younger-days-we will go to a park. We visualize the park in details.

His guidance is easy to follow even though he speaks fast. I could easily visualize the park near our house. My brother and I often went there and played. The park had only one slide, but other than that, there was just a huge space for kids to run around. The ground was covered by clovers. Whenever I fell down while I was running, the ground was soft and comfortable. I loved to play with my brother. He is just a 13-month away from me. We grew up like a twin brother and sister. Every day was filled with fun things as I was always with my brother. We played baseball, dodge ball, badminton, soccer, and volleyball. I loved to running around. My body was light. I was easily moving around. Not only my physical body but also my soul was very light, and flexible, and pure. Nothing was heavy for me.

The meditation guide asked me to find out the differences between “me-of-the-childhood” and “the current-me.” I thought they are pretty similar. Before I married in my adulthood days, I started limiting myself into “an impossible box.” That had made me getting heavy in my soul. However, after I married to my husband, moved to America, and had our daughter, my soul has started getting lighter. I think the best contributor for my positive change is definitely my daughter. Her pure and happy energy has reminded me of who-I-truly-am, and I am loving my current life.

In the morning I called my bank three times about the SWIFT code. I talked with the different three bank operator, but nobody could provide me with the SWIFT code information. The three of them provided me with the ABA number instead.

I did some more internet research and finally found the useful information. My bank uses the intermediate bank in NY. The money will be sent to the intermediate bank in NY, then my bank’s headquarter in TX, and then will forwarded the recipient’s individual bank account.

I emailed the accountant about this information.

About 1 p.m., the accountant emailed me that money was just sent.

As for my mom’s inheritance division, I gave up my lawful right of 25% and compromised to receive only 1.8%. I feel sad to know my dad’s true face regarding this procedure. Compared with my mom who was generous and thoughtful, my dad acted completely opposite from my mom.

After my mom passed away, I fully understand how supportive my mom had been for my family; my dad, my brother, and me. Without her, my Japanese family does not function as a happy family anymore.  

My daughter’s dream: A green snake visited her in her dream. The snake approached my daughter at her upper ankle and started drawing something. My daughter often sees me drawing Reiki healing mantra in the air, so she instantly noticed the green snake was drawing Reiki healing mantra on her ankle. Then she woke up. She felt comfortable with this dream.

When I heard about this dream from her, I thought the green snake came as healing energy. Also as she thought, I felt the green snake was teaching my daughter Reiki healing mantra.

I think my daughter had this dream because she concerns about her grandma in the hospital.

My daughter and I took time to send distance Reiki healing energy to my mom-in-law in the hospital. We hope she will get well soon and discharged from the hospital soon.

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My husband came back in the evening. He had visited his hometown alone for 10 nights 11 days since October 21^st. His main purpose for this trip was to finish up our shed’ floor on our Homesite. During his trip, they got a snow storm with low temperature, so that he ended up fixing here and there in grandparents’ trailer house. I am happy for his safe return.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of HemiSync Mediumship Training.

On the first scene, I was in green world. I was surrounded by white clouds.

On the second scene, I moved to yellow/golden world. Yellow and gold came in and out alternatively. It was like getting sun light from time to time. It changed its color depending on the light amount. It sometimes looked like rainbow.

Then on the last scene, I moved to light blue world. The message was like this.

In the physical realm, I worry and concern about lots of things and events. However, in the expanded realm, I knew that everything is under control in natural. Each person and event has its own best timing and best way to go forward. All we need to do is just simply keep open-minded. I felt like I was in a dragon figure, elegantly flying around in the sky. It was a comfortable and relaxing meditation.

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At night at 8:30 p.m., I attended Sunday Service. Tonight’s trance talk was performed by one of the upper level class students. She conveyed the message regarding jealousy. Her message was like this.

When we jealous somebody, we send our energy to the person. By doing so, we waste our precious energy, that prevents us from utilizing our energy fully to ourselves. We all are different and unique. We don’t need to do exactly same things as others. We individually have our own best timing to broom and shine.

Her message resonated with me very well. I like the way she conveyed the message. And I hope I will be able to study with her in the future class.

My dad and his accountant were planning to send me some cash via international wire transfer. The accountant told me they would meet at the local bank at 1:30 p.m. in Japan time. I told him it would be my 9:30 p.m., and I would be available to pick up a LINE phone call in case they need to receive any more information or to confirm with me something. The accountant told me once the cash is sent out, he would let me know through LINE.

After 11:30 p.m., the accountant called me and reported two unhappy news.

The first unhappy news was my dad’s all of a sudden changed their plan. They were planning to meet at the local bank, but my dad changed the plan at the last moment. He changed to the local credit union. My dad’s reason was because he still wants to keep it secret to the local bank about my mom’s death. This made me irritated. I thought it is disrespectful for my late mom. It has been more than 7 months since my mom has gone. My dad is reluctant to go through the procedure of changing the name of bank account to be auto-deducted the utility bills. He has two house maids. He can easily ask them to help him. It is not complicated procedure. In August when my dad called me many times like a crazy stoker, he wanted to get the Agreement signed as soon as possible so that he would be able to finish all the procedures regarding changing the bank account name from my mom to him. That was why I accelerated the procedures on my side and sent it back to him very quickly. I have known my dad. He likes to keep things secret. I honestly cannot understand why he wants to keep my mom’s death secret. It causes many involved people into a trouble. Because it is a lie.    

The second unhappy news was the accountant could not send the cash today. The local credit union requested the SWIFT code.

