I had a dream. It became my first dream of the year 2026.

I was walking by river. The entire area was amazingly beautiful. The golden light was shining down from sky to ground. I was walking in the center of the scenery. I heard a clear voiced message. “Keep believing in your strength. You can make your wishes and dreams come true.”　Then, I woke up naturally. The time was 5:57 a.m.

My husband and daughter and I have a routine in the early morning of the new year. We went for a walk and prayed to the new sunrise for the good year.

It seemed that we had rain all night. while we were walking, it was sprinkling. It is a good luck sign. The new year of 2026 started from purifying with female rain. It will be a great healing year.

I could sleep for 7 hours straight again.

I could sleep for 7 hours straight again. I am so happy about this improvement.

In the morning, a maintenance person came and exchanged a toilet seat to a new one. It was broken since our moving-in day. I am happy they finally replaced a new toilet seat.

I gave my daughter a haircut. She wanted her hair much shorter than before. She looks cute with the short length.

In our back yard garden, we still have plants that keep producing; tomatoes, chilltepin, Anaheim chills, jalapeno, and 2 different types of kale.

I still have a dull pain in the right butt area.

I could sleep through for 7 hours without waking up from pain in the middle the night. I am so happy about this great improvement. The high-quality sleep for many hours definitely help healing my body and mind. The fortune telling of the winter solstice was right. I was at the bottom of the water, but now I got out from the water and get ready for the normal and healthy life.

When I think about graduation of physical therapy sessions, I feel happy and uplifted. I didn’t notice until now, that the physical therapy session had become a huge burden for me mentally and physically. From now on, I will do the homework exercises and rest up on my pace with listening to my body’s voices.

I could sleep 6 hours straight without waking up in the middle of the night. I appreciate the fact that my body can sleep and heal the body while I was asleep.
Last night I could fall asleep without taking any of pain reliever homeopathic remedies.
My late dad visited me in dream. We were in his office at the house. He showed me a bunch of unopened gift boxes in his room. He smiled at me and told me that he wanted me to take all the unopened gift boxes with me.

When I woke up, I was happy to see the email from one of the homeopathy school teachers. There were 3 files that I could not copy and pastes the texts. He re-saved the 3 files via a special PFD software for me and sent them to me. I appreciate him for helping me out. Otherwise, I will need to manually type all the texts to my word file. He saved lots of my time and energy.
I started using an icepack on my right foot. It helps to numb the nerve pain so that I can work on the computer work and study without suffering from nerve pain.

I didn’t need to take gabapentin for the pain. I didn’t shed tears all day today.

I still have pain in butt area, but the pain is not sharp, more like dull and bearable.

I could sleep 5 hours straight. I am still in the middle of centralization process and have been suffering from pain in back and butt area. I could not do much except for resting on bed.

I woke up early and left home with my husband to take care of the items of our to-do lists. They were mainly about my car. My husband diagnosed my car about the unusual high pitch sound of 2 days ago. According to him, a fan belt needs to be replaced. We stopped by at 4 car parts stores and received a quotation. It was good for us to check the price first, because their prices were different depending on the store. I still have intense pain so that I could not go to all the stores with him. I stayed inside the car and waited for him.

Now I am on the healing process of centralization. My male doctor at the physical therapy clinic didn’t tell me this process name, but he did mention about this healing process. The centralization is the healing process for sciatica. The nerve pain goes to the foot by peripheralization and on the healing process, the nerve pain comes back by centralization. I am in the middle of centralization and have a pain in the back area and right butt area. I cannot sit down on a chair nor keep standing up for even a short time.  

At least I am glad that I know this process. If I didn’t know about this healing process, the healing direction, I would have freaked out by now for having a pain in back area and butt area.

Last night, again, I tried to sleep without gabapentin, but I could not sleep and gave in around 1 a.m. Right after I took the medication, I fell asleep. I could sleep for 6 hours straight.

I received an email from my attorney. It was not good news regarding the lawsuit. He was reluctant to send this notice email because he didn’t want me to worry and concern, especially in this holiday season. He told me not to worry and focus on healing my body. His email was filled with his kindness and thoughtfulness. I really appreciate him for being my attorney. It was a great Christmas gift from him.

I still suffer from intense pain every day and night. Because of the pain, I easily affected by negative energy. I decided not to check all the documents that were submitted by the adverse party.

It was my 15^th physical therapy. In the morning, I was supposed to leave house at 7 a.m. when I turned on the engine, my car emitted a weird high pitch tone from the engine room. I instantly thought I should not go to this appointment. But then again, good moral of me came in and told me I should go. After thought about it for a while, the sound calmed down, so I decided to go.

It was raining and a cold morning with low air pressure. Maybe my car made an unusual sound because of the low temperature. That affected humans too. I was feeling lazy and dizzy, and the young female doctor seemed to be unhappy for some reasons. She asked me how was my last 2 sessions with the male doctor went. I mentioned after his 2 treatments, my sleep quality and length have gotten much improved than before. When she heard that from me, she obviously hurt her feeling. I instantly felt that she was jealous to the male doctor who was her supervisor and the employer. I don’t think she should feel jealous because the male doctor has 20 years more job experienced and skilled than her. But I can tell she didn’t like when I praised the male doctor.

At the last moment of the physical therapy, she applied dry needling on my right foot. When she applied electric stimulation, all 5 fingers of my right foot curled inward without my will and got stiff. I got panicked and felt scared. The female doctor already left the room, but I called her out loud and asked her to stop the electric stimulation right away. When she turned down the electric stimulation, my toe fingers got back to normal. The young female doctor also got scared, so that she ended the dry needling session within 3 minutes or so.

After came back home, I was filled with shock, anger, and sadness. I shed tears a lot. After that, I needed to take a nap for some hours.

After I woke up from nap, I strongly felt I should stop taking the physical therapy. I should graduate from it. I asked advice from my daughter and husband. They both agreed with me. They encouraged me to follow my strong intuition. With their encouragement, I cancelled the next physical therapy appointments.   

Last night I and tried to sleep without Gabapentin. I fell asleep around 9 p.m., but woke up around 1 am from pain. Since then, I could not go back to sleep. I gave in and took one pill of gabapentin. Right after that, I fell asleep. I could sleep 5 hours until next morning.

I could not wake up with the wakeup alarm. I needed to wake up at 6 a.m. for my daughter’s physical therapy session.

We left the house at 7 a.m. My daughter has suffered from the pain in jar area. My male doctor at the physical therapy clinic told me it is called TMJ. He is a specialist to fix TMJ. The doctor checked my daughter’s jar and the bone alignment thoroughly. He diagnosed that her condition was not severe and does not require a surgery. He instructed my daughter some homework exercise to do every morning and night.

After came back home, it was my daughter’s time to take a nap to rest. I was not drained because I didn’t do the physical therapy today.

I went for a walk by myself. While I was walking, I run into a new neighbor who recently purchased the house and moved in. She saw me carried by my husband and worried about me. She asked about me to my husband the other day. She offered us her help anytime we need.

When we passed by, she greeted me and asked me how I am feeling. Then we introduced ourselves and had a small chat. She seemed to be around my age. She is a retired medic at the US army. She learned the western medicine and licensed as a nurse, but she is also interested in alternative medicine. We both were happy to have each other as our neighbor. I hope I will get to know her more gradually.