It was a very hot day. This week our area will have extreme heat day with the highest temperature up to 38 degree Celsius.

This morning my daughter wanted to go to the local Asian market. I like going to the grocery store alone in the early morning, but I decided to break my routine for my precious daughter. I knew the Asian Market opens at 9:30 a.m. When we arrived at their store after 10 a.m., we didn’t see any cars parked in their parking lot. Their store’s OPEN sign was off. The new open hour says from 1 p.m. to 7 p.m. I was disappointed. I will need to come back again sometime. But I cannot complain about this store. I used to get Japanese ingredients from the online shop in Los Angeles, but they have been closed since March. The other Asian market is located in a big city where the Covid-19 infection rate is very high, so I cannot go there at this moment. I am almost out of Japanese soup mix and Natto (fermented soy beans).

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Since the medium could not help me on seeing the past lives with my brother in the reading session of yesterday, I decided to see it by myself. I asked my family spirits for support and did the guided meditation of HemiSync free flow to Focus-12.

At the first vision I saw a pack of people walking in the woods in Hokkaido. There was no nice trails for humans, rather, it was untouched wilderness. I felt the people were the Ainu people. I felt the leader and the father of the family was my brother and I was one of his daughters.

At the second vision, I saw a pack of people in Eastern America. Again, it was in the deep woods. They were the Native American tribe. I felt my brother and I were not in the immediate family but in the same tribe. We grew up together as an extended family.

At the third vision, I saw a pack of people in a wooden raft going down in a river. I saw my brother and me in the same tribe. Again, we grew up together as an extended family.

At the fourth vision, I saw a huge number of workers. I felt they were in the process of building a pyramids in Egypt. I was born as a man. I saw my brother was born as a man too. We both were born in a rich families. We were best friends. We supported each other throughout the life.

These four visions of our past lives were shown to me as if it were in a short movie. Interestingly today’s visions were all shown in an animation movie.

Then I came back to the conscious realm.

I am glad that I have known my brother for long time. I recall our younger days. We grew up like a twin brother and sister. We liked each other very much. At least we shared a good memory in our childhood. This meditation help me to understand my brother more than before. I think I will believe in him no matter what.   

In the morning I received an email from my friend. It was very, very long email. She expressed her complains about her part time job. Reading such negative complains was not fun, rather, just time consuming. Besides, I don’t work there so that they were nothing to do with me. On my second thought though, her email gave me some lessons. Leaned from this experience, I won’t send a long complaining email to any of my friends because I don’t want to drain their energy nor steal their precious time. Now that I know one method to calm myself whenever I run into any stressful situation. I take some long relaxing breathes. If I can, I meditate and ask the lesson from it. More than anything else, I should thank my husband for going to work for me. Thanks to his support, I am not under any stressful work environment.    

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Today’s meditation: I meditated with hemi sync guided meditation of Free Flow to Focus-21. I wanted to see the past lives related to my Japanese family members; my dad, mom, and brother. Even though I was in a deep meditated state, nothing came up to me. Besides I woke up without any memories of my dream. Maybe today is a quiet day.

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At night I had a total reading session from a medium at the Japanese mediumship school. The medium was the instructor at the Japanese mediumship school. I saw her during the spiritual communication demonstration at one of their Sunday Services.

She started conveying messages from my paternal grandpa. Unfortunately he passed away when my dad was young, I don’t have any memory about him. Nothing the medium conveyed about his appearance and his message seemed to be irrelevant to me. I had a feeling that the medium got the wrong spirit.

Then she conveyed a set of messages from two guide spirits. One guide spirit has been supporting me to raise my voice regarding the world peace. He wants me to complete my book. Once it is done, he will switch to other guide spirit.

— While I was listening to this message, I recalled of my early 30s. I read many books about Japanese-Americans who were born and raised in America, but during the World War II, they were discriminated and put into the concentration camp. Those days I often visited Little Tokyo in Los Angeles and met those old people listen dot their stories. I wanted to write a book about them.

