I woke up peacefully. I knew my dad was visiting me in my dream. I don’t remember the details, but I can still see the vision of his calm smile vividly in my third eye. Maybe this dream means he is doing fine. He is peaceful in spirit.

I missed yesterday’s class, so I followed up by listening to the recording. There were five students including me. One of the students were the one whom I wanted to talk in person. We attended the same workshop on August 2^nd. When the instructor paired up the students, I was assigned to pair with her. She read my mom’ energy and conveyed the message from her. I clearly remember about it because it was my mom’s birthday. I wanted to see her again and would like to thank her for the message.

The instructor mentioned about telepathy practice. It is one of the practices that she went though at the mediumship class. The students were paired up. One student acted as a spirit and tried to convey one word to their pair who acted as a human. The student who acted as a spirt experienced how stressful when the human could not receive the message correctly. Then she realized how our guide spirits are feeling in communicating to us. I thought this as interesting information.

At the latter half of the class, the instructor had the students to practice reading aura. The first practice was to read each other’s aura color. The second practice was to read the auric information of a picture the instructor showed them. I wish I could have attended this class.

It ended up to be a long day. My day started as normal. I went for a walk with my family and prepared breakfast for my family (I skip breakfast as usual). At 10 a.m., we went to see the local Christmas parade. It was entertaining. The parade line started with four horses with girls who were all nicely decorated with Christmas costume. We had a fun time with our neighbor friends for greeting each other and picking up the candies thrown to the audience on the street.

Then we went to the car dealer to pick up my car. On our way, we stopped by at the puppy store. We had an opportunity to play with a Golden retriever male puppy. He was so adorable.

After we picked up my car from the dealer, we came back home. It was already past 4 p.m.

At 5:30 p.m., I attended the workshop: Om and aura class. The instructor was one of my favorite ones. We started off a fun chatting. Once the class started, my daughter knocked the door. It was weird. My husband and daughter are always supportive for my mediumship classes, so that they never bothered me during the classes. I opened the door and found my daughter was crying.

She told me that her eye vision got some type of black filter and blocked the vision. It happened all of a sudden and the black filter never disappeared.

I started crying too. My dad lost his eye visions from the diabetes complications. He told me it started from seeing the same symptom as my daughter just mentioned.

We decided to take her to the ER. After we made some phone calls, we ended up talking with the emergency nurse advice team. They created a chart for my daughter and recommended to go to the ER within one hour.

It was 7:30 p.m. when we arrived at the ER lobby. We wrote down lots of information in the several pages of documents, waited for a couple of hours until the nurse called us into the emergency room. The doctor could not check the hemoglobin A1C in the ER, but checked the glucose level. It was within the normal range. They also checked the urine sample. With the two tests, the doctor confirmed my daughter is not diabetic. He diagnosed today’s eye vision blocs was caused by migraine with aura. He explained this includes flashing lights, blind spots, and other vision problems. The doctor prescribed four pills to calm her headache; Benadryl 25mg, Ibuprofen 400mg. Compazine 5mg, and Metoclopramide 10mg. 30 minutes after she took these pills, my daughter started feeling better. The doctor released her. We left the ER after 11: 30 p.m. and came back home after midnight.

It was a tiring day. I will search around the best and natural way for my daughter to treat migraine with aura.    

At 20:30 p.m., I attended spiritual retreat workshop. It was a 2-hour workshop. There were nine students attended.

First off, we did the instructor’s guided mediation. It was the spiritual journey to go back to your past. At the first stop, we saw ourselves in our early years like a young elementary school child. I saw myself as the first grader, 6 years old. I had a short bobbed hair. I was wearing a red skirt with suspenders with a T-shirt. I looked like a main character of cartoon Chibi-Maruko-chan. I asked young version-of-me what her dream career was when she grows up. She told me number one of her dream career was a Mother, the second was a teacher for an elementary school, the third was a teacher for camping, and the last was a Manzaishi (a Japanese duo comedian)

We went back to the time when we were in our mom’s tummy. I felt my mom’s feeling. She desperately hoped to have a baby girl. Her first child was born as a boy and my dad’s family took him for one year. They put more values on boys than on girls. My mom thought if I was born as a girl, she could keep me.

