Yesterday was Halloween day. My friend delivered one gift to our house last night. It looked like a rugby ball made by plastic wrap. She told us it is called a saran wrap ball game. She said she made it by herself.

We never heard of the game, so we looked it up in Youtube. Many families uploaded the game. It seems to be one of the common games for family get together during the holiday season in America.

So today, we played the game. At the end of the game, we gathered up lots of candies. I was the winner of the last wrap. It included three big candy boxes and a 5-dollar cash. I appreciate the friend who thought of us and provided a fun moment. It became one of our great Halloween memories.

My daughter’s dream: A green snake visited her in her dream. The snake approached my daughter at her upper ankle and started drawing something. My daughter often sees me drawing Reiki healing mantra in the air, so she instantly noticed the green snake was drawing Reiki healing mantra on her ankle. Then she woke up. She felt comfortable with this dream.

When I heard about this dream from her, I thought the green snake came as healing energy. Also as she thought, I felt the green snake was teaching my daughter Reiki healing mantra.

I think my daughter had this dream because she concerns about her grandma in the hospital.

My daughter and I took time to send distance Reiki healing energy to my mom-in-law in the hospital. We hope she will get well soon and discharged from the hospital soon.

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My husband came back in the evening. He had visited his hometown alone for 10 nights 11 days since October 21^st. His main purpose for this trip was to finish up our shed’ floor on our Homesite. During his trip, they got a snow storm with low temperature, so that he ended up fixing here and there in grandparents’ trailer house. I am happy for his safe return.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of HemiSync Mediumship Training.

On the first scene, I was in green world. I was surrounded by white clouds.

On the second scene, I moved to yellow/golden world. Yellow and gold came in and out alternatively. It was like getting sun light from time to time. It changed its color depending on the light amount. It sometimes looked like rainbow.

Then on the last scene, I moved to light blue world. The message was like this.

In the physical realm, I worry and concern about lots of things and events. However, in the expanded realm, I knew that everything is under control in natural. Each person and event has its own best timing and best way to go forward. All we need to do is just simply keep open-minded. I felt like I was in a dragon figure, elegantly flying around in the sky. It was a comfortable and relaxing meditation.

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At night at 8:30 p.m., I attended Sunday Service. Tonight’s trance talk was performed by one of the upper level class students. She conveyed the message regarding jealousy. Her message was like this.

When we jealous somebody, we send our energy to the person. By doing so, we waste our precious energy, that prevents us from utilizing our energy fully to ourselves. We all are different and unique. We don’t need to do exactly same things as others. We individually have our own best timing to broom and shine.

Her message resonated with me very well. I like the way she conveyed the message. And I hope I will be able to study with her in the future class.

Today October 30^th was the birthday of their founder of Hemi-sink; Mr. Robert A. Monroe. They celebrated his birthday by providing customers 20% off site wide. I purchased some meditation from Hemi-Sync official page.

Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of HemiSync Journey Through the T-Cells.

My conscious traveled though my body and met my cells. I selected one particular T-cell and greeted to it. I felt it was a shape of star. It was golden sparkling. I felt its soft touch. I felt its positive and optimistic personality. It has stayed with me and worked for my body since I was a baby.

(Question) What the T-cell wants me to do in order to recover my total health?

It wants me to stay positive and optimistic no matter what. Even when I am in the process of some challenges, it wants me not to feel depressed or think too much. It said not to worry about the mistakes in the past because they can be taken care of and healed anytime. As for the future, I will be able to create my preferable future on my own. Therefore, I don’t need to worry about my past or future. All I need to focus is just now.

When I embraced the T-Cell with my love, it looked like so happy. It appreciated me for acknowledging and sending love to it. Even though they work for me with their unconditional love to me, they appreciate my acknowledgement and love.

(When I merged into the T-Cell) I felt so powerful. I actually felt that I can heal all my cells with just my positive thoughts.

(Key word for me) Believe in my strength. I am strong naturally and originally. Nobody can mess with me.

On Tuesday night; October 27th, my mom-in-law got very sick. She had high fever of higher than 104F and other symptoms of Covid-19. My dad-in-law took her to ER at 10 p.m. Judged by her symptoms, the doctor doubted Covid-19 and performed the Covid-19 test for her. The doctor decided to keep her in the hospital for the night and provided some antibiotic treatments for calming the infection reactions down.

