It was another super-hot day due to the heat wave. I had dull headache in the afternoon, but I could survive somehow from staying in bed and suffering from pain.

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My husband is helping my in-laws. In the afternoon my dad-in-law passed out. Luckily my mom-in-law and my husband were right there for my dad-in-law. They supported him so that he didn’t fall down on the floor. My dad-in-law has to have oxygen from the oxygen tank. My husband noticed the tank was almost empty and that was why my dad-in-law almost passed out. My in-laws appreciate my husband’s support. I know how they feel. I just experienced myself dealing with my late mom. It was very tough experience for me to see my mom being sick. I keep supporting them through my prayers and by encouraging them.

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At 8:30 p.m. in the night my daughter and I attended Sunday Service. There were 21 attendees. One of the medium’s inspirational speech resonated with me. She conveyed the message like this.

Please don’t pay too much attention to others to judge yourself. Rather, please pay attention to your inner voice and listen to your intuition. You can ask others for their advice and opinion but you always have to make the final decision yourself. Once Covid-19 pandemic calms down, we will enter to a new vibrational realm, and it is especially important for you to create your own reality.

I attended the Life Purpose workshop at 10 p.m. There were 13 attendees.

We started off from the instructor’s guided meditation. We were guided to climb up the stairs. The stars had some landings to stop.

At the first landing, I was attracted to the right door. When I entered, I was in the Marina Del Ray beach where I often spent time in my late 20s. I enjoyed Rollerblading and meeting new people at the beach. There, I learned good aspects of America and Americans. During that time, I was mentally devastating from stressful work and divorce. The fun time at the beach gave me strength to live. It made me feel that I could still keep living my life.

At the second landing, I was attracted to the left door. Interestingly it was again the beach. Not the same one though. It was my local beach where I used to go in my younger days almost every day. There, I saw myself in my younger days running around on the beach and swimming with my friends in the ocean. I loved to go to the beach because the beach made me feel that I could go to foreign countries. I vaguely knew I would go to foreign countries in my future.

The instructor told us to tell some messages from our adult self to our child self. I send messages like this.

“Dear my child self. You are doing very well. Whatever you feel and know in your heart is all correct. No matter what others especially my mom says, believe in what you believe. My adult self can guarantee everything about what you felt and knew was right. Enjoy every moment while you can. And know that everything will turn out well in the future.”  

At the third landing, it was the room of my subconscious. Here, I didn’t do anything. I just received the shower of healing light energy to completely heal all the broken parts.

At the fourth landing, I saw my past life self. I was standing in the meadow on the red dirt. It was the sunset. The sky was beautiful covered with pink light. I was born as a female Native American. I served to holy people and nature spirits to convey messages to my fellow humans. My main job was to ask for rain. I asked my past life self what is my life purpose on this life. She told me my life missions are to convey messages from spirits through writing and speaking through blogs, videos, and books.

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The instructor proceeded to the next session. She played 6 different types of music and let us feel if we feel nostalgic feeling to any of the music.

The first music was Japanese music with drum sound. It was a mix of feeling. It was like I was listening to the music of my past life even though I was born and grew up in Japan. Japan has become one of my memories. I live in America and now America has become my hometown. I felt little bit sad about the fact, and simultaneously I feel good about my securely rooting in the land of America.

The second music was Om Mantra of India. I felt neutral. I felt comfortable listening to it, but no specific emotion attached to it.

The third music was Gregorian and Christian music. I felt uncomfortable and all the bad memories rushed into me. I didn’t like this music and the memories attached to this kind of music.

The fourth music was Koran of Islam. Same as Om Mantra of India. I felt neutral. I enjoyed listening to it, but no specific emotion attached to it.

The fifth music was Buddhism music. I enjoyed listening to the music and liked the memories attached to the music.

The sixth music was Argentina dance music. I enjoyed listening to the music very much and liked the memories attached to the music.

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From here we did four practices with a reading partner assigned by the instructor.

The first reading practice was to read each other’s past life. My reading partner read my past life like this.

It was before French Revolution. I was a young woman born to a rich noble family in France. I had long and curly blond hair, wearing a white lace dress. She felt I could enjoy any moments even during a boring tea party. I am gifted to enjoy every moment in any circusstances. Her reading resonated with me.

I felt one of her past lives as a Japanese woman born in a southern ocean area. She served as a Miko. Also I felt her another past life as a female Native tribe in central Africa in the ancient times. She said they resonated with her.

The second reading practice was to read the guide spirit. My reading partner read my guide spirit like this.