The other guide spirt has been encouraging me to draw a portrait. That made me recall my younger days. In my elementary school and junior high school days, I was good at creating art works, especially painting and drawing. I didn’t continue studying the art, because my parents encouraged me to have a higher education, mainly to enter a notable university. The medium kept on repeating the key word “France,” but it was not convincing to me at all. I have lived my life up to now without any influence of France. I never was and am not interested in there at all.

At the last 10 minutes, I asked two questions regarding my past life with my Japanese family members. Nothing was convincing to me. I felt the medium could not see any of my past lives. She just told her own opinions and advice based on her physical level experience. I didn’t feel comfortable on hearing it.

All in all, I felt she read somebody else’s energy, not mine. To be honest, I was disappointed and not satisfied with her reading session. But I know one thing. She did her best effort. She might do a better job for others. It is difficult to find a best matched medium who can read my energy correctly. Ideally, I should raise my spiritual awareness enough, so that I can read my past lives better than anybody else. It is my goal. This reading session helped me to realize my goal.

Today’s dream: I was working on some project as a group. There were five people in the group. I could not recognize any of them in the physical realm, so they may be the people I will meet in the near future. I felt comfortable working with them. One of the female group member asked me to borrow my cell phone and I let her use mine. Then, another male group member asked me to get in the car. The driver was a man who was older than I am. I got in the backseat. All of us got in the car and left for our destination. We all were excited to get there.

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Then I woke up. According to the dream interpretation dictionary, letting somebody to use a cell phone implies the dreamer will help others to connect or communicate well to one another. Sitting on the backseat of a car implies the dreamer will gain the socially high position and further authorities. It also implies the dreamer will have necessary supports from others.

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In the afternoon, I went to the local library with my daughter. The librarian gave us a bagful of vegetables from her garden. It is always a very nice summer gift to receive something grown in their own garden.  

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Today’s meditation: I meditated with hemi sync guided meditation of Free Flow to Focus-12. I didn’t have any specific question in my mind. When I was freely enjoying floating around in Focus-12, some thoughts came into my mind. It was a message from my mom. She said she is doing fine. She is very busy right now. After she graduated from her physical life, she came to me in spirit. When she saw me cooking foods from a scratch, such as homemade miso, mirin, and shio-koji, she was impressed. She desired to learn about cooking. Now that she is in the spirit world, everything is easily done. She enrolled herself at cooking class. She has been enjoying learning there with her new friends. She showed me a vision of her new cooking school. There were many people in the class. Everybody looked nice. They all helped each other. I am glad to hear she is now enjoying her life.

Today’s dream: I was living with my parents at their house in Japan. My daily routine was to make a delivery order of their dinner to a restaurant over the phone. In my dream my mom was still alive. Whenever I had a question, I could ask her. My dad spent almost all day in bed. He would come out to the dining table on every dinner. When the food delivery man arrived, I picked up a wallet. There were two wallets; one was for coins and the other was for bills. The coin wallet was empty and the bill wallet had only three 1,000 yen bills.

In the other scenery, I was with my daughter at our house in America. We had three clean new books; red, white and black. We were thinking of our friend in Japan and decided to give them to her.

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Then I woke up. According to the dream interpretation dictionary, a read book implies the dreamer will have a good turning point in life. A black book implies the dreamer will have an authority thanks to their accumulated knowledge. It also implies for the dreamer to get promoted their position in the company or organization. A white book implies the dreamer will receive insight and knowledge. Giving a book to somebody implies the dreamer will experience a huge life transition. It includes the dreamer will gain the top secret information. Or, the dreamer might completely change their thinking pattern.

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Today the homeschooling enrollment process was finally completed. It took us almost three weeks to complete. The school told us there are so many students have been in the enrollment process and they have been understaffed to cover the overflowing number of applicants. I am happy it is finally completed. I hope this homeschooling will be beneficial for my daughter.   

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Today’s meditation: I tried Hemi Sync – guided meditation to past life experience. This was my second challenge.