On the next day; October 28^th, the Covid-19 test result came back as negative. However, even after several sessions of the antibiotic treatments, her symptoms did not get improved. The doctor took the Covid-19 test again. This time they sent the test sample to the bigger hospital in Albuquerque where they can perform higher accuracy test for Covid-19.

Late this afternoon; October 29^th, the higher accuracy Covid-19 test result came back. It was negative. Now the doctor confirmed her infection symptoms came from the kidney infection, which are very similar to that of Covid-19. She will stay one more night at hospital tonight. The doctor will focus on the right treatments for kidney infection. We hope the treatments will work well for her so that he will get discharged tomorrow.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of visiting Temple of Life created byTeri Uktena

At the entrance, I was greeted by my animal guide. It appeared as a female white wolf. She shared her solemn energy with me.

I explored in the Temple of Life. I was attracted to a water fountain. I sat down in front of the water fountain and enjoyed watching and hearing the sound of gentle water flow. I received enough healing energy.

When my conscious came back to my physical body, I was refreshed.

Today’s dream: I was a backpacker traveler. I traveled with a hitchhiking. A young and nice man gave me a ride. He also gave me a big ziplock bag. He told me it was not an ordinal ziplock bag but a magical bag. He asked me if I had some clothes needed to be washed. I had some. I put the clothes in the magical ziplock bag as he instructed. Amazingly, the ziplock bag automatically started washing my clothes. The warm water and liquid soap were already added. The washing process was done within a couple of minutes. Now it turned to be a drier. The magical ziplock bag was a compact washing machine/drier. I was in awe. The nice man he said he liked my surprised face reaction and smiled. Then, I woke up.

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It was still cold in the morning that we needed to turn on heaters at home. In the daytime after sun was out, the temperature got back to high. I really appreciated the Arizona’s strong sun light and heat. I felt energized.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of visiting Akashic library created byTeri Uktena. I took her online classes four years ago. Today I felt like doing her guided mediation.

At the entrance of the Akashic library, I was greeted by my power animal; a male rabbit. He looked like happy and excited to see me again after these four years’ absence.

At the foyer of the library, I asked my guide spirit to let me have my soul book. I wanted to know my past life where I lost confidence in my spiritual gift.

Soon after I conveyed my request, I saw a vision of myself in one of my past lives. I was a young Lakota girl helping my people through my medicine work. There was one girl who was jealous of me and spread lies about me. I was shocked and started doubting my spiritual gift. When doing so, my vibration was lowered and disturbed that I could not focus on healing the voices of my family spirits. This experience was tough for me, but at least I learned a lot from it. One of the most important lessons that I should not forget was not to doubt the steady relationship with my family spirits.

I saw many similarities between this past life and the current life. I doubted my spiritual gift many times but my family spirits never gave up on me. They kept on showing evidences and proofs about our communication throughout the life. I already have reached to the point where I cannot doubt their existences and supports anymore. I was embraced with their great love. Then, my conscious came back to my physical body.

I truly enjoyed her guided meditation. I should put her mediations into my routine tasks.

Same as yesterday, it was a cold morning. We took out two electric heaters out from the closet and put the fan in the closet. In Navajoland they had a snowstorm since last night. In the morning all their property was covered by snow. My mom-in-law got really sick. Her body temperature was raised higher than 104F. my dad-in-law took her to the hospital, where the doctor decided to keep my mom-in-law in the hospital for one night to make sure if she has not infected to Covid-19. I hope she would get well and be able to come back home soon.

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In the evening I attended my eighth Awareness class. Last time I attended with a new microphone, but the instructor rejected it within 5 minutes. This time I attended with a new webcam. I didn’t receive any feedback about my sound from the instructor, so it might have worked well, I hope.

Today the eight students attended.

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We started the class from the instructor’s original guided meditation. It was a beautiful guided meditation. I liked her meditation very much. The script was the spiritual journey to visit the spiritual healing clinic, receive the healing session, and meet our guide spirit and receive a gift.

At the healing center, I saw a vision of my dad. My anger to my dad was swaying slowly. It was as if a mirage. At a certain point, the vision looked like the picture of The Scream by Edvard Munch. Then the image of my dad, aka my anger to my dad, slowly went down and disappeared. I thought it was the image of healing process.

