My husband received a phone call from his mom. Our Navajo parents have been for sick two to three days. They had some symptoms similar to Covid-19. She said the pains they were having were something she never experienced before. On last Friday, they went to the local clinic to have a test for Covid-19. Because she was scared of Covid-19, she wanted to let us know in advance.

After the phone conversation, we prayed for their safety. During the prayer, I heard a voice that their test result would come back as negative. I had a strong feeling that they would be fine.

My intuition was right. Today, on Monday morning, my husband received a phone call from them. Their rest result came in as negative. We were happy for their good news.

We have been hoping to visit them in Navajo Nation. However, we are not allowed yet. The reason is that their area is considered as one of the highest danger for Covid-19. They have the highest infection rate in our state. Our Navajo parents told us to wait until it calms down.

Our Navajo parents also told us about the procedure of our homesite. The tribe updated their procedure so that we are required to be at their office in person and sign the final form. They don’t allow the family members to sign on behalf of the applicants anymore.

During my meditation, I asked if we can go there in July. My family spirits said “probably no.” I asked about August. They said “possibly yes.”  Hopefully we can go back there to visit our Navajo parents and get our homesite procedure completed.

***

I have been having a meditation time as my daily routine since June 11^th. Today I did the guided meditation of Free Flow to Focus 12.

During the meditation when I asked about my Japanese family, I heard the voice “天中殺.” I don’t belong to them spiritually. I don’t closely relate to my Japanese parents in spirit. From my family spirits’ point of view, it is quite naturel that my parents and my brother rarely communicate with me. They told me not to take it personal, rather, see things from a wider vision.

Their advice was helpful for me as I constantly keep thinking of them.    

I woke up feeling calm. In my dream I was meeting and spending time with several god’s figures. They were the Indian gods including Lakshmi, Vishnu, Shiva, and Ganapati. I am not familiar with the Indian gods, so I could not recognize all of their names. Among all the gods and goddesses, Ganapati was the friendliest one of all in my dream. He was my guide and interpreter to other gods. He gave me a gift to me right before my departure back to my physical world.

Then I woke up.

I don’t remember what the gift was. But the good thing was I felt energized coming back to my physical body.

***

As for today’s meditation, I did the guided meditation of Free Flow to Focus 21.

I asked about my mom. My daughter can see spirits. According to her, my mom is not close to me anymore. She has gone further up.

In the Focus 21, I could see my mom in spirit. She was very calm and peaceful. I was so happy to see her like that.

She conveyed the message like this.

She started talking about her last days. Her last days were tough on her. All the people constantly told her to hang in there (meaning don’t die). She had a fear for death. She was so scared to die. She completely forgot about the spirit world and that our souls don’t die. In her physical body, she believed she would be nothing after her death.

In such days, I came back to see her. What I told her was totally opposite from everybody. I told her to let herself release. I told her she could depart anytime on her own best timing and best way. She followed my advice at the last moment of her this lifetime. She went through the smooth transition back to the spirit world. She appreciates me for what I did to her during her last days. She encouraged me I should keep doing my good work on helping people in my way.

Then she told me not to worry about her. She is doing great in her realm, and she knows I am doing great in my current realm. She is just super busy right now.

She said she is very proud to have me as her daughter in this lifetime. She does not have any more advice to me. Before we end our meeting, she hugged me and gave me a whole bunch of healing energy. The energy was so powerful that I had sweat all over my body.

***

Right before my leaving Focus 21 back to my physical body, somebody told me this.

From now on, when somebody shows up on my right, the person is related to my paternal sides.

When somebody shows up on my left, the person is related to my maternal sides.

When somebody shows up on my back of my head, the person is related to my Navajo relatives.

When somebody shows up above on my head, the person is related to my family spirits.

***

I showed my gratitude to everyone who supported my mediation, and came back to my physical body.

***

Tonight on Cancer new moon, I ended up with arguing with my husband. My daughter was sad about our arguing. She went to my husband in the kitchen and spent one hour away from me. While I was waiting for my daughter to bed, one memory came back to me.

It was the memory of my 10-years old. I was the same age as my daughter. In that night, my parents argued about something. My mom came to my bedroom in the upstairs. She whispered to me that she would leave this house. She told me she has her best friend in Kyushu island. She asked me to come with her. I instantly turned it down, as my mom was not nice to me most of the times. My mom was sad about my rejection. She never left our house.

