I like living in this small community. It is rural area. Small population. Friendly and nice neighbors.

Our community has been supportive. They just announced two helpful news.

One news is about the kids’ meal. They had been delivered a meal packet of breakfast and lunch for children aged 0 to 18 Mondays through Fridays, now starting from next weekend, they will add the meal packet for weekends of Saturdays and Sundays.

The other news is about the free Wi-Fi. Starting someday in next week, they will start offering a free Wi-Fi. It will cover 35 miles from our town, so basically, it will cover the entire community. I heard there are many families who cannot afford to have a Wi-Fi connection at their house. It will be helpful for them.

Last evening I had a 30-minute counselling session with a Japanese female healer.

I found her through her book. Her book is about her spiritual work; aura cleansing session. I enjoyed reading her experience. I instantly wanted to make an appointment with her for her session, but I decided to wait until I get to know her little more.

I registered two mail magazine of hers. For one week or so, I read her two mail magazines every day. By the time the mail magazines were completed, I became a fan of her. So, I made an appointment with her today.

We had a chat on Zoom. It was my first time to use this app.

For the first half of our conversation, we used to talk about more detailed information about her aura cleansing session.

For the second half of our conversation, she described about the underwear and other products she wants to introduce to her customers.    

I asked her if I can have a reading session during the aura cleansing session. She said she is open for any kind of questions. Whatever she sees during the session, she can share it with me. She said she won’t focus on only one specific past life, because it is not her original purpose. Her original purpose for the session is to take out any unnecessary energy stuck in their aura field. I understood and agreed with her.

She shared with me one of my past life experience with my brother. My brother and I shared the same family in Sengoku era (1232 – 1603) in Japan. Both of us were born as a girl. Those days the arranged marriage was common. Parents chose their children’s spouses from their political reasons. My brother, at that time my older sister, was sent to one family as their daughter-in-law. The family she married into was rich from their business. However, soon after her moving in, the family’s business started going down. They eventually bankrupted. My sister at that time suffered from poorness in the family for the rest of her life.

In this life, my brother’s marriage through the arranged marriage triggered him to bring back of his past life memory. It was the similar situation. In past life, my sister and I had been very close until her arranged marriage. Same in this life, my brother and I had been very close until his arranged marriage. In both situations, my sister and my brother went into the tough marriage life. On the other hand, in both life, I was born as the younger one, so that I escaped the tough life. Even though it was his choice to be born before me in both situations, he and she got jealous of me living free of the obligations from our parents.

In her past life, she had suffered from extreme poverty. In this lifetime too, right after my brother took over my dad’s company, he suffered from paying back the huge amount of company debts that my dad didn’t clearly show to my brother. Combined with the past life memory, my brother made his mind to take all the money from me. That might be the reason why my brother stopped talking to me.

While I was hearing this from the healer, I shed my tears. It made sense to me. My soul agreed it was true.

The healer shined one bright hope for me. On our next session, she can focus on the healing for me about the memory. She cannot directly heal my brother. However, since my brother and I are spiritually connected, once I am healed, he might be healed miraculously. The healer assured me she has witnessed many miracles through her sessions.

I am looking forward to next session with her. I really hope my brother and I will make a peace back again through her session.

One more thing that I want to share. The healer said everything appears in the real world reflects our subconscious mind. In my mind, my spiritual business has not grown at all. It reflects my subconscious desire. It is true. My conscious desires my business to be well-known among many people, however, my subconscious desires different way. In my subconscious, I am still deeply hurt and suffering from trauma of being famous and popular in one of my past lives. I am the one who is happy being hidden from people. It makes sense to me.

After our conversation, I thought of my subconscious. I have a faith that this healer will be a great help for me to get rid of some unnecessary energies and worries from my aura field.

I ordered a fitness trampoline. First I ordered it through Amazon. My ordered day was April 5^th, and their expected shipping date was May 7^th. They put the note saying due to the excessive number of orders, they ship the high priority and urgent items first, and any other not-urgent times will be shipped late.

I didn’t want to wait that long for more than one month, so I canceled the order from Amazon.

I found the same item in other online store and purchased it. They shipped it on the next day of my order date, and my purchased items arrived four days after my ordered day. I am happy for it.

