We are now enjoying autumn flesh breeze and clear sky. And, not to mention, very comfortable temperature; not too hot, not too cold, just right.

When I was taking a walk in my neighborhood area, I found one bundle of clouds in only one spot. Except for this spot, the sky was clear.

As you know, spirits are good at using nature to convey messages to us. And the message varies to the person who sees and interprets it. From these clouds, you might gain some new inspiration which the message is only for you.

To me, these clouds on the left look like three persons, which represent my family; my husband, our daughter, and myself. On the right, I see two small figures. I interpreted these two beings will be two of my grandkids; a boy and a girl.

There is no rights nor wrongs when it comes to interpreting the messages from the nature. Whatever resonates with you is the right message for you, but it might not apply to other people.

Looking at clouds is one of the good ways to practice on expanding your imagination and inspiration. Enjoy it whenever you can.

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Today I went to my routine diabetic checkup. I expected my A1C to be improved because the past three months, during the summer vacation, I had enough exercise every day. However, it went up to 7.8, which is very high.

I was disappointed. I don’t have any excuses for that. I thought I did pretty well, but the result showed I didn’t.

My favorite male doctor was transferred to next town, where it is one hour drive to the office. The receptionist asked me if I still wanted to stick with him or not. I chose the easy option, which is change my doctor whomever available today at the closest office.

Maybe it was a wrong option for me. The new doctor was intense, taking time by asking millions of questions. I ended up staying at the doctor’s office for more than 1.5 hours, which is to me unbearably long. The doctor scared me a lot.

Also she gave me lots of homework. I should check my blood sugar three times a day and keep food diary. She made a follow-up appointment with me one month later, and I was told to bring the food diary and the glucose checker. The doctor’s office has the software so that just connecting to the glucose checker, they can download all the data. Whenever I am asked to do such glucose related daily tasks, it reminds me of my miscarriage. It makes me feel sad and drained. By the time I left the office, I was exhausted, depressed, and loss of hope.

On the other hand, my previous doctor never took that long in our conversation. Regardless of such a short conversation, every time when I left the doctor’s office, I was cheerful, happy, and full of hope.

The difference between the two is clear. My previous doctor believes diabetic can be reversed, the other doctors don’t believe so. I want to stick with the positive thinking doctor. I will switch back to my previous doctor from my next visits.  

I already miss his cheerful encouragement. He always had a big smile on his face, telling me “don’t worry too much. You can reverse it for sure. It is going to be totally okay. Just watch out for your diet and do enough exercise every day.” I like to hang around with an easy going person rather than a serious and intense person.   

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Today I went to the dental appointment. This year I have been working on removing any metal filling from my mouth. I had metal fillings in every corner of my mouth. I had finished two corners so far; upper and lower left. Today, the dentist worked on my lower right. For the remainder of one more unfinished area (upper right), I will work on it next year.

I feel lighter when the old metal filling was removed and replaced by tooth colored resin filling. That is the pros.

There are many cons as you can imagine. I don’t enjoy the process at all. It starts with numbing my mouth, followed by scary drilling teeth. Although I don’t feel any pain from drilling due to the numbness, I can still hear the drilling sound and vibration, which makes me feel uncomfortable. It usually takes 4 hours; going in the dental office at 8:30 am and leaving there at 12:30 pm. The fee is very expensive. The worst part comes when the numbness gets weaker. The pain in my teeth, gum, and cheek area comes stronger. On the evening of my previous two appointments, I suffered from severe headache and throwing up.

In my younger days, the metal filling was covered by the health insurance, and the fee was much cheaper than the tooth colored resin filling. Also, nobody told me the danger to have metal filling in my mouth. Therefore, I naturally selected to have metal fillings. Now that I know the danger to have metal fillings.

From my personal experiences and regrets, at least I will do my best on selecting better and wiser options for my family.   

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This morning I had a dream of a mantis. The mantis came to me and peed on me. I didn’t feel bad about it. I felt comfortable and thanked the mantis. Before I woke up, I asked my family spirits about the message through this dream. They told me they are planning to give me some surprise gifts; wonderful and spiritual ones. They didn’t tell me exactly what they would be as always, so I guess I will need to wait for that happen.

This morning at 10:38 am, I saw the partial solar eclipse. It was interesting to see the sun looking like a moon.

I don’t know what this natural awe would bring to the people. Just as the message in my dream, we can simply wait for that happen. Some people scared of eclipse bringing the end of the world and such. However, we don’t need to worry unnecessarily about negative prophecy. Remember our thoughts create our future events. Let’s believe everything will go well. Then, so it will be.

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Many of you may have heard about the solar eclipse in America. I will be able to see the partial eclipse tomorrow morning at 10:38 am here in Arizona.

Yesterday on Saturday, I felt dizzy and got extremely sleepy. I could not do anything except for laying down on the bed in the afternoon. I fall asleep around 3 pm until this morning 6 am. So I had slept for 15 hours.

Today on Sunday, all day long, I felt a vibration shift in my right ear. I kept on hearing popping sound in my right ear.  It was as if I was in the deep inside of ocean and suddenly being pulled up to the air. Something like a sudden energy shift. My daughter felt the same way as I did in her ears.

I know this is one of the influence from the solar eclipse. I look forward to being here on the Earth at this special time.

