In my dream, I was with my dad and brother. We dealt with distributing the inheritance from my late mom. They were planning to divide it into two by themselves. I never said I don’t need it, but they misunderstood that I said so. Somebody urged me to tell them I wanted to receive my share. So, I followed the advice. I took courage and spoke up to them I wanted my share. Then, they decided to distribute it to me too. I finally could receive my share.

When I woke up, I considered this as a message from my mom. She was the one who urged me to speak up to them. In my case, I cannot contact with my brother. The only one whom I can contact right now is my dad.

For these past days, around 6 p.m., which is 10 a.m. in Japan, I sat down in front of the work desk wondering if I should call my dad or not. I knew I should call him more often, but I was reluctant to talk to him. On our last conversation,

Today I felt strong obligation to call him. So I called him.

***

Right after he recognized my voice, his voice tone got raised. It was obvious that he was happy to hear from me. I regretted that I didn’t call him for the past 10 days. I have a good reason why I didn’t call him sooner. On our last conversation of March 8^th, my dad asked me to discard my inheritance right from my mom because he wanted to take all to himself. I got shocked at what he said. I always trusted him as a fair person. I could not believe what I heard from him.

We started our conversation about Coronavirus Disease 2019 (COVID-19). I mentioned about our life here in America. Schools are shut down for two weeks. Stores got almost empty; they don’t carry items including produces, frozen foods, bottled water, dry foods, and paper products. My dad didn’t believe what I said. I know what he means. Even I don’t want to believe what is happening right now.

My dad said he experienced the similar situations many times in his life. He said everything always comes back to normal. We just need to be patient and have a solid trust that everything will be back to normal. Talking with him calmed me down.

Then, he switched the topic to the inheritance from my mom. I asked him how much my mom had. He didn’t answer my question, but he said my mom had more than he does. He said more than 70% cash is under my mom’s name. Several years ago he believed he would die before my mom. At that time while my mom was totally fine and healthy, my dad lost eye vision from diabetes. Also, everywhere in the world women tend to live longer than men. Thus, he transferred most of his cash to my mom’s bank account, so that my mom will have enough money to live her remainder life. The situation drastically changed in June 2016. My mom got a sudden sick and transferred to ER by an ambulance. There, she stayed in the hospital for one week. Since then, her good health collapsed.

— Honesty, when I heard this part, I could not fully believe what he said. Why he cannot tell me more specific amount? Why he stays being secretive, even though this inheritance is a matter of our family, not only his issue but to my brother and I are lawfully involved.

I took my courage to speak up. I told him that I cannot discard my inheritance right until I know the total amount of how much my mom had, and that I am lawfully qualified my share as 25%. Based on the total amount, we can negotiate the percentage together. My dad said he never asked me to discard the inheritance right. But he did asked me to do so on our last phone conversation. I said he did. He insisted he didn’t. We continued this statements back and forth.

— Again, I almost lost trust to him. I am pretty I was right about this. Is he losing his mind?

My dad continued lots of new information that I didn’t want to hear. He has three real estates; his current house, and his second house, and a big piece of land. He is planning to leave all the real estates to my brother. For that part, I agreed, as my brother helped my dad for my mom’s funeral. But as for what my dad continued, I don’t agree. He continued, as for cash, he is going to give my brother the majority of them. I said I don’t agree. While I was visiting them in japan in this January, my dad asked me to divide the cash equally with my brother. When I mentioned it to my dad, he said an excuse that my brother has five people in his family while I have three. I told him I don’t agree. When my brother takes all the real estates and the majority of cash, my share will be very small from the total amount. Maybe my share will be 20% or less, compared to my lawful share of 50%.

My dad started being mean. He said he is also planning to donate a big portion of cash to some non-profit organizations. He never mentioned such things until today. I hope he just mentioned just to be mean to me.

By the time I hung up the phone, I was drained. I felt my dad stole my energy from me. I started losing confidence in myself.

In my mind vision, the image of my mom popped up. She had been dealing with this stubborn man for more than 50 years. No wonder why she drained all her energy by living with this man. She had been a buffer between my dad and us; children. She told me lots of things about my dad. Those days they didn’t affect me directly, so I didn’t take it seriously. Now, without my mom, I have to deal with this difficult man all by myself.

Still, a good thing is though, I don’t live with my dad. Now I have my own family that I can fully trust.

