This morning I was watching some comedy show at Youtube. I was not planning to watch Doreen Virtue’s this week’s message video, and I don’t watch it every week, but for some reason, this morning, I had a strong feeling that I needed to watch her this week’s video. So I did.

Interestingly, the second card that Doreen pulled was “Books”. Doreen conveyed the messages to the people who are guided to write a book, but currently focuses too much on the future. They worry about who is going to buy their books, marketing, and money regarding the book. And the message was to stop worrying and just focus on service, and then, the service will fulfill them. The concluded message was “Just write the book, and the rest will be taken care of.”

I loved her messages. Thank you Doreen. This message was the one that I needed to hear the most, at this moment.

I’ve been worrying too much about marketing. I’ve been concerning about who is going to read my books. I also worry about even this short article. Once in a while, I wonder if there is any reader who keeps checking my homepage and reading my article regularly, hopefully every day. Since I don’t have any feedback or comment from anybody recently, I almost thought about stopping writing a short article.

So, at this moment, what I need the most is to motivate myself. I need to encourage myself to keep going.

Perhaps I need to go back to my original point. I write articles and books because writing is what I love to do.

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When I was waiting for my prescription medicines at the pharmacy, I happen to meet one of my old friends. She was there to pick up the birth control pills for her daughter who is 18 years old. Her daughter has a boyfriend. The mom concerns about unexpected pregnancy, so she suggested her daughter to take the birth control pill.

When I was at the junior high school, I belonged to the swimming club. There, many girls were taking some medication to adjust their monthly period for their convenience. They wanted to avoid it to come during the school trip or the swimming competition day. They told me it was very easy for them to get the medicine. All they needed was to go to the hospital and had a small conversation with the doctor. No actual physical examination was needed. We were at that time 13 to 15 years old. We barely had our period started.

I am personally against of taking any kind of hormone medication. I don’t think injecting artificial or other animals’ hormone into human’s body, is good for the body. Especially for teenagers, they should pay extra cautions to maintain their natural vital function.

I like my monthly period. I never thought of adjusting it on my convenience. Every time I have my monthly period, I feel cleansed. I feel happy to be included myself as a part of nature. It is amazing that my body gets balanced with the nature such as Moon. And my emotion gets affected by the moon phase. At the new moon, I feel calmed and generous. At the full moon, I feel overwhelmed and need more sleep and quiet time.

I like to live in an old style, following our ancestors’ life style. I prefer to avoid any kind of unnatural hormone medicine.

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During my daughter’s spring vacation, I went to bed with her around 8 pm and fall asleep with her. We wake up at 7 pm, so we sleep around 11 hours. I know it is unbelievable for an adult to have such long hour sleep every day.

I did this for the purpose of experiment. I want to share three advantages that I found from this experiments.

The first advantage is that my emotion stays calm. I don’t have any worries or concerns at this moment, so that I could fly back to my spiritual homeland easily and quickly.

The second advantage is that I can have a vivid dream. I had very clear dreams with detailed colors. And most importantly, I could remember these dreams clearly.

The third advantage is that my body gets easily functions as it supposed to. After good sleep, my glucose level stays unbelievably good.

I should appreciate my daughter to have these advantages from good sleep. Without her spring vacation, I would not think about sleeping with her for such a long hour.

It might be a good idea to change your life style pattern. By doing something unusual, you might be benefitted from unexpected advantages.

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Recently I met one mom with a little boy at the local library. We ended up playing together at the park on the day, and the following day, we went to the park and enjoyed our picnic lunch together.

Her little boy is three years old. He didn’t have preschool to go, so that the mom and the boy stayed together all day long, every day. The mom told me that since her son was born, she hadn’t had her own alone time at all. She made a big sigh while saying that. I remember those days. It was tough for me.

During my daughter’s spring vacation, I took her to the park every day. There were many moms and babies or young children. Among them, there was one mom and one girl whose age was around 5 or 6.

The daughter seemed like she peed in her pants by accident. The mom started scolding her daughter. Her voice was very loud and in a very mean way. For some reason, the mom’s voice sounded like desperately sad.

