My husband and daughter went for a restaurant to cerebrate my husband’s upcoming birthday. i was happy that they had a good time there. I stay behind the house, because I really don’t feel comfortable of eating out at a restaurant. I enjoyed eating my homemade healthy lunch at home.

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Today’s dream: I was in a swimming pool. There were many other people whom I don’t know in the pool. Somebody told me to show them how I can dive into the pool and how I can swim. So, I went to the diving board and dived. I could dive perfectly and beautifully. Then I swam fast in a beautiful swimming form. People praised my diving and swimming. Then I woke up.

My family and I went to the consultation appointment at the orthodontist office. There we had an uncomfortable experience. I expected to meet the orthodontist himself, but a female worker came to talk to us. She said she could not have the consultation because my daughter still has 2 baby teeth left. It seemed their receptionist was wrong about their rule. When we made an appointment, we told the receptionist about the baby teeth. The receptionist told us they could still have the consultation and give us a rough estimate of the fee and duration based on the examination. The female worker was not nice and never sincerely apologized on behalf of the receptionist’s mistake. I was disappointed for our visit being in vain. We just wasted our time and energy. I didn’t like the experience, but from next time I will be more careful on making an appointment. And of course I will stay away from this orthodontist’s office forever.

Right before I sleep, I always say a nice prayer and express appreciations to my family spirits. There are still lots of things that I can appreciate. I appreciate their constant support that my family and I can stay healthy and happy, and all our belongings are well-protected. I appreciate everything I am provided.

My husband safely came back home from his parent’s house. I know he went thought a tough time with his dad but it should be beneficial for him to spend time together in the tough time. I am glad he came back safely.

He shared a story of their new puppy with us. My in-laws have a puppy. The puppy is just 2 months old. When he came to their house, my mom-in-law had been occupied with taking care of my dad-in-law and didn’t have time to toilet-train the puppy. Now the puppy freely does toilette everywhere in the house. Since the puppy has big, cute, and innocent eyes, nobody can really scold him nor has time to train him. I feel sorry for my mom-in-law to keep cleaning the entire floor of the house, which is extra jobs for her.

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In the evening I talked with my Japanese friend on the phone. It is always great to spend time together with her. I really hope we can see each other in person soon.

It was a nice cool temperature morning. In the afternoon we had thunderstorm with heavy rain, lightening, and thunder. My plants in the backyard seemed to be enjoying the rain. The re-planted bagel is now securely rooted and looks good.

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In the evening I attended the online Reiki sharing at 5 p.m. It was my third attendance in this gathering. There were 29 attendees.

It was always good to see my Reiki teacher and my new friends at the gathering.

As usual we started off from the opening prayer, and proceeded to self-healing and Shuchu-Reiki. We had 11 people to send distance Reiki.

At the Q&A session, somebody asked what the spirituality is. The teacher explained it as 人格 (human quality) 品格 (a person’s dignity or grace). I thought it was a good way to explain. I would also explain as spiritual maturity or spiritual age.

Before the closing prayer, my Reiki teacher shared the zen word 因縁果. I never heard of this word. It is pronounced as In-Nen-Ka. Each Kanji means “Cause” “Condition” “Result” respectively. He said we tend to forget the middle factor of “condition.” When something happens, depending on the condition of a person who goes through the experience. It was a good reminder for me to stay inner peace no matter what or to keep peace regardless of the outer condition or environment.

It is always good to see my Reiki teacher and hear his teaching.

My dad-in-law is getting weak. He likes to walk around the store, but he has not gone to the store for the past days. Today he really wanted to go to the store, there, he could not walk around. He needed to sit down on the bench and wait for the family to walk around doing shopping. He could not hold his tears and started weeping about his ill-health condition. My husband was there with him and had heartbroken. I know exactly how they felt as I went through these experiences from my late mom. I cannot do anything but keep sending love and good prayers for them.

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Today’s dream: It was an interesting dream. My Reiki teacher visited me in my dream and told me to give a birthday gift to somebody whom I don’t know in the real life. He told me the person was my life saver in the past life and showed me the vision. When I was about to be killed in the war scene in the past life, the person appeared and saved my life by using his own body. The person was killed on behalf of me. I asked my Reiki teacher if he can clearly see other people’s past lives. He said now he can because he is well matured in spirit. It makes sense to me. I can feel his spiritual age is well-matured and he stays in his inner-peace in any circumstances. It is true that once a person reaches to the Anshin Ritsumei, Satori, the spiritual gifts are accompanied with the accomplishment.

