Nowadays I use my running time as my meditation time. When I am running, I can completely free from any left brained thoughts.   

Three days ago during I was running, I had a strong feeling of my mother in Japan. I actually felt my mother’s energy right in front of me. I started communicating with the soul of my mom. What I received was like this.

My mom’s time is coming close. In case I cannot see her again before she goes back to the spirit world, she would completely understand. She would keep on loving me no matter what. She would keep on sending me love all the time. It does not matter where she is, either in Japan or in spirit world. She is proud of me and will be so, all the time.

I instantly knew that something happened to my mom. My mom and I seldom talk on the phone, but we communicate via email from time to time. I emailed her, asking if everything is okay with her. I haven’t received a reply from her until today.

She said in her email that she became very sick three days ago and had been staying in the hospital since then. She had been very sick that she could not reply back to me. This is her second time for hospitalization. Ironically she was hospitalized on the same day of the last year. She had stayed 2 weeks in the hospital last year. We don’t know how long it would take for this time.

After I read her email, I cried for her for several hours.

With crying, I checked the air plane tickets. I can go visit her during my daughter’s autumn vacation for 1 week. The tickets were available, and the prices were not outrageous at this time of the year. I can go see her. It is up to me. But still, I am very reluctant to go see her.

I have some unsolved issues with my mom.

My husband proposed me for marriage in Arizona in July 2007. When I reported it to my parents, my mom got so mad at me. She didn’t like my marrying to an American and moving to America. My mom loved me so much, and she could not handle on losing me from her sights. With her anger, she had stopped talking to me since then.

My husband visited me in Japan and we married in Japan in March 2008. My mom refused to meet my husband. At the last moment, with my brother’s and my dad’s persuasion, my mom finally accepted to meet my husband. My mom liked my husband very much because my husband is a good-hearted and trustworthy man. My mom’s anger was nothing to do with my husband. No matter how sincere my husband is, she would be against of our marriage anyway.

After my husband went back to America, my mom went back to her attacking mode, completely ignored me for almost 9 months until my moving day to America in December 2008.

For about 17 months since July 2007 to December 2008, my mom had ignored me. I had lived close to my parents’ house, within 15 minutes walking distance. Before, I used to visit them often. I used to talk on the phone frequently. My parents used to take me to a restaurant or a fun event regularly. But not anymore. When I visited their house, she didn’t let me in. When I called her on the phone, she hung up the phone. There was one time when we had a dinner together before I moved to America, my mom and I ended up a big argument, yelling and hurting each other.

My parents came to see us in Las Vegas in July 2011, and it ended up with the same result. My mom and I got a huge argument. I could not even see them off at the airport. Since then, I haven’t seen my mom.

There is a deep and big gap between my mom and me. I really don’t know if I will go see her in Japan or not. 

This morning right after I had breakfast, my entire body got an allergic reaction, with itchy rash all over my body. I wrote down everything what I ate. Everything was my usual food, except for a piece of rye bread. So, the cause of today’s allergic reaction was rye.

I had lived in Japan for about 40 years. During these years, I had seldom experienced a serious food allergy. I could eat animal meats such as pork, beef, and chicken.

After I moved to America, my body has started reacting to foods, more sensitively than when I was in Japan. When I ate pork, I had gotten a severe reaction including puking and head ache, so I needed to completely stop eating pork. Same goes to chicken and beef. From time to time, I can eat only organic beef and chicken, but not much amount. My body cannot accept any foods from the fast food restaurant chains. I have gotten food allergy even from fresh fruits (such strawberry and melon). I got bad food reaction to coffee powder milk as well.

This is only my personal opinion, but from my experiences, I feel the foods sold in America might contain more chemicals and pesticides than the foods sold in Japan.

My intention for writing this story is to share the truth; I don’t intend to blame the food industry.

The truth is: our body is getting more sensitive than before. It is time to do some research and examine onto our daily foods. It is time for us to listen to our body and take good care of it, by stopping eating low quality foods.

My Reiki teacher taught me “we are what we eat”. Food is simply energy. When we eat high quality foods and high energy foods, our energy can stay in a high vibration. On the other hand, when we keep on eating junk foods; cheap and convenient foods that has low vibration, we tend to get affected by the low energy, low vibration.

I feel it a blessing that my body has been becoming more sensitive to foods than before. I believe nowadays many people have same experiences as I do. Let’s appreciate for this blessing and listen to our body’s voice. We got to use our body for many years anyway. Let’s love our body and take good care of our body by eating proper foods.     

I don’t love moving, but my life forced me moving here and there. I am destined to move my residences frequently.

My family moved twice when I was small.