Then, we were guided to one of our memorable past lives. I went to the time when I was born as a Lakota girl. In this lifetime, the situation was the same as my current Japanese family. It was their traditional way that they value boys than girls. Since I was born as a girl, nobody seriously listened to my opinions, even though I conveyed lots of valuable messages from holy spirits.

This girl of my past life started talking to me. She went through the uncomfortable experience being born as a girl, but she assured me that this lifetime is different. Also since she has been supporting me, I should feel free to speak up whenever I need to. In her lifetime, she had built a human phobia, but she also assured I should not take over her leftover feeling of human phobia.

Also, she told me in this lifetime, I was provided the super powerful supporters; my husband and daughter. They are the most trustworthy people in this lifetime for me. With their love, she said, I should be fine no matter what. I agree with her. When she mentioned about my husband and daughter, I felt great happiness and love and shed tears on my cheeks.  

After the mediation, we proceeded to the actual practice. The instructor paired up the students. I read my first partner’s past life. I saw her as a Christian nun in Europe in one time. Other time, I saw her as an elderly woman in Europe. I started focusing this lifetime of hers. I felt she was a wife of a rich man in either England or France. They were living in a spacious and luxurious mansion. They hired many house servants. She was not skinny at all; rather, fluffy round body shape. She was generous and open-minded. Those days the owner of servants were not supposed to casually talk to her servants, but she was different. She was friendly to everybody including to the house servants. She would let them sit with her at the table and offer tea and cookie to them. Another life of hers I saw was a young Aboriginal girl. She was around 10-year-old running around with bare foot. She was very skinny, but looked very healthy in her dark skin. I thought it interesting her soul allowed me to see her two lives that were totally opposite. One life was a rich elderly white woman with ample-figured, while the other life was a young skinny dark skinned girl without a house. One life she probably never touched earth, while other life she lived with the earth.  

My first partner read my past life as a nun in Europe. This didn’t resonate with me, but I do feel it might be my mom to send this memory through her. I was told once that my mom and I shared the life together as friends when we served our lives as a nun in Europe. I still have offensive feeling whenever anybody tells me that I had a past life of being a nun in Europe.

Our second reading partner was chosen to a different person. She was a young pretty woman. We were told to see the partner’s past life that they had lived with high spiritual awareness. I read her energy two days ago in the other workshop, so it was easy for me to retreat the memory. One of her past life was a Ten-nyo or a Japanese Miko. She looked like floating in the air, just like an Indian monk. She devoted her life to God and she was not allowed to marry nor have kids. She helped many people by conveying messages from God.

One student read my past life as a Miko. Same as the previous young woman I read, I devoted my life to God to convey spiritual messages. She felt I admire water falls. I told her she read my energy right. I do admire water falls.

Last practice was to read everybody’s energy and notice if any of them shared the life in the same area and time. I felt the instructor to be close to me. I felt she worked as a Miko with me close to ocean. I felt the same nostalgic feeling to the young woman. I felt pretty sure that we had known each other working as a Miko.  I remember one woman as my sister while we were born as an ancient Black tribe. We both served as a shaman. We also shared the life as a Native American. In both lives, we were sisters.

Most people felt the same way as I felt.

The young woman felt the life with me differently. She saw me as an elderly monk and she was a young monk. I was her master monk teaching her about spirituality. We were living in a high elevation mountain area. We saw the village at the foot of the mountain. While she was talking about it, my soul resonated with her very well. It was great to hear that.

I enjoyed her class very much. I am pretty sure all of the student felt the same way as I did.

At 2 a.m., I attended Shakti workshop. It was a 3-hour workshop. There were only four students attended.

The class started with the instructor’s giving each student an initiation. He said he would enter each student’s aura field and greet to their guide spirits. I didn’t receive any messages, but I did feel heat in back of my right ear. Also I felt somebody gently stroking my left head. And I felt hugged by a group of spirits. After the initiation, the instructor asked each student what they experienced. Everybody, except for me, received a short reading session about their guide spirits and messages. I thought to myself, “not again.” The same thing happened again. I felt hurt by being forgotten by the instructor. The sad thing is that I cannot mention the instructor casually about his skipping me. I don’t think anybody else can do.

Then we proceeded to the instructor’s guided meditation. I saw an image of an old woman changing into a shining goddess. She conveyed me the message like this.

