I woke up in the Navajoland. It was very hot during last night. I didn’t wake up in the middle of the night and I had a sound sleep, but still, I woke up with a dull headache. It was not too bad though. I still could get up and walk around.

In the morning my husband and I went to the closest town to buy an engine oil. Last night right before we arrived at Navajoland, our car’s engine oil light turned ON to inform us the engine oil’s level was low. My daughter stayed at home with her grandma.

When we came back home from the store, my mother-in-law informed us that my daughter was feeling sick. She was crying due to the pain in her head.

I noticed I was not the only one who woke up sick. Maybe it was due to the extreme heat. Another reason was not being able to take a shower. Last night when we arrived, my in-laws informed us the water heater was out of order. It was already late at night and we were so tired, we just slept without taking a shower.

Luckily we have my husband. He is gifted in fixing things. As usual, he could successfully fix the water heater.

After my daughter took a nice hot shower and got refreshed, I gave her Reiki energy. I also gave her some homeopathic remedies and Kusuri-e energy. Within 20 minutes, she got completely well. We were all relieved and thankful that she was now feeling better.  

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My in-laws and my family went to the flea market. After we enjoyed the traditional food of mutton stew and fry bread, we walked around the stores. It was fun, but the temperature was extreme high. We all were feeling very tired.

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By the time when we came back home, I felt really sick. After I threw up, I had to sleep for several hours. By the time when I finally could get out from bed, it was already 10 pm in the night.

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I hate being sick, especially during the fun trip.

This year I often get sick and throw up.

I remember of my 12-years cycle. According to rokusei-senjutsu (六星占術), I am in the year of Kenjaku (健弱). It is the year of the detoxing and cleansing from the previous three years. I guess it is okay for me to get sick and throw up once in a while. I am in the process of releasing toxin and unnecessary old energy.

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We are visiting Navajoland for the Labor Day weekend to spend time with my parents-in-law. As usual, it was a long drive. It usually takes us around 9 hours to get there.

My parents-in-law gave us the official map and approval documents for our homesite. They said the procedure was almost done. There will be one more final document to be arrived.  

Our first step was taken on 4/15/2017. We started choosing the land we liked. We measured one acre and marked the line. It was a slow process. It took them more than 2 years and four months to reach at the final procedure.

Once it is all done, we will need to think about building something on the land. They said, if we don’t build anything within three years, they will take the land away from us.

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I had a dental filling appointment. The dentist fixed two tooth. One was my upper left, next to canine, and the other was my lower left, next to canine.

The bottom one had a small cavity because the old filling was broken. The upper one did not have a cavity, but because the old filling was broken, it had a small crack.

Both re-filling procedures were not major ones. All the process was done within one hour, including the numbing the nerves part.

Now I am happy that the both re-filling procedure was nicely done.

I am definitely happy that I had a second opinion for that. My first dentist insisted he needed to put a crown for the upper teeth, but my intuition didn’t agree with him.

It is always good to follow my intuition. It is my life and my body. I need to be responsible making for all the decisions satisfactory with my intuition.

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I went to the local laboratory. At this laboratory, people can order a lab test on their own, even without a doctor’s order. Each test fee is clearly described in their official website, and their fees are affordable.

Beforehand I made an appointment and ordered the tests online. I ordered two tests. One is called “Expanded Health Profile”. It contains checking on Heart (lipid panel) and Liver and Kidney. The other one is hemoglobin A1C.

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The great thing about this lab is its quick process. By the night I received the result.

My numbers in the category of Liver/Kidney (CMP – Comprehensive Metabolic Panel) were all within the good range.

My A1C (The hemoglobin A1c) was 6.9%. My last one of this April was 7.3%, so it was improved by 0.4%. It is not a wonderful number but I am happy for its improvement. It is within the green light, which is 6.0% to 6.9%.

As for my numbers in the category of Heart (Lipid Panel – Cholesterol, Triglycerides, HDL, LDL, VLDL), I also had a bit improved. The numbers of Cholesterol, HDL, and LDL were within the normal range. However, I still need to work on lowering Triglycerides and VLDL. They were still very high. The triglycerides was 313, which was supposed to lower than 149.