Today’s dream: I was with my 10 friends with my family. They were cerebrating my birthday. They gave me nice gifts. Then I woke up. My real birthday is March, so I think this dream indicates I will start something new and my family spirits are encouraging for the new start. I still don’t know exactly what I will start at this moment.

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I know my husband and my in-laws are having a tough time about my dad-in-law’s ill-health condition. I will keep praying for them to have a good time together and enjoy the family time fully.

It was another super-hot day due to the heat wave. I had dull headache in the afternoon, but I could survive somehow from staying in bed and suffering from pain.

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My husband is helping my in-laws. In the afternoon my dad-in-law passed out. Luckily my mom-in-law and my husband were right there for my dad-in-law. They supported him so that he didn’t fall down on the floor. My dad-in-law has to have oxygen from the oxygen tank. My husband noticed the tank was almost empty and that was why my dad-in-law almost passed out. My in-laws appreciate my husband’s support. I know how they feel. I just experienced myself dealing with my late mom. It was very tough experience for me to see my mom being sick. I keep supporting them through my prayers and by encouraging them.

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At 8:30 p.m. in the night my daughter and I attended Sunday Service. There were 21 attendees. One of the medium’s inspirational speech resonated with me. She conveyed the message like this.

Please don’t pay too much attention to others to judge yourself. Rather, please pay attention to your inner voice and listen to your intuition. You can ask others for their advice and opinion but you always have to make the final decision yourself. Once Covid-19 pandemic calms down, we will enter to a new vibrational realm, and it is especially important for you to create your own reality.

I attended the Life Purpose workshop at 10 p.m. There were 13 attendees.

We started off from the instructor’s guided meditation. We were guided to climb up the stairs. The stars had some landings to stop.

At the first landing, I was attracted to the right door. When I entered, I was in the Marina Del Ray beach where I often spent time in my late 20s. I enjoyed Rollerblading and meeting new people at the beach. There, I learned good aspects of America and Americans. During that time, I was mentally devastating from stressful work and divorce. The fun time at the beach gave me strength to live. It made me feel that I could still keep living my life.

At the second landing, I was attracted to the left door. Interestingly it was again the beach. Not the same one though. It was my local beach where I used to go in my younger days almost every day. There, I saw myself in my younger days running around on the beach and swimming with my friends in the ocean. I loved to go to the beach because the beach made me feel that I could go to foreign countries. I vaguely knew I would go to foreign countries in my future.

The instructor told us to tell some messages from our adult self to our child self. I send messages like this.

“Dear my child self. You are doing very well. Whatever you feel and know in your heart is all correct. No matter what others especially my mom says, believe in what you believe. My adult self can guarantee everything about what you felt and knew was right. Enjoy every moment while you can. And know that everything will turn out well in the future.”  

At the third landing, it was the room of my subconscious. Here, I didn’t do anything. I just received the shower of healing light energy to completely heal all the broken parts.

At the fourth landing, I saw my past life self. I was standing in the meadow on the red dirt. It was the sunset. The sky was beautiful covered with pink light. I was born as a female Native American. I served to holy people and nature spirits to convey messages to my fellow humans. My main job was to ask for rain. I asked my past life self what is my life purpose on this life. She told me my life missions are to convey messages from spirits through writing and speaking through blogs, videos, and books.

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The instructor proceeded to the next session. She played 6 different types of music and let us feel if we feel nostalgic feeling to any of the music.

The first music was Japanese music with drum sound. It was a mix of feeling. It was like I was listening to the music of my past life even though I was born and grew up in Japan. Japan has become one of my memories. I live in America and now America has become my hometown. I felt little bit sad about the fact, and simultaneously I feel good about my securely rooting in the land of America.

The second music was Om Mantra of India. I felt neutral. I felt comfortable listening to it, but no specific emotion attached to it.

The third music was Gregorian and Christian music. I felt uncomfortable and all the bad memories rushed into me. I didn’t like this music and the memories attached to this kind of music.

The fourth music was Koran of Islam. Same as Om Mantra of India. I felt neutral. I enjoyed listening to it, but no specific emotion attached to it.

The fifth music was Buddhism music. I enjoyed listening to the music and liked the memories attached to the music.

The sixth music was Argentina dance music. I enjoyed listening to the music very much and liked the memories attached to the music.

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From here we did four practices with a reading partner assigned by the instructor.

