The first news I read this morning was about the Tokyo Olympic 2020. After the telephone conference with IOC (the International Olympic Committee), Japan’s prime minister, Shinzo Abe, agreed to postpone due to  the coronavirus pandemic spreads world-wide. I feel sorry for Japanese people for this news, but it will be good for all of us of our safety.

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While I visited my mom in Japan, she gave me a full bag of kale tea. Since I came back to my house in America on February 2^nd, I had the tea every day. I loved this tea. This was the last gift from my mom, I loved this tea even more. While I was drinking this tea, I could feel my mom.

Sadly though, today I drank the last package of the kale tea. I cannot buy this tea from America.

Today I was talking about death with my daughter.

My daughter pretty much understands that death is not the end; our souls are eternity. But still, she said she doesn’t want to be at my death bed. She doesn’t want to be at my funeral nor cremation. It will be very tough for her to see my physical body to be ended.

While I was listening her saying this, I thought of my mom. She gave me a great gift at the last minute of her life. I could spend time with her for one week while she was still alive. We enjoyed our company. She departed at the best timing so that I had the good reason for not being at the funeral and the cremation. I know I cannot handle to see my mom’s dead body to be ended like that. I appreciate my mom for the wonderful gift. It was very thoughtful of her. Without seeing her body cremated, without attending her funeral, I still vividly remember her as alive. Thank you mom.

I also recognized one thing. I should be more thoughtful to my dad and my brother. They were the one who dealt with my mom’s death. My mom departed on Sunday night and they had her funeral and cremation on Wednesday, so they needed to spend three nights with my mom’s dead body and witnessed her body to be cremated. It must be so tough for them to experience all of these. They must be still suffering from feeling lost. The experiences must be overwhelming for them. I appreciate my dad and my brother to take care of these for me.

Today was the first day that my daughter’s school delivered a food packet of breakfast and lunch for children at the school bus stop. The bus arrived later than the scheduled time. I appreciate all the stuff members to work for making this happen.

The school was supposed to deliver the assignment packet prepared by teachers, along with the food packet. Some students received it but it was not available for my daughter. Hopefully they will deliver it tomorrow morning.

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In the late morning, my daughter and I went to the local grocery store. The toilet paper area was all empty same as before, but there were five or six packs of facial tissues. The sign said it was limited to one per customer, so I bought one pack for my family.

I was happy to be able to buy one pack of facial tissue. Even though we are still running out of toilet papers, now that facial tissues were in the store, we should be able to buy a pack of toilet paper soon.

I refreshed my computer as it has gotten much slower than before. The Refresh process of itself did not take long, but re-installing all the app took much time.

The main reason for me to refresh the computer was some issues in my virus software. When I processed the menu of “remove cookies and trackers,” it started to have 1 or 2 unwanted temporary files left undeleted. It grew to 6 or 7 files. I thought it was due to some computer virus or something. I hoped this issue will be solved after I refresh my computer.

It turned out to be worse. After refreshed, the virus software shows 60 unwanted temporary files undeleted. I tried to reach out their online chat service, but the waiting line was 54 minutes. I could not wait that long. Hopefully some other time I will be lucky enough to contact them sooner and they will fix the issue for me.

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In order to prevent further spread of COVID-19, Japanese government decided to take an extra process for people who is entering to Japan. It includes Japanese. The visitors will need to stay 14 days in a house or a hotel room. They are prohibited to use any public transportation during this self-quarantine term. It includes the transportation from the airport to the final destination. The visitors will need to arrange a rent-a-car or a car from their family or friends. My family and I will visit my dad in Japan when everything calms down.

My house is located in a rural area. We had zero coronavirus patient. However the situation has been changed. The recent news reports one patient was confirmed in our county. My husband heard the patient works at the same workplace as his.

My husband will report this on next Monday. The company might decide to let the workers work at home same as other major companies.

In the morning I went to the local grocery store. The workers must have been working hard. The store had most shelves restocked. Paper products were exceptional. Same as last visit, the shelves were all empty. The good thing is all the workers and customers I passed by were all nice and polite. I saw customers saying thank-you to the workers for working hard to restock items. I am glad people are still civilized in this area.

After the grocery store, I went to the local bank. I had two documents to be notarized. The bank teller was not nice. She pointed out the documents that I created are not exactly of what they have in their manual books so that she cannot notarize them. I used the same document twice before; at the attorney office and at this bank. I think I was just unlucky to have this bank teller. This bank teller didn’t give me any specific information. She told me to look it up by myself. She was not helpful at all. I needed to go back home and did some research on my own and revised the documents as she pointed out. One thing I want to point out about this bank teller. When she asked me to sign the document, I started using my pen, but my pen was out of ink. I asked her to let me borrow her pen. She reluctantly passed me her pen. After I returned the pen to her, she quickly wiped it off thoroughly with Clorox wipes.

