This evening my husband came back shocked. He said he received a bad news from his company. I instantly knew that we would go through an unemployment again. My intuition was right. It was a layoff notice due to the contact reduction from Covid-19. Even though he received the official notice in the morning, he didn’t tell me until he came back home in the evening.

We both were shocked. We already went through an unemployment twice. The first one stayed for 9 months, and the second one stayed for 11 months. During our marriage life for 12 years, this will be our third unemployment. It is too high frequency.

I started feeling huge stress, just the same as I felt during the previous unemployment terms. The symptoms of huge stress that I had tonight were irregular pulse, abnormal thirst, and abnormal frequency of urine during the middle of night.

***

Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of HemiSync Free flow of Focus-12. Since I was deeply shocked with my husband gotten laid-off, I could not go deeper in a meditation state.

***

I am very shocked about my husband’s laid off situation. But I also know deep in my soul that this is the spirits’ intervention.

Yesterday while waiting at the car dealer, my husband was talking about his current job. He expressed how much he appreciates his current situation. He appreciates his coworkers and customers and job contents. Right after I heard him saying, I pictured him clinging on to this current job. That means we will stay where we currently live for another several years. That will be great for our normal life. However, I thought to myself. What about our life mission? Wasn’t I guided to Navajoland to become a rainbow bridge to connect Navajo people and Japanese people? Now that I have turned to be 50 years old. It is time for me to seriously think about my life mission. I was surrounded by that kind of thoughts.

Thus, when I heard my husband’s being laid off, I really felt it should be the final call from our related spirits.   

It is really scary to lose our current safe lifestyle. However, we will need to take a leap in order to fulfill our life mission. Once one door shuts, a new door opens. That means, unless we close the current familiar door, a new door never opens up for us.

Today’s dream: I did not fully remember my dream except for only some parts. I was with some other people. I felt comfortable working with them. We were not working for a company, but working together for some same goals. Unlike the situation of working for a company, we didn’t t have any stress or pressure to be standout from other coworkers. We supported each other without any fighting. We all were connected through unconditional love.

***

Yesterday morning when we were about to leave for the farm and the orchard and started the engine, we heard a high-pitched squeaky sound from the engine room. It could be due to the worn out drive belt. I made an appointment for an inspection with my car dealer.

Our appointment was 8 a.m. It takes more than 1.5 hour to get there from our house. We left our house before 7 a.m.

At the dealer, although we went through some miscommunication issues, all in all, everything went well. Everybody stayed calm and polite. I think it was the good influence from the new moon. I was born on the new moon day and I like the energy of new moon.

***

Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of HemiSync Free flow of Focus-12.

In my meditation state, one of my personal experiences came back to me as a real vision. It was when I was 27 years old. My boyfriend at that time had a short temper. He got mad for something and put his both hands on my neck and started choking me. I was closed to be killed. On the next second, he stopped doing it. I clearly saw my family spirits jumped into the situation and helped me out from it. My family spirits are originally calm and just watching over me whatever I do. However, on that second, they really needed to intervene the situation. I had many more plans to be done in this lifetime. I could not be killed at that time.

After I saw the vision, I thanked my family spirits for their constant support and love to me. While I was doing that, all of a sudden, I noticed the same love that I constantly received from my parents. My parents were not perfect parents at all, however, they did their best to protect me. Their way of expressing love to me was not what I needed and wanted from them. They are also humans same as me. They were still in their learning process. Nobody was perfect. I need to admit that I was not perfect daughter for them. It was a very important reminder for me.

***

Nowadays I have been having good dreams and good mediation experiences. I believe everything is connected. There is no gap or difference between this physical realm and the ether realm. Whatever I experience ahead in the ether realm through my dreams and meditation experiences will come true in the physical realm.

Today’s dream: I was with my brother at my condominium in Japan. We were enjoying having each other as our company. There were no gap or miscommunication between us as in the real life. I really enjoyed talking with him as a brother and a sister. I went to the building entrance hall where the mail boxes were located. I opened my mail box and found a whole bunch of boxes and envelops. They were all the birthday gifts to me from my old friends. One of the friends was my best friend in our high school days. In the real life we don’t have our contact information. I miss her and want to reconnect with her. When I went back to my condominium room, this time my brother’s wife was there waiting for me. In the real life we are not close at all, so I was surprised to see her casually talking to me. I was happy to see her again. My sister-in-law asked me to come with her. She took me to a certain area of the condominium. It was a huge warehouse room. She said all the items in this warehouse room belong to me. I was delighted to see all the items. Among the items, there were a pile of Japanese rice bags. They used to be my favorite brands that I always purchased while I was in Japan. In the real life, I cannot purchase it anymore in my area.

Then I woke up. I felt so comfortable to have had a good time with my brother and sister-in-law.