I was wondering why this memory popped up in my head at this timing. It might be my mom to send this memory.

If I went back to that night, I still think I would choose the same answer, as I never became close to my mom. What if I had chosen the different answer? What if I had left the house with my mom? My mom would have a tough time for a while to support us, but she might have had a different life ending.

***

I cannot change the past. All I can do at this moment is to live my life. All I need to do right now is to talk with my husband and make peace with him. So I did. My husband and I made a peace. We promised each other to communicate well for a better understanding.

This morning’s dream: I was at the rooftop of a tall building. I needed to go to the next tall building to get to my destination. The normal procedure to do so was to climb down the stairs of the current building and walk on the ground to the next building. But I wanted to do something different from the normal procedure. I knew what to do. I was in the dream world. Anything is possible as I wish. So, I clearly visualized a perfect shortcut for me to go to the next building without climbing down the stairs of the current building. On the next moment, I saw the rooftop was extended and connected to the next tall building. I was proud of myself on how well I could manifest my wish.

I started walking the trail of the rooftop to the next tall building. The trail was turned to be a nice healthy nature. It was covered by healthy plants. There were colorful flowers and green leaves. I enjoyed the nice plants’ flagrance. On the way to the trail. I run into a beautiful female figure. She joined me walking for a while. We enjoyed chatting while walking. I felt comfortable for her company. I felt her as my older sister.

When we arrived at the entrance of the next tall building, the female figure hugged me and told me to come back to see her again anytime I want. She said she had a wonderful surprise for me. When she opened her palm, a big dog appeared. The dog was big and gentle. I felt it was a male dog. I felt this dog would come to our house in the future. I petted and hugged him. I told him we would see each other in the physical world soon. Until then, take good care of himself.

Then, I woke up. It was like a continue version of my meditation.

***

Today was summer solstice. My family and I didn’t do any special things to cerebrate, but we did appreciate that we are blessed to have a peaceful daily life every day and that we are healthy and happy and enjoy having each other as our family.

***

We had one news from our local community. The local swimming pool has opened to public from today, which is one month later than the previous years. They set some new rules. The number of customers are limited to 25 people, this is fine with me. I don’t agree with the other new rule. They have closed the public shower by the pool. That means most people will go into the pool without cleaning their body beforehand. It might create another germ issues.

***

At night I attended the Sunday Service led by the Japanese mediumship school. Tonight was my third attendance. There were about 30 attendees including the MC. The school chairman was not there tonight, and one of the school instructors led the service. The energy of the service was completely different that the previous two services. As for the first two led by the school chairman, I felt much more solemn and intense. This time I felt friendlier and easy going. Both were good. They had different energies. I always enjoy attending to this gathering with other instructors and classmates.

In my dream, I was with my Korean friend. She took me to her home country South Korea. She was wearing a pink dress that was a traditional Korean outfit. She looked much younger than her real age.

Then I woke up.

I recently had a dream of her, on June 5^th. This was my second time to see her in my dream.

***

In the real life, an interesting synchronicity happened. I received a text message from my Japanese friend, asking for having a get together lunch sometime soon. She works for the sushi bar where my Korean friend owns. My Japanese friend told me that my Korean friend has been talking about me and missing me. That made it clear the reason why my Korean friend recently visited me in my dream twice. I appreciate her to think of me. I hope to have a get together with her soon.

***

My Japanese friend reminded me tomorrow would be summer solstice. She shared a beautiful picture of clouds. It looked like a huge dragon. She asked us if we would do something special to cerebrate summer solstice. We haven’t thought anything special this year. I thought back of my previous years. One of my local friends invited me to a sweat lodge run by a Yaqui. He doesn’t lead the sweat lodge anymore because of lacking funds to purchase enough woods. It is understandable. Woods really cost much if you buy them at the store.  

I cannot believe how fast the first half of this year already passed by. This year is one of the unforgettable years in my life.

In our morning walking, my daughter spotted something weird on the asphalted road.

We took a close look. It looked like a spider as it had eight long skinny legs. The leg was red, but the joint parts were black. The body color was the combination of red, white, and black. From the top of its head, two tentacles were stacked out. They had a black round top at its edge, which looked like another eyes.

I usually don’t carry my cell phone with me while walking. I deeply regretted for not carrying my cell phone with me this morning. I wanted to take a picture of this unique guy.

***

After I came back home, I looked it up in the Internet.

I found the website called “Insect Identification Key.” This website taught me the spider looking guy is called “giant mesquite bug.”

