Today March 9th is my birthday.

Yesterday I received some birthday wishes from my Japanese friends and Australian friends. They are one day ahead of America.

This morning, starting from midnight (early morning, I should say), I received many birthday wishes from American friends and European friends.

In the morning, I received a phone call, and some of my friends sang the birthday song for me together over the phone.

My 7-years-old daughter bought me a flower bouquet from her own allowance. (We give her monthly allowance). She talked to the flowers nicely such as “thank you for coming to our house” and “you guys are so beautiful and pretty.” I think this flower bouquet will stay healthy longer than normal.

Around noon time, I received another phone call. It was from my daughter’s school teacher. She asked me if I have a minute or so. I answered yes, then, my daughter’s classmates sang the birthday song for me over the phone. At the ending of the song, everybody said out loud, “Happy Birthday mom!” I almost cried. It was a wonderful surprise. I notice nowadays my daughter’s friends and our neighborhood children casually call me “Mom”. I feel so blessed.

Thank you everybody. It is very nice to have friends and my child(ren) to make my day brighten up.

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This morning I had a clear dream of buffalo. One male buffalo was in the living room in our house. The body fur was light brown and it had a white horn. The buffalo was friendly and calm. It looked like smiling. The buffalo didn’t come to me; instead, patiently waited for me to go to him. I asked my husband and my daughter if I should go see him and talked to him. My family told me “yes, the buffalo is waiting for you”. So, I took courage and went to him and communicated telepathically. He started living with us. We all could communicate with him telepathically.

I usually receive some messages before I wake up from dream, but this time I didn’t receive any specific messages.

So I meditated asking about the message from this buffalo. The buffalo came to me to warn me to get back to my sacred life path and life mission.

I believe one of my life mission is to write books. Believe it or not, Hay House writer’s contest took away my belief from me. From the winners’ announcement day (February 28th), I have been feeling down and disappointed that I was not needed.

I think that is why my family souls sent a buffalo in my dream and cheered me up on keep writing. When I keep writing, keep having the faith in me, it will eventually come true.

Although I don’t have my soul tribe around me (physically close to me), they are somewhere in this world in this lifetime. They might be feeling lonely same as I feel right now. I should keep on thinking of them no matter what. Eventually with my strong belief, with my power of belief, I will reconnect with them and support one another. Until the divine day comes, I will keep having faith in me and in my scared life path.

I thought I should share this message with my dear readers as well. Some of them might be feeling lonely for not having your soul tribe close to you at this moment. But they are living the same lifetime together with you somewhere in this planet Earth. Hang in there. The day when you can reconnect with them will come soon; sooner than you think.

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When I was in Japan, I was a big fan of Mitch Albom. He is one of the most well-known author in America. I read his book The Five People You Meet in Heaven and watched the movie.

Today, I happened to find the movie in Netflix, so I watched it with my family.

I love this movie. This movie has many inspiring messages throughout the movie. I am not going to tell the details to save the fun part for the people who have not watched it yet. But let me share one message from this movie.

“Each affects the other, and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one.”

― by Mitch Albom, The Five People You Meet in Heaven  

I just love this quote. Everybody’s actions and thoughts affect others. We don’t know how each of our action and thought affects others, but it does, and that’s how each of us affect the entire world. And that is why we have to be very careful of each single of our actions and thoughts.

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I am sharing this quote for reasons. Today I attended at the business class at the local community college.

I don’t like anybody park close to my car, so I found a parking spot at the corner and parked my car very close to the curb. I left enough open space from my car to the while line. But after the class, I saw somebody parked very close to my car. The person’s car tire even invaded into my territory (within my parking area). All of a sudden, I felt a rush of anger toward this car’s driver.  

But today, I took a different action and thought than before. I took a deep breath and calmed myself down. I decided to forgive this driver. After three deep breathings, I could regain my inner peace.

I was surprised at myself on how far I have come so far. If this similar thing had happened just one year ago, I would have yelled at the driver. If I yelled at the driver, that would have caused a new issue.

I hope my small effort for not keeping my anger for a long time have brought a good effect on others, somehow and some way. I believe even small efforts will make the world better.

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When I came to this country, several people told me that I am a super empathic person. I didn’t know the meaning of this word, so I thanked them for saying that anyway.