I thought things might not as bad as I concern. Once some trigger happen to reconnect between them and me, everything might come back to normal, or even much better than now.

I appreciate my family spirits to have guided me to this dream. Now that I know I can shift my emotion toward them from negative feelings to positive feelings. All I need to have at this moment is to have a faith. Everything will go well. Really it will.

***

Early in this morning my family and I left for the farm and orchard. The places are located at a 1.5-hour drive away from our house. Due to the influence of Covid-19, there were not many visitors as the previous years. We enjoyed picking up fresh produces.

***

Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of HemiSync Free flow of Focus-12. Today’s meditation was successful one. I felt so calm and relaxed. I felt happy and excited about everything. I felt filled with love. I experienced a huge love. I was in love. I myself was a part of the huge existence. I appreciate my husband and daughter. I appreciate my mom and dad in Japan. I appreciate my brother and sister-in-law and their children. I appreciate my friends. I appreciate my family spirits to have enabled my life in this lifetime and their continuous supports and encouragements.

***

Today was my 16^th day on reading chapter 9 of “The Greatest Miracle In The World” By Og Mandino. Today, the following sentence deeply came into my conscious.

“This time the curtain is up. This time the world watches and waits to applaud. This time you will not fail.”

Today’s dream: I was in a huge house. The house had a spacious kitchen. I put a kettle on the gas stove to make hot water. I turned on the stove. On the next scene, I was swimming in the pool. The house had a private indoor pool, next to the kitchen. After I had enough swimming, I went back to the kitchen. I saw the burning fire from the gas stove. The hot water was boiling and ready to serve. Then I woke up.

I know the swimming in dream implies the dreamer had healed in spirit world. The dream interpretation dictionary says watching a gas stove implies the dreamer will have good luck in family and health, and something unexpected and great luck (a huge transition or life pattern change) will come to the dreamer. I look forward to the good luck.

***

Today was my 15^th day on reading chapter 9 of “The Greatest Miracle In The World” By Og Mandino. Today, the following sentence deeply came into my conscious.

“You are more than a human being, you are a human becoming.” Cited from The Greatest Miracle In The World By Og Mandino.

I appreciate my soul picks up deeply a certain sentence in this passage. It is great to know I am always being evolving and I am loved by my family spirits. I always feel their existence and constant love to me. I am the happiest and evolving human.

***

Tonight I attended the Sunday Service. It was my 7^th attendance. As usual, I was not picked for the spirit communication demonstration, but it is okay. Now that I know my past-away spirits are constantly with me. Since we communicate very well, they don’t have any special messages to me through a stranger medium. I also know my family spirits are humble. They don’t like to get a spotlight in a big group of strangers.

Today, there was one male attendee who was frivolous. Nobody was bothered by his actual voices as his mic was muted by the host, however, we could see he was constantly chatting and laughing with somebody in his room. He even moved around just like playing a video game or pretending a playfully fighting with somebody. It was annoying to see him especially somebody was seriously working on a sermon connecting with spirits. I am just an attendee and don’t have any authority to gently tell him to show his respect to others. I was hoping the host would do so.

At the spiritual communication demonstration, one student selected the man. However, his mic was not active. The host asked him to re-enter to the Zoom page. The man tried twice, but ended in vain. After his second trial, he decided to leave the meeting. He never came back to the meeting.

I guess spirits did this to him as a lesson. Previously, when the same issue happens to somebody, reentering to the meeting always solved the issue, but not today for the frivolous man.

It is always interesting to observe the energy of Sunday Service. The attendees are different and the number of the attendees are always different.

Today’s dream: I was with other 4 people traveling by a car. The 5 of us were close friends. I was sitting at the back seat. The location looked like somewhere in country side in Japan. The untouched nature was left. The grasses and trees were growing happily. Just being there, looking at their healthy green color, and breathing the nature’s smell, everything was healing for me. When we arrived at our final destination of today, we unloaded our baggage in a cottage in the woods. After we set our bed, we cooked our dinner together. Tonight’s dinner included flied potatoes, sweetened and roasted carrots and kouya dofu, with vegetable miso soup and brown rice. We all enjoyed sharing foods together. Then I woke up feeling refreshed and energized. 

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of HemiSync exploring Focus-15. Today’s mediation was successful. I went deep into a meditating state and received messages. The message I received today was as follows.

Use my time and energy wisely. In order to make it possible, I already have gifted with an important tool that everybody does not have it. It is my keen intuition. Pay attention to my intuition. Whenever my intuition says uncomfortable, I should leave a situation or a person. Sooner the better. As for the necessary support, please fully trust my family spirits. They are always with me and powerfully protecting and guiding me. They want me to receive it, rather than by hunting it. I remember the message I received long time ago. They told me I own female energy. I am supposed to receive, rather than going out and aggressively hunting to get it. The necessary support will be given naturally. That really makes sense to me. Thank you my family spirits for the great messages. You guys are always awesome. I love you guys deeply from my heart.