The first reading practice was to read each other’s past life. My reading partner read my past life like this.

It was before French Revolution. I was a young woman born to a rich noble family in France. I had long and curly blond hair, wearing a white lace dress. She felt I could enjoy any moments even during a boring tea party. I am gifted to enjoy every moment in any circusstances. Her reading resonated with me.

I felt one of her past lives as a Japanese woman born in a southern ocean area. She served as a Miko. Also I felt her another past life as a female Native tribe in central Africa in the ancient times. She said they resonated with her.

The second reading practice was to read the guide spirit. My reading partner read my guide spirit like this.

My guide spirit appeared in a young female figure. She had dark brown, long hair. Her body was built up with good muscle. She was a dancer. She loves dancing and is good at expressing through dancing. She is cheerful and positive, and never get depressed. This reading resonated with me very much. I like dancing very much and I am positive thinking. The message from my guide spirit to me was to go ahead and do it without thinking and to feel with my intuition. She also mentioned to prepare my tools. She felt the tools were the metaphor for my mental health and readiness. This message too resonated with me. It actually was the same message that I received from my grandma-in-law in my dream. She advised me to do it without thinking and trust spirits will take good care of us once it happens.  

On my turn, I felt my reading partner’s guide spirit as a female figure. She had lived in the midst of　Sengoku-Era, Japanese civil war era around 1500 AD. Even though she was a woman, she was a well-known war strategist, just like Shokatsu Koumei also known as Zhuge Liang. People got jealous to her and even tried to kill her, but she was always saved by some people who admired her gifts. On this lifetime she hesitates to be in public to avoid being a target to be jealous, but her guide spirit encouraged her to be proud of her gifts and let others to feel jealousy to her. She said that my reading resonated with her and that other people read the same way about her past life. I was glad to hear that.

The third reading practice was to read the life purpose. I felt the life purpose for my reading partner as to express what she sees and feels in writing and pictures. I felt she is gifted in expressing in speaking and writing. I also felt she is gifted in knowing the golden ratio in regards to space between objects.

My reading partner felt my life purpose as raising children and cooking at this moment and later on, to start my own business. Also I will deal with some animals. Her reading resonated with me. I am in the midst of raising my daughter and I love cooking foods for my family. Once I move to Navajoland, I will start my own business. I am planning to have three dogs as our new family members.

The last section of the class was Omikuji. The instructor told us to intuitively decide one number from 1 to 5. I chose number 3. She picked up a certain message from the book Opening Doors Within: 365 Daily Meditations from Findhorn written by Eileen Caddy. The message was like this. I totally love this message.

Please don’t be hard on yourself; rather, always stay inside your inner peace. Please stop trying hard to understand everything; rather, fully trust your family spirits for their support. Whenever you need to know, you are able to know it naturally without any efforts. No matter what happens outside, please stay in your inner peace. When you are in your inner peace and surrounded by peaceful energy, it reflects to outer world and others too. Please always know that you are fully supported and protected and that you don’t need to worry or make efforts. Just keep staying in your inner peace and surround yourself with appreciation and love, and spend every moment with peaceful mind.   

I had suffered from a small incident for these past two weeks, so this message really resonated with me.

Today’s dream: My friend gave me a haircut. It was just a small trimming. I liked my new hairstyle. In the other scene, I was in Hawaii with my family. One of my old friends showed his house for a rent. It was a small cozy house with 4 bedrooms. When we went out to the balcony, a perfect and beautiful rainbow was out. We decided to rent the house. Then I woke up.

All the symbols that I had in my dream showed that I will have some drastic changes in my life, and the changes will be blessings from my family spirits.

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On early afternoon, my dad-in-law was released from hospital. My husband went to see him. I hope they will have a wonderful family time together.

I woke up feeling fine and okay in the morning. I could do my regular routine. I ran on the treadmill, went for a walk with my family, cooked breakfast for my family, did laundry, hung the clothes in the backyard shelf, and had lunch.

From early afternoon, I started feeling sick. I had dull headache but I still could move around. Around 2 p.m., I stared having nausea. I suffered from severe headache and throwing up for a couple of hours. I spent suffering from the pain in bed, and finally fell asleep around 4 p.m.

I don’t know what the cause of my sickness was. My family had the same food as I had and they were totally fine. Maybe I need to detox some type of bad energy from my body. I don’t like being sick so I will be more careful on what I eat and my energy intake.