This morning I drove to the local post office. I was surprised to see many vehicles driving on the road even in our local area in the early morning of regular weekday. The gas prices of this Sunday was $1.99 per gallon, but today’s price was $2.05 per gallon. I saw many customers and even workers in the gas station store without a facial mask. My observations showed that things are gradually coming back to normal.

At the post office though, their time seemed to be still stopped at the middle of Covid-19. The worker was wearing a glove and a facial mask, and being protected by double layers of screens.

There is a gap between people’s reaction to Covid-19. Some people think it is already back to normal, while others are still very cautious. I am one of the latter group. I still want to be cautious and observative for what will happen next.  

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This morning’s dream, I submitted a divorce document. I felt good about it.

Then I woke up.

I already knew this dream implied some good luck because in the real life my husband and I have been living lovingly and peacefully. The internet dream interpretation sites say it the dreamer will take a new step to change his/her life and the step will bring good luck.

My daughter’s school teacher asked all the students to come to school to pick up their belongings. She announced that today would be the last day of the school year of 2019-2020.

I concerned how many students and parents would gather up at once at school. I prepared for a facial mask for my daughter and myself. I decided if I see a whole bunch of vehicles parked in the parking lot and a whole bunch of students in the school building, I would turn back home and come back on some other day for our safety.

When I got there, I noticed I didn’t need to worry. The school teachers took a wiser option for us.

They set the different time and date for each grade students so as to avoid many people’s gathering at once. Today’s certain time and date was reserved for only my daughter’s grade. There were a grocery bags tied onto the fence outside of the school office. The two teachers were sitting apart on the bench waiting for their students to pick up their belongings.

My daughter’s teacher greeted us. She gave us a small update regarding the teachers for upcoming school year. As of today, the school assigned one teacher for my daughter’s new grade. I know the teacher. She was a female teacher. Very old one, maybe in her 70s. She is friendly and nice to parents, but I have heard lots of honest feedbacks about this teacher from other students including my daughter. Based on the honest kids’ feedback, she would not be a good teacher for my daughter.

It might be one of the signs that my daughter’s guide angels are giving me, that she should take the option of a homeschooling for upcoming school year.  

Nowadays I have been clearly remembering my dream. It is good for me and I have been enjoying it.

My brother visited me in dream this morning. He was much friendlier and happier than in the real life. We talked about our inheritance share. I offered him to take all the three real estates to himself as a thank-you for his hard work taking care of our parents’ grave, but I still want to receive my share of 50% of the remainder part. He happily accepted my offer and agreed with me. The procedure of dividing inheritance went smoothly and comfortably. With my brother’s support, it was not an issue at all.

Then my conscious came back to my physical body.

I believe my brother being cheerful and helpful that I saw in my dream is his true self. My brother in the real life who is not friendly nor happy is just not true. I hope my brother will regain his true self in the physical realm soon so that the gap between in my dream and in the physical realm will be gone.

This morning’s dream: I was at my parents’ house cerebrating something together with our relatives. Among the relatives, there were even some people already passed away such as my aunts and their husbands, and my mom. Everybody looked happy. We shared foods and great time chatting.

After I woke up, I thought it was my mom who sent me the memory. She misses those days when we gathered together while we all were still young and alive.

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In the night right before we fell asleep, my daughter helped me understand this dream. My daughter saw my mom close to the ceiling and waived at us. It has been almost three months since her departure. According to my daughter, day by day, her image figure has been fading. Tonight she came to us to say good-bye. She has to go up and get ready for her new life.

We wished her good luck and sent her lots of our love.

All of the good memories of my mom flooded back to me. I could not stop my tears falling down on my cheeks. One thing that still bothers me is about our visit my parents in March 2019. I was too scared to stay nights at my parents’ house, so I reserved a hotel that is one hour away from their house. They asked me many times why I didn’t stay nights at their house. I could not tell them the true reasons because I didn’t want to hurt their feelings. One reason is about my mom. My mom and I didn’t get along with each other, and we always ended up with arguing. I didn’t have confidence in myself to stay calm if I stay at my parents’ house for many nights. Another reason is about my dad’s smoking a cigarette inside the house. My parents seemed very sad for my staying at a hotel rather than at their house.

I still think it was my best option that I could do at that time. I just feel sad that my mom and I had spent many years, in fact the majority of years, for not getting along with. I really wish we had been getting along with so that we could spend our years much nicer. My tears are for the grievances that we could not spend many years as good friends.

All in all, at the last moment with my mom, I wanted to tell her how much I loved her. I had missed her for many years. I wish her good luck and successful life in her spiritual homeland. Thank you so much mom, for your support and love to me.

My daughter woke up crying. She was actually shedding lots of tears on her cheeks.

Her dream was about the school. In her dream it was already in August, and she went back to school. There at the classroom, her classmates were not nice to her. She didn’t enjoy her school life in the same school.

She has gone to the local public school for 5 years so far. In this area, due to the military post, many soldiers and their families often move in and out from this area. Thus, she already went through sad farewells from her best friends in the previous years. In the recent two years, she didn’t have any steady friends in her class. She had survived with hanging out with different classmates.

Interestingly, in last night’s reading session from a 13-year-old-girl, the message for my daughter was to switch her school from public school to homeschooling. The girl insisted on me to take this message very seriously.

