Today I had a dream. I was in the moving train. All of a sudden, I jumped off from the train. Right after I woke up, I asked my family spirits about the message. I received the block of thoughts that I seemed to be given up on my small business. They wanted me not to give it up.

Indeed, I haven’t done anything to improve my small business so far this year. I have been thinking about forgetting about my small business. There are some of my acquaintances who started their small business before me. They have shown their progress. I have notified their progresses such as their newsletters, new Facebook Pages, teaching classes in local areas, and even broadcasting in Facebook events. Every time I saw their progresses and efforts, I am happy for them. But at the same time, I think of me not making efforts at all.

I went to swimming pool in the morning. I like going there in the morning, because I am the only one in the pool. I like floating myself on the back, simply enjoying the scenery. I watch a clear blue sky, thin layered white crowds, which are in a unique shape, and some birds coming to the surface of water to drink water.  

While I was relaxing, I noticed one repeating phrase from the music on the radio. The song said “Don’t you ever give up on your dreams.” I never heard this song before, so I don’t know whose song this is.

I know that my family spirits are good at manipulating radio to send me a message. So, I took this as a message from my family spirits.

After I came back home, I registered to one class for small business owners; How to Develop Your Customer. It’s a small step for me. Better than nothing, right? I will take a step forward little by little, but never stop.

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I wrote down about my daughter being featured on the local newspaper in May, last month. It was her first time on the newspaper. In the picture, she was with other several classmates and her two teachers. She was standing in the center of other people. I know her personality. She does not aggressively stand in the center of people. When I saw the picture, I instantly knew somebody asked her to stand in the center of the people for the picture.

And, one month later, today, my daughter was featured on the local newspaper again. This time, in the picture, she was standing alone in the center of the picture along with her art work. The picture was even bigger than last time.

My daughter looks shy, always maintaining her humble and quiet demeanor. So, these two experiences being featured in the newspaper are the evidence that she was shining and caught the editor’s attention.

I have the similar experience. When I was 13 years old, I attended in the camping that the local prefecture held. The local television crews joined us for the 3 nights and 4 days camping. They shot the videos of us for the upcoming television show.

Most participants desired to be on the television show, so they made their efforts on expressing themselves whenever they had opportunities. As for me, I didn’t want to be featured on the television show. So, whenever the camera came toward me, I quickly hid myself behind somebody’s back. Whenever I had an interview from the television crew, I made a quick answer in cold and unfriendly attitude. I never thought they liked my quick and unfriendly answers.

On the on-air day, I didn’t even bother to watch the television program.

While I was attending a swimming club activity on that morning, many fellow club members told me that they watched the program. They also mentioned I kept on appearing in the program.

On next day, one of my fellow club member let me watch the program that he recorded on the VCR tape.

I watched the program. Indeed, I appeared several times. I still don’t know why the television director choose me to be on the program. I guess I was somewhat shining and caught their attention. It was my television debut.

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I went to see a dental appointment.

When I sat down in the dental office chair, the nurse gave me a television remote, a blanket, and a comfy pillow. It was unusual. They never gave any of them for a dental cleaning appointment. So, I thought this appointment would take for long. I went in the office at 8:30 am and left at noon. I stayed there for three hours and half. By the time I got out from the office, I was totally exhausted.

I have many metal crowns and fillings in my molars. They were treated when I was in my 20s and early 30s. Since the crowns and fillings of tooth color were not covered by the insurance company and they were expensive, so I had no option except for metal ones in those days. I have always hated to have metals in my mouth.

So, today’s treatment was to change my metal crown and filling in my left lower molars into tooth colored resins.

Since I haven’t done any of dental drilling work for more than two decades, I was so scared without knowing by myself. Even before the drilling treatment, I felt my eyes shedding tears very quietly.

The result was great. I love the new look of my molar tooth.

Perhaps, nobody notices my small improvement. But to me, this small improvement gives me confidence and relief. It is good for me mentally and physically. It is good not only for teeth but also for total me holistically. 

In order to completely change metals into tooth colored resin, I will have to put up with this long and painful work three more times. I look forward to my further improvement.　

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I cannot believe it has been one year since my husband had his Navajo traditional ceremony.

My family had gone through tough days last year, and we decided to have a Navajo traditional peace way ceremony.

It started with a protection ceremony with arrow heads. It followed to a cleansing ceremony with yucca soap, a smoking ceremony with mountain tobacco, a sand painting ceremony with corn pollen and buck skin. Then, it led to the all-night prayer in Navajo chant. The ceremony started the night of June 5th and ended at the dawn of June 7th 2016.

During the ceremony, I kept having a same vision over and over again. The vision was that three brown bears who kept approaching to me. The three bears looked like a family of three; dad, mom, and child, just like us. When I had the vision, I felt comfortable and happy.

I mentioned my vision to the medicine man. He assured that the bears represented protection, and that my family and I would be well protected.

Since the ceremony, our life situation got well gradually, taking days and months. Now we have finally reached at peaceful days where we can somewhat appreciate for these tough days as life challenges.  

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My daughter has a habit to eat breakfast with watching a cartoon show on the iPad. When she does that, it takes forever for her to finish eating only one slice of toast. So, this morning, I told her to eat her breakfast without watching iPad.

