I called United airline and talked with their customer support agent. My request was a refund for our  recent flights that were canceled. Technically speaking, I didn’t cancel it. I honestly believe that it was my family spirits to cancel my flights, but in the physical world, the cancellation was done due to their system error. The agent who picked up the phone sounded like an American woman. She was nice and tried to help me out. Unfortunately, though, she needed to make another phone call back and forth, resulted us for being on the phone more than one hour. It was tiring for me. At the end, she could not issue a refund, but was able to provide me a future flight credit. I was hoping to get a refund to my original payment, but better than nothing. It was a huge amount of credit.

In the evening at 4:30 p.m., I talked with my Japanese friend over the phone. She paid my homeopathy counseling fee, the shipping fee from Japan to America, and the prescribed remedy cost. She told me I can pay her back at my next Japan visit. But, since my next flight was canceled and I don’t have any idea when I can go to Japan, I decided to pay her soon. I appreciate her kindness to support me during the tough time.

The pain in my right foot was still intense. I shed tears about the pain. I really cannot do anything because of the pain.

Last night I slept for 3 hours from 8 p.m. until 11 p.m. when my daughter came to my bed. Since then, I tried hard to get back to sleep but my efforts were in vain, resulting in waking up and dosed off until 5:55 a.m., when I finally gave up to sleep and got out from bed. Even though I slept only 2-3 hours, when I was up, I didn’t feel tired at all. It was my first waking up without feeling tired.

Recently in these past 2 weeks, I started experiencing “my first xxx since the injury day.” I feel like, in a way, being a baby who enjoys “my firsts” every day. I should enjoy this happiness feeling like a baby.

In the night at 9 p.m., my friend sent me a biofeedback remote session until 11 p.m. for the 2 hours, I had been asleep, having a dream. In the dream, the bad people were trying to attack me, but I was surrounded by my husband and daughter, protecting me, so that the bad people couldn’t affect me. Then, my family spirits came in and conveyed the message that not only my husband and daughter, but also there are other humans who have been praying for my happiness and safety. Not to mention, my family spirits are always with me, encouraging and supporting me. They told me not to worry. Their last message cracked me up. They told me that in order to make myself invisible from bad people, I should shave my hair. I knew it was a metaphor. I think what they really meant was to enhance my spiritual level. By putting myself into the upper dimension or upper spiritual level.

Speaking of spiritual level, my spiritual class teacher mentioned that each person will receive the information of spiritual level by November 24^th, but I haven’t received the email yet. I wanted to know if my spiritual level has improved from the last homeopathic counseling day of October 24^th.

My spiritual mentor visited me in my dream. He handed me a piece of paper. The paper was folded once. He urged me to open the paper, so I did. The paper had a handwriting and it says 240,000. I looked at the spiritual mentor’s face and asked if this is my spiritual level or not. He smiled at me and nodded, and said Yes. I complained that I was told it was only 5,000 on my last homeopathic counseling day. He explained that on that day, my spiritual level was pretty low because I was negatively impacted by curse of my brother. But now, I have regained my original strength back and I am well protected from any negative energies. He also told me that I should not worry or concern about the spiritual level that much, because it easily fluctuates based on many factors such as the health conditions and the environmental conditions. He wants me to know it is just a number represents what level people are at that moment. His advice reminded me of my Reiki teacher. My Reiki teacher always reminds us his favorite teaching, that is 褒められても、けなされても、進め、進め. It means that we should keep proceeding and keep evolving. Don’t mind what others praise us or speak ill of us. We should keep going in our own comfortable pace. We don’t need to compare with anybody else, but ourselves. We can compare “us in the current” with the “us in the past.” As long as we proceed than yesterday, it is good. As long as we have learned from mistakes and got smarter than yesterday, it is good.  

The very first thing I appreciated today was my bowel movement. I used to have it every morning as the very first thing of a new day. Since the injury, my routine has been prevented from the sciatica pain. This morning, I went to the bathroom and had a bowel movement without any of my efforts. It was a healthy one in size and hardness.

Yesterday during the physical therapy session, my doctor suggested me to rock my both feet back and forth whenever the pain is intense. It comes with pain, but after a while, the pain reduced because of the good blood circulation.

I extended the walking distance. I still cannot walk to the full distance that I used to walk before the injury. It is only one third in the distance. I added the frequency of walking to twice a day, in the morning and evening.

In the evening around 7 p.m., our area had a tropical rain accompanied with huge size of hale, the diameter of 5 centimeter. It was freaky. I got relieved when the hale ended after 20 minutes.   

Today was the first day since the injury day that I didn’t shed tears about the intense pain.

My husband took me to the physical therapy. It was my 6^th physical therapy session. I mentioned my appreciation to the doctor that I have greatly improved with their support. The doctor seemed to be very happy about my appreciation.

In the afternoon, we received a huge box. It was a walker and a cane from my mom-in-law. My physical therapy doctor told me not to use them, because they will prevent me from healing quickly. She doesn’t want me to have an unusual posture with using a walker or a cane. My husband conveyed the message to my mom-in-law and asked her not to send them, but she still sent them to me anyway. After we received the box, my husband talked with her. She didn’t remember about the conversation, which made us worried about her losing memory. My husband and I decided to thankfully accept her kindness anyway.