My daughter and I felt lucky to run into this unique looking bug this morning.

***

Today’s meditation.

I did the guided meditation of Free Flow to Focus-10.

Before meditation, I thought of my dad.

In the meditation I received a message like this.

It is not a good timing for me to talk to my dad yet. My dad is still stubborn so that he won’t listen to me in the physical level. My family spirits didn’t recommend me to call him and talk to him at this moment. Rather, I should wait for the good timing for him to calm down and listen to me. They told me not to worry about the inheritance. When the good timing has come, I will naturally know the right thing to do. They will send somebody as a coordinator or support in between my brother and me. They said not to worry about anything. I should continue living my life cherishing every moment. They told me to know and believe that everything will come naturally and well.

I attended the class of Celestial Retreat at the Japanese mediumship school. The time is set for the students in Japan, which I need to adjust myself to attend. It was held 3:30 a.m. to 5:00 a.m. in my time. Last night after I finished the phone conversation with the school instructor at 9:15 p.m., I quickly went to bed and took some sleep. I woke up at 3 a.m. I didn’t want to miss this class, so I set an alarm with three different devices to make sure. Thanks god, I made it on time for the class. I could wake up, but I was very sleepy and tired.

The participants were 15 people including the instructor.

The class started with the almost similar procedure as the Sunday Service except for the songs. The instructor said the opening prayer and mantra. I could hear another voice apart from the instructor in saying mantra. It sounded like echo or machine-like vibration.  

We did a 30-minutes guided meditation. It was a long journey to go to the top of pyramid, then travel to the universe. I could not see or hear anything during the mediation.

After the meditation, the instructor shared the inspirational talk. Then, at the last part, he shared his personal opinion and experience as a medium.

He gave us, the students to become a medium, three advises.

First advice was to determine the exact type of information that we want to pass down to our clients. As for the communication with spirits, the content is really up to a medium. Some mediums tend to catch the information of the passed away spirits’ sad experiences, such as on how they passed away or how painful their transitions were. On the other hand, other mediums tend to catch the information of the passed away spirits’ true personality, mainly fun talk. The instructor likes to pass down the fun communication to the still alive people rather than the sad memories. He believes the main purpose of the spiritual communication is to make a client to feel happy.

Second advice was to be open to the future. It is not advised to tell a client about their future even we see it in the vision. We have to be aware of the limitless of the spirit world. There in the spirit world, there is no limit. Our thoughts can create any reality as we wish.

Third advice was not to focus on certain spiritual gift only. Rather, we should focus on enhancing our spiritual awareness. It will naturally bring spiritual seeing, hearing, then, sensing. The most powerful spiritual gift is sensing. Once our spiritual sensing gets excelled, we don’t need to see or hear. Sensing can cover everything. It can be applied to the passed away spirits. When their spiritual age or rank gets higher, they tend to have much brighter aura and light. When they have spent more time in the spirit world, they tend to merge to one huge light, instead of having an individual existence. They usually come to a medium to have a certain human form for the convenience so that a client can recognize who they are. When we communicate with such high spiritual ranked spirits, we don’t need to see or hear. All we need to have to recognize them is the spiritual sensing.

My daughter found one cracked tooth in my mouth. I had a similar situation last year. It was last June when she found one cracked tooth. It was the left upper tooth next to canine tooth.

This time one year later, it happened to the upper right tooth, next to canine tooth.

Last year, I quickly went to see the dentist and he urged me to fill a new crown on it. I went back to my original dentist and he gave me an easier option. Instead of having a new crown, he patched it up as a temporary measure. Instead of paying for a new crown that would cost me more than $1,000, the nice dentist charged me about $100 for patching it up. The temporary measure is still working properly in my tooth.

I decided to wait for upper right cracked tooth until my next dental appointment. It is still a small crack. I will ask my dentist to do the same procedure, as a temporary measure.

It is not fun to accept my own body going through aging process, but I need to face the fact. That means I need to put more time and energy to take good care of my body.

Tonight at 9 p.m., I had a phone conversation appointment with the Japanese medium. He is the Chairman of the Japanese Mediumship School.

He offers a 15-minute phone conversation for the people who are interested in studying spirituality. It is not a reading session, but he is to offer some advice based on his personal experience.

I was nervous before I called him, but once I heard his first voice, I could feel relaxed.

The 15 minutes went by quickly. It felt like just one minute.

