I sweat a lot. When I was in my late 20s, I worked as a sales person and wore a dress shirt and a business suit jacket during the work. I hated my sweating, especially in my under arms. Younger version of me thought my excessive sweating as a curse.

In such days, I seriously had thought about having a surgery to get rid of sweat glands in arm pits. My boyfriend-at-that-time and my friends were strongly opposed to my idea. They persuaded me not to have the surgery. They said sweating is necessary for maintaining good health. So I refrained from having the surgery.

Since then, I have studied about human body’s vital energy and immune systems. Our body naturally tries to maintain our good health by cleansing energy. Our body functions on constant circulation, by bringing in fresh energy and taking out used energy. Sweating is one of the most beneficial functions in our body. 

As a result of my research and study, now, 47 years old version of me think of my excessive sweating as a blessing. I appreciates for my body and sweating function.

We are designed to sweat. Everybody needs to sweat for the energy circulation in our body. So, sweating is good. And, I truly appreciate my boyfriend-at-that-time and my friends to stop me having the surgery.

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I went to the rehabilitation center. The pain in my left arm has been so bad to the extent that I cannot ignore the pain anymore.

I hate going to the hospital so I was reluctant to go there as usual. But today’s experience in the rehabilitation center was totally different. Everybody that I met there was polite and nice. And most importantly, they were helpful. It is always good to dealt with nice people from the beginnng to the end.

My physical therapists was a young female, maybe in her 20s. After the diagnosis, she treated me the dry needling.

It was my first time to receive the dry needling treatment. It is similar to acupuncture. Dry needling is used to treat myofascial pain. It came with slight pain with the needle poking, but I felt the point where energy was clogged now started going smoothly.

I still cannot say my pain is all gone, but at least, I made a progress in moving my arm.

I have four more treatments coming up. I hope through these treatments, my pain will all go away and I will get back to a normal state.

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Today my essential oil I ordered online arrived. When I picked up the box, it smelled so good. I mean, so very good. When I opened the box, I found that damaged bottle. The essential bottle was completely broken and the glass was scattered everywhere in the box.

All of a sudden, one of my old memories came back to me.

When I was in Japan, I was communicating with my husband through airmails. In those days, 15 years ago, my husband’s house area did not have internet access. He didn’t have fax either. So, the only way we communicated was through airmails.

One day when I received his airmail, the letter envelop and the papers smelled so good. I knew he was not the type of person who puts essential oil or fragrance in letter envelop and papers. Since I could not ask him the reason via phone or email, I didn’t know the reason.

I wondered why they smelled so good. They smelled like fresh rose flowers. The fragrance was so uplifting that they made my day. I still remember the happy feeling.

Today’s experience, my essential oil bottle broken while being delivered, gave me the answer. So, my husband’s letter was located close to somebody’s essential oil or fragrance while they were delivered, at that time.

My conclusion made me feel happy. So, I received my essential oil bottle broken, and it can be said unfortunate experience. However, my essential oil’s wonderful fragrance might have made somebody in somewhere in this world very happy.

It is interesting to see one thing from a different angle. Even a tiny event in a daily life might make somebody happy without your being noticed.  

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One more week left in March. This month was a hectic month for me. The weather changes drastically. One day, the temperature was raised to 97F (32C) so we turned on a swamp cooler and wore a tank top and short pants. The next day, we had a windy and rainy day, and the temperature dropped to 52F (11C) so that we turned on a heater and wore a jacket and long pants.

My daughter had 10 days spring vacation and we played together all day long. These 10 days went by so quickly.

As usual, March is my pollen allergy month. I suffered from sneezing and sniffling for days and nights. Thank god, by now, I am getting recovered from these symptoms. March went by like a spring storm.

Since I was small, my favorite season is winter. I love cold weather. I love fresh cold air that our breath gets steamy white. I hate summer and hot weather. When spring comes, I get depressed getting ready for upcoming unfavorable season; hot summer. When autumn comes, I get energized getting reading for upcoming favorable season; cold winter.

Speaking of weather, my dad used to tell me to see people and things in all the four seasons. When I date with a boyfriend, my dad would tell me to see his personality in all seasons. Before I determine if he is truly good for me or not, I should experience his different seasonal personality. My dad would tell me “he might be nice and happy in spring, but he might change into cold and mean in winter. And you have your own tendency depending on each season.” My dad used to tell about other things too, such as in interested study field.

