In the evening at 7 p.m., I had an online meeting with my existing client to help her to increase the face amount. In last month she had a mammography test and the test result came back saying something. She told me the term but I didn’t know it. Even though it was not cancer or tumor, the doctor suggested her to have a surgery and cut some parts off. And as normal, she accepted the doctor’s advice. Now she got scared of the test result and surgery, she wanted to increase the face amount, which is the death benefit. I wanted to mention about the homeopathy or the biofeedback to treat her fear, but I didn’t say anything because I know she would reject any of the alternative treatment easily.  

My daughter and I went to town to browse around a new bed frame and mattress, and bedding. It was fun to hang out with my daughter.

I gave myself a biofeedback session. I focused mainly on my mental health regarding the dispute with my brother. I really hope he was a normal person who will do the normal thing, that means in this case, to be willing to share our parents’ inheritance equally. But I have to see the reality in front of me. My brother turns to be greedy and evil. He is not normal. Yes, it is sad, but I have to see the reality. I felt soothed when I was in the biofeedback. I felt like I was communicating with my higher self. She listened to me carefully and comforted me, and gave me the best advice, which is to forgive my brother.  

The morning in Navajoland was cold. The temperature dropped up to 16 Fahrenheit which is negative 9 Celsius.

We left Navajoland around 9 a.m. and headed back to our house. The traffic was nice and calm.

We safely arrived at our house around 5 p.m.
I could somehow manage to attend the homeopathy live lesson stared at 6 p.m.

We lad a long drive day yesterday, so we decided to take a relaxing day today.

We went to the kids’ clothing assistant office in Window Rock. There, we met a nice female worker. She said the program has not opened it yet, but hopefully someday within this month. Then we went to the zoo and the museum to visit. The sad thing we found was Paul, the turkey, who always greeted us for these several years was not there anymore. All the animals at Navajo zoo were adapted after they retired from the zoon in city and had their old age. I am sure Paul was already pretty old when he came to Navajo zoo. And I am sure Paul was taken good care by the Navajo people and had a peaceful and fun retirement years at the Navajo zoo. Rest in peace Paul. Thank you for greeting us on our every visit. It was a very cold day with low temperature, but the sun was out. It was rare for us to be able to see almost all the animals came out from their cage or backroom. Everybody was enjoying getting the warm sunlight.

Bucky slept with us again. He did good tonight too. He soundly slept without waking us up or anything.

We had a fun day with my mom-in-law and Bucky, and other dogs and cats. It was a typical day in Navajoland.

We had the English muffin sandwich that my mom-in-law cooked for us for breakfast. I cannot eat any animal meat. Today’s sandwich was made with only egg and hushed brown, which I liked it. As an animal meat eater/lover, my husband didn’t care it for much though.

After breakfast we headed to Farmington. My mom-in-law wanted us to go there together as it was a long way trip. It took us more than 3 hours in one way. On the way to Farmington, there was a casino called Northern Edge Navajo Casino. It was the right timing for us to visit their restaurant because we just talked about the Navajo traditional foods on our way to Navajoland. We ordered their Navajo Taco and enjoyed it.

We stopped by at Sam’s Club and helped my mom-in-law to shop the bulk and huge items for her dogs and cats, and herself.

At night, Bucky really refused to go back to my mom-in-law’s house. He wanted to sleep with us. We never let him sleep with us because we feared him to pee on the bed. My mom-in-law insisted that Bucky is now smart enough to hold it inside the house and he sleeps through the night. So, we decided to try him out. My daughter was so excited to sleep with Bucky. Sure, he did good all night. He slept through without waking us up in the middle of night. It was cute of him to have a light sound snore from time to time. It was great to wake up the morning with our favorite dog.

It was a veteran’s day. My husband and daughter went to town to have lunch. I stayed back at home so that I could catch up with the lectures that I missed to attend during the trip to Japan.

In the afternoon around 2 p.m. we headed to Navajoland. The road was wide open for us. Around 9 p.m. we safely arrived there. My mom-in-law and Bucky, and other dogs were all happy for our arrival.

At 5 p.m. I offered a student homeopathy counseling to my client. She got much better than our first counselling. So, we decided to make this counseling session as the last one. I feel honored to be able to support her with the homeopathy remedies and support tinctures.

I received an email from the homeopathy school. They asked me if I can still submit the revised presentation video. I thought it weird because I already sent them my revised videos one month ago.

But soon, I understood why my previous presentation videos were not successfully delivered. Because the presentation quality was poor. I was in a hurry to submit them. To be honest, I didn’t add the animations which I usually do. I am sure my family spirits prevented the previous videos from arriving to the school on purpose.

After I sent a good appreciation prayer to my family spirits, I edited my drafts and added the animations. I also practiced many times until I got satisfied. Then I recorded the final presentation videos and sent them out to the school. Now I am satisfied with my presentation videos that they got much better than before. I hope many audiences will like my presentations and get inspired through my words.

I couldn’t sleep well. I felt uncomfortable with what my brother has done to me.

He blamed me that I didn’t take over my dad’s company and position. He thought I had a happy life without the burden. He could have done that too. He is responsible for his life. If he doesn’t like to take over the family business, he could have said no and left the position. If he is not satisfied with his wife and marriage life, he could have left it and changed the situation. But in the reality, he decided to stay there. It was all his decision. He should not blame me for anything.

When my dad dealt with my mom’s inheritance, he said all my mom’s money belonged to my dad, because he was the one who made all the money. I thought it ridiculous idea. It was the solid evidence that my dad never respected and appreciated my mom for her kind support and love to my dad.

Now my brother is doing the same thing. He claims he has the right to inherit all my dad’s belonging because he did all the efforts to let my dad accumulate the fortune.

My brother, you are wrong. You didn’t do everything all by yourself. Your family supported you. Our ancestors supported you. I am a member of the same family. I supported you. I have the right to receive the equal amount with you. It was our late parents’ wish and desire. It is our ancestors’ wish and desire as well. They want you to be fair and nice to your sister. They want you not to be selfish.   

I am feeling angry, sad, and powerless because I cannot fight back to my brother. Even though I hire an attorney, he is not supporting as I wish. I feel being lost. I hate my brother for doing this to me. I wish my brother to go to hell.

My thoughts appeared like this, cussing my brother out. Then I heard my late dad’s voice. He said to watch out what I ask for. He reminded me the old Japanese saying 人を呪わば穴二つ. In English translation, it says People who live in glass houses shouldn’t throw stones.

I thanked my late dad. He is right. I should not wish for my brother’s bad luck. All I should do is to completely let it go.

I admit it will take some time for me to be able to fully let it go and forgive my brother. I will work on it. And I try to stay positive. All the money that is supposed to come to me will eventually come back to me. All I have to do is fully trust the Universal law, Gods, and all the holy people and spirits. Please give me strength and support me to go through this life challenging event. I want to live my life peacefully without hating anybody. Deep inside, I want to forgive my brother.