We don’t need to stay being Switch-ON mode all the time. Once in a while, we will need some time to rest, being Switch-OFF mode. As a light gift, she gave me a read round ON-OFF button. This switch button came as a reminder of the message, that we do need OFF mode from time to time. That can be applied to an experience of meditation. It is wonderful to receive great messages through the meditation, but we don’t receive such great ones all the times. Once in a while, we don’t receive any messages. It is okay, rather, we sometimes need to experience such a blank state.  

 (Question during the meditation) During the mediation, we experienced the female energy being a support our journey to a spiritual awareness increase. Ask her name if she has.

I received the answer like this.

There are no specific names, but I can call her at my any preferable name. A name does not matter to her at all. Rather, she wants me to feel her energy and recognize her by her energy.

After the meditation, the instructor proceeded to the lecture of Shakti. Shakti is a Sanskrit term that means “power”. It is the divine power that underlies the godhead’s ability to create the world and to display itself. It is believed that all the living creatures are originally female. A revised version of female is male. Most of fish are female. In reproduction season, some fish turn to be male. Male fishes die after spawning.

The instructor introduced us Sri Yantra. We can use this as a mediation tool. Another mediation tool is to star at Sanskrit letter of “a” or “om.” We learned some other mantras too.

We did one practice to read guide spirit. We didn’t have enough time left, so we read only one student’s guide spirit. The instructor and other three students read the male energy, but I read differently. I felt a female energy. I saw an image of Ten’nyo (a heavenly maiden).

At the last practice, the instructor told us to communicate with the guide spirits of the other student and ask what they want to give the student a Christmas gift.

I was assigned as one student whom I share the same class often nowadays. I felt her guide spirit wants to give her a stone ball. It was not a crystal ball, rather, it looked like a ball made by earth. I thought it might represent the planet Earth. She can use this earth ball when giving a healing energy to her clients. It helps her to earth the unnecessary energy ground to the center of Earth; the magnetic field.

The other student read my guide spirit’s energy. She said my guide spirits want to give me a pair of running shoes. She got it right. As I walk a lot every day, I need many pairs of running shoes. She also got the energy of a cooking tool. It looked like a mixing tool. She got it right too. My mixing tool is old so I will need to get a new one.

I enjoyed the class. I have one wish for the instructor though. I get hurt when he skipped me for conveying messages from my guide spirits. I wanted to hear what they looked like to him, and receive the message to me through him. I wish the instructor will treat all the students equally.

Today was my husband’s first work day. Before he left the house, he was nervous.

He came back with a big smile. He met his supervisor and coworkers at his new workplace. He told me they are very, very nice people. He is thankful for being guided to the right people and right job. I am happy for my husband.  

My daughter has been super busy in finishing all the assignments and final tests for her school. The first semester will be end on December 18^th and all the grades will be closed on that day. The school says they don’t accept late submission.

I have been busy checking on her due dates. We worked a lot today.

Today’s dream: I receive cash from a woman whom I never met before. In reality, this kind of situation would never happen, but in dream, I received it as if it was pretty normal. I felt happy for the surprise income and appreciated her. Then I woke up comfortably.

The internet dream interpretation says the dreamer will receive good luck in meeting the right people. The human relationship will be prosperous for the dreamer. I thought of the new friends whom I have been meeting through the Japanese mediumship school.

My husband received the job offer at local military base on November 30^th. The started getting ready to have him at their workplace. My husband has been dealing with inputting information and sign their documents. Tomorrow will be his first work day for the new workplace.

This morning he received a phone call from other job offer. They interviewed him three times and finally they made a final decision to hire him. The office director offered higher salary than the job he just accepted one week ago. It was very hard for him to decline right away.

My husband got confused. Such thing never happened to him before.

I meditated and asked my family spirits for advice. They told me this will be his job and he is the one who will work every day. Also he is the one who work with the other coworkers. And so, I should not involve in this decision. Have my husband decide. His gut feeling will tell him the right one for him.

I conveyed the message. His gut feeling at this moment tells him to go for the local job, even though their offered pay is lower than the other one. I told him I will support him for his decision.

So, he officially declined the new job offer.

My daughter received a belated birthday card from her grandparents. The grandma confused the date of my daughter’s birthday as December 11^th, which is her own birthday.

Regardless of arrived belated, my daughter was happy for her grandparents’ birthday wish.