My husband took me to the physical therapy. It was my 6^th physical therapy session. I mentioned my appreciation to the doctor that I have greatly improved with their support. The doctor seemed to be very happy about my appreciation.

In the afternoon, we received a huge box. It was a walker and a cane from my mom-in-law. My physical therapy doctor told me not to use them, because they will prevent me from healing quickly. She doesn’t want me to have an unusual posture with using a walker or a cane. My husband conveyed the message to my mom-in-law and asked her not to send them, but she still sent them to me anyway. After we received the box, my husband talked with her. She didn’t remember about the conversation, which made us worried about her losing memory. My husband and I decided to thankfully accept her kindness anyway.

I woke up at 4 a.m. and could not go back to sleep. I stayed in bed with just laying down and rest. I got out from bed at 6 a.m.

My husband woke up at 8 a.m. We sat down on a couch in the living room. He put my right foot on his lap and held my right foot with his both hands to warm up. We enjoyed the quiet and peaceful time together.

Even though my injury was a disaster, without injury, my husband and I would not have this kind of peaceful time together. I should appreciate this injury to bring my husband and me much closer than before.

In the middle of the night at 2 a.m., as usual, I could not sleep from intense pain. I talked with my Japanese friend. My package was delivered to her house today. She was happy for my small gifts to her.

With my husband’s good idea of applying a taping around my right foot last night, I could sleep 4 hours straight for the first time after the injury.

When I went outside to bring back our garbage bin from the street to our property, I noticed our garbage bin was already inside of our property. I think it was our female neighbor in front of our house. I appreciate her kindness. With the normal health, bringing the garbage bin from the street to our property was not a big deal, but in my current health condition with intense pain, it will be a hard work.

I really liked the taping method that my husband applied last night. I rearranged it by myself, but it was not good as my husband. I asked my daughter, but she could not do as good as my husband. I think my husband is originally gifted to do such things.

In the evening at 6 p.m., I watched the seminar presented by one of the homeopaths. She talked about the small efforts to keep maintained a good relationship in married life. I liked her seminar that contained lots of useful methods to show appreciation and love to my husband. I will incorporate her wisdom in our daily life.

It was a cold day with the low outside temperature. Whenever the low outside temperature, my nerve pain got worse from my recent experience. With the intense pain due to the cold weather, I had a physical therapy appointment tomorrow morning. My husband already took many days off from work to support me, and he is now back to work, I cannot ask him to take me to the therapy office anymore. When I think of going to the physical therapy, especially taking the dry needling with electrical stimulation, I was reluctant. Plus, I will have to drive there by myself. My appointment was at 7 a.m. They put an announcement to charge a cancellation fee if a cancellation is made within 24 hours. I called before 7 a.m. I knew it was too early to call the office, but hoped somebody would pick up the phone. I was lucky. A female worker picked up the phone and she was very nice and thoughtful. She accepted the cancelation without charging the fee. My daughter needed help in understanding her math. If I were in the normal health, I would be able to teach her, but today with the intense pain, I could not focus on anything. I felt sorry to my daughter for not supporting her.

In the night at 7 p.m., I talked with my attorney on zoom. I could have some valuable information regarding out lawsuit.

My husband suggested me to apply taping around my right foot. He learned it in the military days. Luckily since we had a medical tape in our medicine cabinet, he applied a taping on my right foot firmly. It helped to reduce the irritation whenever my foot touches any other things such as a blanket or a sheet. The pain with a taping reduces to 30% out of 100%.      

Every day and night, I cannot sleep for many hours. The maximum hours I could sleep was only 3 hours straight. I suffer from the intense pain. I prayed very hard to Hotoke-sama to reduce the pain. At the certain point, I felt warm energy surrounded my entire body. Then after that, I don’t remember until I woke up in the morning.

I received an email from my attorney. He was shocked after he read my recent email of my sciatica situation. He didn’t think my health and pain was that bad. We decided to talk on zoom tomorrow.

My next flight schedule was set on January 17^th. While I was checking the status, all of a sudden, the screen got blank, and I received an email confirmation saying that my flight cancellation request was approved. I got confused, because I didn’t cancel it on my side. A weird thing happens. Maybe it was my family spirit to cancel my next flight in January. It clearly means that I won’t get fully recovered by this coming January.

I was watching the spiritual class until 2 a.m. After the class, I could not sleep, due to the intense pain in my right foot. Around 4 a.m., my daughter came into my room. She could not sleep due to tummy ache. I gave her several homeopathic remedies. After she took them, she fell asleep in my bed. As for me, I still couldn’t sleep. I probably fell asleep from time to time but it seemed to be only 20 minutes sleep to the most. I got out from bed at 6 a.m. and started my day with the Japanese mantra. After the mantra, I resumed the study of the professional homeopath course, which I haven’t done since the beginning of October.

Around 5 p.m., the pain got intense again to the point where I couldn’t do anything except for laying down on bed. While suffering from pain, I was wondering what is the reasons why I am dealing with this intense pain. Does this pain come from my own negative karma in my past life or from the negative karma from one of my ancestors? Not only the nerve pain in the right foot, the nerve’s tingling feeling exists in the tip of my left finger pinky.　

This morning, with much support from my husband and daughter, I changed the direction of my bed. I noticed my bed was laid right next to the refrigerator in the kitchen. The only divider is the thin wooden wall between my bedroom and the kitchen, but it still causes the negative impact of electromagnetic wave emitted from the refrigerator. With changing the bed location and the head direction, I hope I will get higher quality of sleep from tonight.  

Yesterday I successfully stop taking the strong pain reliever medication. I wanted to cerebrate my improvement.

In the night at 10 p.m., I attended the final spiritual class presented by the homeopathy teacher.

I suffered from the intense and severe pain during the night. The main reason for this was I didn’t take a strong pain reliever medicine hydrocodone all night. During the night, the pain was so intense that I shed tears all night. I probably lost conscious from the pain, and fell asleep from time to time. My right foot feels like it would separate from my body. I felt my dad’s existence. He told me it is still good for me because feeling the pain means I still have my nerve alive. My dad, at his last stage of his life, didn’t feel anything on his both foot because of the necrosis of the cells on his both foot due to the final stage of diabetes. After I heard this from my late dad, I agreed with him. I  should appreciate the pain because my nerves are still alive.    

My husband and daughter purchased a brand-new desktop computer. They are both happy now.

I went to the fifth physical therapy session. Same as usual, the session ended the dry needling with electric stimulation, which I hate. I have made a daily routine to go to the backyard and sit down on a chair with my barefoot attached on the dirt and both hands touching on the tree bark for earthing. I know I cannot do this procedure during the summer time because of ants. But right now, the weather is nice and cold, and no ants are walking around on our back yard.

I had a dream of a calendar and icons. I don’t remember the details, but I do remember the message. The message was to believe in whatever I have been doing for recovery. I will get well and back to normal life eventually. I think the message was from my family spirits. I appreciate them for their consistent support and encouragements.

My homeopathy teacher has a new procedure to create a personal remedy. I was asked to wear a blank alcohol and sugar balls for 3 days and 3 nights. Now I was ready to send them to my friend in Japan, so that she can transfer them to the homeopathy school. It is only 5 minutes’ drive from our house to the closest post office. While I drove, my right bottom foot hurt severely, but I could go there and come back home safely. Even though it was a short drive, it gave me confidence to drive. Slow and small, but steady steps every day until I get back to the normal life.