***

I was planning to attend the healing session starting from 11:30 p.m. in our area. As usual, I went to bed to take some sleep before the healing session. I set my alarm 11 p.m. that is 30 minutes prior to the session. I woke up at 10:40 p.m. to stomach pain and nausea. I turned off my alarm so that it would not bother my family sleeping with me. I sneaked out to the bathroom. I released a large volume of stool. Then I had a large volume of vomiting. It was nothing but ground beef that I ate for dinner. My body could not digest ground beef. During this process, I sweated a lot. I needed to take a quick shower. After I got ready and turned on the zoom meeting for the healing session, it was 10 minutes before the starting time.

At tonight’s gathering there were 5 healers and 8 patients. The meeting host put me to wait there for 50 minutes. During the wait, I had been suffering from the stomach pain. I didn’t miss this opportunity, so I waited for my turn patiently. One female healer was assigned to me. She looked very nice. I had a healing for 30 minutes or so. After the healing session, my stomach pain had gotten much better than before. I appreciate for their kind support. I am happy that I could make it to attend their healing session.

Today’s dream: I saw a clear light-blue sky. I was with other friends. We were having fun spending time together. We were in the park. I went to the swing. The swing was pink. It was wider than a normal size so that two people could ride together. My friend and I rode on the swing and started swinging up in the sky. Then my conscious went up in the sky watching us from the sky, just like a view from a bird or a Drone. The contrast of the pink and the blue was just gorgeous. Then I woke up.

***

Yesterday, late at night, I talked with my lifelong Japanese friend over the phone. It was peaceful and calming. She helped me to get back to me to the inner peace.

***

My daughter’s homeschooling office sent me two packages so far. One was a laptop and the other was a pack of textbooks, art supplies, and a headset. Everything was not brand new; used ones, but not too old nor messy conditions. The instruction note says we have to keep everything including the packing materials and boxes. We will need to return everything at the end of school year. It is definitely fine with us. We want to keep our house as simple as it can be. We don’t want to keep the old and unnecessary books and school supplies. My daughter has two more weeks for her long summer break. From August 3^rd, her brand new school year at homeschooling will start.

We have started getting ready for her school on our side. I purchased a brand new computer chair. It will be delivered on next Monday. We cleaned and organized her study area. We organized her new laptop on the desk and arranged a book shelf on the side of the desk.

Today’s dream: I was in a building with other people. It might be a bank. All of a sudden, one guy came in with a gun and yelled everybody to lie on the floor. There were old people who could not lie down on the floor due to their pain in the body. There were babies and little children who scared so much and tried to escape from the situation. The bad guy scared them by shooting the gun. I was one of them scaring and shaking on the floor. But on the next second, I thought I need to fight back. I stood up and run around to disturb the bad man’s attention. After a battle with the bad man, his gun fell off from his hand. His gun slipped on the floor and stopped right in front of me. I snatched the gun and showed it to everybody. I pointed the gun to the bad man and told him to release others. Then I told everybody that they could leave this place. Everybody thanked me for my heroic action.

Then I woke up.

This dream showed my current situation. I need to stand up for myself and change the situation.

***

The local public school has officially announced their policy for upcoming school year. The three options are confirmed. The students can choose one option out of the three options on either studying on-site, remote, or hybrid (mix of on-site and remote). All the students will be provided a laptop/tablet. Upon entering to campus, everybody including teachers and students will check their temperature. I am happy to know they are working for the safety of the students and the community.

***

In the evening I chatted with my Japanese friend. Her statements annoyed me a lot. I should have ended the conversation as soon as I noticed it and ended the conversation. But I could not. Rather, I tried to defense my opinion and we ended up kind of arguing over our different opinion. She repeated emphasizing on how great Japanese people are and how high the Japanese people’s average score of spiritual awareness. And she mentioned bad things about Americans. She said it indirectly, but it was obvious she was insulting Americans. I cannot completely agree with her. I agree that there are many nice people among Japanese, but not all of them. Same things can be said for Americans. I think it is dangerous to beautify only a certain nationality. From my personal experiences of living in America for 12 years and working with many different nationalities coworkers, I cannot categorize which nationality is better than the others. I wanted her to stop categorizing people in a certain box of nationality, race, or skin color. After ended the conversation with her, I regretted for spending time with her. After I ended the conversation with my Japanese friend, some uncomfortable energy stayed in me.

The good thing is I have a great tool to put myself back to my inner peace. The great tool is a meditation.

***

Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of HemiSync Focus-12. The message I received was like this.

Everything what I felt today was right. It is fine to have honest feeling.