I started living alone when I was 22 years old. Until I moved to America, I moved my residence 10 times in the 6 years. I didn’t do it for my hobby, but something always happened for me to force me to move another place. Finally I bought my house and had lived there for 10 years.

My biggest moving was from Japan to America.

I have lived in America for 8 years. During this 8 years, we moved 5 times. We will need to move at least one more time, and hopefully the next one will be our last one. I have moved 18 times so far.

Then when I thought about all the residences that I had lived, my favorite residences were always close to the library, within the walking distance. And I always love reading books all my life.

One of my coworkers had moved more than I did. She told me once, that whenever she moved, her residences were always very close to the shrines. She never intended that. It was so obvious that she is well protected by Japanese Gods and Shinto way. For your information, in Japan, we have shrines and temples. Shrines are for Shinto whereas temples are for Buddhism.

It might be interesting when you think about your tendency on what kinds of lands or attributes that your former residences had. You might tend to live on the top of the hill. Or you might tend to live close to the mountains. The tendency seems like a coincidence. But as you know, there is no coincidence. Everything has meanings. We are naturally guided to certain attributes of the lands and the land energies.

In this morning’s dream, I was with many people at the buffet in the hotel restaurant. It was interesting to see a variety of people and foods. There were luxurious people with decorated themselves with expensive dresses and business suits. Also, there were casual people with simple and comfortable clothing. The same thing goes to the foods. There were a variety from expensive foods to economy foods, and from rare special occasion foods to common daily life foods.

This dream represents that there are a variety of people with a variety of tastes or preferences. And that is why there are many different opinions.

I felt this is a message from my family souls, telling me that not let anybody anything to scare me or let me down. There will be some people who dislike my book with whatever reasons. They dislike my book because they might have different way of thinking from my way. They might feel as if they are attacked by my words. In case they feel so, all they can do is to dig into their inner self and rediscover their hidden aspects.

My sincere intention of this book is to help many people on their spiritual journey. I never intend to attack or blame anybody anyhow. I am just expressing my feelings with people. I am a simple human. My feelings and emotions may be sometimes biased. With the process of writing, I am being healed. And I sincerely hope somebody can also be healed by reading my book.

As always, today’s message from my family souls can be applied to anybody. When you do something, please stay being yourself. Stay with your belief. Please don’t let anything anyone to let you down. We don’t need to live our lives as somebody’s expectation to us.

I strongly believe we all are here to contribute to build the better world. When we encounter a mean person who criticizes your work badly, don’t take it personally, but analyze it objectively. We might be able to learn something unexpectedly from the mean reviews or feedbacks.

Let’s always keep it in our mind. This planet Earth is the good place to experience to interact with different leveled souls. We came to this planet Earth to experience this diversity. I definitely would not like it whenever somebody criticizes my work in a mean way, but at least I need to know that will happen for sure.

Do you like getting a psychic reading? I used to, but not anymore.

It was only recently when I have completely stopped getting a psychic reading. The reason is simple. I have finally realized that nobody can tell me the true answers more clearly than I do. And I believe it is true to everybody. As a soul, we have a whole bunch of different aspects. It can be only ourselves to know where to look for an answer for a specific question or quest.

That being said, there are some occasions that a psychic reading can really help and become a life changing event for the person.

This is my experience. When I was still in my 20s, I went to see one psychic woman in Venice beach California. The psychic said all kinds of things about me. She predicted my negative future events I did not want to hear. I was surrounded by all the negative things that she mentioned. She did not give me any positive advice. After receiving the reading session from her, I felt really heavy in my gut.

Some days later, I mentioned that to my Japanese psychic friend. She asked me if the psychic told me any idea or advice on how I could avoid the negative outcomes. I told her that the only thing the psychic told me was she needed extra $200 to get rid of the negative outcomes. The psychic said all the negative events would happen due to my karma from my past lives.

My Japanese friend told me that the good psychic would not say anything negative. In case they see something negative, they would convey the message with some positive advice so that they could avoid or change the directions to their preferable ways.

I think people go see a psychic because they want to escape from their tough situation. Or, they want to reassure whether their heading direction is correct. Or simply, they want to feel uplifting after the reading session. Taking all of the analysis into accounts, nobody wants to hear negative future predictions without any advice to avoid them.

Moreover, in my personal understanding, higher leveled psychics tend to see nothing but positive and peaceful aspects, while lower leveled psychics tend to see lower density and focus on negative aspects.

All in all, we are here to create things. Everything is created from our thoughts and belief. If a psychic just say only the negative predictions without the advice on how to avoid them, the predictions would scare the clients. If the psychic implants only fear into the client, the client might believe the negative predictions so hard, and the client’s strong belief would bring the negative predictions to happen in reality.