Then when I came back home, I looked up the meaning of empath. I really didn’t like it. I didn’t like people recognized me as an empath.

The truth was though, I was empathic. Super empathic.

I still clearly remember my first years. When I was small, I used to see people’s energy in color. Sometimes it was scary because from the energy color, I learned people could lie in front of other people’s face.

For example, if somebody was invited to a certain gathering, although the person was reluctant to go there, he/she would lie in front of the person who invited, by saying “thank you for inviting me. I would love to go.” One lie will bring another lie. The person will have to attend the gathering and pretend being enjoying.

When we lie, that means our outer aspects (face expression and statement) and inner aspects (true feeling that our hearts feel) have discrepancy. And these discrepancy will cause another tragic events, over and over again.

As a child, I saw many people lived like that. I, as a child at that time, felt so sad for growing up. Because I thought I would have to act the same way when I become a grown up, lying and hiding my true emotion and feeling, and live my life like that.

So, being empathic, I experienced the sadness by watching and sensing the adults’ discrepancy between their true feeling and outer expression.

I believe most young children are super empathic. In order to protect them, we, as adults, should match up our true feeling and outer expression.

It is easy and simple. When we are happy, we laugh. When we don’t feel comfortable, we express our feeling honesty, but do our best not to hurt anybody’s feeling. When we live our lie in that simple manner, we won’t make younger children to be confused

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Nowadays when I offer Reiki healing session to the client, I feel this opportunity is given to me and the client. The benefit goes to both parties.

Before I give the healing session, I perform a payer and energy cleansing process for myself. The main purpose is to ask for support not only to my spirits and angels but also to the clients’ spirits and angels for the best healing energy. And most importantly, I ask for support to allow me to become nothing but a pure pipe for the Reiki energy.

My reiki session starts before the client comes. My hands becomes very hot and ready to flow the healing energy. My thoughts stops wandering around so that I can simply enjoy the calm music and warm healing energy.

After the healing session, I always enjoy to see the client’s face skin. It gets clearer than before the session. We chat for a while about small happiness in our daily life.

This is what I really like to do. I appreciate to my clients to provide me this great opportunity.

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Interesting synchronicity again. Two of my friends asked me the same question two days in a row. They asked me what my true desire was. 

And I do know everything happens for reasons. I needed to think about the answer by myself for a better understanding about my true desire.

Last night I went to the planetarium. While I was watching stars, my mind went so calm and started flowing the travel freely in past, present, and future. My mind stopped here and there in the past where I was provided very critical life events. These were definitely beyond my ability. These were the evidences that I was not alone. My family souls were/are always with me and provide me the best opportunities at the best timing. My dream job or the situation I had longed for many years naturally came true.

Then I thought I found the answer regarding my true desire. My true desire is to be famous as a spiritual teacher and writer (specifically, I am just a messenger). I want to contribute in making a better world. But another true desire of mine is to have peace in my daily life, which I am achieving it with my dear family. I am fully enjoying this peaceful daily life with my family.

These two seem like conflicting. Once I become famous, the more I become famous and well-know, the more my work (books and lectures) become successful, the more I will get criticized by critics or by the people who are against from my belief. To be honest, I am not ready to receive all kinds of critics yet. So, in a way, I am enjoying being invisible.

Until I fully make my mind if I want to pursue my desire to be famous, or if I want to maintain my private happiness, perhaps my mind will keep flowing this direction and that direction… I guess it is okay too. It is critical for me to enjoy the process on being lost and try to find my true desire. 

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This morning, in my dream, I visited my Japanese old friend. I visited his new house and property in Kobe Japan. There are lots of soft snow all over the area. We run around laughing out loud. It was fun and relaxing dream. It reminded me to play and enjoy every moment.

He was my employer for Lakota tour in 2006 and 2007. We haven’t kept in touch since 2010.

When I worked for him and his customer as an interpreter, I was so nervous. I enjoyed the moment but at the same time I hated the moment. Because I was afraid that my boss might not like my job. I focused on how I made myself look efficient to him.

I am sure that my soul and his soul are spiritually connected and we are facing to the same direction. One of our life missions is to help Japanese people and Native people to connect, to help them for better communication and understandings. That is why we worked together. Our encounter was not coincidence.

