Today’s dream: I was working as a business woman. I was working as a team member with a group of my coworkers. I was the leader of the group. I could feel other member’s trust and respect to me. One of the team member was my best friend in my university days. I enjoyed working with them and being a part of this great team. After work, everybody came to my house to have dinner together. After I enjoyed the nice hot bath, I drained the hot water from the tub.

Then I woke up feeling energized.

According to the dream interpretation dictionary, draining the tub implies the dreamer will switch their interest from inner matters to outer matters. It also implies the dreamer will cut something off from the past and move on.

I am glad that I saw my best friend my dream, Rie-chan. I lost her contact for the past 20 years. I really hope I will be reconnected with her sometime soon. 

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Today was a National Holiday observed as Independence Day. Our local community didn’t have the annual cerebration event at the local park, but they still offered a firework display at night.

The firework started at dark. It started around 8:15 p.m. It was great that we could enjoy watching the firework from our house. We put chairs on the street in front of our house, just like our other neighbors. The firework display usually takes for 45 minutes in the previous years, but not for this year. Their firework display was much shorter than usual and ended around 8:30 p.m. Our neighbors played their fireworks on the public streets here and there. My family and I enjoyed watching them for a while.

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I was 30 minutes late for the online Sunday Service. This was my fifth attendance. I enjoyed being there with other people as usual. Today there were 35 people attended. The school chairman mentioned in his sermon about Covid-19. He asked everybody to think about the true meaning and lesson from Covid-19. I will ask this question in my next meditation.

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I applied for the spiritual awareness basic class at the Japanese mediumship school. The class will start from September. When I paid for the class fee, the school sent me some documents including class texts and instructions. The instruction says the students are recommended to read the book “The Greatest Miracle in the World” written by Og Mandino and perform the chapter nine for 100 days. Today I started doing so. My 100^th day will be October 11^th.

While I was reading the chapter, one sentence popped up in my mind. I think this is the answer about my dad. It helps me to understand him on why he is so stingy on money and stubborn about his belief.

“as those who have earned a fortune are more careful of it than those by whom it was inherited.” Cited from Chapter 9, “The Greatest Miracle in the World” written by Og Mandino.

When I see things from my dad’s perspective, I think I can understand him better than before. He was from a poor family. When he left his hometown and came to Kobe and married, he didn’t have much. He went through lots of toughness in his life and finally at his old age, he has accumulated his fortune. It is still wrong that he insists his success is all due to only him, but the truth is my mom had supported him a lot, so his success has been built by both of my dad and mom. I still think it is wrong that my dad takes all the inheritance from my mom to only himself but at least from today, I will try to understand him and be nice to him.

Today’s dream: I was with a young boy in the train. We were on our way to Sannomiya station. When our train arrived at our destination, we got out from the train. We carried a huge sized Michel Delacroix’s lithograph and four Melonpan (cantaloupe-shaped bread). I was little embarrassed to walk with the young boy, as he was my child’s age. He told me I didn’t need to feel embarrassed because I was much younger than him. I asked the boy how old he was. He said he was 616 years old. I told him I am only 50 years old. He said he knew. We both looked at each other’s face and burst into laughter.

Then I woke up.

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Today all day long, I heard the firework sound here and there. People were enjoying the fireworks at home. Our local community will perform a firework display to celebrate July 4^th.

Today’s dream: I was with a big orange tree. I enjoyed watching the vivid orange fruits and clear green healthy leaves. I think I am practicing to become a clairvoyant in my dream. 

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Last night’s rain had continued to this morning. I woke up with the gentle female rain sound. It was a real treat. I decided to enjoy spending this quiet moment

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Today turned out to be a hectic day, even though it started in a calm morning. In the morning the temperature dropped down to 19 degrees Celsius with the rain. I needed to wear a light jacket to go for a walk. Around noon, the rain stopped. The sky was cleared from clouds. It turned to be clear sky with sunny weather. The temperature went up to 33 degrees Celsius. I started having headache. I started having dinner around 4 p.m. as usual. I didn’t have appetite so I prepared miso soup only. Even a small amount, I could not finish the soup. I started having headache and nausea. My sickness was probably due to the temperature’s rollercoaster. I went to bed and had some sleep.