Then, they showed me one sentence. 

“Proclaim your rarity.” Cited from The Greatest Miracle In The World By Og Mandino

This sentence is now familiar with me because I have started reading this every day since July 4^th. Today was my 12^th day. It is interesting to witness some events happen to make me realize some lessons in this note.

After the mediation, I could go back to my inner peace. Now that I am in a calm state, my wish has gotten back to clear. I want the true peace where people respect others as a precious soul, rather than by categorizing them into nationality, skin color, or race. I want my friends to have similar ideas and opinions as I do. I don’t want to be around with anybody who has their ideas and opinions biased. I don’t want to be around with anybody who thinks they are superior to others. To me, such idea is dangerous. Their biased belief is like that of Hitler. We cannot repeat the sad historical mistakes again. We are here to change the world to a better place.  

Today’s dream: At the first scene, I was in the Shinkansen going somewhere for business trip. I was so excited about the job there. At the second scene, somebody gave me a brand new umbrella wrapped up in a beautiful wrapping paper. At the third scene, I saw two Ganesha.

Then I woke up. According to the dream interpretation dictionary, receiving an umbrella from somebody implies the dreamer will be guided to the right people who can support the dreamer. This is good. I do need somebody’s help to deal with the inheritance process.  

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Today’s mediation: I did the guided meditation of Hemi Sync exploring Focus-15. My mind was gone here and there. I tried twice, but in vain. I could not see nor feel anything. It happens. I don’t worry about it. I will receive some messages through my dreams as usual.

***

I have playing a video game since 2015. My daughter downloaded one of the pet raising games in 2015. Since the game was made by Japanese company and all the instructions were written in Japanese, she would ask me for help. I was not interested in the game at the beginning, but while I was helping my daughter by reading the instructions, I was hooked into the game. Since then, I have been logging in the game every day. Recently several days ago, the game company announced they will support only for iOS 11 and above, so that the players who have the older versions won’t be able to log in anymore. I am playing with my old iPad of iOS 9, so I won’t be able to long in to the game anymore. With the announcement, I felt relieved. It was really time for me to stop playing this game. Even though I knew it was a waste of time, I would log in and play. I needed to be forced to stop like this situation. I appreciate their decision. Thank you.

Today’s dream: I had four different scenes.

First scene: My mom showed up as herself while she was still healthy. Her appearance was in her early 60s. She looked very happy. She showed me her beautiful smile with her own teeth. In her real life, after she had a couple of sets of a chemotherapy and a radiation therapy, she lost her teeth and ended up having a denture. She didn’t like wearing a denture. But in my dream, she proudly showed me her own healthy teeth. I was happy to see her being happy at this moment. 

Second scene: I saw a white bus comfortably flying in the sky.

Third scene: I saw a red airplane comfortably flying in the sky.

Forth scene: I had a whole bunch of items that I needed to pack into a baggage. There were several people around me. They bounced their ideas off and came to a final conclusion. They chose one baggage and started packing my items in the baggage. With collaborating very well, they were able to pack everything in the baggage. It was amazing. I praised them for their ideas and working together. Now I was ready to leave for my destination.

Then I woke up.

Obviously this morning’s dream was very good. According to the dream interpretation dictionary, watching a white bus implies the dreamer will be successful and blessed by cooperating with others.    

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Today’s meditation: I did a guided mediation of HemiSync exploring Focus-15.

I saw a young woman. She had a long beautiful hair came down to her waist. She was born as a Native America tribe. She was wearing a buckskin dress. When a foreigners came to their village, she became friends with one man. He was born in France. They fell in love and married. They had three children. Her life was not easy at all. Other tribal members treated her in a mean way as a betrayer. She went through lots of hardships and challenging situations, but she was satisfied with her tough life.

I am a very unique soul. I tend to choose my life in tough situations and conditions as I believe I can learn different lessons from the tough environment. The majority of other people won’t be able to fully understand me as I am very unique to the point where is peculiar.

This lifetime is one of such a unique one. My domestic circumstance was very tough. My Japanese family might appear as normal and some people might think the environment was not tough at all. I am the only one who experienced all of the toughness. It is for sure that not many people can sympathize with my experiences. However, there are still some people who will get healed by reading my personal story. So, from that reason, my family spirits strongly suggest me to write a book and publish it.   

In the early morning I did some yard work. After one to two hours work, our front and back yard looked much better.

***

Today was one of the hottest days. The temperature went up to 39 degree Celsius (102.2 F). The weather report says an extreme heat wave are coming to our area on this coming week. Our county issued an extreme heat warning and

***

In the evening my friend shared some rolled sushi. It was luxurious foods for us. We enjoyed it a lot. However, I felt being full until the midnight. Luxurious foods are good for occasional intake.