This morning the fitness trampoline arrived. According to the customers’ reviews, they mentioned about the toughness to install the bungee cables. But our product came with the bungee cables already installed. All we needed to do was to assemble six poles for the base and the three poles for the handle. It was not that difficult.

My daughter and I enjoyed exercising on the trampoline all afternoon. We went to bed with our sore calves and thighs. I like our new fitness trampoline.

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As of April 17^th, the Japanese government changed their policy regarding the stimulus check. They previously planned to provide up to 300,000 JPY to the people who meet their certain conditions and apply for it. Now they changed it to provide 100,000 JPY to All Japanese citizens including foreigners who live in Japan. It includes babies and children. So if you are a family of five, you are qualified to receive 500,000 JPY. But the procedure stays the same. In order to receive it, you have to apply for it. I know my dad will not apply for it, because of his health condition. He is blind and cannot go here and there. It will be tough to write down in the application form and submit. Same as my dad, many people who are inconvenient for the application process might not be able to apply for it. I think it will be unfair. Why they cannot follow the procedure of America, which was automatically sent to all the qualified American citizens based on the previous tax return information. It was a good procedure for us to easily understand and we didn’t do anything to receive the check.

I ordered the takeout order from the Chinese restaurant. As always, my daughter distributed a fortune cookie to my husband, me, and her. I like her distributing, because she always selects the best fit fortune for everyone.

My fortune says:

An exciting new friendship will get you out of your rut.

I didn’t know the meaning of the word rut so I needed to look the meaning up. The online dictionary says the meaning of rut as “a habit or pattern of behavior that has become dull and unproductive but is hard to change.”

I liked my fortune. Indeed, it is time for me to get out of my rut. I will stay open for a new exciting friendship to reveal to me.

I heard one shocking information through my husband’s coworker. It was his personal experience.

He went to the grocery store. While he was waiting in the long waiting line for the cashier, one grocery store worker yelled something toward the people waiting in line. At first he was not paying attention to the worker, so he could not her the worker clearly. The worker did the same again, then he noticed the worker was yelling straightforward at him. He looked around and noticed he was the only one who was not wearing a face mask.

The worker was yelling at him that anybody who is not wearing a facial mask is not allowed to purchase anything in the store.

Sadly he left the grocery store without any shopped items.

Before he left the store, he looked through the entrance door for any signs about a facial mask. It was none.

I never heard of the new rule of a mandatory face mask in the grocery store. In the different grocery stores, I have seen other customers without a face mask shopped without any issues. 

As many people have noticed, the biggest worry in this pandemic situation is the monster people who are eager to criticize or accuse somebody. In his case, the store worker could have explained him about the store’s new policy calmly and politely, instead of just yelling at him and kicking him out from the store.

I hope people will stay being civilized in this hectic situation.  

This morning we got the stimulus check came into our bank account. It was full amount of $2,900, $1,200 for 2 adults and $500 for 1 child. Some of my local friends and my husband’s coworkers also received it in their bank account.

I think America has been doing great to support the citizens in this emergency situation.

As for the stimulus check, the American government has set the clear rule on the qualification of receivers and the amount. Rich people who make more than $75,000 receive the reduced amount from the full amount of $1,200. Since the qualification is made by IRS, based on the previous two years’ tax return, many Americans do not need to apply for it. The check is automatically deposited to their bank account.

As for the meals for children during school closure, each state has different rules to support them. In my state, all the children aged 0 to 18 can receive the free meal packet of breakfast and lunch. The system had launched right away, without missing any day. Those two new policies are helpful for citizens.

On the other hand, as far as I read the Japanese news, the Japanese government has been taking their time to set the new policies and rules. Even though they have set the rule of the stimulus check, it is so complicated and confusing that many people don’t know who is qualified to receive on how much. The Japanese people who want to receive the stimulus check need to apply for it. I am sure my dad won’t apply for it, because he cannot walk around nor see the application form. Many elders who are having an inconvenient life won’t be able to apply for it neither. I don’t think their way is fair to all the citizens.

This morning I followed the local policeman’s advice. I went to the local dollar store which is located just a five-minute’ drive away this morning.

He was right. It was good to be there. I had a peaceful and comfortable shopping experience at the store. They restocked the items, and I could buy all the items in my shopping list. Other customers were calm and polite. The cashier woman was also polite and nice.