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While I was asleep, I had a dream. I saw myself as a light ball. Four another light balls appeared and they approached to my light ball and connected with me. I knew the four light balls were four spirits who are unconditionally loving me and protecting me. I intuitively knew that the four light balls were my daughter and my husband. One of the other two was introduced as “my soulmate who had lived a past life at the same time with me.” The soul mate and I were ninja in the past life. We could communicate each other through telepathy. No matter how far away we were, we were able to be there at the right timing at the right place for each other. This spirit has been supporting me to become a clairvoyant. This is why I started seeing things in my dream much more clearly with detailed colors. The last light ball was introduced as “Mother in magical world.” I felt the last one was my late mother. She said she loves me so much. She has been working on my dad to be fair on the inheritance from my mom. My mom showed me the image of my dad. He has been feeling lonely and missing me. My mom didn’t tell me to call my dad. She just showed the image of my dad.

Then I woke up. Everything I saw in my dream was still vividly in my memory. I looked at the watch. It was 8:20 p.m. I started talking a nap from 4 p.m., so I had slept 4 hours in all the afternoon.

I usually don’t check my LINE app right after I wake up. But for some reason, I opened LINE app, which was very unusual for me. My intuition was right. I saw two missed calls and one text message from my cousin. It was sent to me just 10 minutes ago. The message was my dad asked me to call him.

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I was reluctant to call him. Last time I talked to him on the phone was May 4^th. We ended our conversation with an argument. Before I called my dad, I prayed to my family spirits for their support. I didn’t want to argue with my dad anymore, but I needed to tell him the reason why I haven’t called him for these two months.

Then, I took my courage and called my dad. He answered the call within the first ring. He must have been waiting for my call in front of the phone. He asked me why I haven’t called him for long. He has been worrying about me due to the news regarding the worsened situation of Covid-19 in Arizona. I told him I have been sick for a while, but I have another reason why I haven’t called him. I told him if he was calm and ready to listen, I would tell. He said he was calm and ready to listen. So I told him my true feeling. He changed his voice tone. Obviously he got mad. I quickly understood the situation, so I hung up the phone.

He was not ready to listen. Why he cannot understand? Maybe I should stop hoping that he will be ready and listen. Even though my mom asked many times about her wishes regarding grave and after-death Buddhism way ceremony, and her saving money for inheritance, my dad insisted he never heard anything from my mom. He never listened to anybody. He is stubborn and manipulative. I regretted for calling him. I should definitely keep the sacred boundary from him to protect my inner peace. All I can do at this moment is to wait for the right timing for him to listen. I don’t understand and accept my dad’s claim. He claims all the money that my mom had earned is actually his, and that is why he has rights to own everything from my mom all to himself.

I don’t agree with him. My mom had worked at my dad’s company as the accountant. He worked very hard and saved some money every month. She told me she wanted me to take it after her departure. Before her departure she asked me to make it very simple and minimize all the things related to her death, because she wanted us (my brother and me) to keep the saved money regarding her death. She instructed us in details on how we should save money. She didn’t want to be buried in a grave. She wanted to be kept her ashes in her favorite temple together with her late dad.

Today my dad told me he never heard any of my mom’s wishes. I know my mom told my dad. He didn’t listen to her at all. That is why he doesn’t remember any of them.   

Last night I was feeling sick, but this morning I woke up healthy. I am so glad that all the symptoms similar to Covid-19 disappeared from me.

In the evening it started raining. My favorite and long-awaited season, Monsoon, has come. My garden plants are also feeling happy about lots of rain.  