During her eating, I was moving here and there to finish some chores. Then I started hearing my daughter’s laughter. It sounded the same as she watches a cartoon show.

I asked her if she was watching iPad. She replied “nope.”

I wondered what made her laugh if it was not a cartoon show. I stopped my chore and went to see her at the dining table.

She was still laughing and watching outside. When I watched outside through the dining window, now I noticed the reason why she was laughing so hard.

We have rose trees next to the dining window. On the tree branch, there were two little birds singing. They seemed like singing as if they recognized my daughter as their audience. They were so cute. I also joined in my daughter’s laughter.

There two little birds made our day for sure. Perhaps they were sent from spirits as divine entertainers.

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I went to swimming pool with my family. The water color was clear blue.

I enjoyed floating my body on my back in the water and looking at the sky. The sky was gentle blue. There were some thin layered clouds. They looked like feathers.

With my body floating on my back on the water surface, I started moving my legs and created water splashes. I was in awe to the scenery. The water splashes were sparkling with gentle sun light.

In my background, one girl kept on saying “I am a dolphin. I am a dolphin.” Her voice sounded like a gentle meditation music.

I truly enjoyed the moment surrounded by blue. With every aspect combined, I was in “a moment of bliss.”

I believe our daily life is full of bliss moments.    

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Has anybody experienced any wrong charges due to computer communication error in these couple of days? For me, I went through three errors. I was charged the wrong charge from the credit card, I received the duplicated invoices in the water bill, and my auto insurance payment was rejected for unknown reasons. Nobody knew the exact reason of these rejections. I talked to the credit card company and the bank, and they could not figure it out the reasons of rejections. These issues started from June 2nd and finally resolved yesterday June 8th. Everything dealt with the communication error between computers through the Internet.

My husband went through the similar error that he was charged three times by mistake. He talked to the merchandise. He felt the merchandise tried to the right procedure, but for some reasons, it went wrong.

Combining together, we went through four errors in total regarding communication error.

First, I wondered if we were in the Mercury retrograde duration. After I checked the dates, it was not. So, what were the causes of these computer communication error, I wonder.

That made me think about the difference of monetary system between my younger days and current days. In my younger days, I used mainly cash for shopping. Even after I became an adult, I preferred to using cash. I seldom used credit cards.

After I moved to America, for these five years or so, my payment method has completely changed from cash to credit cards. In recent years, I heavily depend on credit cards.

While I was writing this article, one message popped into my head. They happened to warn us to be alert, rather than fully depending on computers and credit cards.

That can be applied to everything that we take it for granted for its convenience. We should pay extra caution to convenient things. Let’s not fully depend on machines or computers.  

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Today’s dream was about a butterfly.

A big pink butterfly came frying in front of me. I knew this butterfly was sent as a messenger from family spirits. I gently reached out my both hands. The butterfly came into my hands. Then, I reached my ear to the butterfly. The butterfly conveyed the message to me. The message was simple as this.

Everything is going well.

I love this message. It reminds me that happiness lays in our ordinal daily life. 

My daughter has pink butterfly wings. Maybe I should borrow these wings and dance around to express my appreciation and joy to my family spirits. They will be happy to see me dancing.

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Today is my Japanese dad’s birthday. When I mentioned it to my daughter, she got excited and told me “let’s call him and sing a birthday song to him.”

Her statement startled me. I wish I could…, I thought to myself. Instead of saying my mind’s voice, I told her “I cannot call him because of the time difference. It is 7 am here, but it is 11 pm over there”. Then my daughter said “okay then, let’s send an email to him”. So, we did.

My parents live in Japan and I live in America. The physical distance is far away and we are in the different time zone. But, between my parents and myself, there is more. I feel a huge gap between my parents and myself. I feel sad about it. I know, though, I need to accept that. My parents and I are not closely connected spiritually.

If we were spiritually close, it would be much easier to be born as a family member and live a life as a family. On the other hand, it is a tough challenge for both parties in case one soul is born to one family who is not spiritually close. However, this tough situation brings lots of learnings and lessons for both parties.

I had a hard time being a family member to them. That means, most likely, my parents had a hard time to accept me and understand me.   

I always appreciate for their unconditional love to accept me to be born as their child this lifetime.

Although I am away from them physically, I always think of my parents and send happy thoughts and prayers to them.

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Recently my family’s night routine is to watch Netflix together for one hour and half before our bed time. Netflix has started showing one Japanese television program called 和風総本家. The English title is set to Japanese Style Originator.

This program shares a variety of Japanese culture. Some of them are familiar with me, while other are new to me. There are some items that are familiar with me but I don’t know the proper name for them. I certainly enjoy watching Japanese scenery and items. It is good for my family to get to know Japanese culture.

This television show makes me think how deep Japanese culture is. Although I was born and raised in Japan, and I thought myself to know enough about Japan, it is obvious that I need to learn more to get to my own country.

Last night’s show introduced us the Japanese traditional way to survive hot summer days. I was amazed how our ancestors have passed down their precious wisdom and technique. They are ecological and kind ways to humans as well as other living creatures.

I think it can be said to any other culture. Just because you are born in a certain race or group, it does not mean you know about your race or group fully. It is always to review and re-learn about your own race and roots.

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