I found one American bank that they offer a foreign currency account. I called the bank and asked several questions. The operator was a man and he listened carefully to me and answered all my questions. So I opened their foreign currency account. The information he shared with me was like this.

In order to open a foreign currency account, a customer has 2 options. To transfer the fund of $2,500 USD immediately or to receive a fund through the international wire transfer. I chose the latter option. They don’t charge the wiring incoming fee. They charge the monthly maintenance fee that is 0.25% monthly, which accumulates 3% annually. The monthly fee is automatically deducted by the bank at the beginning of each month. When a customer receive JPY to the foreign currency account, it stays as the foreign currency. The monthly fee is deducted as the foreign currency. When a customer transfer the foreign currency to USD, the exchange rate is less than 1% and the wire transfer fee is $25. I thought they are good conditions.

In the evening I talked with my dad. I explained about my new foreign currency account and the benefits. But my dad was reluctant with using a brand new bank. He asked me to use the previous bank because the money was sent without any issues. I do understand what he means. He doesn’t want to deal with any possible trouble with a new bank. So I agreed with him to use the previous bank. All in all I appreciate my dad to still think of me and his kindness.

In my dream one woman showed up and kept on telling me Maria. She repeated the name of “Maria” so many times. Then I woke up.

I know what this dream means. It was a message from my late mom.

Last night during the meditation, I was thinking about my mom. She acted her role as a mean person to me while she was alive, but she is actually a kind soul just like Maria. She was not a Christian while she was alive, but I know she uses the name of Maria as a representative of a person who helps somebody with her unconditional love.

I have to fully admit my mom was a savoir who supported me in strengthen me. My life would have been easy if my mom was nice and kind to me. But she was not. Now she is back to the spirit world and keeps telling me that she had loved me from her heart. She doesn’t remember some of the mean words that she threw at me. Her being mean to me appeared a disaster for me while I was young, but I gradually start understanding that all the mean people are actually a blessing to be provided to me so that I can realize my bad aspects that I need to work on.

Tonight I had an argument with my team leader. I don’t agree with her way of thinking about certain things and I thought she is a hard headed and stubborn person. But maybe, she is the same way as my mom. She came into my life as a gift from my family spirits. She irritates me a lot. And I have to admit maybe, I have the similar personality as her. She exists for me to show her stubbornness as a mirror. I don’t want to admit, but maybe she is. So, I guess I have to appreciate her on everything that she irritated me and annoyed me.

I am in the process of learning Inner child course. My family spirits are happily providing me everything I need to heal my inner child. Once I fully admit that her bad aspects are just a mirror of my bad aspects and possibly my emotional scars, I will be in the next step, which is to work on the parts and heal. Then, she will never bother me again. In other words, I won’t be irritated or annoyed by her anymore even if the exact same thing happens to me.  

Recently I talked with my dad every day for 3-4 days straight. He sounded happy to hear from me every day.

I invested lots of my time to find the information on how I can receive Japanese yen without exchange to USD from my dad. As one of the processes of researching, I posted my inquiry on Facebook. Some people kindly shared their personal experiences with me. They still have their Japanese bank accounts even after they moved out to a foreign country. They told me their bank knows about that and still allows them to keep their account as active. With their advice, I called the Japanese bank that I used to have the bank account with them to check if my account is still available or not. The bank teller confirmed that the account is temporary stopped and that I need to be the bank in person and show the ID to reactivate it. I should have kept my account as active but at this moment I cannot do anything to activate.

Today’s message from the mediation was like this.

It was a reminder of the logic of an experiment and an observer. An experimental object has a neutral energy and absorbs the energy from an observer. The result from the experiment is always influenced by an observer. Same logic can be applied to anything in the daily life. When you talk to somebody, the person reflects what you expect to the person. if you observes the person in a positive and preferable way, the person will react according to your expectation. Remember this logic and pay attention to how you feel about other people. Other people exists for you as a mirror. If you treat them kindly and nicely with a beautiful smile, they are a mirror to reflect you, so that they will react what you are showing to them.

It is tough to fully admit that everything is a mirror from inside to outside, especially when we encounter a hard headed person. It is really tough. But everything happens for reasons. I have to admit that I have similarities with the person.