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I prepared my homemade mirin on August 19 last year. It has been almost one year for its fermenting process. Today I tried some. It tasted very good. I will start using it for my daily cooking. I prepared for a new batch of homemade mirin for next year.

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As for the Umeboshi with apricot that I prepared on June 23^rd, it didn’t turn out great. The apricots were so ripe that they started melting in the apricot vinegar liquid. I needed to give up on the procedure Umeboshi with apricot. I am going to use this as something for my daily cooking.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of Hemi Sync-Five Messages in Focus-12.

(1) My next time to visit Japan: I saw a vision of the numbers. It says “2023.” I saw myself visiting Japan with my daughter. At that time, my dad has already departed.

(2) Inheritance: I saw a vision of myself talking with somebody I haven’t met yet. I felt the person was the attorney whom I hired for the inheritance procedure. I didn’t see myself talking directly to my brother. As of now, my vision says the third person whom I hired would do a great help solving issues and problems between my brother and me. I just trust the necessary support will naturally come to me. I am always protected. I don’t doubt about it. 

(3) How my late-mom is doing: She is doing fine. She is satisfied with her tasks to have made me strong mentally.

(4) My dad’s departure: I saw a vision of my mom riding a two-seater bicycle. She has been urging my dad to join her, but my dad stubbornly rejected. I interpreted my mom has working on picking my dad up.

(5) My clairvoyant ability: I got a message to stay positive and keep going forward. I saw a vision of a little girl figure in a cheerleader outfit dancing with Pom Poms in her both hands. It was cute.

Today’s dream: I was running at the fastest speed by the river. I felt so comfortable that I could run fast without having out of breath. The dream interpretation dictionary says the dreamer’s energy is full and their efforts will be well rewarded.

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In the daytime I was totally healthy, but at night, all of a sudden, I started having issues in my body. I had chills and muscle aching all over my body. Also I had a sore throat. My throat was so swollen that I had a hard time on breathing and swallowing any food or liquid. All of them are one of the symptoms of Covid-19. I got scared.

Before I went to sleep, I prayed that I will get healed during sleep.

This morning’s dream: our home dog “Osamu-chan” passed away in my arm. I cried so much for him.

Then I woke up. The dog was a puppy pug. I never had a pug dog in my life. Nor, I never had a pet named Osamu-chan in the real life. The dream interpretation dictionary says crying for a dog’s death forecasts the dreamer will have good fortune and their dream will come true.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided meditation of Hemi Sync “Five messages”.

(1) About not calling my dad: I saw a vision of my maternal cousin. This cousin and his wife used to visit my parents very often, like every week. Right before the Christmas of last year, my parents and the cousin and his wife went to the restaurant. There, my mom got very sick. So she asked my cousin to give her a ride back home. My dad got mad claiming he had not finished his meal, so my mom should wait for him to finish his meal. Since then, my cousin and his wife stopped visiting my parents. The reason was obvious. My cousin didn’t like about my dad’s selfish behavior. My dad never noticed how my cousin felt. This vision told me that my dad is not good at sensing people’s feeling and emotion. My dad never knew how I felt from his selfish behaviors. My family spirits’ conclusion is that it does not matter if I call my dad or not. He never fully understands how he offends others and thus, he never understands the true feeling of others. He probably feels lonely for my not calling him, but he does not blame me for that. At this moment, it is all up to me. I should follow my intuition. If I feel myself strong enough to survive from whatever my dad says to me, then I can call him. Otherwise, I should wait for my good timing to call him.   

(2) To become a clairvoyant: I saw a vision of myself studying in the online mediumship class. So, I guess I am in the right course.

(3) Moving to flagstaff or Navajo nation: I saw a vision of a family with a small child. The child cannot choose which one the child likes better either mom or dad, because the child likes the bot parents equally. I interpret this as the answer. As of now, Flagstaff and Navajo Nation are both equally good. It might be a good idea to have two houses on both areas. Instead of having only one, why don’t you have both?