In order to work on the triglycerides, I will intake one large spoon of apple cider vinegar before the breakfast every day. I will start this habit from tomorrow morning.

I am planning to take a next lab test at the beginning of January next year. I hope my daily effort of taking apple cider vinegar every day will show some improvement in the number.

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I had my 10th acupuncture treatment with my first acupuncturist. I had an acupuncture treatment 7 times with my second acupuncturist.

Before I left my house, I made a firm mind on not to talk anything about my personal life negatively. It will affect my health. I don’t want to talk anything about my health and my family, and I don’t want to hear my acupuncturist’s speaking ill of my family or commenting her negative opinions. I know from my previous experiences, that none of them was helpful.

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At the treatment room, I was successful on not talking about anything negatively. As usual, my acupuncturist asked me a series of routine questions including about my parents and family. I stayed calm and didn’t say anything. I just calmly replied back to her that everything is good and stays the same.

Before the treatment, my acupuncturist performed her usual diagnosis of my pulse and tongue. She said everything got stronger than my previous visit, which was three weeks ago.

Now I finally learned. I should stay calm to any kinds of questions. I don’t necessarily need to answer to all of her questions. I am in charge of talking care of my body. I should eliminate whatever my body reacts negatively.

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I watched a Japanese animation movie Tokyo Godfathers (2003).

At the beginning when I started watching it, I was overwhelmed by the drawings. They were a bit grotesque to me. I continued watching it anyway, because I liked the voice actors and actresses. They were acting well.

The storyline was amazing. Watching this movie is like a riding a roller coaster. The three main characters escort the audience to a whole bunch of different emotions; laughter, joy, depression, sadness, and anger.  

I am not going to write down the detailed story here, because I don’t want to spoil people’s fun part in finding out the ending. What I can emphasize here is that it was a great movie. I loved it. I really would like to recommend many people to watch this movie.

It contains lots of spiritual aspects.

The baby is described as the one who attracts all the holy coincidences and good lucks.

I interpret the baby as a symbol of spirituality or God within us.

Once we fully believe in us; the God within us, we start feeling the life is nothing but fun. We should cherish everybody and every event we run into in our lives. Because indeed, everything and everybody is in fact connected each other.

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I woke up at 5 am. I noticed myself crying out loud. My both eyes and cheeks were wet with lots of tears.

I was with my mom in my dream. I completely understood how my mom is feeling.

What I felt was real.

When I saw my mom last time in this March, I was shocked to see how skinny she got. She was aware of my being shocked. She told me she has lost some more pounds after the surgery. She now looks very sick with the bonny-skinny body.

She doesn’t want me to see her like that. She wants me to remember her as the way she was happy and healthy in her younger age.

She brought back my memories about my grandfather and my aunt. Both were my maternal side of family who already passed away. When they got really sick and stayed in the hospital at the last moment of their lives, my mom never allowed me to see them in the hospital. She always told me she wanted me to remember them as in a healthy looking, not in a very sick condition. It was my mom’s way of expressing her love to everybody, including her father and older sister and me.

Thanks to my mom’s effort, I still remember my grandfather and aunt in their good shape. Because I didn’t see them in a very sick situation, they always look young and happy in my memory. I appreciate my mom for that.

Now I totally understand what my mom wants me to do. She wants me to stay strong for not visiting her at this moment. She wants me to stand firmly about my decision.

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There is no rights or wrongs in this type of decision.

Some people will blame me for not visiting my parents while they are very sick. They will go see their parents even their parents ask them not to come. That is their right decision.

As for me, I decided to respect my mom’s will. As long as she doesn’t want me to visit her in her sick condition, even I cannot see her at the death bed, it is our right decision.

People will say whatever they want about my decision. I made my mind firmly, that I am determined to my decision and my rightfulness.

Now I am back to strong. I have repaired my tear in my energy field.

Nothing can bother me. Nobody can hurt me anymore.

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My day went by so fast.

First, I discussed with my family about the date of my upcoming trip to Japan. My husband and daughter were supportive all the time.

We decided my trip date during my daughter’s school session. In that way, she will be fed for breakfast and lunch at the school cafeteria. My husband will talk with his supervisor about his work shift. If he can go to work little bit later and come back earlier than normal work shift, my daughter won’t need to spend all by herself at home. I decided to cook their foods for one week during the trip in advance and keep them as frozen, so that they still will be able to eat homemade foods every day while I am gone.