The first scene was in a jangle in Southeast Asia. I saw a young man in his late teens. He was not tall, but well-built and muscular. He was wearing an Iron armed suit. He was a soldier. It was winder. He was standing on the edge of a cliff of a rocky mountain. He was with other five soldiers. He was the youngest but he was the leader of the group. Other team members respected him as his braveness.

The second scene was in a house. It was not a sturdy one, but more like a tent, easily movable. He was with his family. His wife and their baby boy. The wife was young and beautiful. They had a happy life together.

The last scene was again in a jangle. The man was somewhere between 35 to 41 years old. He was alone in a jangle. Others stopped him to go there alone, but he didn’t listen to other people’s advice. He was killed by being stepped or kicked by some big animals as they were running from some dangers.  

This past life experience gave me a lesson to be careful and to observe animals well as they can feel dangers much faster than humans.

Today’s dream: my family and I already moved to Navajo Nation. We were taking care of our retreat tour customers. There were 10 customers. We had hired some employees for our business. My ex-boyfriend was one of our employees. Everybody including us; the host, and the customers enjoyed spending time together.

Then I woke up. Since I had an aura cleaning session on April 21^st, our plan of Navajoland retreat center has come up to my conscious level from my subconscious. I stated having dreams of the retreat center and tour very often.

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Today’s meditation: I purchased a Hemi Sync guided meditation CD for past life experience. Today was my first day to try their past life experience meditation. The followings are my memo. I could not see these clearly nor in a storytelling way. I will need more practices.

At the first scene, I saw a young girl with bobbed hair. The girl was 5 years old. She was in bed at a hospital in Japan. On the floor of side of the bed, I saw a pair of red and white striped slippers. The slippers looked new and hardly be worn. That tells the girl was very sick and could not walk around very much.

At the next scene, I saw the girl at the age of 11 years old. She died from some issues of heart.

When the guided voice asked to wrap up this person’s life, I saw some key words. The girl died in 1942 at the age of 11. The cause of death was heart issue. If the girl had lived in this age, she would have lived longer and healthier. She lived at the age of before the World War II. The majority of Japanese suffered from poverty. The message of this lifetime was the importance of peace. The girl didn’t live long. The girl didn’t have any freedom. 

Today’s dream: I was working as a business woman. I was working as a team member with a group of my coworkers. I was the leader of the group. I could feel other member’s trust and respect to me. One of the team member was my best friend in my university days. I enjoyed working with them and being a part of this great team. After work, everybody came to my house to have dinner together. After I enjoyed the nice hot bath, I drained the hot water from the tub.

Then I woke up feeling energized.

According to the dream interpretation dictionary, draining the tub implies the dreamer will switch their interest from inner matters to outer matters. It also implies the dreamer will cut something off from the past and move on.

I am glad that I saw my best friend my dream, Rie-chan. I lost her contact for the past 20 years. I really hope I will be reconnected with her sometime soon. 

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Today was a National Holiday observed as Independence Day. Our local community didn’t have the annual cerebration event at the local park, but they still offered a firework display at night.

The firework started at dark. It started around 8:15 p.m. It was great that we could enjoy watching the firework from our house. We put chairs on the street in front of our house, just like our other neighbors. The firework display usually takes for 45 minutes in the previous years, but not for this year. Their firework display was much shorter than usual and ended around 8:30 p.m. Our neighbors played their fireworks on the public streets here and there. My family and I enjoyed watching them for a while.

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I was 30 minutes late for the online Sunday Service. This was my fifth attendance. I enjoyed being there with other people as usual. Today there were 35 people attended. The school chairman mentioned in his sermon about Covid-19. He asked everybody to think about the true meaning and lesson from Covid-19. I will ask this question in my next meditation.

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I applied for the spiritual awareness basic class at the Japanese mediumship school. The class will start from September. When I paid for the class fee, the school sent me some documents including class texts and instructions. The instruction says the students are recommended to read the book “The Greatest Miracle in the World” written by Og Mandino and perform the chapter nine for 100 days. Today I started doing so. My 100^th day will be October 11^th.