My guide spirit appeared in a young female figure. She had dark brown, long hair. Her body was built up with good muscle. She was a dancer. She loves dancing and is good at expressing through dancing. She is cheerful and positive, and never get depressed. This reading resonated with me very much. I like dancing very much and I am positive thinking. The message from my guide spirit to me was to go ahead and do it without thinking and to feel with my intuition. She also mentioned to prepare my tools. She felt the tools were the metaphor for my mental health and readiness. This message too resonated with me. It actually was the same message that I received from my grandma-in-law in my dream. She advised me to do it without thinking and trust spirits will take good care of us once it happens.  

On my turn, I felt my reading partner’s guide spirit as a female figure. She had lived in the midst of　Sengoku-Era, Japanese civil war era around 1500 AD. Even though she was a woman, she was a well-known war strategist, just like Shokatsu Koumei also known as Zhuge Liang. People got jealous to her and even tried to kill her, but she was always saved by some people who admired her gifts. On this lifetime she hesitates to be in public to avoid being a target to be jealous, but her guide spirit encouraged her to be proud of her gifts and let others to feel jealousy to her. She said that my reading resonated with her and that other people read the same way about her past life. I was glad to hear that.

The third reading practice was to read the life purpose. I felt the life purpose for my reading partner as to express what she sees and feels in writing and pictures. I felt she is gifted in expressing in speaking and writing. I also felt she is gifted in knowing the golden ratio in regards to space between objects.

My reading partner felt my life purpose as raising children and cooking at this moment and later on, to start my own business. Also I will deal with some animals. Her reading resonated with me. I am in the midst of raising my daughter and I love cooking foods for my family. Once I move to Navajoland, I will start my own business. I am planning to have three dogs as our new family members.

The last section of the class was Omikuji. The instructor told us to intuitively decide one number from 1 to 5. I chose number 3. She picked up a certain message from the book Opening Doors Within: 365 Daily Meditations from Findhorn written by Eileen Caddy. The message was like this. I totally love this message.

Please don’t be hard on yourself; rather, always stay inside your inner peace. Please stop trying hard to understand everything; rather, fully trust your family spirits for their support. Whenever you need to know, you are able to know it naturally without any efforts. No matter what happens outside, please stay in your inner peace. When you are in your inner peace and surrounded by peaceful energy, it reflects to outer world and others too. Please always know that you are fully supported and protected and that you don’t need to worry or make efforts. Just keep staying in your inner peace and surround yourself with appreciation and love, and spend every moment with peaceful mind.   

I had suffered from a small incident for these past two weeks, so this message really resonated with me.

Today’s dream: My friend gave me a haircut. It was just a small trimming. I liked my new hairstyle. In the other scene, I was in Hawaii with my family. One of my old friends showed his house for a rent. It was a small cozy house with 4 bedrooms. When we went out to the balcony, a perfect and beautiful rainbow was out. We decided to rent the house. Then I woke up.

All the symbols that I had in my dream showed that I will have some drastic changes in my life, and the changes will be blessings from my family spirits.

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On early afternoon, my dad-in-law was released from hospital. My husband went to see him. I hope they will have a wonderful family time together.

I woke up feeling fine and okay in the morning. I could do my regular routine. I ran on the treadmill, went for a walk with my family, cooked breakfast for my family, did laundry, hung the clothes in the backyard shelf, and had lunch.

From early afternoon, I started feeling sick. I had dull headache but I still could move around. Around 2 p.m., I stared having nausea. I suffered from severe headache and throwing up for a couple of hours. I spent suffering from the pain in bed, and finally fell asleep around 4 p.m.

I don’t know what the cause of my sickness was. My family had the same food as I had and they were totally fine. Maybe I need to detox some type of bad energy from my body. I don’t like being sick so I will be more careful on what I eat and my energy intake.

My mom-in-law updated us about my dad-in-law in the hospital. His heartbeat got better than yesterday so that the hospital moved him from the ICU to the regular patient’s room. If his heart beat will keep stabilize all day today, he will be released from the hospital tomorrow morning.  

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Today’s meditation: I was an artist. I had my paining artwork of two fish smiling upward of a waterfall. My guide spirit appeared in a young female figure. She was wearing a long dress. Its fabric looked really soft and light like baby birds’ feathers. Her energy was something like pure white, beautiful, and solemn. She reminded me I am a water spirit. She encouraged me to stay being pure like water. Water is flexible. Water can be soft, but sometimes can be powerful if needed. She told me to stay being neutral. See things and people from the neutral point of view. Not to have any stereotypes or prejudices. Just observe them as they are.