Second, I talked with the travel agency and reserved an airplane ticket.

Third, I made an online reservation for the hotel that is closest to my parents’ house.

By the time when these tasks were done, I already felt exhausted.

In the evening I talked with my parents on the phone.

There, I heard lots of information that I didn’t know.

My mom never told me how bad her health condition was. All I knew was she had a laparoscopic surgery for the colon cancer. I knew the surgery is an old-people friendly surgery. The smaller incisions enable the patients to have smaller scars and heal faster than that with open surgery. I thought the surgery went well for her. I was still wondering why she has to go through a series of chemotherapy treatments.

What my dad told me cleared up my questions. The doctor could not get rid of the cancer cell from the laparoscopic surgery because the cancer cells were scattered everywhere in her body. The doctor told my parents that if my mom does not take chemotherapy, her remainder life would be less than six months.  

I was shocked to hear that. That was why my mom didn’t tell me any detailed information about the surgery.

My mom was reluctant with the chemotherapy. My brother and I wanted to respect my mom’s will about the chemotherapy. We both concern about the side effects from the chemotherapy. However, my dad strongly suggested my mom to take it. My mom always listens to my dad, so she had no option to reject the chemotherapy.

My mom already had the chemotherapy treatments twice. The first one was on July 23rd and the second one was on August 7th. Since the chemotherapy treatments, she started expressing her deep depression.

I mentioned about my personal opinion. My mom should follow her heart about the chemotherapy. She feels that the chemotherapy is affecting her in both physically and mentally. She wants to stop it. The only one reason why she cannot stop is my dad. He constantly suggests my mom to have it. He always threatens my mom by saying “or else“ that she will die soon, by the end of this year.

About my coming to visit them, my mom kept on asking me to postpone the trip until next year. From her voice tone, I could tell she meant it. My dad also asked me to respect my mom’s will about my visiting them. I decided to respect her will.

After I hang up the phone with my parents, I canceled my airplane ticket and the hotel reservation.

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During the evening walk, I mentioned everything to my husband. He strongly suggested me to visit them. He would go visit them if he was in my situation. With hearing his advice, my heart was completely lost.

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After came back from the walk, I called my mom again and told her I changed my mind. I told her I wanted to see them. My mom’s mind was set. She begged me not to come at this moment. She begged me to wait until next year, and come see them with my daughter. With hearing her determined voice, I again told her I would wait for next year. Then I hang up the phone.

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Before going to sleep, I asked my family spirits to show me the right way for me to do about visiting my parents.

Should I visit them as soon as possible, without listening to mom’s will? Or, should I listen to my mom’s will and visit them with my daughter in next year?    

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In my dream of this morning I was with my ancestors. They told me to purify all the foods and drinks. They showed me I can do so with using some Kusuri-e or even with my palm to send Reiki energy through. I thanked them and came back to my physical body.

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I created my altar, followed the advice from my friend.

I prepared a desk specifically for the altar. I put my quilt blanket on the desk as a base of the altar. I sewed this quilt in 2014. It contains four different fabrics. The colors are all blue, but each fabric has its own unique shade of blue and design. It forms a bunch of stars. The color reminds me of the Universe.

On top of the quilt, I put two different size of Tibetan bells. The bigger one gives off a deeper sound and the smaller one gives off a high-toned sound. When I ring them at the same time, they make the beautiful harmonious sound. I am sure my ancestors love this bell sound.

I also put a small ceramic container, which is specially made for essential oils. My ancestors will love the nice and gentle fragrance. It works as offering an incense stick.

I also put a notebook, a piece of crystal stone, and a pendulum. They will be helpful for me to communicate with them.   

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Today is the birthday of my small business; Three Wisdom. Happy birthday to my small business.

I started writing this small article on August 22nd 2016. I made through writing it every day for three years.

I enjoy writing every day.

Through writing, I can connect with my family spirits.

That is why writing is my way of healing.

I hope there will be somebody in the world who enjoy reading my articles.

I hope my articles will be some help for them.

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