While I was reading the chapter, one sentence popped up in my mind. I think this is the answer about my dad. It helps me to understand him on why he is so stingy on money and stubborn about his belief.

“as those who have earned a fortune are more careful of it than those by whom it was inherited.” Cited from Chapter 9, “The Greatest Miracle in the World” written by Og Mandino.

When I see things from my dad’s perspective, I think I can understand him better than before. He was from a poor family. When he left his hometown and came to Kobe and married, he didn’t have much. He went through lots of toughness in his life and finally at his old age, he has accumulated his fortune. It is still wrong that he insists his success is all due to only him, but the truth is my mom had supported him a lot, so his success has been built by both of my dad and mom. I still think it is wrong that my dad takes all the inheritance from my mom to only himself but at least from today, I will try to understand him and be nice to him.

Today’s dream: I was with a young boy in the train. We were on our way to Sannomiya station. When our train arrived at our destination, we got out from the train. We carried a huge sized Michel Delacroix’s lithograph and four Melonpan (cantaloupe-shaped bread). I was little embarrassed to walk with the young boy, as he was my child’s age. He told me I didn’t need to feel embarrassed because I was much younger than him. I asked the boy how old he was. He said he was 616 years old. I told him I am only 50 years old. He said he knew. We both looked at each other’s face and burst into laughter.

Then I woke up.

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Today all day long, I heard the firework sound here and there. People were enjoying the fireworks at home. Our local community will perform a firework display to celebrate July 4^th.

Today’s dream: I was with a big orange tree. I enjoyed watching the vivid orange fruits and clear green healthy leaves. I think I am practicing to become a clairvoyant in my dream. 

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Last night’s rain had continued to this morning. I woke up with the gentle female rain sound. It was a real treat. I decided to enjoy spending this quiet moment

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Today turned out to be a hectic day, even though it started in a calm morning. In the morning the temperature dropped down to 19 degrees Celsius with the rain. I needed to wear a light jacket to go for a walk. Around noon, the rain stopped. The sky was cleared from clouds. It turned to be clear sky with sunny weather. The temperature went up to 33 degrees Celsius. I started having headache. I started having dinner around 4 p.m. as usual. I didn’t have appetite so I prepared miso soup only. Even a small amount, I could not finish the soup. I started having headache and nausea. My sickness was probably due to the temperature’s rollercoaster. I went to bed and had some sleep.

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While I was asleep, I had a dream. I saw myself as a light ball. Four another light balls appeared and they approached to my light ball and connected with me. I knew the four light balls were four spirits who are unconditionally loving me and protecting me. I intuitively knew that the four light balls were my daughter and my husband. One of the other two was introduced as “my soulmate who had lived a past life at the same time with me.” The soul mate and I were ninja in the past life. We could communicate each other through telepathy. No matter how far away we were, we were able to be there at the right timing at the right place for each other. This spirit has been supporting me to become a clairvoyant. This is why I started seeing things in my dream much more clearly with detailed colors. The last light ball was introduced as “Mother in magical world.” I felt the last one was my late mother. She said she loves me so much. She has been working on my dad to be fair on the inheritance from my mom. My mom showed me the image of my dad. He has been feeling lonely and missing me. My mom didn’t tell me to call my dad. She just showed the image of my dad.

Then I woke up. Everything I saw in my dream was still vividly in my memory. I looked at the watch. It was 8:20 p.m. I started talking a nap from 4 p.m., so I had slept 4 hours in all the afternoon.

I usually don’t check my LINE app right after I wake up. But for some reason, I opened LINE app, which was very unusual for me. My intuition was right. I saw two missed calls and one text message from my cousin. It was sent to me just 10 minutes ago. The message was my dad asked me to call him.

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I was reluctant to call him. Last time I talked to him on the phone was May 4^th. We ended our conversation with an argument. Before I called my dad, I prayed to my family spirits for their support. I didn’t want to argue with my dad anymore, but I needed to tell him the reason why I haven’t called him for these two months.