I knew my bank does not have SWIFT code. I quickly sent the accountant the URL of bank’s official webpage where stating they don’t have SWIFT code. This bank asks customers to use ABA number instead. I knew the Japanese banks can send money with ABA number from my past experiences. My mom had sent me money through other banks and post office with ABA number instead of the SWIFT code.

The accountant never sent money internationally, so he didn’t have any option left but to bring it back today and asked me to confirm with my bank.

Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of Japanese Mediumship School. Today my guide spirit appeared in a male figure. He looked like a Yamabushi; a monk of Shugendo. He also looked like Tengu. He does not eat much, but his body was covered by well-built muscles. He looked like very strong physically, mentally, and spiritually.

This well-built guide spirit gave me an orange. It was an unexpected gift. I started laughing, and he joined me laughing.  

He told me the meaning of a gift of orange is the importance of laughter. We just shared and enjoyed the laughter together. He said laughter can be shared and it is a great medicine to change the severe and in-tense atmosphere to a relaxed and fun atmosphere. I thought it a great gift. I always appreciate my family spirits for sharing their great sense of humor.

I attended my fourth awareness basic class. At tonight’s class, there were 7 students attended. During the meditation, the internet connection was completely cut off for some minutes, and my zoom screen was once disappeared and came back. I looked at the other students and the instructor. Everybody was comfortably in the deep meditation state. I guess I was the only one whose internet connection was cut off.

Still, I could see my guide spirit. She appeared in the female figure. She looked like Lakshmi. She appeared as very strict. She was not smiling at all. She was tall and skinny. Not to mention, she was gorgeous and beautiful. She gave me a golden vase. She told me to study as much as I can and keep my efforts and knowledge in this vase. Then the golden vase changed into an image of pocket. I thought this pocket was like a Doraemon’s 4D pocket. My guide spirit heard me and finally started laughing. She said I was right. She told me to consider that I have a Doraemon’s 4D pocket all the time so that whenever I study and learn something, keep it into this pocket. When I am done with this lifetime, I can bring this Doraemon’s 4D pocket back with me to the spirit world. We both had a good laugh. I thanked my guide spirit, and my conscious came back to my physical body.

Tonight’s actual practices were 3 different practices.

The first practice was easy. The instructor showed us her both palms closed. She said she was holding a small plastic star in one hand. It was easy for me to guess it. My intuition was right.

As for the second practice, the instructor showed us a white paper. She said she wrote down one number from 1 to 9. My first impression was “5,” but from my previous practices, in my case, the first impression is not the right one. Then I saw “9”. I felt this was the one. Then I saw “3.” When the instructor asked me, I answered “9.” For this practice, nobody guessed it right. The answer was “2.” The instructor was very nice, so she encouraged everyone how they guessed it closely. She told me “2” can be looked like “9,” so I was close too.

The third practice was to read the instructor’s aura energy. I felt water. I felt she lives close to a water body. I felt “light blue,” “a bunny,” “white,” “soft and fluffy,” and “brown grass field.” I thought those information was written in her aura. Then, I saw her guide spirit on top of her head. At first I thought I was seeing three figures, but later on, I found out the three figures were actually one female figure who had three faces; front, right, and left. I thought the three faces represented her personality. The front face had strict and stoic energy, the right face had laughter energy, and the left face had flexibility energy.

The instructor told me she is from Okinawa, so my reading of water body was accurate. In the morning she was wearing a “white” and “soft and fluffy” jacket. As for her guide spirit, she has been told her guide spirit is a female figure with strict and stoic energy.

I appreciate her to be nice. With her positive feedbacks and encouragements, I could enjoy this practice.

Today’s meditation: I did the guided meditation. The guide asked me to see the colors of the lights. I saw pink, red, yellow, blue, many different bright colors. The guide told me the energy of the colors was what I need right now.

I ask my guide spirits to appear in a different figure, so they seldom appear in the exactly same figure as in the previous meditations. I like to see them in a different figure and am enjoying it.

My guide spirit appeared in a female figure. She looked like an alive version of Kannon-sama. She gave me a pink lotus flower. She said it represents an ability to forgive. She wants me to know not everybody is perfect. I am not perfect, and others are not perfect. We all are here on Earth to learn and discipline our spiritual awareness. She wants me to be tolerant and open-minded for others. Sometimes others showed up in front of me and annoyed me to the most. The person might be just spiritual and act as a bad guy for me to learn something. They might be highly awakened soul but acted the bad guys’ role for me. In that case, I should appreciate their support.

Then the meditation guide told me to move to one of my past lives that prevents me of executing my life missions.

I saw myself as a young man in the World War II. I spoke up my opinion to the supervisor in the military. Nobody supported my opinion even though they agreed with me deep inside. I was beaten up by many of others. My family and relatives were treated cruelly due to my opinion. This event had become a trauma in my soul. I made my mind not to speak up in public because I am scared of the similar situation. “The current me” went to “another me in the past life” and hugged him. I told him gently that the bad experience was over. I am healed and I am in the safe place now. In this lifetime, I am with the right people so that it is safe for me to speak up whenever needed. This time I will create a better situation by my speaking up the right opinion.  

I participated in the meditation event. In order to respect the organization, I am not mentioning the event name nor the organization name. They plan for a 30-minute meditation in the morning and evening for five days, total of 10 meditations. This morning’s meditation was a kick-off mediation. To be honest, I was disappointed. It was not a meditation. The person who led the meditation kept on talking about her personal experience and from time to time, she added the words “breath-in and out.” It was not helpful to quiet my mind. This event might be beneficial for others, but not for me.

I am glad to know that this event is not for me.

Everything in the daily life is a trial-and-error. By actually experiencing, sensing and feeling the outcome from a trial-and-error, I can finally find the beneficial and the right one for me.