I woke up at 4 a.m. and could not go back to sleep. I stayed in bed with just laying down and rest. I got out from bed at 6 a.m.

My husband woke up at 8 a.m. We sat down on a couch in the living room. He put my right foot on his lap and held my right foot with his both hands to warm up. We enjoyed the quiet and peaceful time together.

Even though my injury was a disaster, without injury, my husband and I would not have this kind of peaceful time together. I should appreciate this injury to bring my husband and me much closer than before.

In the middle of the night at 2 a.m., as usual, I could not sleep from intense pain. I talked with my Japanese friend. My package was delivered to her house today. She was happy for my small gifts to her.

With my husband’s good idea of applying a taping around my right foot last night, I could sleep 4 hours straight for the first time after the injury.

When I went outside to bring back our garbage bin from the street to our property, I noticed our garbage bin was already inside of our property. I think it was our female neighbor in front of our house. I appreciate her kindness. With the normal health, bringing the garbage bin from the street to our property was not a big deal, but in my current health condition with intense pain, it will be a hard work.

I really liked the taping method that my husband applied last night. I rearranged it by myself, but it was not good as my husband. I asked my daughter, but she could not do as good as my husband. I think my husband is originally gifted to do such things.

In the evening at 6 p.m., I watched the seminar presented by one of the homeopaths. She talked about the small efforts to keep maintained a good relationship in married life. I liked her seminar that contained lots of useful methods to show appreciation and love to my husband. I will incorporate her wisdom in our daily life.

It was a cold day with the low outside temperature. Whenever the low outside temperature, my nerve pain got worse from my recent experience. With the intense pain due to the cold weather, I had a physical therapy appointment tomorrow morning. My husband already took many days off from work to support me, and he is now back to work, I cannot ask him to take me to the therapy office anymore. When I think of going to the physical therapy, especially taking the dry needling with electrical stimulation, I was reluctant. Plus, I will have to drive there by myself. My appointment was at 7 a.m. They put an announcement to charge a cancellation fee if a cancellation is made within 24 hours. I called before 7 a.m. I knew it was too early to call the office, but hoped somebody would pick up the phone. I was lucky. A female worker picked up the phone and she was very nice and thoughtful. She accepted the cancelation without charging the fee. My daughter needed help in understanding her math. If I were in the normal health, I would be able to teach her, but today with the intense pain, I could not focus on anything. I felt sorry to my daughter for not supporting her.

In the night at 7 p.m., I talked with my attorney on zoom. I could have some valuable information regarding out lawsuit.

My husband suggested me to apply taping around my right foot. He learned it in the military days. Luckily since we had a medical tape in our medicine cabinet, he applied a taping on my right foot firmly. It helped to reduce the irritation whenever my foot touches any other things such as a blanket or a sheet. The pain with a taping reduces to 30% out of 100%.      

Every day and night, I cannot sleep for many hours. The maximum hours I could sleep was only 3 hours straight. I suffer from the intense pain. I prayed very hard to Hotoke-sama to reduce the pain. At the certain point, I felt warm energy surrounded my entire body. Then after that, I don’t remember until I woke up in the morning.

I received an email from my attorney. He was shocked after he read my recent email of my sciatica situation. He didn’t think my health and pain was that bad. We decided to talk on zoom tomorrow.

My next flight schedule was set on January 17^th. While I was checking the status, all of a sudden, the screen got blank, and I received an email confirmation saying that my flight cancellation request was approved. I got confused, because I didn’t cancel it on my side. A weird thing happens. Maybe it was my family spirit to cancel my next flight in January. It clearly means that I won’t get fully recovered by this coming January.

I was watching the spiritual class until 2 a.m. After the class, I could not sleep, due to the intense pain in my right foot. Around 4 a.m., my daughter came into my room. She could not sleep due to tummy ache. I gave her several homeopathic remedies. After she took them, she fell asleep in my bed. As for me, I still couldn’t sleep. I probably fell asleep from time to time but it seemed to be only 20 minutes sleep to the most. I got out from bed at 6 a.m. and started my day with the Japanese mantra. After the mantra, I resumed the study of the professional homeopath course, which I haven’t done since the beginning of October.

Around 5 p.m., the pain got intense again to the point where I couldn’t do anything except for laying down on bed. While suffering from pain, I was wondering what is the reasons why I am dealing with this intense pain. Does this pain come from my own negative karma in my past life or from the negative karma from one of my ancestors? Not only the nerve pain in the right foot, the nerve’s tingling feeling exists in the tip of my left finger pinky.　

This morning, with much support from my husband and daughter, I changed the direction of my bed. I noticed my bed was laid right next to the refrigerator in the kitchen. The only divider is the thin wooden wall between my bedroom and the kitchen, but it still causes the negative impact of electromagnetic wave emitted from the refrigerator. With changing the bed location and the head direction, I hope I will get higher quality of sleep from tonight.  

Yesterday I successfully stop taking the strong pain reliever medication. I wanted to cerebrate my improvement.

In the night at 10 p.m., I attended the final spiritual class presented by the homeopathy teacher.