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My husband went for work in the morning to check up with his customers. He came back with his good mood. He said everybody was nice and calm.

It was a quiet Sunday. In my morning walk, I run into the policeman in the police car patrolling our neighborhood. He was the one who supported the customers in the local dollar store on last Sunday morning. The policeman asked me if I was planning to go to the store again this morning. I was not planning to go. The policeman suggested to go shopping there tomorrow early morning instead of today. He shared the information with me. The store is expecting their delivery truck to be arrived in the early morning tomorrow so that their items will be nicely restocked. It was very nice of him. This is one of the benefits in living in a small town. We know each other and we are nice to each other.

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In the afternoon my friend and I went for a long distance walk. We walked about five miles as always. Our walk had been good until toward the end when she said bad jokes about my family.

I knew it was her habit. She had gossiped and said bad jokes about her close people such as her family and coworkers. If they hear her saying that, they would definitely get hurt. I don’t enjoy hearing any gossips or mean teasing about people behind their back, even for the people whom I don’t personally know. 

She repeated the insulting jokes about my family several times. Even though she said she was joking, I got offended. I took a couple of deep breathing and calmed myself down. Then, I carefully selected the right words and gently asked her to stop saying bad jokes about my family.

In her reply, she said she would get back to her original routine, which is going for jogging alone. Her reply implied she would stop walking together with me anymore. I agreed with her suggestion. We both thanked each other for keeping a good company for these past 6.5 months.

It is good to get back to our own routine. In a way, I felt relieved that I don’t need to hear any gossips nor mean teasing anymore.

Since my recent birthday of 50 years old, I am committed myself to stay being myself. I only do what I want to do. Meaning, I don’t do anything I don’t want to do. I only hang out with somebody whom I feel comfortable to stay with. Meaning, I don’t waste my time with anybody whom I don’t feel comfortable to stay with.   

In the morning my husband went to the grocery store in the next town where is located at a 20-minutes’ drive away.

Going to the grocery store is my job, but to be honest, I was a bit scared on how I would feel at the grocery store. On last week when I went there, there were a whole bunch of sad elder customers and I saw almost empty shelves here and there. I was overwhelmed by sad emotions. I am an empathy so that I got influenced took other people’s negative emotions

So this morning my husband offered to go shopping by himself. It was nice of him.

I gave him a shopping list. I didn’t want him to be lost in the store, so I made the list to the minimum. I gave up many items that I wanted to buy. From the store, he called me several times whenever he lost on which item to buy. I like the specific brand and size and memorize exactly where it should be located along with the price. So I could easily navigate him on the shopping.

After he came back home, he saw many guys shopping alone. They did exactly same as he did. They were holding a piece of paper which is most likely the shopping list that their wife or girlfriend made. On their other hand they were holding a cell phone calling their woman to ask specifically which one they wanted to buy.

When I heard this, I thought it nice that men are helping women for grocery shopping. If we didn’t have this Covid-19 situation, some of them might never experience the grocery shopping alone. I guess it is one of the benefits for us.

I read three manga comics written by Japanese married couple; 堀田あきお＆かよ.

親の介護、はじまりました。 (上)

親の介護、はじまりました。 (下)

親の介護、10年め日記。

The authors shared their personal experiences of nursing care of the wife’s elder parents. It was painful for me to read because they had the similar situation as my parents. Her dad was selfish and stubborn. He was not supportive for his wife at all. I feel sad for the author’s mom. My mom was the same way. Whenever my mom desperately needed supports from my dad, my dad was not supportive for my mom.

I don’t know if the author’s mom already graduated her physical life or not. I hope she already did, so that she is in the peaceful environment right now, just like my mom.

I really hope and pray for these people who had suffered at their last years from non-supportive spouses to be peaceful right now.

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I still remember two to three days before my mom passed away. I was in America and she was in Japan, but I clearly heard her voice saying she was scared of death. She communicated with me through telepathy. I replied back to her through telepathy like this.

Dying should not be scary. When she is ready, her loved ones who already passed away before her will come to pick her soul up. All she needs is to follow their lead. All she needs is to let go. If she can let go of everything she is cringing on right now, it should be easy.

Then she departed.

After she left her body, she sent me the music tone of Ave Maria. I believe it was her answer to me telling dying was pretty easy.