I prefer to have somebody who offer a free consultation before I actually pay for the reading fee. It can be only 20-30 minutes. With this short talk, both side; a psychic and a client, can feel each other’s energy. Then based on the intuition, they can decide either having a reading or not having. Maybe this can be applied to a relationship between a teacher and a student. I believe any spiritual sessions and teachings are supposed be done under the spiritual agreements on both parties.

Good psychics always uplifts a client, guiding them to the right direction, bringing their motivation, and tapping into their soul to be awaken.

I often mention in my articles about having a conversation with our inner self. One of my acquaintances asked me the methods on how we can do so.

One way I do is to meditate. I have two ways of mediations; one is passive way and the other is active way. For the active meditation, I say my thoughts out loud as if I have somebody to have a conversation with me. When I talk out loud of my thoughts and questions, I get instant feedbacks and answers from my family souls. They interact with me. Through such conversation, I always get insights that I would not get when I am occupied with something material things. I believe my family souls are in a way, myself.

I belong to a big soul family, and physical me is just a tip of the iceberg. On this lifetime, I am wearing a Japanese woman’s body, covered by mostly gentle energy. But I know myself. I have many different aspects in me. I have powerful leadership attribute, furious warrior attribute, pure child attribute…all kinds.

I believe everybody is like that. Everybody has a certain attribute that comes strong, but there are many different attributes inside.

In our daily life, we encounter certain people whom we instantly dislike. The person whom we dislike has a key to know ourselves more. We should use the opportunity to find our unknown attribute. 

When we deeply dig into our inner self, the reason of dislike comes from our inner emotion. We dislike the person because the person has something we don’t have. It can be jealous. It can be sadness. It can be a desire to be acknowledged by somebody. It can be rooted from the past life experiences. When we dig into the root cause, face to it, observe it, and release it, if we can. I think it is a powerful tool to know ourselves better and more.

Have you ever heard about the Age of Aquarius? Although there are some different opinions regarding exactly when it has started, or it will start, I personally feel it has started Dec 12, 2012. But as always, the change does not happen at the exact sharp time. Lots of changes gradually happen through years. That being said, I think we have been experiencing lots of changes in our daily life in these several years around 2012.

Previously, our ancestors and some of us had gone through the Age of Pieces in the previous 2000 years. Our ancestors had gone through living in a vertical society where the people were not treated equally. With such experiences, gradually the people had started put more value on spirituality than materials.

Age of Aquarius, on the other hand, has energy such as freedom, no boundary. These aspects are really symbolized by the Internet, because the information can go through all over the world regardless of any boundary of physical distance issues. Another aspects of Aquarius are such as revolution, unique idea, and turning over the old traditional method. I feel these energies are really working on our daily life and our society. We have naturally started accepting certain things that we would have never accepted two decades ago. Very interesting.

Regarding the Age of Aquarius, what I am hearing strongly is that we cannot lie anymore. Everything becomes “see through”. What I mean by saying everything is our thoughts. Our thoughts cannot be seen in physical eyes, but recently in the Age of Aquarius, people have started seeing energy without knowing themselves. Truth will be revealed somewhat, in some ways. For the people who live their lives with whole bunch of lies, it is going to be tough to live. For the people who live following their real voices, it is going to be easy to live.

I can share one example about “see though”. It is about job. We might have had been okay with doing something what we didn’t like up until now…., but not anymore, not from now on. I think that is why many people have kicked out from their old offices or jobs that they used to work reluctantly to make money, to pay for the bills.

Please trust me by saying that it is not bad thing. I feel it is a blessing. The Universe is encouraging all of us to focus on what we really like, on what our souls really shine by doing that.

Let’s take a moment. Take a deep breath. Think about your childhood days. What did you love the most? What was your dream? What is your strong point? By asking yourself such questions, when you keep digging into your inner self, you will find the right answer for you. And that will be the reason why you came back to this life.

Today was a long and tough day. It started from yesterday.

Yesterday, when my daughter came back from school, she told me one of her classmates grabbed her by the lapels and yelled at her. I had known the bully child since this June. I have given the child a ride to the school several times. Also, whenever I went to the school, I observed the child.

I know the child has a strong personality. And I know the child often abused my daughter verbally. The child said something very mean to my daughter, laughed at my daughter with pointing a finger at her. The child badmouthed about me, making up something; they were far from the truth. The child did that to make my daughter feel sad. I had known all of these, from my observations and from what I heard from my daughter.

But I had not done anything. I had not talked to the child. I had not told the child’s mom up until now.

Why?

Because I wanted to avoid any kinds of troubles with the child’s mom.

However, this time was different. I cannot allow anybody to hurt my daughter. It was beyond my tolerance. When I heard yesterday’s event, I thought I had to stand up for my daughter. So, before I went to bed, I asked for the protection and strength to stand up for my daughter.

