This morning, I had a dream. My face was closed up. I had one long hair growing in my face. I cut the hair with using a pair of scissors. I felt comfortable for cutting the hair by myself.

When I woke up, I looked up the meaning of the dream. It says that a hair growing on the face shows that the dreamer has the habit to decide a decision based on the others’ onions. The dreamer has a tendency to consider others too much so that they cannot decide a decision based on their intuition. Cutting hair on the face means that the dreamer decided to cut off the old habit. The message of this dream truly resonated with my current situation. I thought my family spirits agreed with my decision and support me by showing this dream.

My biofeedback gave me a message saying “it is not the will to win that makes a winner, but the will to prepare.” I sincerely appreciate the biofeedback software for giving me this message.

In the night at 8 p.m. I had an online meeting with an attorney. It was a paid consultant regarding the law about my current situation. He gave me some options to fight back to my brother. Unlike the current attorney, he has strength and courage to fight with me by offering me options that I was never taught by the current attorney. I decided to hire this new attorney to support me.

Today was the Winter Solstice. It is a good day to start something new. So, I started taking Onkokin-sama. It is created by the Japanese homeopathy founder and made with the healthy soil bacteria. It is mainly created for the healthy soil to grow healthy produces, but humans also can drink it in order to keep our bowel healthy. I admit the smell is strong, but I felt powerful after I took a sip. I was filled with the powerful emotion and memories from my past lives that I have to stand tall and speak up to protect myself and my loved ones.

My daughter got well. It took her only 2 days in order to fully overcome. The symptoms started from stomach ache with throwing up all night, and switched to headache and muscle ache in all over the body. I am guessing it was the flu that my husband brought back from his workplace on November 21^st. As for him, it took 2.5 days for him to fully recover. I am luckily still doing fine. I am behind of the schedule for the professional homeopathy school, and I don’t have time to get sick. I want to catch up with the schedule within this month.

My husband and daughter went to the restaurant to celebrate their recovery from flu. I decided to stay behind and keep proceeding my professional homeopathy school course.

It was good all in all to cancel our Navajoland visit trip. Yesterday I received an email from the previous attorney and an email from another attorney whom I am thinking about to hire as my new attorney. In order to have a paid counseling with the new attorney, I needed to wrap up the document to explain the current situation.

My daughter got much better than yesterday, but since she still had the pain, she stayed in bed almost all day.

Today we were planning to head for Navajoland to visit my mom-in-law, but we needed to cancel the plan. Last night about 1 a.m., my daughter woke up and went to bathroom. She was feeling sick and threw up. From there, she repeated the process of going back to bed and throwing up at the toilette. Poor thing that she could not sleep. I, as a mom, could not sleep neither. Toward the early morning of 5 a.m., my daughter finally fell asleep for a couple of hours.

I was originally planning to wake up at 6 a.m. to cook obento for the road trip. But my daughter was still suffering from pain, we decided to stay home.   

My husband decided to take one day off from work tomorrow in order to use up his holiday hours. With his decision, we decided to do a mad dash to Navajoland taking advantage of this all-of-a-sudden-day-off. When we called my mom-in-law, she was not surprised at all. Interestingly she had an intuition that somebody might visit her soon, so she went to town this morning to purchase the extra pellet to keep the trailer house warm during the nights.

I woke up feeling sorry to my attorney that I fired him. The great thing about him was he was not mad at me for this. My husband was with me during the online meeting last night and he noticed my attorney looked happy feeling relieved from my case. He actually slipped his tongue and said about my brother as crazy about money. He mentioned from his experiences, normal people, even though during the fight in the inheritance division, cooperate one another to pay the inheritance tax. But it didn’t happen to my brother. He says from the beginning that he has enough money to pay the inheritance tax and does not want to support me to borrow money by putting our late parents’ real estate.   

When I was cooking in the kitchen, I was humming the song of Hallelujah. I am not a Christian. I thought somebody in my family spirits sent me the energy of this snog. It means the appreciation to Gods. In the free internegative translation can be “it was a close call” or “good job”, something like an encouragement.

The reality is I don’t have my attorney anymore. I will need to start over from finding my attorney. I look like supportless and weak. However, things in appearance are not always true. The truths are always in the invisible realm. Things don’t appear great in the real world can turn into the great things in the spiritual realm. I should not worry too much by looking at the current situation in the physical world. Things can turn in any direction. The important thing is I strongly believe in that I can create the reality as I like. Things can turn into my preference, as long as my wishes are the right options in the spiritual realm.    
All I need to do at this moment is stay strong and keep believing the power of my wishes. Everything turns out to my preference always. I am strongly protected by my family spirits. I will be fine always.

I had an online meeting with my attorney at 7 p.m. At this meeting, I was planning to mention to my attorney about my honest feeling about his service and the settlement. I asked my husband to stay with me and support me in the energy so that I can tell my attorney everything I need to tell.

I mentioned everything I needed to tell him. It was good that my husband sat next to me. While I was speaking, I cried, and my husband rubbed my back giving me strength and energy. Based on my husband’s observation, my attorney was not mad at all when I mentioned about firing him. Rather, he seemed to be happy to get released from this case. Maybe this case was tough for him too. He didn’t like to deal with my brother who was not supportive about the inheritance tax.

I made my mind to have an online meeting with my attorney tomorrow. I need to face to my fear. I want to be strong to be able to say whatever I have to say.

Recently I have received an email from my attorney every day. He asked me to have an online meeting about some points that I asked him to explain. I have been still thinking on what I should do. I still need some more time to make my mind. Part of me says to stay as I am, because I don’t want to hurt my attorney, while the other part of me encourages me to face the fear and get out from the comfort zone.