This year we had a monsoon started much earlier than usual. Our day started with grey sky of lots of dark rain clouds which is unusual in our area. Around noon the clouds cleared up. My husband and I went for a walk under the strong sun. When I came back from the walk, all of a sudden I suffered from the sharp pain in my head that I needed to lay down in bed. I don’t exact reason of my getting sick. It could be from the strong sun for the daytime walk, the low air pressure of monsoon, or the exhaustion of releasing lots of cleansing tears for the past three days. Maybe all the three could be the reason. Anyway I had a good relaxing sleep. At night around 7 p.m., after my long nap, I felt energized and regained energy back.

My dad called me in the evening. He said he would like to send me some money for this years’ gift money. I thanked him but asked him to wait until autumn. The current exchange rate is not great to receive JPY to USD. The exchange rate of last year around this time was 109 JPY for 1 USD while the current rate is 137 JPY for 1 USD. I honestly don’t feel like visiting Japan at this moment. It seems to be still hectic to travel abroad. I want to wait until next year or the following next year when everything calms down.

I continued working to answer the questionnaire for the homeopathy counselling. I shed lots of tears yesterday but I still have lots of more to come out. Even though it was a tough task for me to remember what happened to me in my childhood, I found it beneficial to analyze every single event because they are all connected to create the current me.

I decided to have a counselling with a professional homeopath. I feel it is the right time for me to work on completely reverse my diabetes.

I contacted one homeopath. I had watched her lectures couple of times. I feel she is the right one for me.

I contacted her and she sent me three documents: the instruction of the counselling, the signed agreements, and the questionnaire. I signed the agreement and submitted it to the homeopath. Then I took a look of the questionnaire. It contains lots of personal questions about my life. I thought the need to take some homeopathy remedies. There were 2 remedies that were shining to me. Hyoscyamus niger and Mercurius solubilis.

Then these remedies guided me to read through the old emails from my mom. So I followed the guidance. I started reading the oldest one that was sent from my mom in 2008 that was right after I moved to America. After I read all of my mom’s email, I fully realized how much she loved me but she was not good at expressing her love to me. While I was reading her email one by one, all the memories vividly came back to me. I started shedding tears quietly at first. Gradually, the sadness overwhelmed me and I could not hold my crying voice. I could not stop crying out loud. I just let my tears out. My daughter came to check on me. She quietly and gently hugged me. Then we went to the backyard. We sat down on the chair and enjoyed getting the gentle sun light. My daughter quietly listened to me talking about my late mom with rubbing my back gently. It was very nice cleansing. I thought I already got over the traumatic feeling about my mom, but it was still in me. My both eyes are swollen right now, but it is okay. I needed to let my leftover feeling out for healing.

In the morning I experienced uncomfortable feeling from the workplace. I cannot write down in details but the important thing was the event made me feel uncomfortable. As a student of Inner Child therapist course, I took this as a blessing because this event made me analyze the core reason deep inside of me to be irritated.

I meditated and analyzed why I got irritated by this event. Soon one of my experiences in my junior high school days came back to me. In the swimming club, at first I belonged to a bullying group. My friends would choose one club member at a time and called her out and bullied her. My friends were evil enough that they got rid of their stress out of our gentle club member. One day I told my friends to stop this bad habit. Then next day I became their target to bully. Luckily there were some other club members who knew me well and supported me.

This was my uncomfortable experience that once you become a hero who says the right thing, you will get attacked and become a target to be bullied. The old traditional way of a majority overwhelms a minority. However, the majority is not always right. Sometimes the minority, even only one person, can be the right one. The lesson is we should not always follow the majority. I always belong to a minority group. Sometimes I feel lonely and doubt my belief. But I need to keep in my mind that minority can win over majority. If I keep claiming the right      

My husband passed the exam that was required for his current job. We all were happy for his success and got relieved. We celebrated with a gold bottle of Champagne. I don’t remember when the last time I drank Champagne was. Maybe it was more than 20 years ago.

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Our 3 electric outlets are out of order again. It happened at the beginning of this January. On the middle of January, we asked the realtor to send somebody to fix it. One old man finally showed up to fix it at the beginning of March. It took him 1.5 months to fix it. He fixed it, but within a couple of days, the 3 outlets went back to out-of-order. We didn’t notify the realtor right away because the old man was super glumly and rude. We didn’t want to deal with the same guy again. The 3 outlets of out-of-order are located in the kitchen. Without them working, we can continue our life but it is inconvenient. We decided to notify the realtor about our current situation. At first I was writing a text message, but I felt I should call her instead of sending a text. I needed to take my courage to call her. I am glad that I called her so that I could know her situation. I tend to text to somebody rather than call and talk directly, but I think I should change this habit. Talking in-person is definitely better than communicating with texts.