Then, I took my courage and called my dad. He answered the call within the first ring. He must have been waiting for my call in front of the phone. He asked me why I haven’t called him for long. He has been worrying about me due to the news regarding the worsened situation of Covid-19 in Arizona. I told him I have been sick for a while, but I have another reason why I haven’t called him. I told him if he was calm and ready to listen, I would tell. He said he was calm and ready to listen. So I told him my true feeling. He changed his voice tone. Obviously he got mad. I quickly understood the situation, so I hung up the phone.

He was not ready to listen. Why he cannot understand? Maybe I should stop hoping that he will be ready and listen. Even though my mom asked many times about her wishes regarding grave and after-death Buddhism way ceremony, and her saving money for inheritance, my dad insisted he never heard anything from my mom. He never listened to anybody. He is stubborn and manipulative. I regretted for calling him. I should definitely keep the sacred boundary from him to protect my inner peace. All I can do at this moment is to wait for the right timing for him to listen. I don’t understand and accept my dad’s claim. He claims all the money that my mom had earned is actually his, and that is why he has rights to own everything from my mom all to himself.

I don’t agree with him. My mom had worked at my dad’s company as the accountant. He worked very hard and saved some money every month. She told me she wanted me to take it after her departure. Before her departure she asked me to make it very simple and minimize all the things related to her death, because she wanted us (my brother and me) to keep the saved money regarding her death. She instructed us in details on how we should save money. She didn’t want to be buried in a grave. She wanted to be kept her ashes in her favorite temple together with her late dad.

Today my dad told me he never heard any of my mom’s wishes. I know my mom told my dad. He didn’t listen to her at all. That is why he doesn’t remember any of them.   

Last night I was feeling sick, but this morning I woke up healthy. I am so glad that all the symptoms similar to Covid-19 disappeared from me.

In the evening it started raining. My favorite and long-awaited season, Monsoon, has come. My garden plants are also feeling happy about lots of rain.  

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I prepared my homemade mirin on August 19 last year. It has been almost one year for its fermenting process. Today I tried some. It tasted very good. I will start using it for my daily cooking. I prepared for a new batch of homemade mirin for next year.

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As for the Umeboshi with apricot that I prepared on June 23^rd, it didn’t turn out great. The apricots were so ripe that they started melting in the apricot vinegar liquid. I needed to give up on the procedure Umeboshi with apricot. I am going to use this as something for my daily cooking.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of Hemi Sync-Five Messages in Focus-12.

(1) My next time to visit Japan: I saw a vision of the numbers. It says “2023.” I saw myself visiting Japan with my daughter. At that time, my dad has already departed.

(2) Inheritance: I saw a vision of myself talking with somebody I haven’t met yet. I felt the person was the attorney whom I hired for the inheritance procedure. I didn’t see myself talking directly to my brother. As of now, my vision says the third person whom I hired would do a great help solving issues and problems between my brother and me. I just trust the necessary support will naturally come to me. I am always protected. I don’t doubt about it. 

(3) How my late-mom is doing: She is doing fine. She is satisfied with her tasks to have made me strong mentally.

(4) My dad’s departure: I saw a vision of my mom riding a two-seater bicycle. She has been urging my dad to join her, but my dad stubbornly rejected. I interpreted my mom has working on picking my dad up.

(5) My clairvoyant ability: I got a message to stay positive and keep going forward. I saw a vision of a little girl figure in a cheerleader outfit dancing with Pom Poms in her both hands. It was cute.

Today’s dream: I was running at the fastest speed by the river. I felt so comfortable that I could run fast without having out of breath. The dream interpretation dictionary says the dreamer’s energy is full and their efforts will be well rewarded.

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In the daytime I was totally healthy, but at night, all of a sudden, I started having issues in my body. I had chills and muscle aching all over my body. Also I had a sore throat. My throat was so swollen that I had a hard time on breathing and swallowing any food or liquid. All of them are one of the symptoms of Covid-19. I got scared.

Before I went to sleep, I prayed that I will get healed during sleep.