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As one of my morning ritual, I enjoyed reading the newsletter from Japanese publisher. Today, the newsletter writer introduced us the prayer that she used to say at her school. Probably she went to the Christian school. I never heard of this prayer until now. Here it comes.

The Serenity Prayer by Reinhold Niebuhr

O God, give us

serenity to accept what cannot be changed,

courage to change what should be changed,

and wisdom to distinguish the one from the other.

It resonates with me so well. I tend to try to change others, which I cannot change. I cannot change any outer conditions such as environment neither. Changing others or outer conditions are not my responsibility, and I have to accept that.

I am responsible for constantly changing myself to a better direction, and it is the only thing that I can change. Staying at the same place or same situation makes me feel comfortable and safe. So, in order to change something about myself such as my habits or way of thinking, I need courage.

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Today my daughter came back with excitement. Her class had a special guest speaker. The speaker is a female Caucasian who had lived in People’s Republic of Bangladesh, and shared some information about this country. The speaker wore the local outfit which was totally new to the American students. Amoung all, the most shocking information for them was about their custom of using hands. They eat with their right hand and clean themselves with their left hand and water after going to the toilet.

My daughter said it was fun to know the different culture. All the students enjoyed this guest speaker’s presentation. Everybody was so curious to a new culture, and they had so many questions to ask.

I was happy to hear that. Learning different culture, especially in younger years, is helpful to learn to be flexible. Young kids are still pure and they don’t have any prejudice toward foreigners. As we age, we all accumulate certain belief that only our culture and our way of living are right, and others are wrong. However, that kind of thinking is wrong. We all have different culture and belief, and that is good to make our world diverse and unique. The important thing is to respect one another and never deny others just because they are different from us.

One of these days, I will volunteer to my daughter’s school to be a guest speaker and share Japanese culture and the way of life.

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My daughter’s teacher of this year sent out an announcement to parents. She is having a hard time in teaching because her students excessively talk during the class. According to my daughter, most students don’t listen to the teacher, simply because it is not fun that much.

On the other hand, the teacher of last year seemed to be good at teaching. My daughter often told me the teacher taught in a unique way, so that it was easy for them to understand. Also, the teacher taught in a funny way, so that everybody in the class laughed a lot. The students seldom disturbed the teacher because they didn’t want to miss any fun parts.

I can easily imagine the teacher often made the students laugh. I have chatted with my daughter’s teacher of last year. She told me she always thought about the unique teaching way so that her students would not get bored. Her eyes are always shining just like kids. She is full of curiosity. And it is her curiosity that makes her way of explaining things unique and funny.

When it comes to communicating with others, we need to keep getting the audience’s attention. In order to make it happen, instead of throwing a fast ball all the times, we sometimes have to change to a curve ball or a slow ball unexpectedly. The teacher needs to use some technique to keep students’ attention by throwing a variety types of throwing balls.

This can be applied to other things in our daily life. Sometimes it might be fun to detour instead of keep going to the fixed route. We might find something new unexpectedly. Life should be fun, right? 

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Today I reconnected with one of my good friends. We haven’t contacted each other for a while. Actually we haven’t talked for more than 9 years. However, once we started talking on Skype, our time blank was filled quickly We didn’t noticed one hour passed while we were chatting and catching up with each other’s recent life. It was so great to reconnect with him. And I realized how lucky I am to have such a great friend in my life.

Human connection is like the rise and fall of the tide. Even if the connection with somebody seems to be faded away for a while, the nature will bring us back and reconnect together at the best timing, in case the two persons have strong spiritual connection.

I appreciate this friendship with him. Today I learned I should do my best to keep in touch with my precious friends.

So, today, I would like to suggest you to contact with your friend whom you haven’t contacted for a while. Just send a quick note to tell the person how is the person doing and you miss the person. You might be able to reconnect with somebody special in your life.

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I am currently taking an online class to be a successful public speaker. In one of the lecture, the instructor shared his 150 favorite quotes.

My favorite one is definitely this.

“When I look back on all these worries, I remember the story of the old man who said on his deathbed that he had had a lot of trouble in his life, most of which had never happened.” By Winston Churchill

Mark Twain has similar one. “I’ve had a lot of worries in my life, most of which never happened.”

I love these quotes because it is universal to many people. This applied to me as I had lived my younger days like that. I had a tendency to worry a lot even for things that have not happened to me yet.

I cannot spot where I got this habit from. Most likely it came from one of the social life in schools or work places. Maybe it is a habit that urges us to prepare in advance for something emergency or unexpected accidents.

Nowadays though, I don’t live like that anymore. I worry less than before. When I stop worrying, I started receiving benefits. Such benefits are falling asleep right away, waking up comfortably, or feeling lighter on my shoulder.

I owe a lot to my family for my improvement of not to worry too much. After I started living my life together with my family, I have started thinking about being surrounded by my ally. No matter what happens to me or us, I don’t need to fight alone anymore. I have at least two more strong souls to fight with me. I can handle anything with my family. I don’t need to worry in advance. I will think about it once it happens.

It applies to everybody. Even if you live alone, or if you are single, you are never alone. Technically speaking, you are surrounded by your family spirits 24/7. When something happens, they will think with you and for you, about what to do for that. So, don’t worry, stay happy.

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