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I went back to the bank. This time a different bank teller dealt with me. She didn’t have any issues with my revised documents and notarized them.

I went back home and created a Japanese translation of those documents.

My last stop was a post office. I sent out the documents to my dad.

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I returned home. While I was revising the document, I pondered about the bank teller. The bank teller probably stressed out from the coronavirus. She might not be originally mean. This stressful environment might have changed her into rude and mean. I hope not many people will react like her.

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The state governor decided to extend the school closure until April 10^th. My daughter’s school has four weeks school closure including the spring break. The school had a Facebook Live to explain the situation. From upcoming Monday the school bus will deliver a package of breakfast and lunch along with study packet at the bus stop. It will continue throughout school closure. The teacher sent out an email notice of the online study material so that students can study online.

I appreciate everybody who stays calm and nice in this hectic environment. I hope we all will stay being safe and healthy and overcome this new worldwide challenge together.

In my dream, I was with my dad and brother. We dealt with distributing the inheritance from my late mom. They were planning to divide it into two by themselves. I never said I don’t need it, but they misunderstood that I said so. Somebody urged me to tell them I wanted to receive my share. So, I followed the advice. I took courage and spoke up to them I wanted my share. Then, they decided to distribute it to me too. I finally could receive my share.

When I woke up, I considered this as a message from my mom. She was the one who urged me to speak up to them. In my case, I cannot contact with my brother. The only one whom I can contact right now is my dad.

For these past days, around 6 p.m., which is 10 a.m. in Japan, I sat down in front of the work desk wondering if I should call my dad or not. I knew I should call him more often, but I was reluctant to talk to him. On our last conversation,

Today I felt strong obligation to call him. So I called him.

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Right after he recognized my voice, his voice tone got raised. It was obvious that he was happy to hear from me. I regretted that I didn’t call him for the past 10 days. I have a good reason why I didn’t call him sooner. On our last conversation of March 8^th, my dad asked me to discard my inheritance right from my mom because he wanted to take all to himself. I got shocked at what he said. I always trusted him as a fair person. I could not believe what I heard from him.

We started our conversation about Coronavirus Disease 2019 (COVID-19). I mentioned about our life here in America. Schools are shut down for two weeks. Stores got almost empty; they don’t carry items including produces, frozen foods, bottled water, dry foods, and paper products. My dad didn’t believe what I said. I know what he means. Even I don’t want to believe what is happening right now.

My dad said he experienced the similar situations many times in his life. He said everything always comes back to normal. We just need to be patient and have a solid trust that everything will be back to normal. Talking with him calmed me down.

Then, he switched the topic to the inheritance from my mom. I asked him how much my mom had. He didn’t answer my question, but he said my mom had more than he does. He said more than 70% cash is under my mom’s name. Several years ago he believed he would die before my mom. At that time while my mom was totally fine and healthy, my dad lost eye vision from diabetes. Also, everywhere in the world women tend to live longer than men. Thus, he transferred most of his cash to my mom’s bank account, so that my mom will have enough money to live her remainder life. The situation drastically changed in June 2016. My mom got a sudden sick and transferred to ER by an ambulance. There, she stayed in the hospital for one week. Since then, her good health collapsed.

— Honesty, when I heard this part, I could not fully believe what he said. Why he cannot tell me more specific amount? Why he stays being secretive, even though this inheritance is a matter of our family, not only his issue but to my brother and I are lawfully involved.

I took my courage to speak up. I told him that I cannot discard my inheritance right until I know the total amount of how much my mom had, and that I am lawfully qualified my share as 25%. Based on the total amount, we can negotiate the percentage together. My dad said he never asked me to discard the inheritance right. But he did asked me to do so on our last phone conversation. I said he did. He insisted he didn’t. We continued this statements back and forth.

— Again, I almost lost trust to him. I am pretty I was right about this. Is he losing his mind?

My dad continued lots of new information that I didn’t want to hear. He has three real estates; his current house, and his second house, and a big piece of land. He is planning to leave all the real estates to my brother. For that part, I agreed, as my brother helped my dad for my mom’s funeral. But as for what my dad continued, I don’t agree. He continued, as for cash, he is going to give my brother the majority of them. I said I don’t agree. While I was visiting them in japan in this January, my dad asked me to divide the cash equally with my brother. When I mentioned it to my dad, he said an excuse that my brother has five people in his family while I have three. I told him I don’t agree. When my brother takes all the real estates and the majority of cash, my share will be very small from the total amount. Maybe my share will be 20% or less, compared to my lawful share of 50%.

My dad started being mean. He said he is also planning to donate a big portion of cash to some non-profit organizations. He never mentioned such things until today. I hope he just mentioned just to be mean to me.

By the time I hung up the phone, I was drained. I felt my dad stole my energy from me. I started losing confidence in myself.

