In the morning I watched some training videos of homeopathy and insurance agency. In the afternoon my daughter and I prepared some stuff for the trip of tomorrow. My daughter prepared a birthday gift and a card to give to her cousin. We are excited about our short trip to visit my husband’s cousin tomorrow in Phoenix.  

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As I was not satisfied on how the counseling ended without a remedy prescription, I contacted with the homeopath and asked for a prescription. It was just a misunderstanding between us and she thought I didn’t need the prescription. She issued the prescription to me. Now, I cannot purchase the LM potency remedies from Japanese stores, I might be able to purchase them somewhere in the US. I searched the Internet stores and found some sellers.

I ordered some LM potency homeopathy remedies from the online store on July 10^th. Today my ordered items arrived. It took them two weeks, but I would give them a high review considering the fact to be sent from India.

The homeopathy teacher recommends to take a sugar ball remedies for acute symptom and to take LM potency remedies for chronical symptom.

I started taking them from today. The recommended duration to intake the same remedy prescription is one month. Depending on how I feel, I will decide the duration of the intake. I hope it will work well for me.

In the evening at 6 p.m., I had a counseling with a professional homeopath.

I chose this homeopath because I have seen her lecture three to four times so far. I like her way of talk. She speaks thing clearly without hesitation.

The counselling started on schedule and continued for 1.5 hour. The time went by quickly. At one point I shed lots of tears. When I was talking about the experience of being picked, the old memory came back to me. I was sad not because of being picked. I was sad because my mom was not there for me. Every day when I came back from school, my mom was not at home. She went to my classmate’s home. The classmate was not my friend. She was abandoned by her parents and living with her grandparents. My mom felt sorry for the girl and went to her house every day. I didn’t understand the reason why my mom took good care of the girl. She was not her daughter. I was. Whenever I needed my mom to comfort and encourage me, my mom was not there for me. I was sad and mad at my mom.

At the ending of the counselling, the homeopathy didn’t give me a prescription of homeopathy remedies. We both knew they are not allowed to send any liquid from Japan to America so the homeopathy store cannot send me any liquid types of remedies. I expected and asked the homeopathy to advise me about any sugar ball types of remedies. I asked her for the advice but she decided not to issue a prescription.

I was disappointed with her decision. Even though the counselling itself was great, I felt like this counselling was not ended properly.

It was the Federal holiday to honor the independence day of July 4^th. My husband went to work normally. The sad thing is his company does not pay the extra pay for working on the Federal holiday. He still likes his company and is tolerant with it. After he came back he went to the local park where the local community offered a party open for the public. We re-united with the familiar friends there. We had a good time to catch up with each other. Same old, nothing new, except for our children. Every year we are amazed how tall they get.

Last night I woke up in the middle of night. I was hitting the team leader and yelling at her in the dream. I woke up around 2 a.m. I tried to get back to sleep, but I could not. Even though it happened before, even though she cannot hurt me anymore, I was still full of anger toward her. The anger is rooted from the disappointments that she does not agree with me.

I took some homeopathy remedies to deal with the anger and disappointments. Within some minutes, I started calming down. I thought it is okay that people don’t agree with me. We came to this Earth to experience the differences in any way. The important lesson is how I can deal with the different people. How I can keep being myself no matter what. Then I finally fell asleep.  

Today I watched one of the videos that the Japanese homeopathy school shares. It was a graduation ceremony of their professional homeopath course. It is a four-year course and the students are required to have a 100-acutual cases to graduate. It means they have to have a counselling 100 times. I didn’t apply for the professional course because of this requirements. The graduation ceremony was emotional that both instructors and students were shedding tears. Even though I don’t know any of the graduated students, I would like to send the best wishes to them because I know they have devoted their best efforts to graduate and receive the license.

There were five instructors and they had a short speech to the graduated students. One of the instructor shared his thoughts and it touched my soul.

He said “凡人でいることに徹したい.” It can be translated “he tries to be an ordinal person.” It resonated with me because I try to be a great person. I want to be somebody whom people admire and respect. But when I heard him saying this, I felt like this is a message to me saying that I don’t need anybody’s praises or compliments. I can be my great cheerleader who keeps on telling myself I am doing great but I don’t need any other people to keep telling me that.

In the morning I went to the grocery store. After shopping was done and I was about to walk to the exit, I gasped with surprise. In front of me one man passed by, and the man looked alike with my boyfriend who took me to the Navajoland in 1998. It was our first visit to Navajoland and there, I met my late dad-in-law.