While I was listening this stranger mom’s yelling at her daughter, I felt sad. It reminded me of my previous years. Those days I didn’t have any family members or friends close to me, so that I didn’t have anybody to ask for help. I was stressed out about all the new things; taking care of my child.

From this experience, in the future when my daughter gets married and has babies, I would like to be there for her. Whenever she needs some advice or help, I would definitely like to be there for her.

If you know anybody who recently had a new born or young child, please offer small help to the mom. I know even a tiny small help will be a great help for the mom.

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Today the maintenance person came to my house and switched a swamp cooler ON and turned the gas heater OFF. Thank god, with this cooler, I will be able to survive without constant headache from the hot temperature.

The area where I live is located close to the Mexican border. It gets very hot, starting from middle of January.

In my back yard garden, three years ago I planted one avocado seed. It has now grown to almost same height as my height. At the front planting area, next to the entrance door, our rose trees have many rose flowers blooming.

To me, May and June are the toughest months. It gets very hot and dry. I love cold weather and I miss winter, which is very short in this area. On the other hand, my daughter loves hot weather and looks forward to summer. She is full of energy, just like summer.

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Today I received an email from the editorial company. The founder of the editorial company was a former editor at Hay House. The email announced their clients won the prizes in the writer’s contest. The contest was the one I applied.

In Hay House Writer’s Workshop contests, the founder of the editorial company advertised her company and their editorial services. She encouraged the event audience as well as the online learners to hire professional editors, even for the book proposal.

She mentioned about their editorial fee for the average book length will be around $7,500. I am not sure about the editorial fee for the book proposal, but it could start from $1,000 up to $5,000, depending on how much the editor need to help an applicant.

Up until here, it sounds normal, right? However, when you hear that three winners out of six awards were their clients, would you still feel it normal? I thought it is a huge rate. It is 50%. One out of two was their client. So, paying for the professional editorial service from her company slightly raised the rate of winning the contest.

When I read this email announcement from the editorial company, to be honest, I got shocked. I got shocked to know that many people paid for the editorial services, even for the book proposal.

I felt like that in the war area, those people who paid for the professional editors wore an appropriate armor with an appropriate weapon while I was wearing just a casual T-shirt and pants with holding a handmade bow and arrow. I got embarrassed to apply for the contest without any professional support.

As for me, I just prayed for miracle to happen. I didn’t think about hiring the professional editors to win at the contest. Hiring the professional editors might be a small test on how serious I was to win the contest.

I admit that I got shocked. But also, I am thankful for this email announcement. It opened my eyes. At least it asked me how serious I am for publishing my books.

My parents told me very often that paying for study will never be useless. They told me school fee and class fee are the most solid investments to myself. Everything that I study or learn will stay with me forever. Paying for the professional editorial service will be the same, the investiment for myself.

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This morning I had a clear dream. I was killed by a gun shot by a stranger. I even saw my soul separated away from my physical body. And I watched my family and other people surrounding my old physical body. I could clearly see and hear what everybody reacted about my physical death.

I felt light as being just a spirit, without heavy physical body. I did not have any regret about this lifetime.

Right after I woke up, I was happy for this dream. The death in dream indicates a rebirth. Some unexpected opportunities will come up to change the environment, and that will bring a great success and happy results.

I am currently having peaceful days. I don’t have any complaints about the current life. But deep inside, I know I will need to take some new actions to have some changes.

I don’t know what will come up to me, but I am open to unexpected opportunities to guide me to a great success.

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The other day I attended the book signing at the local library. The author was a local resident. I was able to talk with the author and asked some questions regarding publishing.

She has published six picture books so far. Her first book was published in 2010. Since then, she publishes her book at the pace of once a year. She published her book through the self-publishing.

From the conversation with her, I could tell that publishing books is not that difficult as I think. It was good to know. However, she told me another thing which made me feel overwhelmed. It was that once the book is published, the author is the one who has to sell them by themselves.