Those days I wouldn’t listen to him seriously, but now, it makes sense to me. It is for sure beneficial to observe people or interested study/field for all the four seasons. It is also beneficial for us to observe ourselves and analyze the pattern depending on each season. It helps to get to know ourselves.

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Recently I kept on having a clear dream almost every day. The dreams always show something symbolic. At first I didn’t understand the meaning. When I see the only one symbol, I would not understand the true meaning and true message.

I write down the dream diary every day. I always add the feeling that I felt in the dream along with the feeling after I woke up.

Today, I carefully took a look of my dream diary, and then asked for my family souls to show me clearer message during my meditation.

And I finally found out. Their message was simple. Come out from shyness.

These days I have been feeling lonely. I feel lonely because I haven’t met my spiritual tribe yet. My dear friend told me that unless I put myself out in the public, unless I put myself in a vulnerable place, my spiritual tribe cannot find me, because they are too hiding from public.

I honestly don’t know exactly how I should come out to the public.

My dear family souls, please guide me my responsibilities. What can I do? How may I serve people? How can I reconnect with my spiritual tribe so that we can support and encourage each other? I know it will be a group of people. And I know once I meet them, I will instantly recognize them as my spiritual tribe.

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I watched the movie “The Abundance Factor” directed by Mr. Riley Dayne.

Toward the ending of the movie, the interviewees were asked a “what if” question. What if you can go back to the past and tell “20 years old you” any message, what would you tell him/her from the point where you are right now? For your information, these interviewees were in their 40s and above.

Their answers were interesting. They would tell younger version of themselves that “Chill out: everything will turn out okay”, “You are doing just fine”, “Enjoy everything”, or “I forgive you whatever you have done”.

One man said he would not change anything even if he is given opportunities to change things. He believes everything was needed to make current him. I agree with him. I believe all the things that I went through was needed to make the current me. I just don’t want to go through them again, so I need to learn from them.

Interesting, isn’t it? When seeing ourselves from current us to younger us, we can be very generous, by sending us unconditional love and forgiving us for our silly mistakes. Even while we are alive, we can act like our spiritual guides.

Then, why can’t we do so from current us to current us? Most people are strict on themselves. They keep hitting the whip to themselves. But as the future version you would tell you, chill out; everything is going fine.

Please ask yourself this question. If you can be generous and kind to younger version you, then, please do so to current version you as well. Let’s know, everything will turn out as they should be.

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Today I found somebody used my email address and emailed me. I learned it is called spoofing. I got panicky and changed password right away.

After some research, I run into one article. The article writer said “if you get spoofed, stay calm. Just delete it and move on.”

He wrote the reasons why. When you find your email address spoofed, if you open the email and do lots of research, following the instructions here and there, that will cause another tragedy. That will cause another spam mail activated or something.

The writer also stated that “it is not your fault. It is everywhere.”

I thought this can be applied to anything. No matter how hard you try to avoid getting influenced by negative energy, as long as you live in a community, you will for sure get influenced by negative energy. It is everywhere. People get negative feeling and spread around. In a workplace, grocery store, school, park, or neighborhood.

Whenever you run into someone who has negative energy and influences you, all you can do is to do your best. Shake it off, take a deep breath in from father universe and breath out unnecessary energy back to mother earth. Mother Earth takes care of it by recycling used energy and gives us back fresh energy through plants.

So, no matter what happens, let’s not get bothered by external factors. All we can do is keep moving forward.

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This morning I went to see the Ophthalmologist for the diabetes eye exam. My nurse was extremely rule and arrogant. I don’t know what was wrong with her, but she kept on treating me really badly.

I noticed one slight improvement in me. Before, maybe me one years ago, I would get irritated by this rude person. Today, however, I was totally fine. I took a couple of deep breathes and was able to calm myself down to normal state. Instead of getting affected by the rude person, I stayed being calm and observed this person.

I thought about what is the meaning of interfering with this rude person. Perhaps, one meaning is to recognize my improvement and congratulate myself for being able to stay calm. And the other meaning is to let me recognize that if I don’t want to be treated rudely by medical staff members, I should avoid coming to the hospital as much as I can.

The medical staff can be rude and mean because they have to deal with sick people every day. It is understandable. So, my conclusion is simple. I want to avoid coming to the hospital as much as I can.