Then we proceeded to the place where we meet our guide spirits. I could not see my guide spirit clearly. It appeared like a mirage or like a silhouette. My guide spirit gave me a white tambourine. I can use it in two ways. One way is to purify the space, and the other way is to raise my vibration. My instructor commented it might also means to improve my clairaudience ability.

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We did two psychometry practices.

The first practice was to read the energy of a picture in an envelope. The instructor told us it was a picture of one prefecture of Japan.

When I focus on the picture, I saw a diamond shape, sea foods, potatoes, spacious land, snow, and positive thinking people. I thought Hokkaido. Right before the instructor ended the practice, the idea of Okinawa strongly came to me, but I spoke up about Hokkaido.

The right answer was Okinawa. She told me I was right about sea foods and positive thinking people.

The second practice was the same as the first one, but this time the picture was something vehicle. The first image was a bicycle, then it changed to a unicycle. And then, it changed to a bus. From my precious practice experiences I knew I should not count on my first impression. So I decided to discard the bicycle and the unicycle. I focused on the type of bus. I felt it was the red tour second storied bus in England.  The right answer was a ship. I was right about the shape of the ship. It looked like a second storied structure.

As usual at the end of the class, the instructor was nice enough to praise all of us students and told us not to get disappointed with the result. She encouraged us to find something right about our reading all the time, instead of just focusing of right or wrong. I always appreciate this instructor for her sincere encouragements.

This morning was cold. The temperature dropped down to 0C (32F). In Navajoland, it got much colder than our area. They had snowstorm and the lowest temperature dropped to -11C (12.2F).

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Today I watched the TV show of India. They put the explanation of the city names and their culture name Sanskrit words at the bottom of the screen. Those Sanskrit words used to be just mysterious symbols, but today, surprisingly I could read them. I was happy for my progress. This is thanks to my instructor of Mantra class who taught us Sanskrit alphabet thoroughly.

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Now that I started having confident of my linguistics learning ability, I thought I should refresh my memory of Navajo language. When I was early 30s, I used to study Navajo language through some textbooks. I found some online Navajo language classes. I started studying Navajo language from yesterday.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of James Van Praagh. His meditation guided me to my happy moment in my childhood. I visualized the local park where I used to go and play in my childhood. I saw myself being 5 years old. I loved playing baseball and dodgeball with my neighbor male friends. I could run around forever. I loved my new fresh body. I felt comfortable in my new body that I could move all of my body parts as I wished. I was light enough to move around easily.

When I was small, I always thought myself as a boy, even though I was born as a girl. My older brother was born as a boy but I always thought him as my younger sister. I always thought it was my responsibility to protect my older brother. I knew I was strong mentally and physically.

I loved my family; my dad, mom, and older brother, dearly with my pure heart.

Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of Japanese Mediumship School.

My guide spirit showed up in an Aztec warrior figure. He looked like very strong with built-up body. He gave me the same outfit of Aztec warrior. He told me I am going to enter to one of my biggest life events. It is like a battle field for me. It is not an actual battle field, but I will need to have lots of courage and strong will to go through this challenge. In the new life event, I will stand up in a stage before a huge audience. I will speak up the spiritual truth to them. This will be a huge step for me. But I don’t need to worry about it at all, as my family spirits will support me to the fullest. All I need to do is just take courage and step forward, and stand up in front of a huge audience.

(Question) What should I do in order to become a good trance medium?

I received the messages like this.

– Be brave and have courage

– Fully trust my family spirits and leave everything to them

– Have a thick skin for feeling embarrassed

– Keep attending Trance class at Japanese mediumship school. This school offers lots of great opportunities for me to spiritually grow. All the experiences that I had gone through this Trance class were precious. Such rare experiences were feeling stressed out, embarrassed, depressed after compared with other students. I would not have experienced such feelings in a normal daily life. My family spirits are happy for me to learn a lot in this class. They told me at the last moment to keep having an appreciation to this instructor at Japanese mediumship school.   

Today’s dream: I was at the horse racing track with a huge audience. After we watched the heated horse race, I noticed I won my betting. I shouted in glee with holding the betting ticket in my palm. Then I woke up comfortably.