(4) How to start my spiritual business: This was an interesting one. I saw a vision of one of my boyfriends in my younger days. While we were chatting on Skype, he suddenly took off his underwear and showed his private in the webcam. Apart from judging good or bad, I think the core message from this vision was to be brave and just do it. I interpret my family spirits are encouraging me to give a reading session to strangers and practice my clairvoyant.

(5) Inheritance: I didn’t see any visions nor feel anything. I interpret this case is still up in the air.

In the morning my husband and daughter went for shopping in the mall, so could I enjoy a Sunday morning by myself. I did the guided meditation to Free Flow to Focus-21. During the meditation, I felt I should get back to my original routine of chanting Heart Sutra, 般若心経, on the daily basis.

After came back from the meditation state, I looked for a good video of 般若心経. Quickly, I found a very good one. The two monks chant Heart Sutra with the notation. It was easy for me to follow them.

Their intonations and Buddhist stoles were familiar with me. No wonder they belong to my local town’s temple. There are so many shrines and temples in my hometown, but this temple is the most familiar one for me. This was my mom’s favorite one.   

My mom’s dad, my grandpa Shintaro, is actually in this temple’s ossuary as in his ashes. My mom liked this temple a lot. She used to visit this temple every month. I remember my mom took my brother and me when we were small. She visited until she got very sick. So, she visited this temple every month for 60 years. My mom asked my brother and me to put her ashes into this temple together with her dad.

The young monk introduces himself as the vice priest who is going to pass it down from his dad eventually. He started posting YouTube video two years ago. I wish I could have found him before my mom’s departure, so that I could show his videos to my mom.

In my dream, I was at a temple. In the temple, there were only four people. All the four people were monks. I was a monk too. I have known them very well. Since I didn’t recognize the three people in my physical realm, they should be my family spirits. The four of us had a constructive conversation. Through our brainstorming, we came up to some great ideas. We all thanked each other for our great ideas. The temple was located up high in the sky. Even though we were at the very high place, whenever we wanted to see somebody in the physical realm, we could see them. All we needed to do was just focus on the person.

When the time had come for me to go back to the physical realm, the other three monks gave me a warm hug and wished me good luck in the physical realm. Then I woke up. It was a good dream and spiritual experience.  

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At night from 8:30 p.m., I attended the Sunday Service. This was my 4^th attendance to this gathering. I like being in this group. They are sincerely working hard for enhancing their spiritual awareness.

Every time it has a different energy. I am interested especially in sermon and spiritual communication demonstration.

This morning after I woke up, I didn’t jump up from the bed. Instead, I stayed in bed focusing on my feeling.

It has been almost 4months passed since my mom has departed to the spirit world. I feel lighter day by day. I feel like I have been in the recovering process to regain my true-self. I noticed how heavy traumas and burdens I had been carrying on my shoulder. Each day the heavy burdens have been peeling off. I never felt my soul lighter in this lifetime.

The main cause for all my trauma was my mom. But now my mom’s departure revealed the hidden truth I didn’t notice while she was alive. The true cause is my dad. My mom had been so stressed out for dealing with my stubborn dad for the entire time of their marriage.

It was just recently when I really and fully experienced how stubborn my dad is. I noticed his true face while I was visiting my mom in this January. My dad was never nice to my mom. Whenever my dad treated my mom in a mean way, my mom turned into mean to me. My mom needed somebody to release her stress. I need to protect myself. I cannot stay with them forever. I am so glad that I got away from them while I could.

This morning’s dream: I was with my daughter at the Japanese traditional hotel in Japan. We comfortably slept in Futon on the floor. On the next morning my daughter and I enjoyed sightseeing of Kobe. We had a great time together.

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It was one of the extreme heat days. I had lunch with my local Japanese friend at the restaurant. We share many things in common especially our hometown in Japan. I enjoyed so much for chatting with her in our local dialect.

I often tell my husband how relaxing to speak my own language. I wish he takes it seriously and will start studying Japanese language for me.