***

I noticed one thing. In my natal horoscope chart, my progress Sun is under Taurus 8 degree until March 2020. The sabian symbol is “A sleigh without snow.” It was my “a-ha” moment. It is right. In this pandemic situation, the symbol teaches me the wisdom to prepare enough for rainy days. After April 2020, my progress Sun will be under Taurus 9 degree. The sabian symbol is “A Christmas tree decorated.” It teaches the importance of not to share in order to protect myself and my family with fully equipped preparation. This symbol teaches the importance to keep being protected by myself. Synchronicities are happening to teach me this lesson. I have witnessed others who are well prepared and protected, and they are not offering help to others. It is not talking about being selfish, but talking about the importance of protecting myself first. Same logic about an oxygen mask in an airplane. I need to put on an oxygen mask first before I start helping others.

At this moment, in this, everybody is dealing with the same environment; a pandemic. Each individual needs to think and act based on their decision. Some people sensed the paper products and food shortage, so they had stocked them up in advance. Others got panicked after they saw the empty shelves in stores, and they keep complaining and worrying about the shortage. I am in the middle. I didn’t stock them up enough in advance so we will have to survive with what we currently have, which is almost running out. I thought about what I can do to protect my family. I cut my old clothes into small pieces and used the fabric for my toilet paper and facial tissue. I have been living like that for two weeks so far. My action is helping my daughter in my house so that she can still use paper products until they completely run out. Also, my humble way of living is helping others who cannot think of other ways except for using paper products.

It rained all day long. The weather report says we will have a winter storm coming up this week. It was windy and cold.

My family and I could not go for a wall. Since this self-quarantine, people are lacking of proper exercises.

My daughter’s school sent out the updated notice. They will provide a packet of breakfast and lunch for the upcoming week. They decided to deliver it by school buses at the bus stop. It will be helpful for all of us.

I received a notice email from my favorite canyon. I have the annual pass for the canyon hike. They will close the place until the end of this month.

I wonder how my dad is doing. I should call him tomorrow.

Every day almost all news were talking about Coronavirus disease (COVID-19).

One news reports most airline companies will bankrupt by the end of May. The workers of restaurants, movie theaters, and hotels are told to stay home. They worry about not being able to pay for the monthly bills.

One Japanese fortune teller predicted this pandemic several months before it actually happened. He says the year of Rat is always a radical year to drastically impact all over the world. He is right. At the previous Rat year was 2008 when the world experienced a severe worldwide economic crisis. At that time President Bush signed the Economic Stimulus Act of 2008. Qualified tax payers received the Economic Stimulus Checks up to $600 individual and $1,200 for joint married.

This year too President Trump is working on the same, but this time, more amount than 2008.

I also read the news of the bug earthquake in Salt Lake City. I pray for everybody to get things back to normal. I miss our peaceful days.

From today to March 29^th, all the schools will be closed for two weeks as spring vacation.

In the morning our entrance doorbell rang. It was an unexpected visitor. Also we have read some crazy customers in store fought for a toilet tissue. With these, my daughter got scared about the unexpected visitor and run back to the backroom. After I confirmed my daughter was hiding in the safe area, I answered the door. I got relieved. It was an electricity company technician to replace the water meter to a brand new one. I almost forgot they sent us a notice letter in advance. The procedure of switching the water meter was done quickly.

***

We are lacking of toilet paper and facial tissue. I started using the old shirts as alternatives. Once I get used to it, it is fine with me.

Our community is supportive for the school students during these self-quarantine. My daughter’s school offers free-internet during these two weeks so that students can study online. Also the school mentions to provide food support for next week. I started teaching my daughter Japanese language with using Japanese text books. Also I started supporting her for her preparation of the end of school year test.

I think the students in this era are fully benefited from high technology. Through Internet connection, they can study anywhere.

I wonder how my mom is thinking to witness these hectic situation on the Earth from the place where is always peaceful. I wish I could talk to her and get her advice. But then again, I don’t want to make her concern about us. I want her to feel relaxed and sit back and enjoy watching us.

We received a mass phone call from school. They decided to extend their one week spring break to two weeks due to coronavirus.

I got chills in my back.

My family and I felt needs to go to grocery store. At the store, I got chills again in all over my body. Produce department, meat department, imperishable dry foods, and frozen foods are almost out of stock. I never saw such unusual scenery in a grocery store.