The dream interpretation dictionary says the dreamer will have an unexpected happy surprise news. I am looking forward to it.

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Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation of HemiSync Exploring Other Lives. Before the meditation I asked my family spirits to take me to my past life where I had established and used my spiritual gift.

(First scene) I was wearing a boots’ looking pair of shoes. They were sturdy and well-built boots. I thought they were made for a battling. I was outside, somewhere wilderness in China, sometime in 1200. I was a young male around 25 years old. I was a powerful warrior. My body had good muscles and strong bones. I had a charismatic energy. Even though I was young, I was a leader of a battle group. Whenever I made a battle plan, I would go away from my team. I sat down on the ground alone and meditated. My family spirits always gave me a clear battle plan in order to protect my team and myself.

I was spiritual. I could listen to the messages from winds and weather. Before we entered in to a new area, I would always communicate with the spirit of the new area. They taught me their uniqueness and strength, along with their weakness. With those information, I could wisely choose our camping area to keep us safe.

Even though I was a worrier, I was not interested in eating food very much. I always kept myself a slight hungry, because the slight hunger always made me to be able to talk to spirits. I learned the technique from my experiences on this past lifetime.

(Second scene: the important event) At that time it was common for a man to have plural wives. I married to two women. One wife had our two sons, while the other wife could not have any. Since these two wives were good friends, they both helped one another. They both were a great mom for our sons. The two wives were spiritually matured souls so that they knew they were spiritually closely connected. They never felt jealous to one another. Whenever I needed to go to the battle field and leave my family behind, I did not need to worry about them. I knew they would help and protect one another.

(Third scene; death) I was in the battle field with my team. There were many people around me. There was a one young soldier who felt jealous of me that I had a peaceful family. He admired me but at the same time he hated me. He approached me and quickly stubbed me with his sword, pretending to be an accident. I instantly knew his intention to kill me. It happened so quickly that I could not avoid him.

(Lessons learned from this past life)

(1) We didn’t necessarily need to be biologically connected in order to become a strongly connected family. We could established a peaceful family with two wives.

(2) Building a strong body helps to develop a strong mind. I always took good care of my body and kept good muscles in my body.

(3) I should have put more efforts to people who envied me and felt jealous of me. These people were not fully satisfied in their life. –

That being said, in this current life, I still have a tendency to avoid negative thinking people.

My family spirits stepped forward and send me the messages like this.

It is critical for me to protect myself from negative people as they easily lower my vibration. However, it is also possible for me to stay being at the high vibration while dealing with such negative thinking people. As long as I stay at the high vibration, my family spirits can support me for my supporting negative thinking people.

Now that I remember my daughter’s dream of several days ago. In her dream she was running away from a scary looking crown. She felt scared, but at one point, she decided to stop running away from him. She stopped running and turned to the scary looking crown. She told him she loved him and hugged him. Then the scary looking crown turned to be a cute and friendly looking crown. Then my daughter found out the true reason why the crown was running after my daughter. He simply wanted to give my daughter a nice present and become a friend with her.

I thought this was a nice message dream. Once we stop running away from something we have an aversion, and when we face to it, we might find the nice aspect that we’ve never thought of.   

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At the ending of the meditation, I asked the name of the man. I heard “Shan Yao.” I looked up in the internet dictionary. It means “Wild Yam.” I like this name. In this lifetime, I had spent my whole life in the wilderness anyway and a wild yam has strong roots deep inside of the earth. Among all, a wild yam is a strong plant. Now I acknowledge my life and lessons learned from this past life. I respect Shan Yao for his great wisdom.

Recently I noticed I have gray hair more than before. Judging objectively, it is still not bad at all, but I still wanted to do something.

My body is very sensitive that I cannot use any chemical products such as makeup or hair dye. I purchased a plant based henna hair dye powered that is chemical free.

I mixed the henna powder, olive oil, apple cider vinegar with coffee into a plastic bawl. With my daughter’s help, I applied the cement-looking mixture onto my hair. I wrapped with a plastic wrap like a mummy, and covered my entire head with a plastic bag and tied it. I waited for two hours and rinsed it off.

My first hair dye with henna powder was successful. My hair got slightly darker than before. I am happy for the result. My hair was dyed to natural and healthy looking dark brown color.