I woke up earlier than usual and prepared for my eye exam appointment. I wanted to have a better eye vision, so I didn’t wear my eye glasses at all this morning. My husband gave me a ride to the eye doctor’s office. After he dropped me off at the office, he went back home. After I saw my husband off, I walked to the office entrance and found out it was still closed. The notice says the office hour is 9 am to 5 pm. It was still 8:40 a.m. I needed to wait in front of the door for 20 minutes. It was cold outside.

At nine the office worker came and opened the entrance door. By then, there were 5 more patients waiting at the door. Everybody was obviously irritated for having waited for a while outside. The last person who arrived at the office stepped in at the receptionist counter. The other people knew I was the first person arrived, so they offered me to go next.

When I mentioned my name, the receptionist gave me a shocking news. She said their office is out-of-network from my insurance company. She apologized me on behalf of her coworker that they were supposed to inform the fact when somebody makes an appointment. I was shocked but for some reasons, I didn’t get irritated. I told the receptionist that it was not her fault. I canceled the appointment.

When I came back home, I noticed the condition of my inner peace. I was happy to know that I could stay being calm. I used to have a short temper and I would have gotten irritated and mad at them. I think it was due to my health condition. When my physical health was not good, I was easy to lose temper. Now I was okay, and that means I am doing fine in my physical health.

Today’s dream: I was with my family on our home site in Navajoland. We were building our house. We had many friends who volunteered to help us. We had fun in the process of creating something together.

When I woke up, I thought of my late dad-in-law. We always had much fun with him in creating something. If he was still here with us, this would have happen. This dream reminded me what I really hope. I need friends whom I can fully trust and have fun in creating something new together.

Today’s dream: I was somewhere in Japan. I was with a famous comedian in the house. The comedian and I were close friends living together in the house. The house was located close to beach and we can see the beach through the huge glass windows facing to the beach. We both saw a high tunami formed and coming to the beach but for some reasons we both knew we would be okay. The tunami didn’t hit our house. Then we went out to our yard. We had a small white puppy happily running around in the yard. We had a vegetable garden. We saw lots of fresh vegetables such as cucumbers, bell peppers, and tomatoes. We happily picked some up and went back to the kitchen to start cooking. Then I woke up.

I felt this dream showed the current situation. It may appear scary, but in fact, there is nothing to fear.

I did the guided meditation. My guide spirit gave me a candy. His message was like this.

My guide spirits are aware that I have been controlling what I eat. I have been avoiding eating candies to keep my good health. But they want to tell me that I don’t need to completely control what I eat. They told me I can eat candies from time to time. They told me the life exists for me to experience. The life exists for me to enjoy. They know that I know enough on how to get back to the good eating habit, so they don’t worry if I eat some candies when I want.

They want me to know everything will go well. Don’t worry anything too much. A candy is used as a metaphor. A candy represents any kinds of sweetness and fun things in life. They want me to enjoy sweetness in life.

After the incident from the insurance agent, I found two new insurance agents. I requested a quotation to them on last Saturday. Today in Monday morning two of them set up an introduction meeting with me. Both agents were female and they are probably around my age, probably slightly younger than me. One was the business owner and the other was the worker from a big company.

As of today, I had a good impression for both of them. I hope I will find the best agent for me while the next steps with them.

While I did the guided meditation, the memory of my ex-boyfriend came back to me. I really appreciate him for everything. Without him, I would not be here. I would not have my family with me at this moment.

If I could see him again, first thing I want to tell him is a huge appreciation. I want to tell him about my adventurous life after I broke up with him. I went to Mexico alone and made many new friends there. With them I explored many places. I started visiting Navajoland alone. On the way I ended up arriving at Sedona. I was not planning to go there, but found myself driving on I-17 South to Sedona. There, at the Youth Hostel, I met many nice people. I went to Navajoland with one of the new friends. I was provided an interpretation job at Lakota tour. On the way back from my third tour, I stopped by at Arizona to spend time with my boyfriend. On the trip, he proposed me for a marriage. Next spring he came to Japan to marry me. Next winter, I moved to America. Next year our daughter was born. Then, here I am with my husband and daughter.

I appreciate all the people and all the events to have created the current me. Without any of them, I would not be here. But all in all, my ex-boyfriend was the trigger for my life journey. Thus, I want to send my sincere appreciation to him. I hope you are having a good life with your loved ones right now.  

Recently my husband and daughter have been enjoying watching old movies together. They finished watching Matrix series including the newest one. Now they started watching Load of the Rings series. This movie is linked with my late friend Michiyo. I remember how excited she was after she watched this movie. She was so excited to see the beautiful scenery during the movie. Maybe she is now in the beautiful area in the spirit world right now.

As for me, while my family is enjoying American movies, I am enjoying watching Homeopathy lectures. I love studying and learning.

I had a peaceful dream. My late dad-in-law and my husband were dealing with personal items of my husband’s cousin who recently passed away. I was there as an observer. I saw my husband cousin standing there just like me as an observer. There was no conversation between us, but we were all in a calm state.

When I woke up, I thought of the cousin. He was smiling in a peaceful state. Maybe he wanted me to tell my husband that he is in a safe place with his spiritual family.

We had a first consultation appointment with an orthodontist for my daughter. This appointment was originally set on last August. But we needed to reschedule due to my dad-in-law’s sudden death in the month. After his death, since we had been overwhelmed and occupied mentally, we didn’t feel like doing anything.

So, we finally made the first consolation appointment happen this morning.  

I wanted to find a nice and kind orthodontist for my daughter. My biggest concern is not to scare my daughter. I don’t want the orthodontist to say any negative words to my daughter. The orthodontist was not a chatty person, but he was not rude or scary at all neither. His assistant was friendly and informative. The assistant woman told us that my daughter would not need to extract any teeth. They would not use any shots or numb her gum. Every procedure will be done openly to us and they will explain everything before any procedures.

They offered my daughter to start today right away by putting the braces. I thought it was a good idea to start braces right away, but my daughter refused it. We made an appointment in two weeks. We are so excited to her straightened teeth in two years from now on.

Since last year, starting from October, I have been attending 8 seminars regarding insurance presented by Japanese insurance agency. After the seminar, I have been discussing with one agent about whole life insurance plan. I finally selected one plan and finished application form. I asked the agent to show me before she actually submit the application form. She promised she would. But she didn’t keep her promise and went ahead to submit it without my final approval.

I got shocked when I received the confirmation email directly sent from the insurance company. When I opened the file, I found errors from the very first column; the name. When I proceeded to check her input, I found lots of more mistakes. By the time I finished checking to the end of the application form, I found myself shaking from irritation toward the agent. I sent an email to the agent with the list of errors before I went to bed.

This morning I found an email from the agent sent late at night after I went to sleep last night. The email contained full of excuses. She did admit some errors as her small mistakes, but she continued it would be corrected easily. She didn’t admit the other errors. She insisted it was the system error of the insurance company, not her fault.

I contacted her supervisor; the store director and noticed him what happened. He mentioned he doesn’t have anybody else who has a license for my state. I was disappointed that I needed to give up on this life insurance plan because of the agent’s mistake. I need to start over again to find an insurance agent.