When I came back home, I mentioned it to my husband. He said he would not be surprised if the man was actually him. In this world there are many miraculous things happen.

It was a great reminder for me that how happy environment I am at this moment. Without his support, I would not be here with my family. I appreciate his support. And I hope he is enjoying his current life with his loved ones.  

I cannot believe it is already in July, the beginning of the latter half of the year 2022. I feel I recently started fully enjoying my life.

At night I had a field training from the team leader. I went through some uncomfortable experiences from her for the last couple of weeks. I talked to her from my heart about my honest feeling. I did my best to talk to her calmly and objectively, but it turned her fighting mode on. She continued arguing with lots of excuses in her furious mode. I felt like I was talking to a reptile that does not have human emotions. After we ended the training session, I was exhausted.

I calmed myself and did a guided meditation. I had lots of useful advice and messages from my family spirits. I realized that these types of fights and arguments are happening everywhere. It does not happen only to me. The team leader and I might share something in common, but we are very different in our way of thinking. I am satisfied with what I have at this moment. I am not a material person. I don’t need to have any luxurious items or to eat out at a luxurious restaurant to make me happy. I don’t live in a small town where the living costs are high. On the other hand, she likes a luxurious life. She is a material person who needs lots of items to make her happy. She lives in a big city where the living cost including the housing is high. She will never be satisfied with. She needs more and more, even though she already makes lots of money. Maybe she sees everybody as a $$$ mark to make her profit.

I thought I understand people are different, but I guess I don’t fully understand yet. If I fully understand there are people who have completely different way of thinking from me, dealing with those people should not bother me at all. In reality, I was bothered by the team leader a lot.

My family spirits told me that first, I can start to fully understand the differences. Second, I should allow and accept the differences. My family spirits showed me how. If I can see things from the team leader’s point of view, using my imagination, I might be able to see why she is so obsessed with money. She recently got divorced and became a single mother of three children. She might be overwhelmed by the thoughts that she has to make a lots of money to raise her children and to keep living in a luxurious house in a big city. I have to admit that it is still hard for me to allow and accept the differences. But I have to admit them in order to make peace with them.   

The other day I listened to the lecture provided by the instructor at the Homeopathy school. He shared his private marriage life experience. In this past February, he got Omicron variant. He had a high fever and coughs. 

My family spirits asked me to focus on my preferable reality.

I thought about my preferable reality. I want to have a peaceful environment. I don’t want to have a strained relationship with the team leader. Even though I don’t totally agree with her way of thinking and she doesn’t agree with my way of thinking, I want to respect each other’s different way of thinking and admit and accept. I want to keep learning from each other and respecting each other.

I keep hearing the voices from my family spirits. Everything is going well. Everything is good.

Always remember that the outer environment exists for me as a mirror. When I smile, the outer person smiles. When I am happy and positive, the outer person reflects my happiness and positivizes. When I completely believe everything goes well, the outer environment turns out good as a reflection. I am creating the outer world. I am fine. I am happy. I appreciate everything and everybody to reflect my emotional status. I choose to be happy. I choose to be positive. I choose to have the helpful relationship and positive environment. Everything starts from my thought. So, I pay attention to my thoughts.

I was visiting my late dad-in-law in my dream. He was happy and welcomed me with his big smile and hug, which he always did to us every time when we visited him while he was alive. He had two log houses. He said he built them by himself. He said it was easy for him. He just needed to have an image of what he wants and the next moment it is right there for him. He had many visitors who wanted to learn from him. The visitors were all young people. They all call my late dad-in-law as Dad. When they saw me, they automatically called me as their sister. We were all belong to one family. My dad-in-law was busy teaching and sharing everything he knows. He seemed to be very happy at his current place. I am happy to see him again and know him being busy and happy.

For the last could of days, I had been stressed out about the team leader and I suffered from having a nightmare. I am glad today I finally slept well and had a good time with my late dad-in-law.

I found a good size of a Japanese cucumber in our backyard garden. It was the first harvest in this season. I thanked the plant and brought back the cucumber.

I cut off the both ends, and with using the cut ends, I rubbed the cut part of the cucumber together to get rid of bitterness.

I thought I did preparation of a cucumber well, and I tasted it. OMG, it was still bitter. I put it in my Nukazuke container and wait for a couple of days.