In my mind vision, the image of my mom popped up. She had been dealing with this stubborn man for more than 50 years. No wonder why she drained all her energy by living with this man. She had been a buffer between my dad and us; children. She told me lots of things about my dad. Those days they didn’t affect me directly, so I didn’t take it seriously. Now, without my mom, I have to deal with this difficult man all by myself.

Still, a good thing is though, I don’t live with my dad. Now I have my own family that I can fully trust.

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I noticed one thing. In my natal horoscope chart, my progress Sun is under Taurus 8 degree until March 2020. The sabian symbol is “A sleigh without snow.” It was my “a-ha” moment. It is right. In this pandemic situation, the symbol teaches me the wisdom to prepare enough for rainy days. After April 2020, my progress Sun will be under Taurus 9 degree. The sabian symbol is “A Christmas tree decorated.” It teaches the importance of not to share in order to protect myself and my family with fully equipped preparation. This symbol teaches the importance to keep being protected by myself. Synchronicities are happening to teach me this lesson. I have witnessed others who are well prepared and protected, and they are not offering help to others. It is not talking about being selfish, but talking about the importance of protecting myself first. Same logic about an oxygen mask in an airplane. I need to put on an oxygen mask first before I start helping others.

At this moment, in this, everybody is dealing with the same environment; a pandemic. Each individual needs to think and act based on their decision. Some people sensed the paper products and food shortage, so they had stocked them up in advance. Others got panicked after they saw the empty shelves in stores, and they keep complaining and worrying about the shortage. I am in the middle. I didn’t stock them up enough in advance so we will have to survive with what we currently have, which is almost running out. I thought about what I can do to protect my family. I cut my old clothes into small pieces and used the fabric for my toilet paper and facial tissue. I have been living like that for two weeks so far. My action is helping my daughter in my house so that she can still use paper products until they completely run out. Also, my humble way of living is helping others who cannot think of other ways except for using paper products.

It rained all day long. The weather report says we will have a winter storm coming up this week. It was windy and cold.

My family and I could not go for a wall. Since this self-quarantine, people are lacking of proper exercises.

My daughter’s school sent out the updated notice. They will provide a packet of breakfast and lunch for the upcoming week. They decided to deliver it by school buses at the bus stop. It will be helpful for all of us.

I received a notice email from my favorite canyon. I have the annual pass for the canyon hike. They will close the place until the end of this month.

I wonder how my dad is doing. I should call him tomorrow.

Every day almost all news were talking about Coronavirus disease (COVID-19).

One news reports most airline companies will bankrupt by the end of May. The workers of restaurants, movie theaters, and hotels are told to stay home. They worry about not being able to pay for the monthly bills.

One Japanese fortune teller predicted this pandemic several months before it actually happened. He says the year of Rat is always a radical year to drastically impact all over the world. He is right. At the previous Rat year was 2008 when the world experienced a severe worldwide economic crisis. At that time President Bush signed the Economic Stimulus Act of 2008. Qualified tax payers received the Economic Stimulus Checks up to $600 individual and $1,200 for joint married.

This year too President Trump is working on the same, but this time, more amount than 2008.

I also read the news of the bug earthquake in Salt Lake City. I pray for everybody to get things back to normal. I miss our peaceful days.

From today to March 29^th, all the schools will be closed for two weeks as spring vacation.

In the morning our entrance doorbell rang. It was an unexpected visitor. Also we have read some crazy customers in store fought for a toilet tissue. With these, my daughter got scared about the unexpected visitor and run back to the backroom. After I confirmed my daughter was hiding in the safe area, I answered the door. I got relieved. It was an electricity company technician to replace the water meter to a brand new one. I almost forgot they sent us a notice letter in advance. The procedure of switching the water meter was done quickly.

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We are lacking of toilet paper and facial tissue. I started using the old shirts as alternatives. Once I get used to it, it is fine with me.

Our community is supportive for the school students during these self-quarantine. My daughter’s school offers free-internet during these two weeks so that students can study online. Also the school mentions to provide food support for next week. I started teaching my daughter Japanese language with using Japanese text books. Also I started supporting her for her preparation of the end of school year test.

I think the students in this era are fully benefited from high technology. Through Internet connection, they can study anywhere.

I wonder how my mom is thinking to witness these hectic situation on the Earth from the place where is always peaceful. I wish I could talk to her and get her advice. But then again, I don’t want to make her concern about us. I want her to feel relaxed and sit back and enjoy watching us.

We received a mass phone call from school. They decided to extend their one week spring break to two weeks due to coronavirus.

I got chills in my back.

My family and I felt needs to go to grocery store. At the store, I got chills again in all over my body. Produce department, meat department, imperishable dry foods, and frozen foods are almost out of stock. I never saw such unusual scenery in a grocery store.