I guess this is the right timing to switch school for my daughter.

This evening I had a 30-minute reading session about our guide spirits. The reader was a daughter of the Japanese healer that I had an aura cleaning session twice. Her daughter is 13 years old. She offers a brief reading session. She had a reading for my family individually within this brief 30 minutes.    

The reading content did not go deep at all. It was like a touching on the surface only.

However, I liked this young girl. She was brave enough to give a reading to strangers like us. She does not care how her client would feel about what she says. She just said whatever she saw in her third eye.

As for the message to me, she pointed out that I have low self-esteem. It was kind of funny that she said that to me straightforward without hesitation. She encouraged me to do the same as she does; to give it a try. She said I should give a reading session to many strangers to practice. She got to the point.

As a thank-you to her, I sent her a small gift. I sent her an angle card deck for children. I hope she will love it.

After the session of guide spirits, I have been thinking about publishing my book. It won’t hurt to publish through Amazon kindle as a starter. I have decided to make it happen within this year.

Dear my family spirits, thank you for your supports always. I need to have the necessary supporters for publishing my books, including a skillful editor. I also need to have the necessary supporters for a Navajo retreat tour, including trustworthy business partners and customers.

This morning I had two dreams.

In my first dream, I was swimming at the bottom of the ocean. The bottom of the ocean was much brighter and calmer than I thought. There were many beautiful fish around me swimming with me. I could swim much smoothly than I thought. I didn’t feel any heavy weight on my body even though it was the deepest in the ocean. I felt excited and happy. I was swimming with my family; my husband and daughter. We all were smiling.

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In my second dream, my conscious traveled to another and place. I was with my dad at his house in Japan. He asked me to come to his house at 11 a.m. I forgot setting an alarm so I could not wake up as I planned. I somewhat made it by 11 a.m. Even though I didn’t arrive beforehand, I arrived on time anyway. My dad was not mad at me. He was calmly smiling at me.

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Then I woke up. I thought these are good dreams. In my conscious level, I constantly feel guilty for not calling or visiting my dad. But this dream confirms that I will make it on time. When the right timing has come, I will make everything well for my dad and me.

Several months ago in last autumn, my friend gave me a brand new gardening bed. I kept it in our garage until spring. I had been waiting for the good timing to start our home gardening. Now it is a good time for us to start our garden.

My family and I went to the DIY store. As a starter, we bought as follows.

– Seven bag of “1-cu ft Garden Soil,

– One roll of a garden fence,

– Five plants; jalapeno, lettuce, tomato, okra, and parsley.

– Seven seeds: cucumber, eggplant, corn, tomato, bell pepper, peas, and radish  

After we came back from shopping, we assembled the garden bed and filed the garden soil. In order to prevent cats’ visits, we assembled a garden fence around the garden.

My husband and daughter have green thumbs. Whenever they were around, our garden grew nicely in previous years. We had a successful garden experiences in 2009 and 2014. We didn’t make our garden every year, because we were simply too busy to do so. This year, we will put our time to grow our vegetables.

I hope they will grow healthy and we will enjoy the harvest.

This evening I reconnected with my other old friend from the Lakota tour. I became friends with her and kept in touch with her after came back from the tour. She lived far from my house, but she even visited me in my condominium and stayed one night. We lost contact for these 12 years, but tonight we had a wonderful conversation through Zoom.

The conversation with my old friends helped me to retreat my confidence back.

It was really great talking with her and reconnecting with her. We promised to visit each other. My daughter and I might visit her in Kyushu, then she will show us around her local area. Or, she will visit us in Arizona so that we can show her around in our local area. I am already looking forward to seeing her in person again. I can clearly visualize it, so it will definitely make it happen.

In my dream of this morning, I was with my Japanese family. My mom was driving a gigantic huge bus. My brother was a passenger inside the bus. I was not a passenger. I was running in front of the bus, guiding my mom on the direction. I got rid of any obstacles on the road so that the bus would not get damaged or troubled. I was a great supporter for the bus, but unfortunately nobody noticed my hard work.

When the bus reached at the final destination, my brother got out from the bus and gave me a handful of pencils. I was not happy for the gift. I expected more from him for my hard work. I expected him to say “thank-you” to me, but he didn’t show his appreciation to me.

My dad was not in the bus. He was standing at the destination. He found me and came up to me. Then, he shot me in my right thigh with his gun. I didn’t die. I didn’t feel any pain. My dad was smiling. I asked him why he did so. He said he did to support me. I didn’t understand what he meant.

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It was unusual dream. My mom, in the real life, never drove any vehicles. She never had a driver’s license. She never even rode a bicycle. But in the dream, she was very good at driving such a huge bus. According to the dream interpretation, the ability of being able to driving a huge bus represents a great leadership. It makes sense to me. One of my mom’s strong points were being a great leadership. She was good at leading people and bundling them in one group. I was supporting my mom, by secretly supporting her mentally.   

As for being shot by a gun by Father, the dream interpretation dictionary says the dream warns the dreamer of lacking communication with their family members. This dream also indicates the dreamer has been suffering from some traumas from Father in their childhood. The traumas could be the father’s ordering this and that in their childhood.

It seems that the dream simply reflects my inner-traumas.

All in all I think I am still in the recovering and grieving process of losing my mom.