I suffered from the intense and severe pain during the night. The main reason for this was I didn’t take a strong pain reliever medicine hydrocodone all night. During the night, the pain was so intense that I shed tears all night. I probably lost conscious from the pain, and fell asleep from time to time. My right foot feels like it would separate from my body. I felt my dad’s existence. He told me it is still good for me because feeling the pain means I still have my nerve alive. My dad, at his last stage of his life, didn’t feel anything on his both foot because of the necrosis of the cells on his both foot due to the final stage of diabetes. After I heard this from my late dad, I agreed with him. I  should appreciate the pain because my nerves are still alive.    

My husband and daughter purchased a brand-new desktop computer. They are both happy now.

I went to the fifth physical therapy session. Same as usual, the session ended the dry needling with electric stimulation, which I hate. I have made a daily routine to go to the backyard and sit down on a chair with my barefoot attached on the dirt and both hands touching on the tree bark for earthing. I know I cannot do this procedure during the summer time because of ants. But right now, the weather is nice and cold, and no ants are walking around on our back yard.

I had a dream of a calendar and icons. I don’t remember the details, but I do remember the message. The message was to believe in whatever I have been doing for recovery. I will get well and back to normal life eventually. I think the message was from my family spirits. I appreciate them for their consistent support and encouragements.

My homeopathy teacher has a new procedure to create a personal remedy. I was asked to wear a blank alcohol and sugar balls for 3 days and 3 nights. Now I was ready to send them to my friend in Japan, so that she can transfer them to the homeopathy school. It is only 5 minutes’ drive from our house to the closest post office. While I drove, my right bottom foot hurt severely, but I could go there and come back home safely. Even though it was a short drive, it gave me confidence to drive. Slow and small, but steady steps every day until I get back to the normal life.

I needed to wake up at 6 a.m. and left for my fourth physical therapy session. The session was as usual;  it started with the physical therapy doctor pulled my legs. While she had me walk at a fast pace, she corrected how I walk. It was tough to listen to somebody’s advice to walk normally with the pain. At the last 10 minutes, the doctor applied the dry needling with the electric stimulation. To be honest, I hate the dry needling with the electric stimulation.

After I came back from the physical therapy, 9 a.m., I had a regular one-hour maintenance for my biofeedback device from the dealer technician. Then, I needed to take a 2-hour nap to rest. I feel exhausted every time after the physical therapy session. Even though I was exhausted, I was happy that I could cook dinner for my family.

It was the third day that I started taking the prescribed homeopathic remedies. Even though I still walk with limping and pain, I was filled with appreciation that I can walk.  With the help of the prescribed remedies, I am filled with appreciation. I appreciate I can walk. I appreciate I have my husband and daughter who are willing to support me. I appreciate I am still alive.

This afternoon, I did some study activity sitting on a chair. I was careful for not sitting down for more than 20 minutes.

Followed the physical doctor’s advice, I sat down on a chair for the first time after the injury. Honesty, before felt any pain my buttock area, I felt fear for getting injured again. So, I could not sit on a chair for more than 3 minutes to the most.   

It was the second day since I started taking the prescribed homeopathic remedies. The new shingle symptoms came back even though I didn’t have any shingle symptoms for these past 2 weeks. It didn’t make me worried, because I knew my homeopathy teacher added herpes zoster remedy. She said it would clear up all the shingle virus from my body.

Yesterday during the physical therapy session, the doctor asked me if I can drive by myself or not. I answered I couldn’t. She continued asking me the reason why. She said I should be able to drive a car. She also said fear probably overcomes me that I felt I could not drive. She encouraged me practice on driving.

Followed the physical therapy doctor’s advice, early in the morning when not many people were around in the neighborhood area, I asked my husband to sit on a passenger’s seat, and I drove in the neighborhood area. My car is a stick shift manual car. In order to turn on the engine, I needed to step on the crutch pedal fully. I thought I did so, but the engine didn’t turn on. I tried several times and finally I could turn on the engine. I could drive but I am not ready to drive at the public area. Since my back hurts and my movable range is still limited, I had a tough time to turn back when I needed to back up. I still need to ask my husband to take me to the physical therapy clinic. I don’t think I can comfortably drive there by myself.

The box with the prescribed homeopathic remedies from Japan was delivered. Right after I took the remedies, I was filled with the appreciation feeling to my husband and daughter. Also, I was filed with hope and desire to get well soon, so that I can support them by cleaning and cooking for them.

I left the house at 7:45 a.m. for my third physical therapy session. Today the doctor had me to walk inside the building. The first couple of rounds was in a fast pace, and the second couple of rounds was in a slow pace. Just walking is not just walking for me with this injury. It was very tough. After i came back home, I needed to take a nap for a couple of hours.

Right after my husband parked the car at our driveway, I felt strong urge with tummy ache that I needed to go to the bathroom. If I were in a normal condition, I would have run to the bathroom. But I could not in this condition. I walked as fast as I could to the bathroom. I had a great amount of watery diarrhea. I needed to let it go many times.

Same as last week, my husband and daughter went to the grocery store in the early morning. I stayed behind and cooked breakfast for them. I feel things are going better and I am feeling more positive than before day by day. I still shed tears for the intense pain every day, but the pain has been less and less day by day. My husband repeats saying that he is happy to see me walking around. He says that words with tears in his eyes. I am the same way, filled with tears in my eyes. I am happy to walk around even though I use a stool as my walker and I still cannot stand up or walk by myself.

Same as yesterday, I allowed myself to eat my favorite Hershey almond chocolate and I had a smooth bowel movement.

Even though I take the strong pain reliever medication, I woke up at 1 a.m. from the intense pain and could not get back to sleep until after 5 a.m.

At yesterday’s physical therapy session, the doctor suggested me to resume sitting down on a chair normally but limits up to 20 minutes on each time.

My pain is mainly on my lower back and the nerve pain on the right foot. It is as if somebody stubs my foot with a needle or a sharp knife.

I could sleep much better than before. I woke up comfortably.

I went to the second physical therapy at 1:30 p.m. The doctor repeated the same procedure as the first physical therapy session by pressing my spine one by one by her fingers, had me press up my upper body with laying down on my belly, and pulling my both legs gently.

Since the primary care doctor’s visit, where my hemoglobin A1C was 10.4, my doctor ordered me not to eat any sweets. Since then, I haven’t eaten my favorite Hershey’s almond chocolate. My husband told me sometimes it is good to eat my favorite food because the body already is used to the food and it actually makes my emotion and body relaxed. So, I decided to have some of my favorite food. My husband was right. After I ate some pieces of the Hershey’s almond chocolate, I had a healthy bowel movement with the normal size and hardness. And it was not only once. Three times.