In my dream my brother visited me. He apologized for not contacting me. He was not mean to be mean to me. He is still overwhelmed by what happened to him. He is still in the process of what he has seen and experienced through our mom’s departure. Right after my mom passed away, the first person my dad called was my brother. He saw my mom’s freshly dead body. It was his very first time to see it. He saw the body emitting liquid. He stayed with our mom’s body all night at the funeral hall. He witnessed the funeral and the cremated ashes. He believes our mom passed away earlier than she was supposed to. She passed away early from extreme stress about our dad. He still fights with his inner anger toward our dad.

Everything was too much for my brother. He still needs more time to calm himself.

***

When I woke up, I still vividly remembered the details about my brother’s visit. I fully understand how he feels. I appreciate my mom supported me for not witnessing all the things that my brother needed to witness.

My brother’s visit in my dream was the answer to my question.

I appreciate my family spirits to allow me for this happened. I trust my spiritual gift that I can see things through my dream.

It was a nice sunny day.

I noticed one thing. When I am in a deep relaxation, I feel my mom’s existence beside me. Such deep relaxation moments include the moment of right before I fall asleep, the moment I am soaking myself in a nice hot temperature tub with my daughter, and the moment I am hanging laundry in the nice sunny day in the backyard. I feel my mom is enjoying the relaxation moment with me. I am happy that I can share my relaxation moments with my mom. She deserves to feel happiness and calmness.

***

At the end of February, when I talked with my cousin, he mentioned about their serious issue of lacking toilet papers. At that time I didn’t think it seriously. I thought the same issue would happen in America. Now, two weeks later, I finally realized the serious issue happening all over the world. In our neighbor stores such as Sam’s club, Walmart, Safeway, Target, and Fry’s Food, their racks of toilet tissues are all empty.

As many people commented, I never thought I would experience this serious situation. We are facing at the same serious situation of toilet tissue shortage during the global oil crisis of 1973.

In Japan people started posting there are plenty of toilet tissues available. In Aeon group, as of March 5^th, they started selling it up to 10 per customer.

In my dream, I knew two people. I thought these two people would become good friends, so I set up an opportunity for them to meet each other. Later on I found out these two did not get along. They both got mad at me for setting up their meeting. I regret I took any actions for them. I did it thinking it would make things better, but it actually backfired.

Before I did anything, I still laid in bed and pondered the meaning of the dream.

It might be a message for me about the inheritance. My family spirits want me to just lay back, relax, and watch what it will happen next. Instead of calling my dad often and asking him about the inheritance, I should give him a sacred distance for him so that he will get calm and think the best way not only for him but also for my brother and me.

Now I total get it the reason why my family spirits showed me this dream.

I trust my family spirits and angels to work well for me. I should not force anything to happen. Things will proceed as they should. All I can do is sit back and trust.

***

This morning I had a regular dental cleaning. The dentist and hygienist praised me for my good work in my teeth.

***

I went to a hair salon and had a haircut. The last time of my hair cut by a professional was December 2018. Since then, I started let my hair bangs grow. I had enjoyed my hair without bangs for more than one year. Now I wanted to change my appearance. I asked the hair to make my hair bangs around my eye brows.

I like my new hair style with bangs.

My daughter and her friend were planning to have a playdate at our house this evening.

I was busy cleaning and organizing our house in the morning. It is good to have some visitors from time to time, as it motivates us to keep our house clean and being organized. It was fun for me to prepare some snack for them.

While I was cooking dinner, I happily heard the girls’ laughing. The kids’ laughter is always wonderful to hear.

It was a quiet and peaceful day.

I read a book マンガでわかる「いつも誰かに振り回される」が一瞬で変わる方法 written by 森下 えみこ (著), 大嶋 信頼  (著).

It was a pretty good book. The author is a counselor who studied phycology at the university in America.

I learned a lot from this book.

The author explains our negative emotions by using the term “mirror neuron.” Our brains sense others’ feeling and emotions so that we get affected by others.

He introduces some mantras when we encounter situations where we take negative energy that belong to others. The mantras are helpful to protect ourselves by recognizing the negative energy does not belong to us. He writes and explains from his knowledge of psychology, but everything applies to the knowledge of spirituality. “Mirror neuron” corresponds to “empath.” His “mantra” technique corresponds to “raising our vibration” technique and “having a sacred boundary” technique.

I wrote down all the mantras in my notebook. I am going to use the mantras in my daily life.