In the evening I took my daughter to the park to meet her friend and chat for a while. I gave them one hour. They seemed to be happy to have a get-together time.

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We received a phone call from my mom-in-law. My dad-in-law got very sick at home. He had hard time to breath and reached to the point where he almost passed out. My mom-in-law rushed to take him to the ER. My dad-in-law was admitted to the ICU room. The doctor said his health issues deal with his heart and breathing so that it might be a serious issue this time. Once he is released from the hospital, my husband will visit him. His two supervisors are thoughtful and supportive for his taking a leave to see his dad. It is good to have such nice people as his supervisors.

It was my late mom’s birthday. If she was still alive, she would have turned to 81 years old. Happy Birthday mom. I bet you have been having peaceful days in Spirit World.

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Recently my daughter started talking about her flashbacks. She is sure they are the memories from one of her past lives in Paris, France. She clearly saw Pont Neuf and the beautiful pinkish sunset sky at the water area. She started asking me to take her Paris once Covid-19 situation calms down. I think I should take her. I want to support her to get more memories of her past lives back if she needs.

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In the evening I took my daughter to the dental office for her dental cleaning appointment. We were happy that she didn’t have any cavity. She has only two baby teeth left. After these two go, we will have a consultation with an orthodontist.

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My husband has been intensely keeping in touch with his parents. It seems my dad-in-law’s health keeps swinging up and down. My husband’s coworkers keep strongly urging my husband to go see his dad before his health gets really bad. He has been seriously planning for his visit soon. I understand it will be painful to see our own parents getting old and weak. I will support my husband by sending prayers for his safe trip back to Navajoland.

I had a good dream, but I didn’t remember the details when I woke up.

It was super-hot from the early morning. It says the heat wave is coming back to our area again.

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Today’s meditation: it was an interesting guided mediation. My conscious was in a huge tree. I was happily sharing what I have such as branches and leaves with other living creatures. My guide spirit appeared in a white and round figure. He looked like a white version of Totoro; the woods spirit. He gave me some roots as a spiritual gift. He told me with his roots, whenever I move for the near future, I will be able to root to the new land and get used to the energy of the new land. He recommended me to keep having a meditation because it is beneficial for both of my body, mind, and spirit. In the course of our daily life, sometimes we lose balance with these three factors. Doing meditation helps to balance these out and we can regain the good balance within ourselves.

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I started watching the old Japanese drama series. It was on-aired in 1986; 35 years ago. Everything looked very old. I enjoyed watching this drama, but one aspect bothers me. The aspect is their smoking habit in those days that many people smoked a cigarette everywhere in a restaurant and an office, and it showed in many scenes of the drama. I am glad the world has been evolving. One evidence is that the number of non-smokers has exceeded the number of smokers in this era. It is just my personal observation, but I feel smoking a cigarette makes the environment into heavy vibration.  

My dad-in-law was released from hospital. We were happy to know that. His voice sounded strong, he easily got out of breath. He still has to work on the treatment for low oxygen level and blood clot in lungs at home. My family and I keep praying for his complete recover. We hope to go visit them soon.  

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Every year in this time of the season, our rose bushes grow and share lots of roses. Our entrance area gives off nice fragrance from roses. They make me feel rich and abundant. Since their pure energy is powerful, I can easily feel their energy field.

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My new Reiki friend shared her feedback about the refresher course she just took. She said it was a good reminder for non-duality and non-attachment. It sounded like a good teaching.

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Today’s meditation: My guide spirit appeared in a young male figure. He came out from the mountain cabin. He opened the entrance door and welcomed me. He had a nice and friendly smile. He gave me a small wooden box as a gift, but unfortunately I didn’t remember the content. I enjoyed the calm and peaceful moment with my guide spirit.

Today’s dream: I was with my close friends. We were about to leave for our vacation trip and got on a car. Then I woke up.

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It was cloudy and cool temperature in the afternoon. My family and I worked on our backyard. After we worked for a couple of hours, we all got good sweat and our backyard looked very nice. It was relaxing to work on dirt and earth.

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In the evening our local library had a back to school fair. They were to serve free foods including drinks, hotdogs, and popcorn. For the past couple of months, I seldom see people wearing a face mask anymore. They told me they invited lots of guest speakers and there would be lots of people crowded shoulder-to-shoulder in the small library. My family and I decided to avoid going into the crowd. We still want to be cautious as much as we can. Maybe next year we can join the crowded event, if everything is really calmed down. At this moment, I personally don’t think it is totally safe to join into a crowded event without a face mask.