In my dream, my family souls showed me a powerful quarterback. I asked them what the message was. They instantly conveyed the message to me as follows.

Be brave. Be a powerful quarterback. You’ve got to speak up when needed. Talk to the child’s mom, but stay being assertive.

So, this morning, I took courage and spoke to the child and the child’s mom. The child kept on calling me a liar. The child’s mother believed her child. Both of the child and the child’s mother showed really bad attitude to me. They were staring at me with a furious face expression. I didn’t feel scared. I’ve got to say what I need to say. I asked them to stay away from my daughter, and they agreed.

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Now I am calm down, sitting down and writing this small article. I thought back objectively what I said to them. Then, I have a gut feeling that I did the right thing. It happened for a reason. It happened for a lesson to be learned.

My daughter and I are very gentle. But sometimes we have to stand up and speak up to protect ourselves. I didn’t like this event, but at least we could learn the precious lesson in a hard way. This event was also good experience for me to realize that there are many people who think differently from what I do.

From this point, the Universe will take care of it. I fully trust the Universe and Gods are fair. The truth will be revealed sooner or later. Probably sooner than I think.

It works like this. Now that this bully child cannot pick on my daughter any more, the child will find another classmate to pick on. Then the other child’s mother will report to the bully’s mom. The same things will be repeated until the bully child’s mother become fully aware of her daughter’s lies. The bully’s mother will experience many times to be accused of her child picking on other children.

Today was full moon. No wonder they easily got lunatic.

As I mentioned in my previous short article, currently I am working on writing a book. It is really fun thing to do. People have asked me what kind of books that I want to publish. My book is about my life experiences on both this lifetime and past lifetimes. I am writing lots of small stories. Some stories have solid and direct messages to readers, while other stories make reader to ponder; the messages and the answers are left to the readers.

This lifetime is very special for me. I was born with the memories of my past lifetimes. Technically speaking, we all are supposed to forget about the past lifetime memories before we were born to the planet Earth. That being said, I believe there is no strict rules. Many souls choose to forget about previous memories for their convenience purposes. Without such past lifetimes’ memories, we can start the life newly.

When I was small, I remembered not only about my past lifetime’s memories but also about my spiritual homeland, where I am originally belong.

I did not have many lifetimes in Japan as my past life experiences. I did have some past lives in Japan, but every time I passed away in my younger years. Therefore, not surprisingly, I did not have strong connection with Japanese people’s souls and Japan land itself. I often felt lonely. I did not find many people who completely understood me.

Now that many years have passed, and the environment has greatly changed. Finally I have started understanding why I chose this life as I have gone through so far.

So, my conclusion so far is that aging is not bad at all! As we go through many years with many different experiences; good ones and bad ones, eventually we start seeing things clearly. The number of Aha-Moments will definitely get bigger and bigger.

So, why don’t we all enjoy aging? Be proud of our wrinkles and gray hairs as small evidence of our wisdoms. I believe a real beauty comes from our inner soul. 

Then, when we get aged, when we have accumulate wisdoms for years, let’s share them with our younger people. And…, that is what I want to do in my books.

Now that I set up my small business, many kind people have started giving me lots of ideas on how I can offer my services. I set my three main one-on-one based services as Reiki teaching, horoscope reading, and angel card reading. Angel card reading is the easiest way to offer, because I don’t need to prepare anything except for cards. There are many opportunities for me to offer the card reading. Especially when it comes to free of charge, the opportunities will be expanded. It is up to me whether to take this opportunity or not.

However, recently I have kept on having a strong urge from my soul, almost shouting to me. It is about one of my public based services as speaking, writing, and teaching. I strongly feel that I need to focus on writing for now. That means, I should not spend much of my time and energy for something else. I should devote my spare time on writing.

So, I made up my mind and set my goal. I will publish my book by the end of this year 2016.

Thinking about the current situation, publishing a book is not difficult. Actually, everybody can self-publish with simple procedures. All we need to do is to write a book and publish it through online book store. It does not cost us anything, unless we want to hire some professional for editing or design.

When I was in Japan, I think it was around 2005, I had a strong urge to publish a book. I already prepared some parts of the book and a book proposal. I had an official meeting with two publishers. Two publishers said the same things. For self-publishing a book, I needed to pay around $5,000 to $10,000. After they print out the books, I would be responsible to sell the books by myself. I thought it was impossible, and thought I should wait for the right timing for the future.

I really don’t focus on the outcome; how my book will turn out to be. Whether I can make money from it, or whether I will be famous from it. All I can do is to follow my passion from my soul. Writing is one of my favorite things to do. I am simply conveying the messages from spirits. Somebody somewhere might be inspired from the message. If that happens, my soul will shine.