Since our meeting, I have noticed how she vigorously did marketing on her books. I see her at the other local library or other event area, as well as the local farmer’s market. It was obvious the more the author attends an event or shows herself in the public area, the more people buy her books.

I am overwhelmed by the idea that I will need to do the same (vigorous marketing of my books) once I publish my books. When I think about it, I feel like giving up on my dream; publishing my books. At this moment, I don’t have confidence to sell my books as other authors do.

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Recently I was given one job opportunity. It was a private helper for an elderly woman. The job was to help her for cleaning the house, laundry, and errands. It was only for two hours, once a week.

It was my wish came true. Although I never mentioned about my wish to anybody, even to my husband, I simply had thought about it in my mind.

In these several years, some of my friends got this type of part time job. Every time I heard from them about their part time job, I envied them. I thought it would be easy job.

Another friends of mine mentioned about their hotel maid job. I was amazed when I visited their house. They told me they learned how to clean, especially cleaning around water area such as bathroom and kitchen, from their maid job. Their house was cleaned thoroughly, just like a luxurious hotel room. I secretly wished for this type of part time job opportunity to improve my cleaning technique.

Therefore, when the helper’s job opportunity came up to me, I gladly accepted it.  

However, things did not go well. It didn’t take me long to notice that my employer (the elderly woman) had a negative thinking habit. She started freely speaking about any kinds of complaints. The complaints were not about me or my cleaning, but about something in her daily life or her surrounding people (her friends and family). Sometimes she complained even about her past events that happened to her many, many years ago; 40-50 years ago. Perhaps she never handled all her negative feelings at that time, and that is why she still holds on to the negative feelings for all these years up until now.

I noticed every time when I came back from her house, I felt energetically drained. I felt angry or sad. I knew these feelings were not mine. I sucked up her negative feelings.

She often called me too. I didn’t like it because it derived my alone time or the precious time with my family. The conversation with her on the phone always drained me.

When I started thinking about the best excuse to quit this job, one thing opened up for me. During my daughter’s spring vacation, she didn’t allow me to take my daughter to her house. I thought I could use this as the best reason for me to quit this job. My daughter will have another spring vacation in next month, and starting the following next month, the long summer vacation (almost three months duration) will come up. I thought it is a sign that I should quit from this job, so I did.

I mentioned to her that I would not be able to keep coming to her house regularly due to the upcoming school off days. After I talked to her about my resignation of this job, I got so much relieved.

I know there are some people who can handle that kind of things very well, instead of sucking up the negative energy and suffering from it like I do. I hope she will have a new helper who loves cleaning and can handle listening to negative people’s talking.

From this experience, I learned one thing. I should pay attention what I ask for, even just a thought in my mind.

Even though you don’t pray or say out loud to someone, when you think about something, when you wish for something, it can be activated in the real world. In recent environment where vibration is getting higher than before, even a tiny thought can be activated easier and quicker than we expect. So, let’s pay attention to what you think. I think the best way is that to think only what you truly want to have it.

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Starting from today, my daughter’s school is on spring vacation for 10 days. America does not have many national holidays as Japan, but when it comes to off days at school, America has more days off at school than Japan.

My daughter loves beauty. She loves fancy stuff. She loves feminine stuff. She is good at creating something. She has artistic fingers. Interesting to know that her gifts are not what I have. She is good at drawing a picture and selecting the color matching. She is also good at using scissors. As a matter of fact, she could use scissors very well at the age of two. Her preschool teachers were astonished at the fact.

Knowing her artistic gifts, I casually asked her to give me a haircut. She said she would love to.  I asked her to trim my back hair about 4 inches (10 cm) and have a slight trim on my bang. She did a wonderful job. I am so satisfied with her haircut. She still does not know how to make layers yet. But I am sure, once I show the method on the Youtube video, she will learn it quickly.

We also played a “beauty salon”. I was the customer and my daughter was the beauty stylist. She pretended to put a make up on my face, do a hair, and put a manicure.

After I played with my daughter like that all day long, I felt like I had been in spa. I felt relaxed and refreshed.  

I am looking forward to my daughter’s future career. I wonder what kind of career she is going to pursue for the future.

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