I asked him for advice to become a clairvoyant. He shared his own experience and his classmates’ experiences when he was at the mediumship school in England.

He said like this.

There are many different spiritual gifts. Based on his personal experience and witnesses of his classmates, the spiritual seeing comes first. It can be the fastest easiest of the other gifts to achieve. It happened to him. At his beginning stage to become a medium, he started seeing spirits clearly. But it had one issue. The spirits appeared just like a motionless picture. He could not communicate with them. When he asked a question, he could not hear or feel the answer from them. It was like a one-way communication. Therefore, spiritual seeing does not necessarily become the most powerful tool when it comes to spiritual communication.

Spiritual hearing follows by as the next step. Then, the most powerful gift, stage spiritual sensing, comes at the last step. Some of his classmates, who were excellent medium, fully depended solely on their spiritual sensing. They didn’t need to see or hear it once they were fully gifted with spiritual sensing.

They might start with seeing and hearing, but at the last stage, sensing comes the most powerful one that can cover seeing and hearing.   

Right before we ended our 15-minute conversation, he advised me to focus on enhancing my spiritual awareness, rather than focusing only on spiritual seeing. It can be done holistically by loving other fellow humans and all other living creatures.

He also mentioned a practice with other people helps. Instead of doing meditation by myself all the time, once in a while I should join a group meditation practice. As a like-minded people’s gathering, the result will come much more than we expect.

I appreciate his kind advice and support. I look forward to participating in many classes and meeting many like-minded people at his school.

In my dream of this morning, I was at my dad’s house in Japan visiting him. In the real life, the last time I spoke with my dad on the phone was May 4^th. I feel sorry for not calling him, but at least, I visited him in my dream in spirit. I guess it counts.

***

Yesterday I had a dream of my husband. He was feeling sad and crying. I hugged him and encouraged him. I didn’t tell him about this dream yesterday. Today, my husband took the official test for the computer related certificate. He came back disappointed. He failed at the certificate test. I did exactly same thing as I did in my dream one day prior. I hugged him and encouraged him. It was a clear Deja Vu.

***

Today my husband and I took the first step toward the homeschooling for our daughter. School session is from August 3^rd to May 24. We had two online homeschooling sites available. One was referred by the school principal and the other was referred by one of my daughter’s friend who went through homeschooling in the previous year. As far as we look through their websites, both schools seem to be equally good. Both are state’s approved public school.

So we decided to call each school and feel our intuition based on the customer support representative.

First, we called the homeschooling site refereed by the school principal. A young woman answered the phone. She was not nice or helpful at all. Whatever question we asked, she reluctantly advised us to look through their homepage. Their homepage has a whole bunch of information, but she didn’t walk us through there to go.

Second, we called the homeschooling site referred by my daughter’s friend. A young man answered the phone. He was polite and helpful from the beginning to the end. He answered to each question in a very courteous manner. He walked us through their homepage. His explanation and navigation were easy to follow. We chose this school undisputed.

There were two more points that we liked the second school.

First, the second school starts 2 weeks earlier than the first school. The second school starts on August 3^rd, while the first school starts on August 17^th. My daughter has been off-school since the first week of March. We want to start the school sooner.

Second, the second school has a system to allow students to skip/escalate to upper grade when they are doing well on their assignments.

I am glad that we took the first step. Now moving to the second step, which is to fill out the information to enroll. It will be a tiresome process. I hope this school will be beneficial for my daughter.

This evening the Japanese healer offered me a follow-up aura cleaning session. The last session was held on May 8^th to improve my diabetes situation, but it has gotten worse.

She started focusing on my anger built up in my childhood. She said releasing the frustration feeling hidden deep within my subconscious will help to completely heal my health condition.

She used the self-kinesiology test to check my condition. It showed strongly when I was 4 years old and 6 years old. It was when my mom took the initiative for my life and I felt frustrated. She released the frustration feeling and rewritten it into positive feelings of “My mom accepted me as being true to myself”

While in the process, she saw one scene of my past life in Egypt. Then it changed into a vision where a big bird took out my soul and flew away. She interpreted it as a symbolic that I had a similar experience in the past life to be taken away of being true to myself. In the course of the healing process, she saw a bunch of my past lives in a female form being persecuted and treated badly. They came up to my consciousness because they needed to be admitted and healed.  

At the end of the session, she recommended me to say an affirmation “I am still great in a female form.”

It was a short session, but a compressed and good one. I appreciate her for her kind support.