He always visits me in spirit before he does so in the physical form.

The first one: One day, in my dream, I met one guy, and I instantly recognized his soul from many past lives.  Then later on, our encounter in physical form occurred. We met each other on the Navajo land. My dad-in-law and my employer were old friends.

The second one: His soul visited me in my dream and offered me for the interpreter job opportunity for Lakota tour, and 1-2 weeks later, it actually happened in the physical form.

The third one: One time when I lost confidence in myself (in my ability), his soul visited me in my dream and scolded me and encouraged me. And again, it happened in the physical form several days later. This type of experiences keep going on and on. I have this experience many times with other people too. But it only happens when my soul and the person’s soul have strong spiritual connection.

I don’t know what this is called exactly. Deja Vu? Rehearsal in dream world? Foresight dream?

Whatever it is called, when it happens, I like to surprise the person by saying “so, you want to tell me this??” I say what the person was about to say that before the person opens his/her mouth. I love to see their astonished face expression. Then I will tell the person “I know that, because your soul already told me this in my dream. Your soul went ahead of you in physical form.”

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Yesterday I was stuck with something. It was about my small job opportunity. Every time I went there, I came back exhausted. I thought about the reason. Perhaps, it was about the person’s sad energy. The person clung on me energetically asking for help, and that was why I felt drained every time I saw the person. Even when I am back home, the person’s sad face is around my energy field.

I didn’t want to hurt the person’s feeling. I thought very hard about the best excuse that I can use to decline the offer but I couldn’t figure it out the best excuse.

Before I went to bed last night, I saw my friend’s Facebook Page. She shares the Angel card reading almost every day. The message that she shared yesterday was “it is okay to say No whenever we need to do so.” She also mentioned that saying no will result in better outcome not only to the person him/herself but to others such as the person who is declined.

I thanked her for sharing the right timing message and confirmation.

This morning, I received a phone call and my small job opportunity was cancelled. So, interesting enough, I didn’t need to create any excuse to turn down to the person, but the person had another reason to cancel it.  

I got relieved. I thought it interesting and awed how things are going well. I don’t take this as coincident but I take it as blessing. Technically speaking, everything that happens in our daily life is blessing.

I believe I am not the only one who feels the surrounding vibration is uplifting. And I take this as the result from everybody. Everybody who currently lives on our lives as well as our angels and spirits is contributing to this vibrational uplifting.

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So, yesterday I was down because of not winning the contest. But before I went to bed, I received an email from my friend with lots of her warmhearted encouragements. While I was replying back to her, I started calming down. I ended up sending her my reply with long email.

While writing, it made me realize of my original resolution. Why do I write? It is because writing is what I love to do. My original resolution is to do what I love, what my soul loves to do.

I came to understand that I needed to remember my original resolution all the time. I write because I love to do so. My original intention is not to become famous nor to become rich from publishing my books. My original intention is to share messages and inspiration through my writing.

I will keep writing no matter what. If there is no audience, that is fine with me. As long as my soul is satisfied with my action, I am fine with it.

Of course to be honest, I still have desire to be a world well-known author so that I can share messages from spirits through my writing. But I decided to let spirits decide about the divine timing and method. I know it will come, as all my desires and dreams eventually came true in my life. I just need to stay being happy and doing what I love.

This month is my birthday month. I am ready to receive all the unexpected opportunities thrown from my family souls. They love to surprise me.

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Today was one of my biggest days in life. I felt nervous, because today was the winner’s announcement day of Hay House Writer’s Contest.

In the afternoon, I checked their Facebook page and saw the three winner’s names. But my book proposal didn’t win.

I cried. I felt sad. For not being needed.

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After cried for a while, letting go of my sad feeling, I started feeling calm down.

I guess it is fine with me.

At this moment, I am surrounded by great environment. I have my dear family. My life is peaceful with my family.

Maybe I just dreamed too much about winning the contest.

Maybe I should stop dreaming big, but instead, I should appreciate what I have and what I am provided, and continue living my life in a humble way.

Thank you to my dear friends, for your kind support and encouragements. And sorry, that my book proposal didn’t win.

But I am not going to give up on publishing my books. Someday. At a divine timing. They will be everywhere in the world…, I think.

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