Therefore, I will need to commit myself to positively proceed to maintain my good health. My small but consistent efforts will be doing daily exercise, eating healthy and moderately, and maintaining my calm state.

I guess I should appreciate for this rude nurse to make me realize some findings today.

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I am watching the The Truth About Cancer: A Global Quest, Day 2, directed by Mr. Ty Bollinger. All the information is very eye opening.

Along with watching the show, some of my personal experiences pops up to my conscious.

In the show, one girl answered the interview, saying she was forced to have chemotherapy. I think we all have experienced a strong pressure from the community and hospital staff to receive the same treatment as others. Once you refuse the treatment, many different staff members come trying to persuade you to take it, by putting strong pressure.

Here is one of my personal experiences. I knew vaccines are very bad for babies. I wanted to avoid any vaccines for my daughter. But I also learned that not having vaccines will cause my daughter troubles, such as not being accepted by public schools or even by public preschools.

Anotehr example. During my labor, I was taking some homeopathic remedies in the labor room. When one of the nurse knew that, she warned me to stop taking homeopathic remedies right away, otherwise they would kick me out from the hospital. I couldn’t believe what I heard. Not only form this nurse, but also I experienced many, many unpleasant instructions from medical staff members. That is why I am reluctant to go to the hospital.

In this show, they shared the information that mammography causes cancer. Actually I’ve heard this many times when I was in Japan. That is why I didn’t have one. Once I moved to America, every time I went to see a doctor for annual checkup, they strongly recommend mammography checkup. One American female doctors were very good at persuading me. She looked into my eyes and suggested me to take one. I can tell she believes mammography can help finding cancer at the early stage and the early discover of cancer is the only way to save the patient’s life.

So, I made an appointment of mammography. It was three years ago, 2014. As the appointment days was coming closer, I started hearing the clear voice telling me not to take mammography checkup. The voice came from my family souls. I trusted my family souls and canceled the appointment.

I don’t fully trust what the doctors or nurses say. Especially when they try to persuade me something relates to medication or treatment, I tune into my gut feeling. It is beyond the logical thinking. Just a feeling. And the feeling is always faint. Very subtle sigh. I believe I am responsible for my body and health. Instead of accepting everything doctors and nurses say, we should listen and honor to our gut feeling first, and make a decision whether to accept or refuse.

In this show, the director commented that his intention of this show is not to blame medical staff. There are many good people working in the medical industry. He emphasizes that the system is broken. And that is why he is sharing this show to educate people, so that at least people know their right to accept or refuse a certain medical service. I totally agree with him. I appreciate him for sharing this show.

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Today March 21st is the day when we enter to a new cycle. The Sabina symbol of March 21st is Aries 1st degree. It is describes as “A woman rises out of water, a seal rises and embraces her.” My horoscope teacher mentioned that after going through one cycle ending of pieces 30th degree, we go through a certain blank stage. It is pitch black so that we cannot know what will be there in a newly coming cycle. However, we cannot go back to the old cycle anymore. Only way that we can take is to take courage and jump into a new cycle. This degree is telling me “once you jump in, you will get embraced.” That means once you take courage to jump in to a new environment, you will be okay because you will receive expected supports.

Today I started watching The Truth About Cancer: A Global Quest directed by Mr. Ty Bollinger. I personally and honestly believe that cancer can be healed without surgery or any western medication. And I support his work and effort.

In Japan, a Japanese doctor, Dr. Makoto Kondo, has suggested that one should not fight against cancer. I agree and support his voice. Cancer may kill, but I would choose to live the remainder of my life without any extra suffer from not beling myself.

I personally believe the choice is absolutely up to the patient on whether taking radical surgery and chemotherapy or making effort on finding alternative methods such as completely changing diet and life style. 

Right before I went to bed, I received a message from one of my Facebook friends. She forwarded a message that most cereals such as Lucky Charms contain Trisodium phosphate as ingredient. In the forwarded video, a guy who loves his kids mentioned about the danger in the cereals in his panicky voice tone. After a little research, people already talked about this topic a couple of years ago, and the company officially replies that it is an approved food additive in the U.S., European Union and other countries of the world.

But all in all, today is the jump day. So, it is understandable that people get a little freaked out about their new findings. It might be the influence of the energy of entering to a new cycle. I think, though, it is absolutely our responsibility to be well educated about our modern food and medical situation. Each of us should be a smart consumer and patient.

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